1 00:00:06,876 --> 00:00:10,271 Good evening, everyone. I'm Oprah Winfrey. 2 00:00:10,314 --> 00:00:13,535 Welcome to a spectacular night here at 3 00:00:13,578 --> 00:00:16,059 the Griffith Observatory in Los Angeles. 4 00:00:16,103 --> 00:00:20,368 Tonight you have a front-row seat 5 00:00:20,411 --> 00:00:25,677 to a very special one-night- only concert with Adele. 6 00:00:25,721 --> 00:00:29,072 She's singing all the songs I know you want to hear, 7 00:00:29,116 --> 00:00:32,815 and new songs we've all been waiting six years for. 8 00:00:32,858 --> 00:00:34,817 And throughout the night, 9 00:00:34,860 --> 00:00:38,299 you'll see my conversation with Adele was so much fun. 10 00:00:38,342 --> 00:00:42,607 She's as real, as down to earth as we all believe she is. 11 00:00:42,651 --> 00:00:47,612 But right now it is my great delight to introduce 12 00:00:47,656 --> 00:00:53,575 the 15-time Grammy-winning icon, Adele! 13 00:00:59,842 --> 00:01:01,539 ♪ 14 00:01:20,254 --> 00:01:21,733 ♪ Hello ♪ 15 00:01:23,126 --> 00:01:25,998 ♪ It's me ♪ 16 00:01:26,042 --> 00:01:30,133 ♪ I was wondering if after all these years ♪ 17 00:01:30,177 --> 00:01:32,179 ♪ You'd like to meet ♪ 18 00:01:32,222 --> 00:01:34,920 ♪ To go over ♪ 19 00:01:34,964 --> 00:01:37,880 ♪ Everything ♪ 20 00:01:37,923 --> 00:01:41,101 ♪ They say that time's supposed to heal ya ♪ 21 00:01:41,144 --> 00:01:44,887 ♪ But I ain't done much healing ♪ 22 00:01:44,930 --> 00:01:46,976 ♪ Hello ♪ 23 00:01:47,019 --> 00:01:50,284 ♪ Can you hear me? ♪ 24 00:01:50,327 --> 00:01:53,678 ♪ I'm in California dreaming ♪ 25 00:01:53,722 --> 00:01:55,811 ♪ About who we used to be ♪ 26 00:01:55,854 --> 00:01:59,293 ♪ When we were younger ♪ 27 00:01:59,336 --> 00:02:00,859 ♪ And free ♪ 28 00:02:02,513 --> 00:02:05,386 ♪ I've forgotten how it felt ♪ 29 00:02:05,429 --> 00:02:08,302 ♪ Before the world fell at our feet ♪ 30 00:02:08,345 --> 00:02:11,000 ♪ There's such a difference ♪ 31 00:02:12,044 --> 00:02:14,960 ♪ Between us ♪ 32 00:02:15,004 --> 00:02:19,269 ♪ And a million miles ♪ 33 00:02:21,228 --> 00:02:26,058 ♪ Hello from the other side ♪ 34 00:02:27,799 --> 00:02:32,369 ♪ I must've called a thousand times ♪ 35 00:02:32,413 --> 00:02:36,025 ♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪ 36 00:02:36,068 --> 00:02:38,680 ♪ For everything that I've done ♪ 37 00:02:38,723 --> 00:02:40,290 ♪ But when I call ♪ 38 00:02:40,334 --> 00:02:45,600 ♪ You never seem to be home ♪ 39 00:02:45,643 --> 00:02:51,040 ♪ Hello from the outside ♪ 40 00:02:51,083 --> 00:02:56,915 ♪ At least I can say that I've tried ♪ 41 00:02:56,959 --> 00:03:00,223 ♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪ 42 00:03:00,267 --> 00:03:02,834 ♪ For breaking your heart ♪ 43 00:03:02,878 --> 00:03:04,749 ♪ But it don't matter ♪ 44 00:03:04,793 --> 00:03:09,058 ♪ It clearly doesn't tear you apart ♪ 45 00:03:09,101 --> 00:03:12,453 ♪ Anymore ♪ 46 00:03:15,934 --> 00:03:17,153 ♪ Hello ♪ 47 00:03:18,850 --> 00:03:20,461 ♪ How are you? ♪ 48 00:03:21,679 --> 00:03:27,859 ♪ It's so typical of me to talk about myself, I'm sorry ♪ 49 00:03:27,903 --> 00:03:30,514 ♪ I hope ♪ 50 00:03:30,558 --> 00:03:33,691 ♪ That you're well ♪ 51 00:03:33,735 --> 00:03:36,912 ♪ Did you ever make it out of that town ♪ 52 00:03:36,955 --> 00:03:39,871 ♪ Where nothing ever happened? ♪ 53 00:03:39,915 --> 00:03:42,265 ♪ It's no secret ♪ 54 00:03:42,309 --> 00:03:45,921 ♪ That the both of us ♪ 55 00:03:45,964 --> 00:03:50,839 ♪ Are running out of time ♪ 56 00:03:52,275 --> 00:03:57,889 ♪ So hello from the other side ♪ 57 00:03:57,933 --> 00:04:01,589 ♪ I must've called a thousand times ♪ 58 00:04:01,632 --> 00:04:03,895 ♪ A thousand times ♪ 59 00:04:03,939 --> 00:04:07,116 ♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪ 60 00:04:07,159 --> 00:04:09,292 ♪ For everything that I've done ♪ 61 00:04:09,336 --> 00:04:11,555 ♪ But when I call ♪ 62 00:04:11,599 --> 00:04:16,430 ♪ You never seem to be home ♪ 63 00:04:16,473 --> 00:04:22,305 ♪ Hello from the outside ♪ 64 00:04:22,349 --> 00:04:27,963 ♪ At least I can say that I've tried ♪ 65 00:04:28,006 --> 00:04:31,749 ♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪ 66 00:04:31,793 --> 00:04:33,969 ♪ For breaking your heart ♪ 67 00:04:34,012 --> 00:04:35,753 ♪ But it don't matter ♪ 68 00:04:35,797 --> 00:04:41,411 ♪ It clearly doesn't tear you apart anymore ♪ 69 00:04:41,455 --> 00:04:44,066 ♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪ 70 00:04:44,109 --> 00:04:46,111 ♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪ 71 00:04:46,155 --> 00:04:48,157 ♪ Anymore ♪ 72 00:04:48,200 --> 00:04:50,942 ♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪ 73 00:04:50,986 --> 00:04:52,770 ♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪ 74 00:04:52,814 --> 00:04:54,119 ♪ Anymore ♪ 75 00:04:54,163 --> 00:04:55,860 ♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪ 76 00:04:55,904 --> 00:04:58,646 ♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪ 77 00:04:58,689 --> 00:05:00,125 ♪ Anymore ♪ 78 00:05:00,169 --> 00:05:02,127 ♪ Highs, highs, highs, highs ♪ 79 00:05:02,171 --> 00:05:05,348 - ♪ Anymore ♪ - ♪ Lows, lows, lows, lows ♪ 80 00:05:05,392 --> 00:05:11,354 ♪ Hello from the other side ♪ 81 00:05:11,398 --> 00:05:16,577 ♪ I must've called a thousand times ♪ 82 00:05:16,620 --> 00:05:19,362 ♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪ 83 00:05:19,406 --> 00:05:22,278 ♪ For everything that I've done ♪ 84 00:05:22,322 --> 00:05:24,149 ♪ But when I call ♪ 85 00:05:24,193 --> 00:05:29,546 ♪ You never seem to be home ♪ 86 00:05:29,590 --> 00:05:35,509 ♪ Hello from the outside ♪ 87 00:05:35,552 --> 00:05:40,818 ♪ At least I can say that I've tried ♪ 88 00:05:40,862 --> 00:05:44,300 ♪ To tell you I'm sorry ♪ 89 00:05:44,344 --> 00:05:46,868 ♪ For breaking your heart ♪ 90 00:05:46,911 --> 00:05:48,870 ♪ But it don't matter ♪ 91 00:05:48,913 --> 00:05:53,048 ♪ It clearly doesn't tear you apart ♪ 92 00:05:53,091 --> 00:05:57,052 ♪ Anymore. ♪ 93 00:06:06,931 --> 00:06:10,544 - Hello. Okay. - Hello. Okay. Hi. 94 00:06:10,587 --> 00:06:12,197 - This is so good. - Oh. Yes. 95 00:06:12,241 --> 00:06:14,243 - Hello. - Hi. 96 00:06:14,286 --> 00:06:15,723 No. Hi. We can't even 97 00:06:15,766 --> 00:06:17,507 - say hello anymore. - Hi. Yeah. Yeah. 98 00:06:17,551 --> 00:06:18,658 I don't really say hello anymore. That's why. 99 00:06:18,682 --> 00:06:19,509 - You don't? - Not really. 100 00:06:19,553 --> 00:06:20,553 'Cause it's like a joke. 101 00:06:22,469 --> 00:06:24,209 Okay, well, hi, Adele. 102 00:06:24,253 --> 00:06:25,385 - Hiya. - Hiya. 103 00:06:25,428 --> 00:06:27,038 Welcome to my rose garden. 104 00:06:27,082 --> 00:06:28,407 It's lovely, it's beautiful. - Well, 105 00:06:28,431 --> 00:06:29,582 thank you for coming to join me here. 106 00:06:29,606 --> 00:06:30,694 It feels very British. 107 00:06:30,738 --> 00:06:31,739 - Does it? - Yes. 108 00:06:31,782 --> 00:06:33,436 Well, actually because yes, 109 00:06:33,480 --> 00:06:36,221 -and because my tea house is here. - Yes. 110 00:06:36,265 --> 00:06:37,745 Everybody, we just met. 111 00:06:37,788 --> 00:06:41,270 - Mm-hmm. - And the concert tonight is a celebration 112 00:06:41,313 --> 00:06:43,577 of your biggest hits and the debut of the new songs 113 00:06:43,620 --> 00:06:45,230 - from 30. - Yes. 114 00:06:45,274 --> 00:06:47,494 - And you start with "Hello." - Yes. Well, I think 115 00:06:47,537 --> 00:06:49,341 I'm always going to have to start with "Hello." 116 00:06:49,365 --> 00:06:51,343 I think it'd be weird if it was, like, halfway through a set. 117 00:06:51,367 --> 00:06:54,283 - You know? So yeah, I'm starting with it. 118 00:06:54,326 --> 00:06:58,287 Okay, so that music video has been viewed nearly 119 00:06:58,330 --> 00:07:00,158 - 3 billion times. - 3 billion? 120 00:07:00,202 --> 00:07:03,118 - 3 billion times! - Oh, I didn't know that. 121 00:07:03,161 --> 00:07:05,294 - Billion, that's insane. - Yeah. 122 00:07:05,337 --> 00:07:08,602 ♪ Hello from the outside ♪ 123 00:07:08,645 --> 00:07:10,952 That song means so much to people all around the world. 124 00:07:10,995 --> 00:07:12,954 It does, yeah. 125 00:07:12,997 --> 00:07:15,609 So, what does it represent to you? 126 00:07:15,652 --> 00:07:18,525 Well, the show is the first time that I'll, you know, 127 00:07:18,568 --> 00:07:21,615 that I'm singing it from where I am now. 128 00:07:21,658 --> 00:07:23,399 - Yes. - Which I think is great. 129 00:07:23,443 --> 00:07:27,925 Um, the song to me was the beginning of me 130 00:07:27,969 --> 00:07:29,599 trying to find myself and I haven't figured out yet 131 00:07:29,623 --> 00:07:31,363 what it was that I had to do for that. 132 00:07:31,407 --> 00:07:33,627 But when I wrote it, it was a real ode to, like, 133 00:07:33,670 --> 00:07:35,237 little me, older me. 134 00:07:35,280 --> 00:07:37,326 Like, all of these things, like, you know, so, 135 00:07:37,369 --> 00:07:39,502 it's just a song about, like, 136 00:07:39,546 --> 00:07:41,373 I'm still here. 137 00:07:41,417 --> 00:07:43,656 You know, sort of like, "Hi, I'm still here. I still exist", 138 00:07:43,680 --> 00:07:45,508 like, you know, in every aspect of my life." 139 00:07:45,552 --> 00:07:48,424 Well, it feels like that on 30, 140 00:07:48,468 --> 00:07:53,777 you have literally opened up your soul in a way that 141 00:07:53,821 --> 00:07:56,519 even though we have heard your pain before, 142 00:07:56,563 --> 00:08:00,088 it feels like pain was almost like a muse for you for this. 143 00:08:00,131 --> 00:08:01,959 I read something you said... You said, 144 00:08:02,003 --> 00:08:05,615 "I was singing things I didn't even realize 145 00:08:05,659 --> 00:08:08,400 - "I was feeling or thinking." - Mm-hmm. 146 00:08:08,444 --> 00:08:10,664 So, is that how the music comes to you? 147 00:08:10,707 --> 00:08:12,883 - Is that a part of your process? - Yeah. 148 00:08:12,927 --> 00:08:15,146 Is the music as catharsis? 149 00:08:15,190 --> 00:08:17,975 Yeah, it definitely channels from somewhere else. 150 00:08:18,019 --> 00:08:20,543 You know, when I'm singing and when I'm writing, like... 151 00:08:20,587 --> 00:08:22,850 And I was kind of aware of that on the other albums, 152 00:08:22,893 --> 00:08:24,852 but this one, you know, a lot more 153 00:08:24,895 --> 00:08:27,176 I-I felt it because everything was happening in real time. 154 00:08:27,202 --> 00:08:28,701 I was writing my album, you know, while I was 155 00:08:28,725 --> 00:08:30,553 - going through everything. - Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 156 00:08:30,597 --> 00:08:34,644 But I don't think as a person I have what my singing has. 157 00:08:34,688 --> 00:08:36,404 - What do you mean? - I just think there's-there's 158 00:08:36,428 --> 00:08:38,561 something I'm pulling from somewhere else. 159 00:08:38,605 --> 00:08:40,583 I don't, I don't have some... You know, something else 160 00:08:40,607 --> 00:08:42,522 from underneath. I don't know what it is. 161 00:08:42,565 --> 00:08:44,567 It's coming up through me but it's not... 162 00:08:44,611 --> 00:08:46,569 I don't know how I access it. It's wild 'cause 163 00:08:46,613 --> 00:08:49,398 I don't think I'm that deep in real life. 164 00:08:49,441 --> 00:08:51,115 - So it's... - But then you listen to the music 165 00:08:51,139 --> 00:08:53,445 - and you think deep, right? - Yeah. Yeah, 166 00:08:53,489 --> 00:08:55,012 you know, or I'll just be like, 167 00:08:55,056 --> 00:08:57,406 "I am making progress," or like, just... 168 00:08:57,449 --> 00:08:59,408 It's-it's a revelation to me, the songs. 169 00:08:59,451 --> 00:09:01,758 Well, I read something that you said... 170 00:09:01,802 --> 00:09:03,978 You said, "I'm not shy or embarrassed" 171 00:09:04,021 --> 00:09:06,415 to be falling apart." 172 00:09:06,458 --> 00:09:09,244 That's one of the reasons why you feel people are so connected 173 00:09:09,287 --> 00:09:14,597 to your music and I wondered, what gives you... 174 00:09:14,641 --> 00:09:18,732 the-the freedom actually and the courage to be able to 175 00:09:18,775 --> 00:09:23,606 fall apart and expose yourself in a world and a culture now 176 00:09:23,650 --> 00:09:25,739 - that is a "gotcha" culture... - Yeah, absolutely. 177 00:09:25,782 --> 00:09:27,760 That if you make the wrong move, you say the wrong thing... 178 00:09:27,784 --> 00:09:31,092 - Yeah. -...somebody's got some, you know, wisecrack about it. 179 00:09:31,135 --> 00:09:33,616 I think the reason I'm so brave to do it, you know, 180 00:09:33,660 --> 00:09:36,880 in my career so far was because, again, music helped me 181 00:09:36,924 --> 00:09:38,926 in any situations and I would like to do, 182 00:09:38,969 --> 00:09:40,623 you know, the same for people 183 00:09:40,667 --> 00:09:42,253 that feel so alone when they're feeling something. 184 00:09:42,277 --> 00:09:43,800 Mm-hmm. 185 00:09:43,844 --> 00:09:45,759 To be reminded that they're not alone. 186 00:09:45,802 --> 00:09:48,631 And in terms of now, you know, there were moments 187 00:09:48,675 --> 00:09:50,067 when I was writing the record or 188 00:09:50,111 --> 00:09:51,741 I would listen back to something and be like, 189 00:09:51,765 --> 00:09:53,897 "That might be a bit too private. 190 00:09:53,941 --> 00:09:56,160 "That might be a bit too, you know, 191 00:09:56,204 --> 00:09:59,468 too about myself and stuff to put out," 192 00:09:59,511 --> 00:10:02,166 but nothing is as scary as what I've been through 193 00:10:02,210 --> 00:10:04,255 over the last two, three years behind closed doors. 194 00:10:04,299 --> 00:10:06,257 So I'm not frightened about... 195 00:10:06,301 --> 00:10:08,956 about what people may or might not do now, you know. 196 00:10:13,917 --> 00:10:15,615 Hi, guys. 197 00:10:17,791 --> 00:10:19,880 How posh is this? 198 00:10:19,923 --> 00:10:21,795 Also, get you, Lizzo. 199 00:10:21,838 --> 00:10:23,163 You think you can outshine me, babes? 200 00:10:23,187 --> 00:10:24,295 I love that, I love that poncho coat. 201 00:10:24,319 --> 00:10:25,712 Oh, yeah. Nice. 202 00:10:25,755 --> 00:10:27,496 Um, hi, everyone. 203 00:10:27,539 --> 00:10:29,498 Thank you so much for coming tonight. 204 00:10:29,541 --> 00:10:32,153 Welcome to "One Night Only" with me. 205 00:10:32,196 --> 00:10:34,721 Although most of you I know, and you have 206 00:10:34,764 --> 00:10:36,157 too many nights with me, really. 207 00:10:36,200 --> 00:10:38,681 Um, but I wanted to feel safe 208 00:10:38,725 --> 00:10:40,335 in my first little comeback thing. 209 00:10:40,378 --> 00:10:42,250 Hang on, I got dry mouth. 210 00:10:43,817 --> 00:10:46,646 So I wanted to do a mixture of people that I know and love. 211 00:10:46,689 --> 00:10:48,169 People that I've met a few times, 212 00:10:48,212 --> 00:10:50,040 and some of you I don't know at all. But hi. 213 00:10:50,084 --> 00:10:53,217 And I'm gonna do some old ones for you. 214 00:10:53,261 --> 00:10:55,698 I'm gonna do some new ones for you. 215 00:10:58,048 --> 00:11:00,311 So I haven't sung this. This is a new song. 216 00:11:00,355 --> 00:11:02,139 I haven't sung this song yet for anyone. 217 00:11:02,183 --> 00:11:04,141 Um, not in real life. 218 00:11:04,185 --> 00:11:06,317 I'm myself. 219 00:11:06,361 --> 00:11:08,537 Not gonna lie. 220 00:11:08,580 --> 00:11:11,540 Um, so I could use your help if any of you know it. 221 00:11:11,583 --> 00:11:13,455 This is "Easy on Me." 222 00:11:15,587 --> 00:11:18,765 ♪ 223 00:11:28,165 --> 00:11:31,299 ♪ There ain't no gold ♪ 224 00:11:31,342 --> 00:11:34,955 ♪ In this river ♪ 225 00:11:34,998 --> 00:11:40,830 ♪ That I've been washing my hands in forever ♪ 226 00:11:41,831 --> 00:11:44,921 ♪ I know there is hope ♪ 227 00:11:44,965 --> 00:11:48,055 ♪ In these waters ♪ 228 00:11:48,098 --> 00:11:50,927 ♪ But I can't bring myself ♪ 229 00:11:50,971 --> 00:11:55,758 ♪ To swim when I am drowning in ♪ 230 00:11:55,802 --> 00:12:01,590 ♪ This silence, baby, let me in ♪ 231 00:12:01,633 --> 00:12:05,768 ♪ Go easy ♪ 232 00:12:05,812 --> 00:12:08,597 ♪ On me, baby ♪ 233 00:12:08,640 --> 00:12:11,992 ♪ I was still a child ♪ 234 00:12:12,035 --> 00:12:15,735 ♪ Didn't get the chance to ♪ 235 00:12:15,778 --> 00:12:19,782 ♪ Feel ♪ 236 00:12:19,826 --> 00:12:22,350 ♪ The world around me ♪ 237 00:12:22,393 --> 00:12:25,440 ♪ I had no time to choose ♪ 238 00:12:25,483 --> 00:12:28,182 ♪ What I chose to do ♪ 239 00:12:28,225 --> 00:12:31,402 ♪ So go easy ♪ 240 00:12:31,446 --> 00:12:33,317 ♪ On me ♪ 241 00:12:36,451 --> 00:12:38,496 ♪ 242 00:12:42,500 --> 00:12:45,634 ♪ There ain't no room ♪ 243 00:12:45,677 --> 00:12:48,768 ♪ For our things to change ♪ 244 00:12:48,811 --> 00:12:55,078 ♪ When we are both so deeply stuck in our ways ♪ 245 00:12:55,122 --> 00:12:59,430 ♪ You can't deny ♪ 246 00:12:59,474 --> 00:13:02,825 ♪ How hard I've tried ♪ 247 00:13:02,869 --> 00:13:05,523 ♪ I changed who I was ♪ 248 00:13:05,567 --> 00:13:08,135 ♪ To put you both first ♪ 249 00:13:08,178 --> 00:13:13,140 ♪ But now I give up ♪ 250 00:13:13,183 --> 00:13:16,491 ♪ Go easy ♪ 251 00:13:16,534 --> 00:13:19,668 ♪ On me, baby ♪ 252 00:13:19,711 --> 00:13:22,845 ♪ I was still a child ♪ 253 00:13:22,889 --> 00:13:26,936 ♪ Didn't get the chance to ♪ 254 00:13:26,980 --> 00:13:29,678 ♪ Feel ♪ 255 00:13:29,721 --> 00:13:32,681 ♪ The world around me ♪ 256 00:13:32,724 --> 00:13:36,467 ♪ I had no time to choose ♪ 257 00:13:36,511 --> 00:13:39,514 ♪ What I chose to do ♪ 258 00:13:39,557 --> 00:13:47,478 ♪ So go easy ♪ 259 00:13:49,698 --> 00:13:53,267 ♪ On me ♪ 260 00:13:54,442 --> 00:13:58,707 ♪ I had good intentions ♪ 261 00:13:58,750 --> 00:14:02,189 ♪ And the highest hopes ♪ 262 00:14:02,232 --> 00:14:05,148 ♪ But I know right now ♪ 263 00:14:05,192 --> 00:14:09,544 ♪ It probably doesn't even show ♪ 264 00:14:09,587 --> 00:14:14,201 ♪ Go easy ♪ 265 00:14:14,244 --> 00:14:16,812 ♪ On me, baby ♪ 266 00:14:16,856 --> 00:14:20,163 ♪ I was still a child ♪ 267 00:14:20,207 --> 00:14:24,385 ♪ I didn't get the chance to ♪ 268 00:14:24,428 --> 00:14:26,822 ♪ Feel ♪ 269 00:14:26,866 --> 00:14:29,738 ♪ The world around me ♪ 270 00:14:29,781 --> 00:14:33,524 ♪ I had no time to choose ♪ 271 00:14:33,568 --> 00:14:37,354 ♪ What I chose to do ♪ 272 00:14:37,398 --> 00:14:40,357 ♪ So go easy ♪ 273 00:14:40,401 --> 00:14:41,837 ♪ On me. ♪ 274 00:14:47,277 --> 00:14:49,932 ♪ 275 00:14:51,455 --> 00:14:55,329 Thank you. 276 00:15:16,219 --> 00:15:18,265 ♪ 277 00:15:27,448 --> 00:15:29,537 ♪ This is the end ♪ 278 00:15:32,409 --> 00:15:37,545 ♪ Hold your breath and count to ten ♪ 279 00:15:38,850 --> 00:15:42,942 ♪ Feel the earth move and then ♪ 280 00:15:45,031 --> 00:15:49,209 ♪ Hear my heart burst ♪ 281 00:15:49,252 --> 00:15:52,081 ♪ Again ♪ 282 00:15:52,125 --> 00:15:55,302 ♪ For this is the end ♪ 283 00:15:57,347 --> 00:16:03,963 ♪ I've drowned and dreamt this moment ♪ 284 00:16:04,006 --> 00:16:10,578 ♪ So overdue, I owe them ♪ 285 00:16:10,621 --> 00:16:17,106 ♪ Swept away, I'm stolen ♪ 286 00:16:17,150 --> 00:16:21,110 ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 287 00:16:21,154 --> 00:16:23,765 ♪ When it crumbles ♪ 288 00:16:23,808 --> 00:16:27,334 ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 289 00:16:27,377 --> 00:16:30,685 ♪ Face it all together ♪ 290 00:16:30,728 --> 00:16:33,818 ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 291 00:16:33,862 --> 00:16:36,604 ♪ When it crumbles ♪ 292 00:16:36,647 --> 00:16:39,955 ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 293 00:16:39,999 --> 00:16:43,306 ♪ Face it all together ♪ 294 00:16:43,350 --> 00:16:46,005 ♪ At skyfall ♪ 295 00:16:48,746 --> 00:16:52,011 ♪ At skyfall ♪ 296 00:16:55,231 --> 00:16:59,627 ♪ Skyfall is where we start ♪ 297 00:17:01,542 --> 00:17:05,589 ♪ A thousand miles and poles apart ♪ 298 00:17:07,809 --> 00:17:12,074 ♪ Where worlds collide and days are dark ♪ 299 00:17:12,118 --> 00:17:16,470 ♪ You may have my number, you can take my name ♪ 300 00:17:17,775 --> 00:17:21,866 ♪ But you'll never have my heart ♪ 301 00:17:21,910 --> 00:17:24,869 - ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ - ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 302 00:17:24,913 --> 00:17:27,872 - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ 303 00:17:27,916 --> 00:17:31,180 - ♪ We will stand tall ♪ - ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 304 00:17:31,224 --> 00:17:35,271 ♪ Face it all together ♪ 305 00:17:35,315 --> 00:17:37,882 - ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ - ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 306 00:17:37,926 --> 00:17:41,060 - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ 307 00:17:41,103 --> 00:17:44,106 - ♪ We will stand tall ♪ - ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 308 00:17:44,150 --> 00:17:46,413 ♪ Face it all together ♪ 309 00:17:46,456 --> 00:17:49,503 ♪ At skyfall ♪ 310 00:17:49,546 --> 00:17:52,680 ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 311 00:17:52,723 --> 00:17:55,552 - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ - ♪ At skyfall ♪ 312 00:17:55,596 --> 00:17:58,120 ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 313 00:18:00,166 --> 00:18:02,864 ♪ Where you go, I go ♪ 314 00:18:02,907 --> 00:18:06,476 ♪ What you see, I see ♪ 315 00:18:06,520 --> 00:18:09,349 ♪ I know I'd never be me ♪ 316 00:18:09,392 --> 00:18:13,004 ♪ Without the security ♪ 317 00:18:13,048 --> 00:18:16,312 ♪ Of your loving arms ♪ 318 00:18:16,356 --> 00:18:18,967 ♪ Keeping me from harm ♪ 319 00:18:19,010 --> 00:18:22,666 ♪ Put your hand in my hand ♪ 320 00:18:22,710 --> 00:18:25,669 ♪ And we'll stand ♪ 321 00:18:25,713 --> 00:18:28,846 - ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ - ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 322 00:18:28,890 --> 00:18:31,588 - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ 323 00:18:31,632 --> 00:18:35,636 - ♪ We will stand tall ♪ - ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 324 00:18:35,679 --> 00:18:38,291 ♪ Face it all together ♪ 325 00:18:38,334 --> 00:18:40,945 ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 326 00:18:40,989 --> 00:18:42,773 - ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ - ♪ When it crumbles ♪ 327 00:18:42,817 --> 00:18:44,123 ♪ When it crumbles ♪ 328 00:18:44,166 --> 00:18:46,037 ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 329 00:18:46,081 --> 00:18:48,910 - ♪ We will stand tall ♪ - ♪ Face it all ♪ 330 00:18:48,953 --> 00:18:51,217 ♪ Together, at skyfall ♪ 331 00:18:51,260 --> 00:18:54,481 ♪ Let the sky fall ♪ 332 00:18:58,746 --> 00:19:01,792 ♪ We will stand tall ♪ 333 00:19:01,836 --> 00:19:06,754 ♪ At skyfall ♪ 334 00:19:15,719 --> 00:19:21,856 ♪ Ooh. ♪ 335 00:19:32,649 --> 00:19:34,434 You lost a hundred pounds in two years. 336 00:19:34,477 --> 00:19:36,958 And then you said it wasn't even really about the weight. 337 00:19:37,001 --> 00:19:38,121 - No. - So what was it about? 338 00:19:42,790 --> 00:19:44,357 So here's the thing. 339 00:19:44,400 --> 00:19:46,402 You write about it in song after song. 340 00:19:46,446 --> 00:19:47,838 You start with, you know, 341 00:19:47,882 --> 00:19:49,405 "Easy on Me" that-that's been released. 342 00:19:49,449 --> 00:19:53,757 Can you just give us an idea of what happened 343 00:19:53,801 --> 00:19:55,542 with this all-consuming... 344 00:19:55,585 --> 00:19:58,197 It feels like an all-consuming pain 345 00:19:58,240 --> 00:20:01,417 and I'm like, "What the hell happened?" 346 00:20:01,461 --> 00:20:03,090 I've been obsessed with the nuclear family 347 00:20:03,114 --> 00:20:05,247 my whole life because I never came from one. 348 00:20:05,291 --> 00:20:07,728 You know, it's in all these movies and all these books, 349 00:20:07,771 --> 00:20:11,122 like, you know, and you grow up reading them like that's what 350 00:20:11,166 --> 00:20:12,491 - it should be, like, you know. - Right. 351 00:20:12,515 --> 00:20:15,431 And... I just from a very young age, 352 00:20:15,475 --> 00:20:19,000 just, you know, promised myself that when I had kids 353 00:20:19,043 --> 00:20:22,264 that we'd stay together, we would be that united family 354 00:20:22,308 --> 00:20:23,570 - and... - Ah... 355 00:20:23,613 --> 00:20:25,746 And I tried for a really, really long time 356 00:20:25,789 --> 00:20:27,443 and then, um, 357 00:20:27,487 --> 00:20:29,663 I was just so disappointed for my son. 358 00:20:29,706 --> 00:20:31,534 I was so disappointed for myself. 359 00:20:31,578 --> 00:20:33,667 And I was just, I thought I was going to 360 00:20:33,710 --> 00:20:35,625 be the one that, you know, 361 00:20:35,669 --> 00:20:38,280 stopped doing those bloody patterns all the time. 362 00:20:38,324 --> 00:20:42,806 So, do you call this... Is this the divorce album? 363 00:20:42,850 --> 00:20:44,243 I think I'm divorcing myself on it. 364 00:20:44,286 --> 00:20:45,287 - Yeah? - Yeah. 365 00:20:45,331 --> 00:20:46,984 How does one do that? 366 00:20:47,028 --> 00:20:49,291 So, it's lonely, you know. 367 00:20:49,335 --> 00:20:51,598 I spent a lot of time on my own, 368 00:20:51,641 --> 00:20:53,922 really sitting in my feelings and not keeping myself busy. 369 00:20:53,948 --> 00:20:55,447 I used to always... If a feeling came up, 370 00:20:55,471 --> 00:20:56,796 I'd distract myself or I'd call a friend, 371 00:20:56,820 --> 00:20:58,058 and be like, "Do you wanna go out? 372 00:20:58,082 --> 00:20:59,693 - "What do you wanna do?" - Yeah. 373 00:20:59,736 --> 00:21:01,366 Put a movie on or whatever. I would just sit with it. 374 00:21:01,390 --> 00:21:03,455 - I would just eat it myself. - Yeah, no, absolutely, 375 00:21:03,479 --> 00:21:05,133 but I would just, I would just 376 00:21:05,176 --> 00:21:07,309 whenever I noticed how I was feeling, I would 377 00:21:07,353 --> 00:21:08,417 sit down and I would sit in it. 378 00:21:08,441 --> 00:21:10,399 Um, I stopped drinking. 379 00:21:10,443 --> 00:21:14,142 That's one great way of, um, of really sort of getting 380 00:21:14,185 --> 00:21:16,927 to know yourself is being, you know, 381 00:21:16,971 --> 00:21:19,016 just drinking water and being sober as anything. 382 00:21:19,060 --> 00:21:22,193 But you've had a fascinating relationship with alcohol. 383 00:21:22,237 --> 00:21:23,345 - Mm-hmm. Yeah. - I read where you said that 384 00:21:23,369 --> 00:21:24,674 alcohol really fascinated you. 385 00:21:24,718 --> 00:21:26,067 Yeah. Yeah, very much. 386 00:21:26,110 --> 00:21:28,069 Yeah, 'cause it took my dad from me. 387 00:21:28,112 --> 00:21:30,767 - Yeah. - Yeah, and then you stopped. 388 00:21:30,811 --> 00:21:32,615 Well, when I was going through everything a couple years ago 389 00:21:32,639 --> 00:21:34,380 when I was going through my divorce, yes. 390 00:21:34,423 --> 00:21:37,121 Um, not at the beginning. At first I... whew, no. 391 00:21:37,165 --> 00:21:39,689 I think I probably kept the alcohol industry alive. 392 00:21:39,733 --> 00:21:41,691 But you know, after... Once I realized that I had 393 00:21:41,735 --> 00:21:43,345 a lot of work to do on myself, 394 00:21:43,389 --> 00:21:44,825 yeah, I stopped drinking and I 395 00:21:44,868 --> 00:21:46,237 started working out lots and stuff like that 396 00:21:46,261 --> 00:21:48,219 to keep me sort of centered. 397 00:21:48,263 --> 00:21:50,352 Was there a moment when you knew? 398 00:21:50,396 --> 00:21:52,876 Or was it a series of things that you said, 399 00:21:52,920 --> 00:21:55,966 "Can't do this anymore"? 400 00:21:56,010 --> 00:21:58,012 With my-my journey or in...? 401 00:21:58,055 --> 00:22:00,231 With the divorce from Simon. Like, 402 00:22:00,275 --> 00:22:02,059 because I-I, you know, 403 00:22:02,103 --> 00:22:04,801 over the years I've interviewed so many people who stayed, 404 00:22:04,845 --> 00:22:06,977 were miserable, were miserable, 405 00:22:07,021 --> 00:22:10,807 and years before they actually made the move... 406 00:22:10,851 --> 00:22:12,461 - Yeah. -...had started thinking about it, 407 00:22:12,505 --> 00:22:15,986 so I'm wondering, was there a single moment or was... 408 00:22:17,423 --> 00:22:19,338 I do remember one of my friends, 409 00:22:19,381 --> 00:22:21,775 we were all... we were answering these questions 410 00:22:21,818 --> 00:22:24,386 - in this very bougie magazine. - Mm-hmm. 411 00:22:24,430 --> 00:22:26,388 And it was, 412 00:22:26,432 --> 00:22:29,565 it was something like, "What's something that 413 00:22:29,609 --> 00:22:31,393 no one would ever know about you?" 414 00:22:31,437 --> 00:22:33,153 And I just said it in front of three of my friends. 415 00:22:33,177 --> 00:22:35,092 I was like, "I'm really not happy. 416 00:22:35,136 --> 00:22:36,442 "I'm not, I'm not living. 417 00:22:36,485 --> 00:22:38,531 I'm just plodding along." 418 00:22:38,574 --> 00:22:40,010 And I remember there was a lyric 419 00:22:40,054 --> 00:22:42,186 that I wrote that I put on a song on-on 25, 420 00:22:42,230 --> 00:22:44,711 which was, "I want to live and not just survive." 421 00:22:44,754 --> 00:22:46,147 - Mm-hmm. - And, um, 422 00:22:46,190 --> 00:22:48,192 you know, I've definitely felt like that, 423 00:22:48,236 --> 00:22:50,412 but it was when I, when I admitted to my own friends, 424 00:22:50,456 --> 00:22:52,196 who thought I was really happy, 425 00:22:52,240 --> 00:22:54,547 that actually I'm really unhappy, and they all gasped. 426 00:22:54,590 --> 00:22:56,592 Like, you know, I feel like it 427 00:22:56,636 --> 00:22:57,961 was sort of from there that I was like, 428 00:22:57,985 --> 00:23:00,248 "What am I doing? What am I doing it for?" 429 00:23:00,291 --> 00:23:03,207 You know? But I think it was just, 430 00:23:03,251 --> 00:23:04,968 by us getting married, us having our wedding, 431 00:23:04,992 --> 00:23:07,168 and I... you know, I take marriage very seriously. 432 00:23:07,211 --> 00:23:09,320 - Like, it obviously seems like... - Yeah, 'cause you have 433 00:23:09,344 --> 00:23:11,235 -all that stuff from the past. - Yeah, and it seems like I don't, 434 00:23:11,259 --> 00:23:13,498 you know, now... like, you know, almost like I disrespected it 435 00:23:13,522 --> 00:23:16,003 by-by getting married, and then, you know, 436 00:23:16,046 --> 00:23:17,657 divorced so quickly and stuff like that. 437 00:23:17,700 --> 00:23:19,876 But I think... 438 00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:22,183 Are embarrassed because it was so quickly? 439 00:23:22,226 --> 00:23:23,682 I'm just embarrassed that I didn't make my marriage work. 440 00:23:23,706 --> 00:23:24,968 - Okay. - You know? 441 00:23:25,012 --> 00:23:26,709 So now that you have perspective 442 00:23:26,753 --> 00:23:28,276 and you've opened up your soul 443 00:23:28,319 --> 00:23:30,974 and shared it with the world here on 30, 444 00:23:31,018 --> 00:23:32,976 why do you think 445 00:23:33,020 --> 00:23:35,892 is the real reason Simon came into your life? 446 00:23:35,936 --> 00:23:38,001 I think Simon probably saved my life, to be honest with you. 447 00:23:38,025 --> 00:23:39,809 He came at such a moment, 448 00:23:39,853 --> 00:23:44,814 where the stability that him and Angelo have given me, 449 00:23:44,858 --> 00:23:46,816 no one else would ever have been able to give me, 450 00:23:46,860 --> 00:23:49,776 like, especially at that time in my life... I was so young 451 00:23:49,819 --> 00:23:52,779 and I just, I think I would have got a bit lost in all of it. 452 00:23:52,822 --> 00:23:54,955 Like, you know, and I think I probably, 453 00:23:54,998 --> 00:23:57,000 I could have easily gone down some dodgy paths, 454 00:23:57,044 --> 00:23:58,349 like, you know? 455 00:23:58,393 --> 00:24:00,177 And sort of self-destructed from-from 456 00:24:00,221 --> 00:24:03,920 sort of like being so overwhelmed by all of it. 457 00:24:03,964 --> 00:24:07,489 And he-he came in and was stable. 458 00:24:07,533 --> 00:24:09,491 The most stable person I've ever 459 00:24:09,535 --> 00:24:11,275 had in my life up until that point. 460 00:24:11,319 --> 00:24:13,364 Even... you know, even now I trust him with my life. 461 00:24:13,408 --> 00:24:15,454 - Really? - Oh, my gosh, like beyond. 462 00:24:15,497 --> 00:24:18,152 Like, yeah, I feel like... 463 00:24:18,195 --> 00:24:20,371 Yeah, him and Angelo, like, they were 464 00:24:20,415 --> 00:24:23,374 angels sent to me, that's how I feel. 465 00:24:23,418 --> 00:24:25,202 - So, came into your life... - Mm-hmm. 466 00:24:25,246 --> 00:24:27,291 At the right season and for the right reasons. 467 00:24:27,335 --> 00:24:28,902 - To save you. - Yes, absolutely, yeah. 468 00:24:28,945 --> 00:24:32,166 And in that moment when Angelo said to you, 469 00:24:32,209 --> 00:24:35,212 "Why don't you love Daddy anymore?" 470 00:24:35,256 --> 00:24:37,103 Yeah, that was really hard as well, and trying to explain 471 00:24:37,127 --> 00:24:40,217 to, like, a six-year-old at the time, obviously, 472 00:24:40,261 --> 00:24:43,394 um, that I do love him, I'm just not in love with him. 473 00:24:43,438 --> 00:24:45,484 Makes absolutely no sense to a six-year-old. 474 00:24:45,527 --> 00:24:46,833 Like, you know? 475 00:24:46,876 --> 00:24:48,704 So there were so many answers I just 476 00:24:48,748 --> 00:24:51,228 couldn't give him 'cause there aren't any really. 477 00:24:51,272 --> 00:24:53,535 Like, you know, that he would understand, 478 00:24:53,579 --> 00:24:55,755 but he sees that I still love his dad. 479 00:24:55,798 --> 00:24:57,602 - Like, you know... -'Cause you live across the street from each other. 480 00:24:57,626 --> 00:24:59,561 We live across the street from each other. Like, we, like, 481 00:24:59,585 --> 00:25:03,066 we're away together sometimes, like, you know, and, um, and... 482 00:25:03,110 --> 00:25:05,634 Yeah, like, me and Simon also chat away without Angelo. 483 00:25:05,678 --> 00:25:07,680 Like, Angelo, you know, could be at school and... 484 00:25:07,723 --> 00:25:08,811 So you're still friends? 485 00:25:08,855 --> 00:25:10,334 - Oh, yes. - It's all... 486 00:25:10,378 --> 00:25:11,684 - 100%. Yeah, yeah. - 100%. 487 00:25:11,727 --> 00:25:14,208 I respect him more than anyone. 488 00:25:14,251 --> 00:25:16,384 How does he feel about... 489 00:25:16,427 --> 00:25:19,996 this album and the story of the two of you 490 00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:22,042 - coming through your music? - Yeah. 491 00:25:22,085 --> 00:25:23,870 I mean, we don't sit around and talk about it 492 00:25:23,913 --> 00:25:25,741 like, "How you feeling?" Like, you know, 493 00:25:25,785 --> 00:25:27,502 "Easy on Me" is at 40 million streams, how are you feeling? 494 00:25:27,526 --> 00:25:30,050 Like... we don't talk about it. 495 00:25:30,093 --> 00:25:32,182 But, um, he knows I'm, you know, he knows 496 00:25:32,226 --> 00:25:33,749 what kind of artist I am, like, 497 00:25:33,793 --> 00:25:35,185 and, you know, that I got to... 498 00:25:35,229 --> 00:25:37,579 I have to dig deep and tell my stories. 499 00:25:41,061 --> 00:25:44,586 ♪ 500 00:25:44,630 --> 00:25:47,763 ♪ How can one become so bounded by choices ♪ 501 00:25:47,807 --> 00:25:52,289 ♪ That somebody else makes? ♪ 502 00:25:52,333 --> 00:25:55,379 ♪ How can we both become a version of a person ♪ 503 00:25:55,423 --> 00:25:59,383 ♪ We don't even like? ♪ 504 00:26:00,733 --> 00:26:03,257 ♪ We're in love with the world ♪ 505 00:26:03,300 --> 00:26:07,609 ♪ But the world just wants to bring us down ♪ 506 00:26:08,915 --> 00:26:11,613 ♪ By putting ideas in our heads ♪ 507 00:26:11,657 --> 00:26:15,965 ♪ That corrupt our hearts somehow ♪ 508 00:26:17,924 --> 00:26:20,056 ♪ When I was a child ♪ 509 00:26:20,100 --> 00:26:25,409 ♪ Every single thing could blow my mind ♪ 510 00:26:25,453 --> 00:26:28,064 ♪ Soaking it all up for fun ♪ 511 00:26:28,108 --> 00:26:31,372 ♪ But now I only soak up wine ♪ 512 00:26:34,462 --> 00:26:36,638 ♪ They say to play hard, you work hard ♪ 513 00:26:36,682 --> 00:26:41,295 ♪ Find balance in the sacrifice ♪ 514 00:26:41,338 --> 00:26:44,907 ♪ Yet I don't know anybody ♪ 515 00:26:44,951 --> 00:26:48,824 ♪ Who's truly satisfied ♪ 516 00:26:50,217 --> 00:26:53,655 ♪ You better believe I'm trying ♪ 517 00:26:53,699 --> 00:26:58,486 - ♪ Trying ♪ - ♪ To keep climbing ♪ 518 00:26:58,529 --> 00:27:01,097 - ♪ Climbing ♪ - ♪ But the higher we climb ♪ 519 00:27:01,141 --> 00:27:04,840 ♪ Feels like we're both none the wiser ♪ 520 00:27:06,712 --> 00:27:09,366 ♪ So I hope I learn ♪ 521 00:27:09,410 --> 00:27:14,197 ♪ To get over myself ♪ 522 00:27:14,241 --> 00:27:17,505 ♪ Stop trying to be ♪ 523 00:27:17,548 --> 00:27:22,728 ♪ Somebody else ♪ 524 00:27:22,771 --> 00:27:29,735 ♪ So we can love each other for free ♪ 525 00:27:31,214 --> 00:27:34,565 ♪ Everybody wants something ♪ 526 00:27:34,609 --> 00:27:39,266 ♪ You just want me ♪ 527 00:27:40,746 --> 00:27:42,965 ♪ Why am I obsessing about ♪ 528 00:27:43,009 --> 00:27:46,621 ♪ The things I can't control? ♪ 529 00:27:48,231 --> 00:27:50,930 ♪ Why am I seeking approval ♪ 530 00:27:50,973 --> 00:27:55,282 ♪ From people I don't even know? ♪ 531 00:27:56,718 --> 00:27:59,547 ♪ In these crazy times I hope to find ♪ 532 00:27:59,590 --> 00:28:04,683 ♪ Something I can cling on to ♪ 533 00:28:04,726 --> 00:28:07,555 ♪ 'Cause I need some substance in my life ♪ 534 00:28:07,598 --> 00:28:10,819 ♪ Something real, something that feels true ♪ 535 00:28:12,908 --> 00:28:17,217 ♪ You better believe for you I've cried ♪ 536 00:28:17,260 --> 00:28:21,917 ♪ High tides ♪ 537 00:28:21,961 --> 00:28:24,093 ♪ I want you so bad ♪ 538 00:28:24,137 --> 00:28:26,574 ♪ But you can't fight fire with fire ♪ 539 00:28:29,185 --> 00:28:36,105 ♪ Oh, I hope I learn to get over myself ♪ 540 00:28:37,411 --> 00:28:41,154 ♪ Stop trying to be ♪ 541 00:28:41,197 --> 00:28:45,462 ♪ Somebody else ♪ 542 00:28:45,506 --> 00:28:48,639 ♪ Oh, I just want to love you ♪ 543 00:28:48,683 --> 00:28:52,687 ♪ Love you for free ♪ 544 00:28:53,862 --> 00:28:57,474 ♪ 'Cause everybody wants something from me ♪ 545 00:28:57,518 --> 00:29:01,740 ♪ You just want me ♪ 546 00:29:03,480 --> 00:29:06,222 ♪ Listen, I know how low I can go ♪ 547 00:29:06,266 --> 00:29:11,793 ♪ I give as good as I get ♪ 548 00:29:11,837 --> 00:29:14,622 ♪ You get the brunt of it all ♪ 549 00:29:14,665 --> 00:29:16,580 ♪ 'Cause you're all I've got ♪ 550 00:29:16,624 --> 00:29:19,627 ♪ Left ♪ 551 00:29:19,670 --> 00:29:22,325 ♪ Oh, I hope in time ♪ 552 00:29:22,369 --> 00:29:27,417 ♪ We both will find peace of mind ♪ 553 00:29:27,461 --> 00:29:30,203 ♪ Sometimes the road less traveled ♪ 554 00:29:30,246 --> 00:29:33,554 ♪ Is a road best left behind ♪ 555 00:29:34,773 --> 00:29:38,124 ♪ Oh, I hope I learn ♪ 556 00:29:38,167 --> 00:29:42,519 ♪ To get over myself ♪ 557 00:29:43,607 --> 00:29:47,176 ♪ Stop trying to be ♪ 558 00:29:47,220 --> 00:29:51,659 ♪ Somebody else ♪ 559 00:29:51,702 --> 00:29:55,358 ♪ So I just want to love you ♪ 560 00:29:55,402 --> 00:29:59,493 ♪ Love you for free, yeah ♪ 561 00:29:59,536 --> 00:30:02,975 ♪ 'Cause everybody wants something from me ♪ 562 00:30:03,018 --> 00:30:08,154 ♪ You just want me ♪ 563 00:30:08,197 --> 00:30:12,549 ♪ You better believe I'm trying ♪ 564 00:30:12,593 --> 00:30:14,160 ♪ Trying ♪ 565 00:30:14,203 --> 00:30:16,858 ♪ To keep climbing ♪ 566 00:30:16,902 --> 00:30:19,730 - ♪ Climbing ♪ - ♪ But the higher we climb ♪ 567 00:30:19,774 --> 00:30:26,085 ♪ Feels like we're both none the wiser. ♪ 568 00:30:44,930 --> 00:30:49,151 This next one is a golden oldie, I would say. 569 00:30:49,195 --> 00:30:51,719 And, um, yeah, it's the first time 570 00:30:51,762 --> 00:30:54,026 I've sung it in public since, um, 571 00:30:54,069 --> 00:30:55,897 since everything went down. All right. 572 00:30:55,941 --> 00:30:58,813 You ready? Ready, Eric? 573 00:31:13,262 --> 00:31:16,831 ♪ I heard ♪ 574 00:31:16,875 --> 00:31:20,574 ♪ That you're settled down ♪ 575 00:31:20,617 --> 00:31:24,186 ♪ That you found a girl ♪ 576 00:31:24,230 --> 00:31:29,365 ♪ And you're married now ♪ 577 00:31:29,409 --> 00:31:34,936 ♪ I heard that your dreams came true ♪ 578 00:31:34,980 --> 00:31:38,940 ♪ Guess she gave you things ♪ 579 00:31:38,984 --> 00:31:42,813 ♪ I didn't give to you ♪ 580 00:31:42,857 --> 00:31:49,733 ♪ Old friend, why are you so shy? ♪ 581 00:31:49,777 --> 00:31:53,607 ♪ Ain't like you to hold back ♪ 582 00:31:53,650 --> 00:31:57,437 ♪ Or hide from the light ♪ 583 00:31:57,480 --> 00:32:00,962 ♪ I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited ♪ 584 00:32:01,006 --> 00:32:05,184 ♪ But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it ♪ 585 00:32:05,227 --> 00:32:07,012 ♪ I had hoped you'd see my face ♪ 586 00:32:07,055 --> 00:32:09,797 ♪ And that you'd be reminded that for me ♪ 587 00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:14,193 ♪ It isn't over ♪ 588 00:32:14,236 --> 00:32:20,590 ♪ Never mind, I'll find someone like you ♪ 589 00:32:20,634 --> 00:32:27,815 ♪ I wish nothing but the best for you, too ♪ 590 00:32:27,858 --> 00:32:31,558 ♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪ 591 00:32:31,601 --> 00:32:36,998 ♪ I remember you said sometimes it lasts in love ♪ 592 00:32:37,042 --> 00:32:42,177 ♪ But sometimes it hurts instead ♪ 593 00:32:42,221 --> 00:32:45,006 ♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪ 594 00:32:45,050 --> 00:32:48,749 ♪ But sometimes it hurts instead ♪ 595 00:32:48,792 --> 00:32:50,664 ♪ Yeah ♪ 596 00:32:53,232 --> 00:32:58,672 ♪ You know how the time flies ♪ 597 00:32:58,715 --> 00:33:06,114 ♪ Only yesterday it was the time of our lives ♪ 598 00:33:06,158 --> 00:33:13,339 ♪ We were born and raised in a summer haze ♪ 599 00:33:13,382 --> 00:33:16,995 ♪ Bound by the surprise ♪ 600 00:33:17,038 --> 00:33:21,434 ♪ Of our glory days ♪ 601 00:33:21,477 --> 00:33:24,785 ♪ I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited ♪ 602 00:33:24,828 --> 00:33:27,396 ♪ But I couldn't stay away ♪ 603 00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:29,050 ♪ I couldn't fight it ♪ 604 00:33:29,094 --> 00:33:30,573 ♪ I had hoped you'd see my face ♪ 605 00:33:30,617 --> 00:33:32,227 ♪ And that you'd be reminded ♪ 606 00:33:32,271 --> 00:33:38,277 ♪ That for me, it isn't over yet ♪ 607 00:33:39,887 --> 00:33:45,849 ♪ Never mind, I'll find someone like you ♪ 608 00:33:45,893 --> 00:33:53,509 ♪ I wish nothing but the best for you, too ♪ 609 00:33:53,553 --> 00:33:56,860 ♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪ 610 00:33:56,904 --> 00:34:00,516 ♪ I remember you said ♪ 611 00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:03,171 ♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪ 612 00:34:03,215 --> 00:34:06,740 ♪ But sometimes it hurts instead ♪ 613 00:34:06,783 --> 00:34:08,872 ♪ Yeah ♪ 614 00:34:08,916 --> 00:34:12,398 ♪ Nothing compares, no worries or cares ♪ 615 00:34:12,441 --> 00:34:16,097 ♪ Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made ♪ 616 00:34:16,141 --> 00:34:21,189 ♪ Who would have known how bittersweet ♪ 617 00:34:21,233 --> 00:34:24,845 ♪ This would taste? ♪ 618 00:34:27,239 --> 00:34:33,462 ♪ Never mind, I'll find someone like you ♪ 619 00:34:33,506 --> 00:34:40,513 ♪ I wish nothing but the best for you, too ♪ 620 00:34:40,556 --> 00:34:44,299 ♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪ 621 00:34:44,343 --> 00:34:47,781 ♪ I remember you said ♪ 622 00:34:47,824 --> 00:34:50,305 ♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪ 623 00:34:50,349 --> 00:34:54,875 ♪ But sometimes it hurts instead ♪ 624 00:34:56,442 --> 00:35:02,143 ♪ Never mind, I'll find someone like you ♪ 625 00:35:02,187 --> 00:35:06,147 ♪ I wish nothing but the best ♪ 626 00:35:06,191 --> 00:35:09,281 ♪ For you, too ♪ 627 00:35:09,324 --> 00:35:13,285 ♪ Don't forget me, I beg ♪ 628 00:35:13,328 --> 00:35:16,723 ♪ I remember you said ♪ 629 00:35:16,766 --> 00:35:19,160 ♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪ 630 00:35:19,204 --> 00:35:23,991 ♪ But sometimes it hurts instead ♪ 631 00:35:24,034 --> 00:35:26,820 ♪ Sometimes it lasts in love ♪ 632 00:35:26,863 --> 00:35:30,737 ♪ But sometimes it hurts instead ♪ 633 00:35:30,780 --> 00:35:34,088 ♪ Yeah. ♪ 634 00:35:49,582 --> 00:35:53,368 Coming up, Adele organizes a special surprise. 635 00:35:53,412 --> 00:35:55,501 I need every single person to be really bloody quiet. 636 00:35:55,544 --> 00:35:57,459 All right? 637 00:36:10,385 --> 00:36:13,606 ♪ 638 00:36:19,089 --> 00:36:23,268 ♪ Everybody loves the things you do ♪ 639 00:36:23,311 --> 00:36:26,880 ♪ From the way you talk ♪ 640 00:36:26,923 --> 00:36:31,363 ♪ To the way you move ♪ 641 00:36:31,406 --> 00:36:36,716 ♪ Everybody here is watching you ♪ 642 00:36:36,759 --> 00:36:40,154 ♪ 'Cause you feel like home ♪ 643 00:36:40,198 --> 00:36:43,462 ♪ You're like a dream come true ♪ 644 00:36:45,159 --> 00:36:49,990 ♪ But if by chance you're here alone ♪ 645 00:36:50,033 --> 00:36:53,559 ♪ Can I have a moment ♪ 646 00:36:53,602 --> 00:36:58,694 ♪ Before I go? ♪ 647 00:36:58,738 --> 00:37:01,001 ♪ 'Cause I've been by myself ♪ 648 00:37:01,044 --> 00:37:03,308 ♪ All night long ♪ 649 00:37:03,351 --> 00:37:07,225 ♪ Hoping you're someone ♪ 650 00:37:07,268 --> 00:37:10,750 ♪ I used to know ♪ 651 00:37:10,793 --> 00:37:13,231 ♪ You look like a movie ♪ 652 00:37:13,274 --> 00:37:16,582 ♪ You sound like a song ♪ 653 00:37:16,625 --> 00:37:19,933 ♪ My God, this reminds me ♪ 654 00:37:19,976 --> 00:37:24,372 ♪ Of when we were young ♪ 655 00:37:24,416 --> 00:37:27,593 ♪ Let me photograph you in this light ♪ 656 00:37:27,636 --> 00:37:32,119 ♪ In case it is the last time that we might ♪ 657 00:37:32,162 --> 00:37:35,078 ♪ Be exactly like we were ♪ 658 00:37:35,122 --> 00:37:37,167 ♪ Before we realized ♪ 659 00:37:37,211 --> 00:37:40,214 ♪ We were sad of getting old ♪ 660 00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:42,912 ♪ It made us restless ♪ 661 00:37:42,956 --> 00:37:46,394 ♪ It was just like a movie ♪ 662 00:37:46,438 --> 00:37:49,789 ♪ Just like a song ♪ 663 00:37:51,486 --> 00:37:56,665 ♪ I was so scared to face my fears ♪ 664 00:37:56,709 --> 00:38:03,237 ♪ Nobody told me that you'd be here ♪ 665 00:38:05,370 --> 00:38:09,722 ♪ And I swear you'd moved overseas ♪ 666 00:38:09,765 --> 00:38:13,726 ♪ 'Cause that's what you said ♪ 667 00:38:13,769 --> 00:38:16,424 ♪ When you left me ♪ 668 00:38:16,468 --> 00:38:19,558 ♪ You still look like a movie ♪ 669 00:38:19,601 --> 00:38:23,910 ♪ You still sound like a song ♪ 670 00:38:23,953 --> 00:38:26,478 ♪ My God, this reminds me ♪ 671 00:38:26,521 --> 00:38:30,438 ♪ Of when we were young ♪ 672 00:38:30,482 --> 00:38:34,268 ♪ Let me photograph you in this light ♪ 673 00:38:34,312 --> 00:38:39,186 ♪ In case it is the last time that we might ♪ 674 00:38:39,229 --> 00:38:41,754 ♪ Be exactly like we were ♪ 675 00:38:41,797 --> 00:38:43,756 ♪ Before we realized ♪ 676 00:38:43,799 --> 00:38:46,976 ♪ We were sad of getting old ♪ 677 00:38:47,020 --> 00:38:49,762 ♪ It made us restless ♪ 678 00:38:49,805 --> 00:38:53,156 ♪ It was just like a movie ♪ 679 00:38:53,200 --> 00:38:56,769 ♪ It was just like a song ♪ 680 00:38:56,812 --> 00:38:59,902 ♪ When we were young ♪ 681 00:38:59,946 --> 00:39:04,211 ♪ When we were young ♪ 682 00:39:04,254 --> 00:39:06,648 ♪ When we were young ♪ 683 00:39:06,692 --> 00:39:10,217 ♪ When we were young ♪ 684 00:39:10,260 --> 00:39:14,395 ♪ It's hard to admit that ♪ 685 00:39:14,439 --> 00:39:17,050 ♪ Everything just takes me back ♪ 686 00:39:17,093 --> 00:39:20,053 ♪ To when you were there ♪ 687 00:39:20,096 --> 00:39:23,143 ♪ To when you were there ♪ 688 00:39:24,492 --> 00:39:27,365 ♪ And a part of me keeps holding on ♪ 689 00:39:27,408 --> 00:39:31,064 ♪ Just in case it hasn't gone ♪ 690 00:39:31,107 --> 00:39:33,414 ♪ I guess I still care ♪ 691 00:39:33,458 --> 00:39:36,939 ♪ Do you still care? ♪ 692 00:39:36,983 --> 00:39:40,334 ♪ It was just like a movie ♪ 693 00:39:40,378 --> 00:39:43,424 ♪ It was just like a song ♪ 694 00:39:43,468 --> 00:39:46,645 ♪ My God, this reminds me ♪ 695 00:39:46,688 --> 00:39:51,563 ♪ Of when we were young ♪ 696 00:39:51,606 --> 00:39:54,740 ♪ When we were young ♪ 697 00:39:54,783 --> 00:39:57,264 ♪ When we were young ♪ 698 00:39:57,307 --> 00:40:00,485 ♪ When we were young ♪ 699 00:40:00,528 --> 00:40:03,009 ♪ When we were young ♪ 700 00:40:04,837 --> 00:40:08,057 ♪ Let me photograph you in this light ♪ 701 00:40:08,101 --> 00:40:10,756 ♪ In case it is the last time ♪ 702 00:40:10,799 --> 00:40:14,107 ♪ That we might be exactly like we were ♪ 703 00:40:14,150 --> 00:40:16,892 ♪ Before we realized ♪ 704 00:40:16,936 --> 00:40:19,765 ♪ We were sad of getting old ♪ 705 00:40:19,808 --> 00:40:22,420 ♪ It made us restless ♪ 706 00:40:22,463 --> 00:40:26,293 ♪ Oh, I'm so mad I'm getting old ♪ 707 00:40:26,336 --> 00:40:28,948 ♪ It makes me reckless ♪ 708 00:40:28,991 --> 00:40:32,473 ♪ It was just like a movie ♪ 709 00:40:32,517 --> 00:40:36,912 ♪ It was just like a song ♪ 710 00:40:36,956 --> 00:40:42,135 ♪ When we were young. ♪ 711 00:40:45,138 --> 00:40:46,792 Thank you very much. 712 00:40:51,057 --> 00:40:53,102 You know, um... 713 00:40:53,146 --> 00:40:55,235 this is the first time... I got to perch like this 714 00:40:55,278 --> 00:40:57,324 since I can't sit in this mermaid dress. 715 00:40:59,065 --> 00:41:01,894 I feel like my whole campaign so far with my outfits 716 00:41:01,937 --> 00:41:04,679 is a bit Death Becomes Her. 717 00:41:04,723 --> 00:41:09,641 Sometimes I'm Hel and sometimes I'm Mad, you know. 718 00:41:09,684 --> 00:41:11,991 Anyway, this is the first time that my son 719 00:41:12,034 --> 00:41:13,340 has ever seen me perform. 720 00:41:13,383 --> 00:41:14,994 And I got really... 721 00:41:15,037 --> 00:41:16,604 Oh, and he dressed up for me. 722 00:41:16,648 --> 00:41:18,452 It was... I'm not gonna cry. Anyway, it's too... 723 00:41:18,476 --> 00:41:21,304 it's too soon to cry and I don't want anyone to come fix my face. 724 00:41:21,348 --> 00:41:24,090 But, um, it's the absolute honor of my life, baby, 725 00:41:24,133 --> 00:41:26,005 to have you here tonight. 726 00:41:26,048 --> 00:41:28,181 And you look so beautiful, and so handsome and smart. 727 00:41:29,835 --> 00:41:33,360 So many women, Adele, 728 00:41:33,403 --> 00:41:35,014 are going to be liberated, I think, 729 00:41:35,057 --> 00:41:40,236 by listening to you because so many 730 00:41:40,280 --> 00:41:43,152 women specifically choose to stay on 731 00:41:43,196 --> 00:41:45,807 in relationships when 732 00:41:45,851 --> 00:41:48,549 they know it's not working, and they do it for the kids. 733 00:41:48,593 --> 00:41:54,076 And I've read where you said you weren't miserablemiserable, 734 00:41:54,120 --> 00:41:56,426 -but you also knew you weren't happy. - Yeah. 735 00:41:56,470 --> 00:41:59,734 And so, you wanted to bring a happy version 736 00:41:59,778 --> 00:42:01,910 - of yourself to your son. - Mm-hmm. 737 00:42:01,954 --> 00:42:04,086 - Yes. - Which I think is about 738 00:42:04,130 --> 00:42:06,306 the best gift anybody can give to their children. 739 00:42:06,349 --> 00:42:08,961 I think, I think it's the same as, 740 00:42:09,004 --> 00:42:11,354 you know, the same drive as staying in a relationship 741 00:42:11,398 --> 00:42:13,419 even though you're not happy and you do it for the kids, 742 00:42:13,443 --> 00:42:14,749 I think it's as loving 743 00:42:14,793 --> 00:42:16,403 as doing that for the kids by leaving 744 00:42:16,446 --> 00:42:18,710 and-and, you know, finding your own happiness 745 00:42:18,753 --> 00:42:21,190 so that they really know who you are. 746 00:42:21,234 --> 00:42:23,715 But I'm still not fully over it, 747 00:42:23,758 --> 00:42:27,545 of me choosing to dismantle my child's life 748 00:42:27,588 --> 00:42:29,372 - for my own... - Mm-hmm. 749 00:42:29,416 --> 00:42:31,244 Makes me very uncomfortable. 750 00:42:31,287 --> 00:42:32,593 You still feel guilt? 751 00:42:32,637 --> 00:42:35,727 I don't feel guilt, I just feel... 752 00:42:35,770 --> 00:42:38,425 somewhat selfish sometimes, but, like, I-I know that 753 00:42:38,468 --> 00:42:40,906 I'm-I'm nearing my goal of, like, 754 00:42:40,949 --> 00:42:42,864 finding my happiness, like, you know. 755 00:42:42,908 --> 00:42:44,779 And it's been... No one ever makes me 756 00:42:44,823 --> 00:42:46,496 do anything I don't want and it was just like... 757 00:42:46,520 --> 00:42:48,435 But I was really ignoring myself. 758 00:42:48,478 --> 00:42:50,611 - Yeah. - For a long time, which was wild to me 759 00:42:50,655 --> 00:42:52,004 when I realized it; and I knew 760 00:42:52,047 --> 00:42:54,615 that as an adult, Angelo would be livid 761 00:42:54,659 --> 00:42:56,356 - with me for doing that. - Mm-hmm. 762 00:42:56,399 --> 00:42:58,184 I knew that when he became an adult, 763 00:42:58,227 --> 00:43:01,579 that he'd be furious at me and I didn't want that, either. 764 00:43:01,622 --> 00:43:03,034 But it was, it was, it was hard work. 765 00:43:03,058 --> 00:43:04,712 So, this whole album is dedicated to him. 766 00:43:04,756 --> 00:43:07,149 Yes. Yeah, and the whole album 767 00:43:07,193 --> 00:43:09,369 is not about him, it's about me. 768 00:43:09,412 --> 00:43:12,198 And I just wanted for him to hear me 769 00:43:12,241 --> 00:43:14,766 talking mad... madly deeply, 770 00:43:14,809 --> 00:43:17,551 about who I am and how I feel, like, you know. 771 00:43:17,595 --> 00:43:19,224 And I don't know if I'd ever be able to have that conversation 772 00:43:19,248 --> 00:43:21,468 with him in real life, so therefore he can go 773 00:43:21,511 --> 00:43:23,165 and listen to it. 774 00:43:23,209 --> 00:43:25,385 Well, everything on the album is certainly a starter 775 00:43:25,428 --> 00:43:26,734 for a great conversation. 776 00:43:26,778 --> 00:43:30,738 So, does Angelo know that you are Adele? 777 00:43:30,782 --> 00:43:33,393 No, apart from the other day, 778 00:43:33,436 --> 00:43:34,873 he watched the "Easy on Me" video... 779 00:43:34,916 --> 00:43:36,657 Like countdown to when it premiered. 780 00:43:36,701 --> 00:43:39,312 - Yeah. - Wherever, whatever. I didn't watch that. 781 00:43:39,355 --> 00:43:41,227 And, um, he was like, "There was, like, 782 00:43:41,270 --> 00:43:43,969 150,000 people waiting," and, like, blah-blah-blah. 783 00:43:44,012 --> 00:43:46,493 And he was like, "You had all these likes." 784 00:43:46,536 --> 00:43:48,582 And then he read the comments and then... 785 00:43:48,626 --> 00:43:50,323 he was like, "People really like you." 786 00:43:50,366 --> 00:43:52,151 Like, so he's-he's starting... 787 00:43:52,194 --> 00:43:54,719 - Starting to get it? - to get it a little bit, 788 00:43:54,762 --> 00:43:56,546 - but not really. - Didn't you take him 789 00:43:56,590 --> 00:43:58,046 to a Taylor Swift concert and he was like... 790 00:43:58,070 --> 00:43:59,724 He loved it. 791 00:43:59,767 --> 00:44:01,440 He couldn't believe that all those people were in there? 792 00:44:01,464 --> 00:44:03,355 Yeah, because he used to come to my stadium shows 793 00:44:03,379 --> 00:44:05,425 for my rehearsals and it would be empty. 794 00:44:05,468 --> 00:44:08,210 He was like, "So many people come to her shows." 795 00:44:08,254 --> 00:44:10,082 But I'd make him leave before they all arrive. 796 00:44:10,125 --> 00:44:13,302 It was so cute and so funny; he loved it, yeah. 797 00:44:13,346 --> 00:44:15,000 - He's never seen you perform live? - No. 798 00:44:15,043 --> 00:44:18,133 - No, this will be his first time. - Wow. 799 00:44:18,177 --> 00:44:20,092 - Yeah. - Yes. Do you want more children? 800 00:44:20,135 --> 00:44:22,703 I'm-I'm definitely open to it. 801 00:44:22,747 --> 00:44:24,681 I would like more children. It wouldn't be the end 802 00:44:24,705 --> 00:44:26,620 of the world if I don't have them, 803 00:44:26,664 --> 00:44:29,362 'cause I have Angelo, but yeah, I think so. 804 00:44:29,405 --> 00:44:33,279 Every mother and father has a dream for their children. 805 00:44:33,322 --> 00:44:38,023 And even when you have a big, accessed life as you do, 806 00:44:38,066 --> 00:44:40,112 and can give your children any dreams that 807 00:44:40,155 --> 00:44:41,287 - they can imagine... - Yeah. 808 00:44:41,330 --> 00:44:42,680 Actually I think 809 00:44:42,723 --> 00:44:45,204 it's more challenging to raise children 810 00:44:45,247 --> 00:44:47,249 who are kind and have their own ambition... 811 00:44:47,293 --> 00:44:49,730 - Yeah. Absolutely. - when they have you. 812 00:44:49,774 --> 00:44:53,125 So, what is the dream you hold for him? 813 00:44:53,168 --> 00:44:56,128 Just to be a good person, be a good and happy person. 814 00:44:56,171 --> 00:44:58,957 That's it. I don't expect anything of him. 815 00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:02,308 I don't care what his career is, as long as he's passionate about 816 00:45:02,351 --> 00:45:05,572 whatever it is that he does and that he's happy. 817 00:45:12,927 --> 00:45:15,756 So now this is the big surprise and I'm very, very excited. 818 00:45:15,800 --> 00:45:17,627 I hope we can pull it off. 819 00:45:17,671 --> 00:45:22,545 So, tonight we've arranged... 820 00:45:22,589 --> 00:45:25,374 I'm a bit nervous in case it doesn't go well. 821 00:45:25,418 --> 00:45:27,463 It's also a bit ironic that I'm... that I'm 822 00:45:27,507 --> 00:45:29,901 letting this happen tonight. We've arranged a surprise 823 00:45:29,944 --> 00:45:32,120 for a lovely guy called Quentin, 824 00:45:32,164 --> 00:45:36,908 who reached out to a, now, fake show asking for some help, 825 00:45:36,951 --> 00:45:40,128 so... whew, make me all nervous. 826 00:45:40,172 --> 00:45:41,671 Quentin has been with his girlfriend Ashley 827 00:45:41,695 --> 00:45:43,131 for seven years. 828 00:45:43,175 --> 00:45:44,805 Seven years is, like, normally like, you know, 829 00:45:44,829 --> 00:45:47,135 you either say yes or you say no to, like, life together. 830 00:45:47,179 --> 00:45:48,484 Seven-year itch. 831 00:45:48,528 --> 00:45:50,225 She's a chef... She's a vegan chef. 832 00:45:50,269 --> 00:45:52,793 She's always at work, but tonight Quentin told Ashley 833 00:45:52,837 --> 00:45:55,448 that they were having a date night and so 834 00:45:55,491 --> 00:45:57,450 we're going to make that date night really, 835 00:45:57,493 --> 00:46:00,235 really memorable. So now, earlier today 836 00:46:00,279 --> 00:46:02,455 Ashley and Quentin were picked up in a car. 837 00:46:02,498 --> 00:46:05,110 And they came to this park, to Griffith Park, 838 00:46:05,153 --> 00:46:07,218 and at the bottom of the hill down there they've been 839 00:46:07,242 --> 00:46:09,592 having a beautiful picnic pretty much all day. 840 00:46:09,636 --> 00:46:11,788 Quentin told Ashley that he's planned a small surprise to 841 00:46:11,812 --> 00:46:15,511 celebrate the fact that she just got her first big catering job. 842 00:46:15,555 --> 00:46:17,078 Also, I love a surprise. 843 00:46:17,122 --> 00:46:19,515 Also love dress-up. Right, so she... 844 00:46:19,559 --> 00:46:21,996 Blindfolded her... Bit kinky but you know... 845 00:46:22,040 --> 00:46:24,129 And he's given her noise-canceling headphones 846 00:46:24,172 --> 00:46:27,349 so that she can't hear what we've been doing up here, 847 00:46:27,393 --> 00:46:29,003 this concert tonight. 848 00:46:29,047 --> 00:46:30,447 And even though they're in the area, 849 00:46:30,483 --> 00:46:32,180 she has absolutely no idea where she is 850 00:46:32,224 --> 00:46:35,357 or where she's going, so... 851 00:46:35,401 --> 00:46:38,099 I need every single person to be really bloody quiet. 852 00:46:38,143 --> 00:46:39,797 All right? 853 00:46:41,320 --> 00:46:43,452 Let's turn the lights down. If you, if you 854 00:46:43,496 --> 00:46:44,865 make a noise, I'm going to kill you. 855 00:46:44,889 --> 00:46:45,846 Turn the lights down. 856 00:46:45,890 --> 00:46:47,587 Turn the lights down. 857 00:46:56,639 --> 00:46:59,251 What are we doing, Quentin? 858 00:47:13,700 --> 00:47:16,094 - All right, listen. - Okay. 859 00:47:16,137 --> 00:47:18,270 Take the blindfold off, okay? 860 00:47:18,313 --> 00:47:19,793 When you squeeze my hand? 861 00:47:19,837 --> 00:47:22,404 - Yes. - Am I on grass? 862 00:47:22,448 --> 00:47:23,884 - Shh. - Oh, shoot. 863 00:47:25,930 --> 00:47:26,974 Quentin... 864 00:47:28,193 --> 00:47:30,978 Take it off? Take it off? 865 00:47:31,022 --> 00:47:32,762 - Oh... - Babe, look at me. 866 00:47:32,806 --> 00:47:34,852 Look at me, look at me, look at me, look at me. 867 00:47:34,895 --> 00:47:35,916 - Look at me. - Oh, my God. 868 00:47:35,940 --> 00:47:37,376 Look at me. 869 00:47:37,419 --> 00:47:38,986 Listen. 870 00:47:39,030 --> 00:47:41,162 - First of all... Listen. - What are you doing? 871 00:47:41,206 --> 00:47:45,558 Listen, I want to say thank you, okay? 872 00:47:45,601 --> 00:47:46,994 What are you doing? 873 00:47:47,038 --> 00:47:48,406 I want to thank you for being so patient 874 00:47:48,430 --> 00:47:49,867 - with me. - Oh, Quentin Brunson... 875 00:47:49,910 --> 00:47:52,913 Listen, thank you for being patient with me. 876 00:47:52,957 --> 00:47:54,915 Um... 877 00:47:54,959 --> 00:47:58,527 - You're crazy, man. - I am extremely proud of you. 878 00:47:58,571 --> 00:48:02,009 And, I mean, every day you blow my mind. 879 00:48:02,053 --> 00:48:04,098 Oh, my God. Where are we? 880 00:48:04,142 --> 00:48:08,189 There's absolutely nothing that you cannot do. 881 00:48:08,233 --> 00:48:09,974 And I just know that you're going to be 882 00:48:10,017 --> 00:48:12,628 an amazing mother to our kids one day. 883 00:48:14,326 --> 00:48:17,851 And, um... 884 00:48:17,895 --> 00:48:19,722 - And I love you. - Is this real? 885 00:48:19,766 --> 00:48:22,160 I love you. I love you. 886 00:48:22,203 --> 00:48:25,946 I love you. And I will continue to love you 887 00:48:25,990 --> 00:48:28,122 forever. Ashley... 888 00:48:28,166 --> 00:48:30,255 Am I awake? 889 00:48:31,996 --> 00:48:34,912 - Who are these people? - This is real. This is real. 890 00:48:37,827 --> 00:48:40,918 - Oh, my God. - Ashley. 891 00:48:40,961 --> 00:48:42,615 - All right. - It's been... 892 00:48:42,658 --> 00:48:45,226 Thank God you didn't let me eat. I would have thrown up. 893 00:48:48,490 --> 00:48:50,579 This has been a long time coming. 894 00:48:50,623 --> 00:48:52,296 Oh, my God, I've been your girlfriend for so long. 895 00:48:52,320 --> 00:48:56,890 Well, babe... 896 00:48:56,934 --> 00:48:59,197 - Oh, my God. - Will... Okay. 897 00:48:59,240 --> 00:49:00,720 Oh, my God. 898 00:49:00,763 --> 00:49:03,244 Will you marry me, little Ashley? 899 00:49:03,288 --> 00:49:05,246 - In real life? - In real life. 900 00:49:06,682 --> 00:49:07,988 - Yeah. - Yes? 901 00:49:09,076 --> 00:49:11,035 Oy, oy! 902 00:49:12,253 --> 00:49:15,778 ♪ 903 00:49:15,822 --> 00:49:18,477 Hello, Ashley. Hi. 904 00:49:19,957 --> 00:49:23,961 Hi, Quentin. You all right? 905 00:49:26,006 --> 00:49:28,661 Go sit front row. Go... go sit down and enjoy the show. 906 00:49:28,704 --> 00:49:30,402 Am I alive? 907 00:49:31,446 --> 00:49:33,033 Thank God she said yes, 'cause I didn't know 908 00:49:33,057 --> 00:49:34,904 who I was going to have to sing this song to next, 909 00:49:34,928 --> 00:49:36,016 you or him. 910 00:49:36,060 --> 00:49:37,800 Oh, my God, look at her... 911 00:49:37,844 --> 00:49:39,106 She's so in shock. 912 00:49:39,150 --> 00:49:40,673 Ha ha! 913 00:49:42,501 --> 00:49:44,807 Oh, that was lovely... A little cry. 914 00:49:44,851 --> 00:49:46,287 Okay... 915 00:49:46,331 --> 00:49:48,202 All right, here we go. This is for you two. 916 00:49:51,510 --> 00:49:54,034 ♪ 917 00:49:54,078 --> 00:50:00,388 ♪ When the rain is blowing in your face ♪ 918 00:50:00,432 --> 00:50:06,264 ♪ And the whole world is on your case ♪ 919 00:50:07,830 --> 00:50:12,705 ♪ I could offer you a warm embrace ♪ 920 00:50:14,141 --> 00:50:18,493 ♪ To make you feel my love ♪ 921 00:50:20,713 --> 00:50:26,153 ♪ When the evening shadows and the stars appear ♪ 922 00:50:27,415 --> 00:50:32,855 ♪ And there is no one there to dry your tears ♪ 923 00:50:34,292 --> 00:50:39,819 ♪ I could hold you for a million years ♪ 924 00:50:40,820 --> 00:50:45,651 ♪ To make you feel my love ♪ 925 00:50:47,435 --> 00:50:52,832 ♪ I know you haven't made your mind up yet ♪ 926 00:50:54,138 --> 00:50:58,838 ♪ But I would never do you wrong ♪ 927 00:51:00,535 --> 00:51:06,628 ♪ I've known it from the moment that we met ♪ 928 00:51:06,672 --> 00:51:10,763 ♪ No doubt in my mind where you belong ♪ 929 00:51:10,806 --> 00:51:12,547 She's cryin' her eyes out. 930 00:51:14,332 --> 00:51:19,380 ♪ I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue ♪ 931 00:51:21,121 --> 00:51:26,692 ♪ And I'd go crawling down the avenue ♪ 932 00:51:27,910 --> 00:51:33,916 ♪ No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do ♪ 933 00:51:33,960 --> 00:51:38,138 ♪ To make you feel my love ♪ 934 00:51:38,182 --> 00:51:40,445 ♪ Yeah ♪ 935 00:51:40,488 --> 00:51:44,753 ♪ 936 00:51:49,193 --> 00:51:53,675 ♪ 937 00:52:07,559 --> 00:52:10,083 ♪ The storms are raging on ♪ 938 00:52:10,127 --> 00:52:13,130 ♪ The rollin' seas ♪ 939 00:52:14,218 --> 00:52:19,484 ♪ And on the highway of regret ♪ 940 00:52:20,746 --> 00:52:23,183 ♪ The winds of change are blowing ♪ 941 00:52:23,227 --> 00:52:26,926 ♪ Wild and free ♪ 942 00:52:26,969 --> 00:52:33,193 ♪ You ain't seen nothing like me yet ♪ 943 00:52:33,237 --> 00:52:40,331 ♪ I can make you happy, make your dreams come true ♪ 944 00:52:40,374 --> 00:52:46,163 ♪ Nothing that I wouldn't do ♪ 945 00:52:47,251 --> 00:52:52,604 ♪ Go to the ends of this earth for you ♪ 946 00:52:53,953 --> 00:52:58,218 ♪ To make you feel my love ♪ 947 00:52:58,262 --> 00:53:01,003 ♪ Lord, I ♪ 948 00:53:01,047 --> 00:53:06,531 ♪ To make you feel my ♪ 949 00:53:08,794 --> 00:53:10,970 ♪ Love. ♪ 950 00:53:11,013 --> 00:53:13,102 Congratulations. 951 00:53:18,151 --> 00:53:19,979 How do you start dating again? 952 00:53:20,022 --> 00:53:22,111 I mean, you can't go on a dating app. Do you, like... 953 00:53:22,155 --> 00:53:23,896 - No. - take advice from friends 954 00:53:23,939 --> 00:53:25,499 or somebody says, "Oh, I know somebody"? 955 00:53:30,468 --> 00:53:32,861 Let's go to the question everybody wants to know. 956 00:53:32,905 --> 00:53:34,428 - Oh. - One of the questions 957 00:53:34,472 --> 00:53:35,884 certainly is this whole weight thing. 958 00:53:35,908 --> 00:53:38,040 - Mm-hmm. - And you lost 959 00:53:38,084 --> 00:53:40,391 - a hundred pounds in two years. - Around that, yeah. 960 00:53:40,434 --> 00:53:42,282 - Around that? A hundred pounds in two years. - Around, yeah. 961 00:53:42,306 --> 00:53:44,960 And then you said it wasn't even really about the weight. 962 00:53:45,004 --> 00:53:46,484 - No. - So what was it about? 963 00:53:46,527 --> 00:53:48,660 It was about my anxiety mainly. 964 00:53:48,703 --> 00:53:52,141 I had the most terrifying anxiety attacks 965 00:53:52,185 --> 00:53:53,621 after I left my marriage. 966 00:53:53,665 --> 00:53:55,710 They'd paralyze me completely 967 00:53:55,754 --> 00:53:57,799 and made me so confused because I wouldn't be 968 00:53:57,843 --> 00:53:59,497 able to have any control over my body. 969 00:53:59,540 --> 00:54:02,717 But I knew that I-I was aware of it all happening. 970 00:54:02,761 --> 00:54:04,850 It was like I was still very much there 971 00:54:04,893 --> 00:54:07,548 while my whole body was just, like, on another planet 972 00:54:07,592 --> 00:54:08,810 it felt like, you know? 973 00:54:08,854 --> 00:54:10,290 And I've always worked out a bit. 974 00:54:10,334 --> 00:54:11,659 You know, a couple times a week for my back. 975 00:54:11,683 --> 00:54:14,033 - Not very hard. But you know. - Uh-huh. 976 00:54:14,076 --> 00:54:15,880 'Cause I've had a bad back since I was a teenager. 977 00:54:15,904 --> 00:54:19,343 [And I started to notice A] how much I trusted 978 00:54:19,386 --> 00:54:22,302 my trainer and his, like, presence 979 00:54:22,346 --> 00:54:24,870 when I was feeling so lost, but also that I didn't have 980 00:54:24,913 --> 00:54:26,741 any anxiety when I was with him at the gym. 981 00:54:26,785 --> 00:54:28,787 So then I-I picked it up every day and then 982 00:54:28,830 --> 00:54:31,311 I had nothing else to do, and I think 983 00:54:31,355 --> 00:54:33,270 it was just, it became my time. 984 00:54:33,313 --> 00:54:35,881 Me having a plan every day when I had no plans. 985 00:54:35,924 --> 00:54:37,554 I had no idea what each day was going to bring 986 00:54:37,578 --> 00:54:39,232 for me but me knowing that, 987 00:54:39,276 --> 00:54:41,103 okay, at 9:00 a.m., I'm gonna go to the gym. 988 00:54:41,147 --> 00:54:42,777 Okay, great. Well, that gives me some discipline. 989 00:54:42,801 --> 00:54:44,474 Okay, 1:00 p.m. I'm going to go for a hike. 990 00:54:44,498 --> 00:54:47,371 You know, having these sort of pins in my day 991 00:54:47,414 --> 00:54:49,349 - helped me keep myself together. - So you weren't even 992 00:54:49,373 --> 00:54:51,288 starting out trying to lose weight? 993 00:54:51,331 --> 00:54:52,593 No, not at all. 994 00:54:52,637 --> 00:54:54,682 I wasn't bothered about that at all but... 995 00:54:54,726 --> 00:54:58,338 in that process of having, you know, lost all of that weight, 996 00:54:58,382 --> 00:55:00,732 I definitely really contributed towards 997 00:55:00,775 --> 00:55:02,135 me getting my mind right, you know. 998 00:55:02,168 --> 00:55:03,865 - It did. - And giving me the... absolutely. 999 00:55:03,909 --> 00:55:05,171 It sharpened everything. 1000 00:55:05,214 --> 00:55:06,433 Without a shadow of a doubt. 1001 00:55:06,477 --> 00:55:08,348 Like, it gave me real purpose. 1002 00:55:08,392 --> 00:55:10,718 Interesting, because you know, I-I've been through this a few 1003 00:55:10,742 --> 00:55:13,353 times myself and I remember the first time I dropped, 1004 00:55:13,397 --> 00:55:16,617 you know, a lot of weight... I think it was like 67 pounds... 1005 00:55:16,661 --> 00:55:18,837 People were really upset and had stuff to say. 1006 00:55:18,880 --> 00:55:21,274 And it actually in many ways felt like I had abandoned them 1007 00:55:21,318 --> 00:55:23,494 - or something. - Mm-hmm. Yeah. 1008 00:55:23,537 --> 00:55:26,584 And lots of people are talking about your weight 1009 00:55:26,627 --> 00:55:28,542 and all in your business about it. 1010 00:55:28,586 --> 00:55:30,022 - Yeah. - And I want to know, 1011 00:55:30,065 --> 00:55:31,806 what is the experience of losing this 1012 00:55:31,850 --> 00:55:34,809 been like for you and also people's reaction to it? 1013 00:55:34,853 --> 00:55:38,422 I'm not shocked or even fazed by it because 1014 00:55:38,465 --> 00:55:40,815 my body has been objectified my entire career. 1015 00:55:40,859 --> 00:55:42,817 I'm either too big, I'm either too small. 1016 00:55:42,861 --> 00:55:44,578 Like, you know, I'm either hot or I'm either not... 1017 00:55:44,602 --> 00:55:46,430 Like, whatever. I never looked up to anyone 1018 00:55:46,473 --> 00:55:48,040 because of their body. 1019 00:55:48,083 --> 00:55:51,173 You know, I never admired anyone because they had 1020 00:55:51,217 --> 00:55:53,828 the same hair color as me or the same style as me. 1021 00:55:53,872 --> 00:55:55,850 - Or, you know, whatever, so... - Or were the same weight as you. 1022 00:55:55,874 --> 00:55:57,832 Never. Never, ever, ever. 1023 00:55:57,876 --> 00:55:59,878 And when you were heavier, you were fine. 1024 00:55:59,921 --> 00:56:01,401 I was and I was body positive then 1025 00:56:01,445 --> 00:56:02,881 and I'm body positive now. 1026 00:56:02,924 --> 00:56:05,492 But it's not my job to validate how people feel 1027 00:56:05,536 --> 00:56:07,233 - about their bodies. - Whoo. 1028 00:56:07,276 --> 00:56:10,149 And I feel bad that, you know, it's made anyone feel 1029 00:56:10,192 --> 00:56:12,369 horrible about themselves, but I... 1030 00:56:12,412 --> 00:56:15,589 That's not my job and I-I can't... 1031 00:56:15,633 --> 00:56:17,243 I'm trying to sort my own life out. 1032 00:56:17,286 --> 00:56:19,114 You know, I can't... 1033 00:56:19,158 --> 00:56:21,266 I can't add another worry and another thing to try and nail. 1034 00:56:21,290 --> 00:56:23,380 - I can't, like, you know? - Okay. 1035 00:56:23,423 --> 00:56:24,990 - And... - I got that, I love that. 1036 00:56:25,033 --> 00:56:26,513 - Yeah. - I love that. I love that. 1037 00:56:26,557 --> 00:56:28,341 And, you know, my-my weight might fluctuate 1038 00:56:28,385 --> 00:56:29,797 now that I can't work out as much and I'm on set all day. 1039 00:56:29,821 --> 00:56:31,431 You know, I mean, I'm eating. 1040 00:56:31,475 --> 00:56:33,215 But I don't care if I put on weight. 1041 00:56:33,259 --> 00:56:34,758 I don't care if I lose it again. Like, it's not about that. 1042 00:56:34,782 --> 00:56:37,306 As long as, like, my muscle memory doesn't go 1043 00:56:37,350 --> 00:56:39,613 for when I'm lifting my weights, which is, 1044 00:56:39,657 --> 00:56:41,398 like my favorite place to be. 1045 00:56:41,441 --> 00:56:43,487 - Lifting weights? Okay. - I love it. 1046 00:56:43,530 --> 00:56:46,446 - I love it. I love it. - What's the highest weight you can press now? 1047 00:56:46,490 --> 00:56:48,143 Well, at the moment, my back's been bad, 1048 00:56:48,187 --> 00:56:49,841 but last summer when I was at my... 1049 00:56:49,884 --> 00:56:51,886 I was at my peak of being able to like... 1050 00:56:51,930 --> 00:56:53,730 I felt like I could have been in the Olympics. 1051 00:56:53,758 --> 00:56:55,257 I remember saying to my trainers all the time, "I'm gonna get", 1052 00:56:55,281 --> 00:56:57,065 I'm gonna get an Olympic gold medal next." 1053 00:56:57,109 --> 00:56:58,676 I was like, you know. 1054 00:56:58,719 --> 00:57:00,852 It was... we were getting to, like, on a deadlift, 1055 00:57:00,895 --> 00:57:04,377 we were getting up to, like, 160, 170. 1056 00:57:04,421 --> 00:57:05,944 Yeah, I love it. 1057 00:57:05,987 --> 00:57:08,294 But it started out at ten pounds. 1058 00:57:08,337 --> 00:57:10,731 It started at ten pounds when I first started lifting. 1059 00:57:10,775 --> 00:57:12,472 I am... Wow. 1060 00:57:12,516 --> 00:57:14,474 Oh, no, I'm... I'm an athlete. 1061 00:57:14,518 --> 00:57:17,651 I'm actually an athlete. Like, I'm not even boasting. 1062 00:57:17,695 --> 00:57:19,436 Even the proportions of my body. 1063 00:57:19,479 --> 00:57:21,481 I should have been an athlete, if only at school 1064 00:57:21,525 --> 00:57:23,198 hadn't discovered boys and someone had told me 1065 00:57:23,222 --> 00:57:25,572 to go and do a bit more P.E. 1066 00:57:25,616 --> 00:57:28,314 Wow. 160, wow. 1067 00:57:28,357 --> 00:57:30,098 Yeah. I love it. 1068 00:57:30,142 --> 00:57:31,336 But I have to eat quite a lot of food 1069 00:57:31,360 --> 00:57:32,666 to lift the weights I lift. 1070 00:57:32,710 --> 00:57:34,407 - So you eat? - I eat. 1071 00:57:34,451 --> 00:57:35,689 - Oh, yeah. - What you want to eat? 1072 00:57:35,713 --> 00:57:37,236 - I had Chinese last night. - Okay. 1073 00:57:37,279 --> 00:57:38,779 Yeah, we found the best McDonald's recently. 1074 00:57:38,803 --> 00:57:40,021 It's piping hot every time. 1075 00:57:41,675 --> 00:57:43,634 No, I do. I love it. I just, I'm not... 1076 00:57:43,677 --> 00:57:45,089 I ain't got much of a sweet tooth though. 1077 00:57:45,113 --> 00:57:46,308 Yeah, I don't either. Yeah, yeah. 1078 00:57:46,332 --> 00:57:47,594 I'd rather a sandwich. 1079 00:57:47,638 --> 00:57:49,683 Deadlifting 160, this girl. 1080 00:57:49,727 --> 00:57:51,206 - Yeah. - She's an athlete. 1081 00:57:51,250 --> 00:57:52,686 I'm also a very good boxer. 1082 00:57:52,730 --> 00:57:54,340 I've got a left hook that could kill you. 1083 00:57:54,383 --> 00:57:55,907 - Really? - Oh, yeah. 1084 00:57:55,950 --> 00:57:57,790 - Yeah, I'm a very good boxer. - I'd be scared. 1085 00:58:03,915 --> 00:58:05,875 Another new song on the album is titled "Hold On." 1086 00:58:05,917 --> 00:58:07,634 The lyrics to this song are so brutally honest. 1087 00:58:07,658 --> 00:58:09,486 Sounds like you were in the dark, 1088 00:58:09,529 --> 00:58:11,357 - dark, dark hours there. - Mm-hmm. Yeah. 1089 00:58:11,400 --> 00:58:12,706 "I swear to God," you say, 1090 00:58:12,750 --> 00:58:14,534 "I'm such a mess. 1091 00:58:14,578 --> 00:58:17,537 "The harder that I try, I regress. 1092 00:58:17,581 --> 00:58:20,235 "I am my own worst enemy. 1093 00:58:20,279 --> 00:58:22,760 "Right now I truly hate being me. 1094 00:58:22,803 --> 00:58:25,806 "Every day feels like the road I'm on might just open up 1095 00:58:25,850 --> 00:58:27,634 "and swallow me whole. 1096 00:58:27,678 --> 00:58:30,376 "How do I feel so mighty small when I'm struggling 1097 00:58:30,419 --> 00:58:32,552 to feel at all?" 1098 00:58:32,596 --> 00:58:33,988 - Mm. - Girl, you can write. 1099 00:58:34,032 --> 00:58:35,207 Oh! Thank you. 1100 00:58:35,250 --> 00:58:36,817 - You can write. - Thank you. 1101 00:58:36,861 --> 00:58:39,777 So what was going on there? What was happening? 1102 00:58:39,820 --> 00:58:43,171 How did you keep the faith when you were at your lowest point? 1103 00:58:43,215 --> 00:58:44,801 - What were you holding on to? - My friends. 1104 00:58:44,825 --> 00:58:46,784 The question is, what were you holding on to? 1105 00:58:46,827 --> 00:58:49,264 Um, my-my friends always would say, 1106 00:58:49,308 --> 00:58:51,179 "hold on" when I would feel like 1107 00:58:51,223 --> 00:58:53,007 how I'm... you know, the lyrics in the verse. 1108 00:58:53,051 --> 00:58:56,576 - Mm-hmm. - But it was just exhausting, 1109 00:58:56,620 --> 00:59:01,450 trying to... to-to, like, keep going with it. 1110 00:59:01,494 --> 00:59:03,583 It's a process, you know; the process 1111 00:59:03,627 --> 00:59:06,934 of-of a divorce; the process of, you know, 1112 00:59:06,978 --> 00:59:09,415 being a single parent; the process of not 1113 00:59:09,458 --> 00:59:10,851 seeing your child every single day 1114 00:59:10,895 --> 00:59:12,374 wasn't really a plan that I had 1115 00:59:12,418 --> 00:59:14,594 when I, you know, when I, when I became a mum; 1116 00:59:14,638 --> 00:59:17,554 um, the process of arriving for yourself every single day, 1117 00:59:17,597 --> 00:59:19,556 turning up for yourself every single day 1118 00:59:19,599 --> 00:59:21,316 and still running a home, running a business. 1119 00:59:21,340 --> 00:59:23,211 Like, it's-it's, you know, so many people 1120 00:59:23,255 --> 00:59:25,170 know what I'm talking about and it can... 1121 00:59:25,213 --> 00:59:26,693 You know, I feel like that as well. 1122 00:59:26,737 --> 00:59:28,739 I-I juggle those things as well. 1123 00:59:28,782 --> 00:59:32,307 And it just... I felt like not doing it anymore, 1124 00:59:32,351 --> 00:59:34,658 and also trying to, like, 1125 00:59:34,701 --> 00:59:38,487 move forward, like... 1126 00:59:38,531 --> 00:59:40,925 but, like, with intention, 1127 00:59:40,968 --> 00:59:43,710 not just trying to get out of it for no reason. 1128 00:59:43,754 --> 00:59:46,278 It made my feet hurt, walking through all of that concrete. 1129 00:59:49,150 --> 00:59:51,631 I never, I never questioned whether I'd made a bad decision. 1130 00:59:51,675 --> 00:59:53,633 I never ever did, which I'm very grateful for, 1131 00:59:53,677 --> 00:59:55,635 that I never asked myself those questions. 1132 00:59:55,679 --> 00:59:58,507 But it was just like maybe it would have been better 1133 00:59:58,551 --> 01:00:01,336 had I just kept my mouth shut, you know, and carried on. 1134 01:00:01,380 --> 01:00:03,338 - Mm. - You know, just in terms 1135 01:00:03,382 --> 01:00:04,992 of hurting two people that I love 1136 01:00:05,036 --> 01:00:07,038 the most in the world, you know. 1137 01:00:11,782 --> 01:00:18,745 ♪ Love will soon come ♪ 1138 01:00:22,706 --> 01:00:30,409 ♪ Just hold on ♪ 1139 01:00:35,719 --> 01:00:38,547 ♪ Oh, what have I done ♪ 1140 01:00:38,591 --> 01:00:41,463 ♪ Yet again ♪ 1141 01:00:41,507 --> 01:00:47,382 ♪ Have I not learned anything ♪ 1142 01:00:47,426 --> 01:00:52,692 ♪ I don't want to live in chaos ♪ 1143 01:00:52,736 --> 01:00:58,872 ♪ It's like a ride that I want to get off ♪ 1144 01:00:58,916 --> 01:01:04,573 ♪ It's hard to hold on to who I am ♪ 1145 01:01:04,617 --> 01:01:10,231 ♪ When I'm stumbling in the dark for a hand ♪ 1146 01:01:10,275 --> 01:01:16,150 ♪ I am so tired of battling ♪ 1147 01:01:16,194 --> 01:01:22,026 ♪ With myself, with no chance to win ♪ 1148 01:01:22,069 --> 01:01:29,033 ♪ Hold on ♪ 1149 01:01:29,076 --> 01:01:33,602 ♪ Let time be patient ♪ 1150 01:01:33,646 --> 01:01:40,479 ♪ You are still strong ♪ 1151 01:01:40,522 --> 01:01:44,309 ♪ Let pain be gracious ♪ 1152 01:01:44,352 --> 01:01:51,708 ♪ Love will soon come ♪ 1153 01:01:55,059 --> 01:02:00,107 ♪ Just hold ♪ 1154 01:02:00,151 --> 01:02:05,112 ♪ Hold on ♪ 1155 01:02:08,507 --> 01:02:14,295 ♪ I swear to God, I am such a mess ♪ 1156 01:02:14,339 --> 01:02:19,953 ♪ The harder that I try, I regress ♪ 1157 01:02:19,997 --> 01:02:25,480 ♪ I am my own worst enemy ♪ 1158 01:02:25,524 --> 01:02:27,004 ♪ Right now ♪ 1159 01:02:27,047 --> 01:02:31,399 ♪ I truly hate being me ♪ 1160 01:02:31,443 --> 01:02:37,057 ♪ Every day it feels like the road I'm on ♪ 1161 01:02:37,101 --> 01:02:43,107 ♪ Might just open up and swallow me whole ♪ 1162 01:02:43,150 --> 01:02:48,373 ♪ How do I feel so mighty small ♪ 1163 01:02:48,416 --> 01:02:53,421 ♪ When I'm struggling to feel at all ♪ 1164 01:02:53,465 --> 01:03:00,428 ♪ Just hold on ♪ 1165 01:03:01,734 --> 01:03:05,607 ♪ Let time be patient ♪ 1166 01:03:05,651 --> 01:03:12,919 ♪ You are still strong ♪ 1167 01:03:12,963 --> 01:03:17,837 ♪ Let pain be gracious ♪ 1168 01:03:17,881 --> 01:03:23,800 ♪ Yes, oh, I ♪ 1169 01:03:28,065 --> 01:03:33,026 ♪ Just hold on ♪ 1170 01:03:33,070 --> 01:03:36,769 ♪ Hold on ♪ 1171 01:03:36,813 --> 01:03:39,163 ♪ Just hold on ♪ 1172 01:03:39,206 --> 01:03:42,470 ♪ Sometimes loneliness ♪ 1173 01:03:42,514 --> 01:03:47,824 ♪ Is the only rest we get ♪ 1174 01:03:49,173 --> 01:03:51,436 ♪ Just hold on, just hold on ♪ 1175 01:03:51,479 --> 01:03:54,395 ♪ And the emptiness ♪ 1176 01:03:54,439 --> 01:04:00,053 ♪ Actually lets us forget ♪ 1177 01:04:00,097 --> 01:04:03,056 ♪ Just hold on, just hold on ♪ 1178 01:04:03,100 --> 01:04:06,190 ♪ Sometimes forgiveness ♪ 1179 01:04:06,233 --> 01:04:12,065 ♪ Is easiest in secret ♪ 1180 01:04:12,109 --> 01:04:14,894 ♪ Just hold on, just hold on ♪ 1181 01:04:14,938 --> 01:04:17,854 ♪ So just hold ♪ 1182 01:04:17,897 --> 01:04:22,249 ♪ On...! ♪ 1183 01:04:22,293 --> 01:04:25,209 ♪ Whoo ♪ 1184 01:04:25,252 --> 01:04:28,603 ♪ Let time be patient ♪ 1185 01:04:28,647 --> 01:04:34,305 ♪ You ♪ 1186 01:04:34,348 --> 01:04:36,960 ♪ Are still strong ♪ 1187 01:04:37,003 --> 01:04:40,615 ♪ Let pain be gracious ♪ 1188 01:04:40,659 --> 01:04:48,659 ♪ Love will soon come, baby ♪ 1189 01:04:49,015 --> 01:04:52,410 ♪ If you just hold on ♪ 1190 01:04:52,453 --> 01:04:59,896 ♪ Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on ♪ 1191 01:04:59,939 --> 01:05:04,552 ♪ Just let time be patient ♪ 1192 01:05:04,596 --> 01:05:06,206 ♪ Whoo ♪ 1193 01:05:06,250 --> 01:05:07,904 ♪ 'Cause you're still strong ♪ 1194 01:05:07,947 --> 01:05:12,734 ♪ I'm still strong ♪ 1195 01:05:12,778 --> 01:05:15,389 ♪ Just be gracious ♪ 1196 01:05:15,433 --> 01:05:23,136 ♪ Love will soon come ♪ 1197 01:05:23,180 --> 01:05:27,488 ♪ If you just hold on ♪ 1198 01:05:27,532 --> 01:05:31,144 ♪ Mm♪ 1199 01:05:31,188 --> 01:05:33,146 ♪ Just hold on ♪ 1200 01:05:33,190 --> 01:05:36,019 ♪ Just be patient ♪ 1201 01:05:36,062 --> 01:05:39,979 ♪ Just be patient ♪ 1202 01:05:40,023 --> 01:05:43,417 ♪ Just hold on, you ♪ 1203 01:05:43,461 --> 01:05:46,768 ♪ Just hold on, you ♪ 1204 01:05:46,812 --> 01:05:50,729 ♪ Just hold on, just hold on, just hold on. ♪ 1205 01:05:50,772 --> 01:05:52,600 Whew. 1206 01:05:54,689 --> 01:05:56,604 Thank you. 1207 01:05:58,432 --> 01:06:00,826 I heard you. Thanks. 1208 01:06:00,869 --> 01:06:03,176 ♪ You could've had it all ♪ 1209 01:06:03,220 --> 01:06:04,873 Coming up next... 1210 01:06:04,917 --> 01:06:08,616 ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ 1211 01:06:13,360 --> 01:06:15,623 All the therapy you've done, you know 1212 01:06:15,667 --> 01:06:18,365 that certainly at this stage 1213 01:06:18,409 --> 01:06:20,672 that you end up, until you can get it right... 1214 01:06:20,715 --> 01:06:22,891 This is what I say to all my girls in school... 1215 01:06:22,935 --> 01:06:25,546 That whatever the biggest wound of your life is 1216 01:06:25,590 --> 01:06:29,811 from your parents, that you end up choosing relationships 1217 01:06:29,855 --> 01:06:31,639 to try to heal those wounds. 1218 01:06:31,683 --> 01:06:34,816 - Yeah. - So what do you think the deep wound 1219 01:06:34,860 --> 01:06:37,123 from the past, from you as a little girl 1220 01:06:37,167 --> 01:06:39,996 growing up, you're trying to heal as you 1221 01:06:40,039 --> 01:06:42,694 reach for your relationships as an adult woman? 1222 01:06:42,737 --> 01:06:47,568 My dad's absolute lack of presence and effort with me. 1223 01:06:47,612 --> 01:06:49,440 But you know, as I got older, 1224 01:06:49,483 --> 01:06:51,442 I definitely understood that it was the alcohol. 1225 01:06:51,485 --> 01:06:54,053 It wasn't a choice that he was necessarily making in himself 1226 01:06:54,097 --> 01:06:55,577 that he didn't want to step up for me. 1227 01:06:55,620 --> 01:06:57,535 But when you're little, you don't know that. 1228 01:06:57,578 --> 01:06:59,339 - Especially when he's like, "I'm drinking juice." - Yes. 1229 01:06:59,363 --> 01:07:01,104 So I'm like, "Well, I drink juice." 1230 01:07:01,147 --> 01:07:02,951 Like, you know, you don't know the sort of effects of it. 1231 01:07:02,975 --> 01:07:04,890 But yeah, like, when someone that you 1232 01:07:04,933 --> 01:07:07,066 love so much, and the more that you feel like 1233 01:07:07,110 --> 01:07:09,590 they don't love you, you love them even more... 1234 01:07:09,634 --> 01:07:12,245 Like, I was definitely always trying to fill that void. 1235 01:07:12,289 --> 01:07:16,684 But at the same time, I would expect it to hurt at some point. 1236 01:07:16,728 --> 01:07:19,252 So I would hurt them first. 1237 01:07:19,296 --> 01:07:21,602 You know, not in a malicious way. 1238 01:07:21,646 --> 01:07:23,517 It wasn't malicious, it was just like I had 1239 01:07:23,561 --> 01:07:25,258 absolutely zero expectations of anybody. 1240 01:07:25,302 --> 01:07:26,975 Because I never... I learned not to have them from my dad. 1241 01:07:26,999 --> 01:07:29,088 Because you'd been let down so many times. 1242 01:07:29,132 --> 01:07:31,830 Yeah, so by having, you know, zero expectations, 1243 01:07:31,873 --> 01:07:34,093 I wouldn't arrive for them either. 1244 01:07:34,137 --> 01:07:36,356 Like, you know, and I would feed off this energy 1245 01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:39,446 so they'd be like, well, why would I, like... 1246 01:07:39,490 --> 01:07:42,319 like, make... go beyond and make that effort with you 1247 01:07:42,362 --> 01:07:44,451 [when A] you don't seem to want me to; 1248 01:07:44,495 --> 01:07:46,323 [and B] you're not doing it. Like, you know? 1249 01:07:46,366 --> 01:07:49,413 Um, so it was definitely... definitely that. 1250 01:07:49,456 --> 01:07:51,241 And then during the-the, you know, 1251 01:07:51,284 --> 01:07:53,417 the sort of the last two, three years of my life, 1252 01:07:53,460 --> 01:07:55,419 my dad got really sick. 1253 01:07:55,462 --> 01:07:59,640 And it was interesting that that... 1254 01:07:59,684 --> 01:08:02,382 happened during... after, just after having left 1255 01:08:02,426 --> 01:08:04,776 my marriage when I had already made the conscious decision 1256 01:08:04,819 --> 01:08:07,953 to get to know myself and figure some things out. 1257 01:08:07,996 --> 01:08:11,913 And... not-not-not that long ago, 1258 01:08:11,957 --> 01:08:14,960 it was, um, back in April. 1259 01:08:15,003 --> 01:08:16,483 When he... when my dad died 1260 01:08:16,527 --> 01:08:19,834 and we had our peace together, I felt that... 1261 01:08:19,878 --> 01:08:22,446 that huge gaping hole fill, like, you know? 1262 01:08:22,489 --> 01:08:24,970 - Really? - Just, we-we-we forgave each other. 1263 01:08:25,013 --> 01:08:26,841 'Cause, you know, I said hurtful things. 1264 01:08:26,885 --> 01:08:28,930 I did... I did nothing as bad as what he did though, 1265 01:08:28,974 --> 01:08:30,517 to be honest with you. Like, you know, if you add it 1266 01:08:30,541 --> 01:08:32,064 all up throughout my whole life. 1267 01:08:32,108 --> 01:08:33,259 But I definitely, like, snapped in the press 1268 01:08:33,283 --> 01:08:35,023 and stuff like that at him, 1269 01:08:35,067 --> 01:08:37,156 which definitely hurt his feelings, of course. 1270 01:08:37,200 --> 01:08:39,941 Um, but we found our peace together. 1271 01:08:39,985 --> 01:08:41,160 And then... 1272 01:08:41,204 --> 01:08:42,640 You played the album for him. 1273 01:08:42,683 --> 01:08:44,685 Played the album too, on Zoom, yeah. Yeah. 1274 01:08:44,729 --> 01:08:47,166 Was that healing for both of you? 1275 01:08:47,210 --> 01:08:48,709 - Yeah. - What did you learn from that? 1276 01:08:48,733 --> 01:08:51,388 When we met up and when I heard he was ill, 1277 01:08:51,431 --> 01:08:53,912 um, I went to go and see him in Wales, 1278 01:08:53,955 --> 01:08:56,262 and I wanted to play him "To Be Loved." 1279 01:08:56,306 --> 01:09:00,310 My main goal in life is to be loved and love, 1280 01:09:00,353 --> 01:09:02,070 you know, and so I wanted to play it to my dad 1281 01:09:02,094 --> 01:09:03,811 being like, "You're the reason I haven't done that yet." 1282 01:09:03,835 --> 01:09:05,445 'Cause he definitely was the reason. 1283 01:09:05,489 --> 01:09:07,554 He was the reason I haven't fully accessed what it is 1284 01:09:07,578 --> 01:09:10,972 to be, like, in a loving, loving relationship with somebody. 1285 01:09:11,016 --> 01:09:12,670 - Like, 360, like, you know. - Mm-hmm. 1286 01:09:12,713 --> 01:09:14,280 And he couldn't. 1287 01:09:14,324 --> 01:09:15,997 He was like, "I've only ever heard 'Hometown Glory.'" 1288 01:09:16,021 --> 01:09:18,042 So I'm like, what? That's the first song I ever wrote 1289 01:09:18,066 --> 01:09:19,720 when I was, like, 16. 1290 01:09:19,764 --> 01:09:22,549 And he was like, "It's too painful," like, you know. 1291 01:09:22,593 --> 01:09:24,832 - He's never heard anything other than "Hometown..." - He would never listen. 1292 01:09:24,856 --> 01:09:26,355 He would switch it off and he never ever 1293 01:09:26,379 --> 01:09:28,207 played any of my other music, he said. 1294 01:09:28,251 --> 01:09:30,470 So I forced him to listen 1295 01:09:30,514 --> 01:09:32,318 and it's like we both cried and stuff like that, 1296 01:09:32,342 --> 01:09:36,346 and then, um, so that... Him sort of really 1297 01:09:36,389 --> 01:09:38,652 understanding my child wound through my song 1298 01:09:38,696 --> 01:09:40,437 was amazing for me. 1299 01:09:40,480 --> 01:09:42,284 And again, I think he could listen to me sing it 1300 01:09:42,308 --> 01:09:44,789 but not say it. Yeah, we're very similar like that. 1301 01:09:44,832 --> 01:09:47,444 And then when I played him the album, 1302 01:09:47,487 --> 01:09:50,577 it was just, by then he'd listened to all of 19, 1303 01:09:50,621 --> 01:09:52,840 all of 21,all of 25, and my mum was helping to look 1304 01:09:52,884 --> 01:09:54,886 after him towards the end as well. 1305 01:09:54,929 --> 01:09:58,890 And his favorites were all of my favorites, 1306 01:09:58,933 --> 01:10:01,458 you know, which I thought was amazing and... 1307 01:10:01,501 --> 01:10:04,852 he wished that he'd done what I had been doing. 1308 01:10:04,896 --> 01:10:07,072 For myself, you know? Like, the journey. 1309 01:10:07,115 --> 01:10:09,050 - Working on himself. Yeah. The journey. - Yeah. He wished he'd done it. 1310 01:10:09,074 --> 01:10:12,120 - Yeah. - Yeah. And he was proud of me for doing it, so it was, 1311 01:10:12,164 --> 01:10:15,036 it was very, very healing. But when he died, 1312 01:10:15,080 --> 01:10:17,256 it was just, it was, it literally, it was... 1313 01:10:17,300 --> 01:10:18,953 it was like the wound closed up. 1314 01:10:18,997 --> 01:10:21,217 And I've been so open, you know. 1315 01:10:21,260 --> 01:10:22,740 Didn't your therapist at one point 1316 01:10:22,783 --> 01:10:25,264 say you need to sit with a seven-year-old Adele? 1317 01:10:25,308 --> 01:10:27,135 - Yeah. - And when you did that, sat with 1318 01:10:27,179 --> 01:10:28,267 the seven-year-old Adele... 1319 01:10:28,311 --> 01:10:30,269 - Yeah. - What did you find? 1320 01:10:30,313 --> 01:10:32,706 Um... 1321 01:10:33,838 --> 01:10:35,970 A very sad little girl. 1322 01:10:36,014 --> 01:10:37,450 Mm. 1323 01:10:37,494 --> 01:10:40,279 No! You're trying to make me cry. 1324 01:10:40,323 --> 01:10:41,411 No, I'm not. No, I'm not. 1325 01:10:41,454 --> 01:10:42,673 No, yeah, it was. It was. 1326 01:10:42,716 --> 01:10:45,719 She was sad but also, you know, 1327 01:10:45,763 --> 01:10:48,461 she was willing, willing. 1328 01:10:48,505 --> 01:10:51,899 - Willing to get out and run. - Look at what she did. 1329 01:10:51,943 --> 01:10:53,703 - Look at what she did. - I said I wouldn't stay in there. 1330 01:10:53,727 --> 01:10:55,052 - Yeah. - I said that when I was little. 1331 01:10:55,076 --> 01:10:56,730 - Look at what she did. - I was like, 1332 01:10:56,774 --> 01:10:59,037 "I'm not staying here. This is not what... this life is... 1333 01:10:59,080 --> 01:11:00,841 "I'm in the wrong place. I've been sent... I've been, 1334 01:11:00,865 --> 01:11:02,345 you know, sent to the wrong place." 1335 01:11:02,388 --> 01:11:05,043 I said I wasn't staying there and I-I left. 1336 01:11:05,086 --> 01:11:07,828 Yeah, that's the thing is to look back on who you were 1337 01:11:07,872 --> 01:11:11,745 and what you've come through and all of that is what 1338 01:11:11,789 --> 01:11:13,767 -allowed this to be sitting in this chair right now. - Yeah! 1339 01:11:13,791 --> 01:11:15,508 And then you learn to appreciate all the things that you did 1340 01:11:15,532 --> 01:11:17,185 - have to go through. - Yeah. 1341 01:11:17,229 --> 01:11:18,772 'Cause it's a part of it. You might not have gotten to 1342 01:11:18,796 --> 01:11:20,972 where you are, you know. And I'm sure I've got many 1343 01:11:21,015 --> 01:11:22,495 more mountains to climb, 1344 01:11:22,539 --> 01:11:24,323 that will come my way, and I'm sure I'll have 1345 01:11:24,367 --> 01:11:27,021 another little, like, you know, like swerve, you know, 1346 01:11:27,065 --> 01:11:28,347 swerve out of the way for something 1347 01:11:28,371 --> 01:11:29,981 and stuff like that, but... 1348 01:11:30,024 --> 01:11:31,852 I feel like I'll get better at it every time 1349 01:11:31,896 --> 01:11:34,202 - something comes up. - Every time. 1350 01:11:39,164 --> 01:11:43,821 ♪ There's a fire starting in my heart ♪ 1351 01:11:43,864 --> 01:11:46,345 ♪ Reaching a fever pitch ♪ 1352 01:11:46,389 --> 01:11:48,782 ♪ And it's bringing me out the dark ♪ 1353 01:11:48,826 --> 01:11:53,613 ♪ Finally, I can see you crystal clear ♪ 1354 01:11:53,657 --> 01:11:55,920 ♪ Go ahead and sell me out ♪ 1355 01:11:55,963 --> 01:11:58,052 ♪ And I'll lay your... bare ♪ 1356 01:11:58,096 --> 01:12:02,492 ♪ See how I'll leave with every piece of you ♪ 1357 01:12:02,535 --> 01:12:06,844 ♪ Don't underestimate the things that I will do ♪ 1358 01:12:06,887 --> 01:12:11,892 ♪ There's a fire starting in my heart ♪ 1359 01:12:11,936 --> 01:12:14,068 ♪ Reaching a fever pitch ♪ 1360 01:12:14,112 --> 01:12:16,897 ♪ And it's bringing me out the dark ♪ 1361 01:12:16,941 --> 01:12:21,685 ♪ The scars of your love remind me of us ♪ 1362 01:12:21,728 --> 01:12:24,078 ♪ They keep me thinking ♪ 1363 01:12:24,122 --> 01:12:26,254 ♪ That we almost had it all ♪ 1364 01:12:26,298 --> 01:12:28,692 ♪ The scars of your love ♪ 1365 01:12:28,735 --> 01:12:30,911 ♪ They leave me breathless ♪ 1366 01:12:30,955 --> 01:12:33,087 ♪ I can't help feeling ♪ 1367 01:12:33,131 --> 01:12:35,220 ♪ We could've had it all ♪ 1368 01:12:35,263 --> 01:12:37,570 ♪ You're gonna wish you never had met me ♪ 1369 01:12:37,614 --> 01:12:39,920 ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ 1370 01:12:39,964 --> 01:12:42,445 ♪ Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep ♪ 1371 01:12:42,488 --> 01:12:47,363 ♪ You had my heart inside of your hands ♪ 1372 01:12:47,406 --> 01:12:52,237 ♪ And you played it to the beat ♪ 1373 01:12:52,280 --> 01:12:55,675 ♪ Yeah ♪ 1374 01:12:57,416 --> 01:13:01,681 ♪ Baby, I have no story to be told ♪ 1375 01:13:01,725 --> 01:13:04,205 ♪ But I've heard one on you ♪ 1376 01:13:04,249 --> 01:13:06,773 ♪ Now I'm gonna make your head burn ♪ 1377 01:13:06,817 --> 01:13:11,387 ♪ Think of me in the depths of your despair ♪ 1378 01:13:11,430 --> 01:13:15,391 ♪ Make a home down there, as mine sure won't be shared ♪ 1379 01:13:15,434 --> 01:13:17,088 You can dance if you want. 1380 01:13:17,131 --> 01:13:19,873 ♪ The scars of your love ♪ 1381 01:13:19,917 --> 01:13:22,572 ♪ Remind me of us, they keep me ♪ 1382 01:13:22,615 --> 01:13:25,618 ♪ Thinking that we almost had it all ♪ 1383 01:13:25,662 --> 01:13:27,968 ♪ The scars of your love ♪ 1384 01:13:28,012 --> 01:13:30,449 ♪ They leave me breathless ♪ 1385 01:13:30,493 --> 01:13:32,451 ♪ I can't help feeling ♪ 1386 01:13:32,495 --> 01:13:37,151 ♪ We could've had it all ♪ 1387 01:13:37,195 --> 01:13:41,591 ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ 1388 01:13:41,634 --> 01:13:46,509 ♪ You had my heart inside of your hands ♪ 1389 01:13:46,552 --> 01:13:50,991 ♪ And you played it to the beat ♪ 1390 01:13:51,035 --> 01:13:55,474 ♪ You could've had it all ♪ 1391 01:13:55,518 --> 01:13:59,739 ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ 1392 01:13:59,783 --> 01:14:04,875 ♪ You had my heart inside of your hands ♪ 1393 01:14:04,918 --> 01:14:08,400 ♪ But you played it with a beating ♪ 1394 01:14:08,444 --> 01:14:09,619 Here we go! 1395 01:14:09,662 --> 01:14:12,186 ♪ Throw your soul ♪ 1396 01:14:12,230 --> 01:14:14,275 ♪ Through every open door ♪ 1397 01:14:14,319 --> 01:14:17,496 ♪ Count your blessings ♪ 1398 01:14:17,540 --> 01:14:19,672 ♪ To find what you look for ♪ 1399 01:14:19,716 --> 01:14:24,024 ♪ Turn my sorrow into treasured gold ♪ 1400 01:14:24,068 --> 01:14:26,505 ♪ You'll pay me back in kind ♪ 1401 01:14:26,549 --> 01:14:29,203 ♪ And reap just what you've sown ♪ 1402 01:14:29,247 --> 01:14:32,468 ♪ You're gonna wish you never had met me ♪ 1403 01:14:32,511 --> 01:14:34,382 ♪ Could've had it all ♪ 1404 01:14:34,426 --> 01:14:36,863 ♪ Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep ♪ 1405 01:14:36,907 --> 01:14:39,213 ♪ We could've had it all ♪ 1406 01:14:39,257 --> 01:14:41,868 ♪ You're gonna wish you never had met me ♪ 1407 01:14:41,912 --> 01:14:45,872 ♪ It all, it all, it all ♪ 1408 01:14:45,916 --> 01:14:48,179 ♪ We could've had it all ♪ 1409 01:14:48,222 --> 01:14:50,921 ♪ You're gonna wish you never had met me ♪ 1410 01:14:50,964 --> 01:14:53,271 - ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ - ♪ Tears are gonna fall ♪ 1411 01:14:53,314 --> 01:14:54,925 ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ 1412 01:14:54,968 --> 01:14:59,277 ♪ You had my heart inside of your hands ♪ 1413 01:14:59,320 --> 01:15:01,409 ♪ But you played it ♪ 1414 01:15:01,453 --> 01:15:04,064 ♪ To the beat ♪ 1415 01:15:04,108 --> 01:15:08,155 ♪ You could've had it all ♪ 1416 01:15:08,199 --> 01:15:12,377 - ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ - ♪ Tears are gonna fall ♪ 1417 01:15:12,420 --> 01:15:14,727 - ♪ Rolling in the deep ♪ - ♪ You had my heart ♪ 1418 01:15:14,771 --> 01:15:18,252 ♪ Inside of your hands ♪ 1419 01:15:18,296 --> 01:15:19,819 ♪ But you played it ♪ 1420 01:15:19,863 --> 01:15:22,082 ♪ You played it, you played it ♪ 1421 01:15:22,126 --> 01:15:25,738 ♪ You played me to the beat. ♪ 1422 01:15:27,784 --> 01:15:30,264 Oh, thank you. Well done. Look at that, 1423 01:15:30,308 --> 01:15:32,005 standing up. Thank you. 1424 01:15:33,441 --> 01:15:36,096 That's my only fast one, you see. 1425 01:15:36,140 --> 01:15:38,359 So I know the urge... It really kicks in when... 1426 01:15:38,403 --> 01:15:40,100 when a fast song comes on with me. 1427 01:15:40,144 --> 01:15:42,320 You better dance while you can. 1428 01:15:47,368 --> 01:15:49,980 So how do you start dating again? 1429 01:15:50,023 --> 01:15:51,740 I mean, you can't go on a dating app. Do you, like... 1430 01:15:51,764 --> 01:15:54,419 - No. -...take advice from friends or somebody says, 1431 01:15:54,462 --> 01:15:56,073 "Oh, I know somebody"? 1432 01:15:56,116 --> 01:15:57,901 Like, how did you meet Rich Paul? 1433 01:15:57,944 --> 01:16:00,686 I met him at a birthday party. We were on the dance floor. 1434 01:16:00,730 --> 01:16:03,297 And I met him and then a couple of... couple years later, 1435 01:16:03,341 --> 01:16:05,580 we went out for dinner, which he says was a business meeting. 1436 01:16:05,604 --> 01:16:07,606 I'm like, a business meeting about what? 1437 01:16:07,650 --> 01:16:09,608 We wouldn't be having a meeting about business. 1438 01:16:09,652 --> 01:16:11,610 And then it was just the first time 1439 01:16:11,654 --> 01:16:13,177 we'd hung out only on our own, 1440 01:16:13,220 --> 01:16:14,633 and not with other friends and stuff like that. 1441 01:16:14,657 --> 01:16:16,354 So that was a very natural way. 1442 01:16:16,397 --> 01:16:17,723 I think that's how people would normally meet each other 1443 01:16:17,747 --> 01:16:19,444 - is, like, in real life. - Mm-hmm. 1444 01:16:19,487 --> 01:16:22,621 Mm-hmm. What was it about him that drew you to him? 1445 01:16:22,665 --> 01:16:25,015 I mean, we all know he's the super agent. 1446 01:16:25,058 --> 01:16:26,843 - And he's... - Yeah, he's just hilarious. 1447 01:16:26,886 --> 01:16:28,888 - He's also hilarious? - Oh, he's so funny. 1448 01:16:28,932 --> 01:16:30,107 - Okay. - No, he's hilarious. 1449 01:16:30,150 --> 01:16:32,675 - Yeah, and very smart. - Okay. 1450 01:16:32,718 --> 01:16:34,590 You know, he's very, very smart. 1451 01:16:34,633 --> 01:16:36,568 It's quite... quite incredible watching him do what he does. 1452 01:16:36,592 --> 01:16:39,725 And just the easiness of it. It's just, it's... 1453 01:16:39,769 --> 01:16:42,293 - been very smooth. - He's making it easy on you. 1454 01:16:42,336 --> 01:16:43,662 He's making it easy on me. I'm blushing. 1455 01:16:43,686 --> 01:16:45,818 He's right up there. 1456 01:16:45,862 --> 01:16:51,345 Okay, so this relationship with super agent Rich Paul... 1457 01:16:51,389 --> 01:16:53,672 I can't say his name without saying "super agent" Rich Paul. 1458 01:16:53,696 --> 01:16:56,612 This relationship is the first time you've actually... 1459 01:16:56,655 --> 01:16:59,092 Loved myself and been open to loving 1460 01:16:59,136 --> 01:17:00,790 and being loved by someone else. Yeah. 1461 01:17:00,833 --> 01:17:02,313 So Rich is getting a different Adele 1462 01:17:02,356 --> 01:17:04,402 than everybody else has gotten. 1463 01:17:04,445 --> 01:17:08,493 Y-Yeah, but I mean, by arriving and turning up. 1464 01:17:08,536 --> 01:17:10,756 - Yeah. - You know, maybe I'm getting a different version 1465 01:17:10,800 --> 01:17:12,691 of him and who knows? It's just, it's just timing. 1466 01:17:12,715 --> 01:17:16,675 - Mm-hmm. - It's just timing, but it'll be interesting to see 1467 01:17:16,719 --> 01:17:19,983 what my reaction is like in general to anything that 1468 01:17:20,026 --> 01:17:22,376 hurts me now that I feel so secure in myself. 1469 01:17:22,420 --> 01:17:23,876 - Yeah. - And I'm talking outside of romance as well. 1470 01:17:23,900 --> 01:17:25,442 Like, I'm just talking about any scenario. 1471 01:17:25,466 --> 01:17:27,033 - Yeah. - It'll be interesting to see 1472 01:17:27,077 --> 01:17:28,382 how close I let it come to me. 1473 01:17:28,426 --> 01:17:29,775 So... 1474 01:17:30,820 --> 01:17:33,605 Do you think you'll be able to write from a happy space? 1475 01:17:33,649 --> 01:17:35,694 Well, I hope so. 1476 01:17:35,738 --> 01:17:37,696 - I hope so, you know. - Mm-hmm. 1477 01:17:37,740 --> 01:17:39,002 But the music will change? 1478 01:17:39,045 --> 01:17:41,134 Like... 1479 01:17:41,178 --> 01:17:43,920 Like, "Love Is," like, you know, the last song on the album? 1480 01:17:43,963 --> 01:17:46,009 - "Love is a Game." - Yeah, it's about love. 1481 01:17:46,052 --> 01:17:48,141 Here's some of the lyrics. 1482 01:17:48,185 --> 01:17:50,143 "Love is a game for fools to play 1483 01:17:50,187 --> 01:17:52,537 "and I ain't fooling. What a cruel thing 1484 01:17:52,580 --> 01:17:54,757 to self-inflict that pain." 1485 01:17:54,800 --> 01:17:57,368 And I wanted to know, are you, Adele, 1486 01:17:57,411 --> 01:18:02,590 getting better at this game of love? 1487 01:18:02,634 --> 01:18:04,897 Yeah, I think so because I don't, I don't, um, 1488 01:18:04,941 --> 01:18:06,682 I don't treat it like a game anymore. 1489 01:18:06,725 --> 01:18:08,398 You know, that thing of like, you're gonna hurt me 1490 01:18:08,422 --> 01:18:09,443 so I'm gonna hurt you first. I certainly, 1491 01:18:09,467 --> 01:18:11,077 I'm not like that anymore. 1492 01:18:11,121 --> 01:18:13,253 You know, one of the things I think is so valuable 1493 01:18:13,297 --> 01:18:15,734 in knowing how to move forward in your life 1494 01:18:15,778 --> 01:18:19,477 is having clarity on what it is you really want. 1495 01:18:19,520 --> 01:18:20,870 Mm-hmm. 1496 01:18:20,913 --> 01:18:22,480 - And when you... - And what you like. 1497 01:18:22,523 --> 01:18:24,003 Yes, and what you like, but mostly 1498 01:18:24,047 --> 01:18:26,832 knowing in the spirit and soul of yourself 1499 01:18:26,876 --> 01:18:28,181 what is it you really want 1500 01:18:28,225 --> 01:18:29,835 because that's how you start to... 1501 01:18:29,879 --> 01:18:31,707 - Drawing that to yourself. - Yeah. 1502 01:18:31,750 --> 01:18:34,057 And do you know what that is, ultimately? 1503 01:18:34,100 --> 01:18:37,103 What do you really want? 1504 01:18:37,147 --> 01:18:38,975 - Peace of mind. - Just peace of mind? 1505 01:18:39,018 --> 01:18:40,193 - Just peace of mind. - Okay. 1506 01:18:40,237 --> 01:18:42,761 Um, and stability, but I can... 1507 01:18:42,805 --> 01:18:45,155 I don't have to expect someone else to give me stability. 1508 01:18:45,198 --> 01:18:47,679 I can also be stable for myself. 1509 01:18:47,723 --> 01:18:50,116 Be a solid house that doesn't blow over in a storm. 1510 01:18:50,160 --> 01:18:52,771 Mm-hmm. Well, the best thing you said here in this interview, 1511 01:18:52,815 --> 01:18:54,555 as far as I'm concerned, is that 1512 01:18:54,599 --> 01:18:58,255 now you're in a relationship where, for the first time, 1513 01:18:58,298 --> 01:19:00,866 -your love for yourself comes first. - Yeah. 1514 01:19:00,910 --> 01:19:03,564 And all great things come after that. I know that. 1515 01:19:03,608 --> 01:19:05,915 A quote I heard as well while on my journey was: 1516 01:19:05,958 --> 01:19:07,240 "If you're not feeling everything, 1517 01:19:07,264 --> 01:19:08,284 you're missing everything." 1518 01:19:08,308 --> 01:19:10,615 That sort of gave me permission. 1519 01:19:10,658 --> 01:19:12,182 Mm-hmm. 1520 01:19:12,225 --> 01:19:13,665 To really do that during the process. 1521 01:19:13,705 --> 01:19:15,489 - Yeah. Yeah. - You know? And not be upset. 1522 01:19:15,533 --> 01:19:18,188 This has been great. Thanks for coming to the rose garden. 1523 01:19:18,231 --> 01:19:19,711 I can't believe we just had a chat. 1524 01:19:19,755 --> 01:19:21,191 - It's wild. - We had a little chat. 1525 01:19:21,234 --> 01:19:23,106 Thanks for letting me come to the concert. 1526 01:19:23,149 --> 01:19:24,890 Oh, my gosh, I'm so excited. 1527 01:19:24,934 --> 01:19:26,607 - It's gonna be so great. - I hope you like it. Yeah. 1528 01:19:26,631 --> 01:19:28,938 And I wish you all the things your heart desires. 1529 01:19:28,981 --> 01:19:31,070 - Oh, thanks. You, too. - That's my prayer for you. 1530 01:19:31,114 --> 01:19:33,638 - Thank you. - All the things your heart desires. 1531 01:19:33,681 --> 01:19:35,553 And still good music from a happy space. 1532 01:19:35,596 --> 01:19:37,511 - Yeah, for sure. - Okay? 1533 01:19:37,555 --> 01:19:39,818 - Thank you very much. - Well done. 1534 01:19:42,516 --> 01:19:44,562 ♪ 1535 01:19:59,403 --> 01:20:04,843 ♪ All your expectations ♪ 1536 01:20:04,887 --> 01:20:10,849 ♪ Of my love are impossible ♪ 1537 01:20:12,895 --> 01:20:16,420 ♪ Surely you know ♪ 1538 01:20:19,858 --> 01:20:24,341 ♪ That I'm not easy to hold ♪ 1539 01:20:25,690 --> 01:20:31,609 ♪ It's so sad how incapable ♪ 1540 01:20:33,524 --> 01:20:40,270 ♪ Of learning to grow I am ♪ 1541 01:20:40,313 --> 01:20:46,232 ♪ My heart speaks in puzzle and codes ♪ 1542 01:20:46,276 --> 01:20:49,279 ♪ I've been trying ♪ 1543 01:20:49,322 --> 01:20:53,065 ♪ My whole life to solve ♪ 1544 01:20:54,545 --> 01:20:57,548 ♪ God only knows ♪ 1545 01:20:57,591 --> 01:21:01,639 ♪ How I've cried ♪ 1546 01:21:01,682 --> 01:21:06,905 ♪ I can't take another defeat ♪ 1547 01:21:06,949 --> 01:21:12,824 ♪ A next time would be the ending of me ♪ 1548 01:21:15,566 --> 01:21:20,919 ♪ Now that I see ♪ 1549 01:21:22,138 --> 01:21:26,142 ♪ Love is a game ♪ 1550 01:21:26,185 --> 01:21:31,495 ♪ For fools to play ♪ 1551 01:21:31,538 --> 01:21:34,019 ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪ 1552 01:21:34,063 --> 01:21:36,761 - ♪ Fooling ♪ - ♪ What a cruel thing ♪ 1553 01:21:36,804 --> 01:21:42,767 - ♪ Cruel thing ♪ - ♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪ 1554 01:21:42,810 --> 01:21:46,336 ♪ Love is a game ♪ 1555 01:21:46,379 --> 01:21:53,038 ♪ For fools to play ♪ 1556 01:21:53,082 --> 01:21:54,779 ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪ 1557 01:21:54,822 --> 01:21:56,694 ♪ Fooling ♪ 1558 01:21:56,737 --> 01:21:58,652 - ♪ What a cruel thing ♪ - ♪ Cruel thing ♪ 1559 01:21:58,696 --> 01:22:02,569 ♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪ 1560 01:22:04,180 --> 01:22:09,402 - ♪ How unbelievable ♪ - ♪ Unbelievable ♪ 1561 01:22:09,446 --> 01:22:12,318 ♪ Of me to fall ♪ 1562 01:22:12,362 --> 01:22:15,104 ♪ For the lies that I tell ♪ 1563 01:22:15,147 --> 01:22:20,500 - ♪ Lies I tell ♪ - ♪ The dream that I sell ♪ 1564 01:22:20,544 --> 01:22:23,242 ♪ Dream I sell ♪ 1565 01:22:23,286 --> 01:22:26,811 ♪ When heartache ♪ 1566 01:22:26,854 --> 01:22:29,205 ♪ It's inevitable ♪ 1567 01:22:29,248 --> 01:22:34,036 ♪ But I'm no good at doing well ♪ 1568 01:22:34,079 --> 01:22:36,038 ♪ Not that I care ♪ 1569 01:22:36,081 --> 01:22:38,562 ♪ I don't care ♪ 1570 01:22:38,605 --> 01:22:45,003 ♪ Why should anything about it be fair ♪ 1571 01:22:45,047 --> 01:22:49,181 ♪ When love is a game ♪ 1572 01:22:49,225 --> 01:22:54,404 ♪ For fools to play ♪ 1573 01:22:54,447 --> 01:22:57,929 - ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪ - ♪ Fooling ♪ 1574 01:22:57,973 --> 01:22:59,670 ♪ What a cruel thing ♪ 1575 01:22:59,713 --> 01:23:01,019 ♪ Cruel thing ♪ 1576 01:23:01,063 --> 01:23:06,155 ♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪ 1577 01:23:06,198 --> 01:23:09,897 ♪ Love is a game ♪ 1578 01:23:09,941 --> 01:23:16,034 ♪ For fools to play ♪ 1579 01:23:16,078 --> 01:23:19,255 ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪ 1580 01:23:19,298 --> 01:23:21,300 - ♪ What a cruel thing ♪ - ♪ Cruel thing ♪ 1581 01:23:21,344 --> 01:23:25,739 ♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪ 1582 01:23:25,783 --> 01:23:28,960 ♪ No amount of love ♪ 1583 01:23:31,006 --> 01:23:33,617 ♪ Can keep me satisfied ♪ 1584 01:23:33,660 --> 01:23:36,141 ♪ Satisfied, satisfied ♪ 1585 01:23:36,185 --> 01:23:38,709 ♪ I can't keep up ♪ 1586 01:23:38,752 --> 01:23:40,493 ♪ Can't keep up ♪ 1587 01:23:40,537 --> 01:23:44,062 ♪ When I keep changing my mind ♪ 1588 01:23:44,106 --> 01:23:46,456 ♪ Change your mind, change your mind ♪ 1589 01:23:46,499 --> 01:23:51,113 ♪ The feelings flood me ♪ 1590 01:23:51,156 --> 01:23:57,249 ♪ To the heights of no compromise ♪ 1591 01:23:59,817 --> 01:24:03,647 ♪ Love is a game ♪ 1592 01:24:03,690 --> 01:24:08,608 ♪ For fools to play ♪ 1593 01:24:08,652 --> 01:24:12,047 ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪ 1594 01:24:12,090 --> 01:24:15,050 - ♪ Fooling ♪ - ♪ What a cruel thing ♪ 1595 01:24:15,093 --> 01:24:20,533 ♪ To self-inflict that pain ♪ 1596 01:24:20,577 --> 01:24:22,753 ♪ Love ♪ 1597 01:24:22,796 --> 01:24:24,624 ♪ Is a game ♪ 1598 01:24:24,668 --> 01:24:30,152 ♪ For fools to play ♪ 1599 01:24:30,195 --> 01:24:33,242 - ♪ And I ain't fooling ♪ - ♪ Fooling ♪ 1600 01:24:33,285 --> 01:24:35,896 - ♪ What a cruel thing ♪ - ♪ Cruel thing ♪ 1601 01:24:35,940 --> 01:24:41,119 ♪ To self-inflict ♪ 1602 01:24:41,163 --> 01:24:46,168 ♪ That pain ♪ 1603 01:24:51,956 --> 01:24:55,699 ♪ 1604 01:24:57,048 --> 01:25:00,530 All right. So the biggest lesson I learned 1605 01:25:00,573 --> 01:25:02,967 in sorting this out is that you can't control 1606 01:25:03,010 --> 01:25:05,274 bloody anything, so just go with it. 1607 01:25:05,317 --> 01:25:08,625 Just sit with it. Have a laugh and enjoy all of it. 1608 01:25:08,668 --> 01:25:11,454 Thank you for coming tonight. 1609 01:25:11,497 --> 01:25:14,979 Give it up for my band. Give it up 1610 01:25:15,022 --> 01:25:17,460 for the beautiful orchestra. 1611 01:25:17,503 --> 01:25:20,115 Give it up for yourselves. All the crew. 1612 01:25:21,638 --> 01:25:24,031 Here's to real music. Here's to live music. 1613 01:25:24,075 --> 01:25:26,338 Here's to real artistry as well, all right. 1614 01:25:26,382 --> 01:25:30,125 Thank you for coming. Thank you for sticking with me. 1615 01:25:31,169 --> 01:25:33,302 Especially everyone that knows me 1616 01:25:33,345 --> 01:25:35,739 because I bet it was hard to hang on sometimes. 1617 01:25:35,782 --> 01:25:39,612 ♪ 1618 01:25:43,138 --> 01:25:45,792 ♪ I can love ♪ 1619 01:25:45,836 --> 01:25:51,015 ♪ I can, oh, yeah ♪ 1620 01:25:51,058 --> 01:25:53,060 ♪ I love me now ♪ 1621 01:25:53,104 --> 01:25:56,542 ♪ I can love me ♪ 1622 01:25:56,586 --> 01:25:59,937 ♪ I'm a fool for that ♪ 1623 01:25:59,980 --> 01:26:02,113 ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ 1624 01:26:02,157 --> 01:26:03,767 ♪ I'm gonna do it ♪ 1625 01:26:03,810 --> 01:26:06,378 ♪ Oh♪ 1626 01:26:06,422 --> 01:26:11,818 ♪ I'll do it all again ♪ 1627 01:26:11,862 --> 01:26:15,082 ♪ Like I did then ♪ 1628 01:26:15,126 --> 01:26:17,824 ♪ 'Cause I'm addicted ♪ 1629 01:26:17,868 --> 01:26:20,479 ♪ I'm addicted ♪ 1630 01:26:20,523 --> 01:26:25,049 ♪ You know I'm gonna do it ♪ 1631 01:26:25,092 --> 01:26:27,399 ♪ Again. ♪ 1632 01:26:28,792 --> 01:26:30,446 Thank you. 1633 01:26:39,281 --> 01:26:41,326 ♪ 1634 01:27:28,721 --> 01:27:31,289 ♪ 'Cause I'm addicted ♪ 1635 01:27:31,333 --> 01:27:34,031 ♪ I'm addicted ♪ 1636 01:27:34,074 --> 01:27:38,383 ♪ You know I'm gonna do it ♪ 1637 01:27:38,427 --> 01:27:42,779 ♪ Again. ♪