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This isn't a spontaneous declaration,

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nor a spur-of-the-moment thing.

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I admit it hasn't been for ages,

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but to make up for it, I've taken my time
to give it a lot of serious thought.

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What do you think of me?

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Would you like to go out with me?

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I…

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I think you're getting a call.

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Oh, right.

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EMERGENCY MEDICAL SERVICES

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Please make way!

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What's going on?

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We have a person in critical condition.

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KIM SEO-WAN

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Requesting confirmation
on available hospitals.

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Hello?

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The police?

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Yes, Kong Cheol-woo speaking.

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Why would the ER…

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A suicide attempt?

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Okay, I'll be right there.

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EMERGENCY MEDICAL CENTER

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- When did the call come in?
- Thirty minutes ago.

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He lost a lot of blood at the scene.

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What happened?

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He bled a lot and was barely conscious.
His blood pressure is 80/50.

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We'll operate
on his ruptured cervical esophagus.

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A ruptured cervical esophagus?
Wasn't it a suicide attempt?

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Apparently, he stabbed his own neck.
What else do you call that?

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I heard he did it
with a cooking chopstick.

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I called because he has
a psychiatric history.

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I see.

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Excuse me.

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Are you Mr. Choi Jun-gi's guardian?

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Oh, yes, Doctor.

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Will Jun-gi be okay?

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Yes, he'll be going into surgery now.

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They'll ask for your consent soon.

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Oh, I'm a psychiatric resident.

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Ma'am.

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I'd like to know how it happened.

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Did your brother really
stab himself in the neck?

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It's still there.

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Jun-gi!

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He went so far as to stab his own neck,

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which doesn't seem like
just a suicide attempt.

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I suspect a somatic delusion
along with schizophrenia.

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He seems to have had
a severe hallucination before the act.

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Let's take another look when he wakes up.

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Once he recovers in the ICU,
the cardiothoracic team will take him.

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Have his guardian do a history intake.

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Yes, Doctor.

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DAILY DOSE OF SUNSHINE

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- Honey.
- Yes?

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I'm off for a delivery.

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Whoa, no. I'll do it.

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Why is he working so hard suddenly?

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Something must be up.

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He does that
whenever he goes through a rough patch.

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Just out of curiosity,

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were you waiting for me?

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I was.

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Why?

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Because I missed you.

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Oh, Yu-chan, it's been a while.

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Hello, ma'am.

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Right. Why haven't you come in a while?

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I've just been busy with work.

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I see.

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Did you know Da-eun was home?

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No. Didn't she go to work?

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She's off today.

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She hasn't been feeling well
since yesterday,

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so she's been bedridden all day.

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Oh. Is it bad?

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Well, she's so sluggish,
perhaps overloaded with work.

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What good is being a nurse
when you can't even care for yourself?

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I feel so bad for her.

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Jeez…

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MYUNGSHIN UNIVERSITY MEDICAL CENTER

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I told you Seo-wan ended up like this
because of his studies.

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So, why…

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This is all your fault.

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Why did you have Seo-wan discharged? Why?

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He was still unwell!

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Why else would he have killed himself
if he was well?

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My baby! Why did you have
my baby discharged? Why?

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Why?

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Go back, please.

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This is all…

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This is all on you lot.
I won't let this go.

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My poor baby…

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All of you!

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Mr. Kim, please calm down.

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Please calm down.

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Mr. Cho Nam-guk used to harm himself
once a day.

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He's gotten much better,

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so much so that he hasn't self-harmed
in the past week.

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He's needed to take Alprazolam
less frequently too.

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So, what do you say

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to allowing Mr. Cho Nam-guk
to start having visitors?

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Yes, sir. I'll reach out to his guardian
to set up a consultation.

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Right.

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And, Dr. Cha, email me the first draft
of the paper you asked me to look at

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by the end of the day.

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I will. Thank you, sir.

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Gosh, these old glasses.
I can barely see anything.

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That's enough for today.

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I'll drop by the optician,
then see some outpatients, so carry on.

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Yes, sir.

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Thank you, sir.

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Sir.

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Sir, are you really

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okay with everything?

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Dr. Kong, what are you saying?

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A patient we discharged
took his own life, sir.

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But how is it

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that you seem so unfazed by all this?

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I just don't understand.

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Did I seem unfazed?

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You'll keep your patients waiting, sir.

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Hey, Kong, get over here.

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Do you think…

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dealing with many patient deaths
desensitizes you

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and numbs you to the pain?

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Death isn't

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something you get used to, even if
you've experienced it thousands of times.

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It is sad every single time.

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We all just

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pretend it doesn't affect us.

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What happened
to Mr. Kim Seo-wan's guardians?

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Security escorted them out.

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I'll deal with that myself,
so don't let it rattle you all.

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Let's get to work.

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Yes, ma'am.

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Ms. Jung Ha-ram has a new prescription.
Check before handing it out.

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She's been complaining of stomach pain.
Should I let her doctor know?

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Let's check if she eats something else
after her meals.

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If she still has pains
even with her new meds,

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she might have to see internal medicine.

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- Let's notify her doctor, then.
- Okay.

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- Well, let's get to work.
- Yes, ma'am.

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By the way,

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has anyone tried calling Ms. Jung?

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I did, but she didn't answer.

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It's her day off. She must be resting.

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Let's all try to help her out
when she gets back.

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Mr. Kim Seo-wan was a patient
she cared about deeply.

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- Yes.
- Yes, ma'am.

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MS. JUNG,
ARE YOU ALL RIGHT?

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I HEARD IT'S YOUR DAY OFF!

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Ms. Jung, are you all right?

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I heard it's your day off.

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Rest up. See you tomorrow.

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Don't skip your meals.

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Mr. Kim Seo-wan's drawing…

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What should we do?

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We should remove it.

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CLASS 7 MAGE
KIM SEO-WAN

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Look, that room and bed belonged
to someone who committed suicide.

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No way you'll keep me in there!

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Ms. Hong, what is it?

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He keeps asking for a new room.

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Sure, you can change.

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KIM SEO-WAN

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Dr. Dong.

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- Yes?
- What's wrong?

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You've been looking
at the same patient's results for a while.

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Oh, was I?

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Is it because of the death
of a patient from psychiatry?

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Oh, you knew about it too?

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It's been bothering me all day as well.

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I'm sure it's a lot worse for you.

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HWANG YEO-HWAN
I FEEL TERRIBLE. LET'S DRINK

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HEY, EVERYTHING OKAY?

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HAVING HARD TIMES AT THE HOS

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Hey, Yu-chan!

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Come on, man! Yu-chan!

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What's wrong with Donggo?

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Hey, get him to sit down.

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Hey.

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Did something happen?

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We had an incident at the hospital.

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A patient died by suicide.

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Did Da-eun know this patient too?

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Yes, he was also very close to Da-eun.

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Is that why she's sick?

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- Da-eun is sick?
- Huh?

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Yeo-hwan.

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- Let's have one more drink.
- You've had one too many already.

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That's enough.

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He also treated that patient.

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It must be really weighing on him.

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I'm worried about Da-eun.

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I hope she recovers quickly
as she always does.

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She isn't quick to recover.

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When her pet hamster died,

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she couldn't even eat

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for a whole month.

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She's brave, but she's also soft.

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She laughs a lot, but also cries a lot.

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00:16:17,935 --> 00:16:21,939
She's really bad at hiding her feelings,
that Da-eun.

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You seem to be a Jung Da-eun expert.

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Let's hope he hasn't changed his passcode.

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Right, there we go.

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Wait. Let me get his shoes.

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Right. Good. All right.

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00:16:43,836 --> 00:16:46,630
Hey, just toss him wherever
and come on out.

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00:17:02,813 --> 00:17:04,398
I can't bring myself to hate you.

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00:17:37,848 --> 00:17:41,143
Why did you drink so much
when you can't even handle it?

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I had my reasons.

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I heard it all from Dr. Hwang.

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00:17:53,155 --> 00:17:55,741
It will take a toll on Ms. Jung.

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00:17:57,326 --> 00:17:59,453
Hey, you should be there for her.

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You can do that yourself.

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To tell you the truth,

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I saw everything that day.

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Aren't you guys dating?

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Nope.

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00:18:21,683 --> 00:18:22,683
She turned you down?

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00:18:23,477 --> 00:18:24,603
No!

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00:18:27,231 --> 00:18:30,150
I told her how I felt,
but I never got my answer.

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That's when the patient died.

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Are you okay though?

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00:18:44,248 --> 00:18:45,457
No, I'm not.

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But I'm sure Ms. Jung's doing a lot worse.

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UNCONTROLLED CALLER

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Feels like it's been a while
since we talked.

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Come to the restaurant tonight.

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00:19:10,440 --> 00:19:11,733
Why? What's up?

231
00:19:12,234 --> 00:19:13,402
Just come!

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You look so pale.

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00:19:18,866 --> 00:19:20,951
Can't you just call in sick today?

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00:19:22,244 --> 00:19:25,205
There's no one to cover for me
if I suddenly call in sick.

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I have to go.

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MYUNGSHIN UNIVERSITY MEDICAL CENTER

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00:19:38,343 --> 00:19:41,013
Huh? Why are you here so early, Ms. Jung?

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00:19:41,096 --> 00:19:44,850
Oh, I just woke up early today.

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00:20:00,282 --> 00:20:01,922
Here's the briefing for the shift change.

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Mr. Choi Jun-gi, 33 years old,
hurt himself

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on the left side of his neck
and esophagus with a chopstick.

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He had an emergency op at the ER
and was under observation in the SICU.

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They had difficulties continuing treatment
at the CS unit

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because he kept trying to harm himself,
so he is here now.

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00:20:17,090 --> 00:20:19,635
I'll take that patient.

246
00:20:19,718 --> 00:20:21,678
No, he's in one of my rooms. I got him.

247
00:20:21,762 --> 00:20:23,972
You just seemed to be going through a lot.

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00:20:24,056 --> 00:20:27,100
I'm fine.
I just have a bit of a cold, that's all.

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00:20:27,184 --> 00:20:30,020
Do we have Mr. Choi Jun-gi's history yet?

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00:20:30,103 --> 00:20:31,396
According to his guardian,

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the patient claims that he hurt himself
to remove a rock from inside his neck.

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As his depression got worse,
he lost about 8 kg in the past two months.

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I see.

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00:20:41,990 --> 00:20:44,952
Ms. Jung doesn't seem well today,
does she?

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00:20:46,536 --> 00:20:48,372
I don't think it's just a cold.

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00:20:49,289 --> 00:20:51,583
Can we let her
go about her duties like that?

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00:20:53,210 --> 00:20:55,754
Maybe she's trying to
keep her mind occupied with work.

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00:20:57,381 --> 00:21:00,884
It just so happens that Mr. Choi Jun-gi
is in Mr. Kim Seo-wan's old room.

259
00:21:02,511 --> 00:21:03,595
Will she be okay?

260
00:21:05,597 --> 00:21:06,597
I'm not sure.

261
00:21:07,182 --> 00:21:09,101
She can't avoid it forever.

262
00:21:09,726 --> 00:21:11,103
Let's leave her be for now.

263
00:21:12,854 --> 00:21:14,898
UNIT 53 / ROOM 511
M/33 CHOI ♪ GI

264
00:21:43,093 --> 00:21:44,720
Good morning.

265
00:21:45,971 --> 00:21:47,806
How are you feeling today?

266
00:21:48,390 --> 00:21:50,100
I'll take your blood pressure first.

267
00:21:51,476 --> 00:21:53,103
Could you tell me your name?

268
00:22:00,819 --> 00:22:04,156
Mr. Choi Jun-gi, right?

269
00:22:04,239 --> 00:22:05,741
Excuse me for a second.

270
00:22:22,132 --> 00:22:24,176
Your blood pressure is normal.

271
00:22:25,344 --> 00:22:28,347
If you're having difficulty speaking,

272
00:22:28,430 --> 00:22:32,225
would you mind nodding
or raising your hand like this

273
00:22:32,309 --> 00:22:35,062
to show me whether you need anything?

274
00:22:47,449 --> 00:22:48,825
I'll leave you to rest.

275
00:22:59,920 --> 00:23:01,088
Mr. Choi Jun-gi!

276
00:23:02,339 --> 00:23:05,008
Mr. Choi, no. Please calm down!

277
00:23:05,092 --> 00:23:06,301
Please help!

278
00:23:06,385 --> 00:23:09,679
No, please stop. Mr. Choi, no!

279
00:23:09,763 --> 00:23:11,515
Mr. Choi, please calm down!

280
00:23:12,516 --> 00:23:13,683
Please relax!

281
00:23:13,767 --> 00:23:16,436
Mr. Choi, your risk of self-harm
is very high,

282
00:23:16,520 --> 00:23:18,772
so we'll restrain you for your safety.

283
00:23:18,855 --> 00:23:21,733
You seem to be in distress,
so we'll give you a sedative.

284
00:23:21,817 --> 00:23:22,817
Give him a PRN injection.

285
00:23:22,859 --> 00:23:25,695
Injecting 2 mg of Ativan
and 2.5 mg of Haldol.

286
00:23:29,324 --> 00:23:31,576
It's okay, Mr. Choi Jun-gi.

287
00:23:32,202 --> 00:23:33,662
You'll feel much better now.

288
00:24:03,483 --> 00:24:05,485
MR. CHOI JUN-GI'S
DEARLY MISSED BABY

289
00:24:09,781 --> 00:24:11,501
MR. CHOI JUN-GI'S BABY
CREMATION IN PROGRESS

290
00:24:23,420 --> 00:24:24,337
Jun-gi and his wife

291
00:24:24,421 --> 00:24:27,257
were a happy couple
and always looked out for each other.

292
00:24:28,049 --> 00:24:30,886
But when his wife died,
everything changed.

293
00:24:33,972 --> 00:24:35,765
So your sister-in-law died by suicide.

294
00:24:36,850 --> 00:24:39,728
It must have been terribly hard
for you and your brother.

295
00:24:42,481 --> 00:24:43,481
It was hard for me,

296
00:24:44,608 --> 00:24:46,651
but Jun-gi's heart was ripped to shreds.

297
00:24:48,236 --> 00:24:49,236
I understand.

298
00:24:51,072 --> 00:24:52,282
They were newlyweds.

299
00:24:53,825 --> 00:24:55,410
They had a lovely relationship,

300
00:24:56,453 --> 00:24:57,913
got married, and had a baby.

301
00:24:58,705 --> 00:25:01,208
They had everything they could wish for.

302
00:25:01,958 --> 00:25:04,044
Look over here. She's looking.

303
00:25:06,796 --> 00:25:10,050
What should we name her?
We should've had a name ready.

304
00:25:11,218 --> 00:25:14,471
I know, right? What should we name you?

305
00:25:15,096 --> 00:25:18,058
I wonder what kind of name
would go best with our baby.

306
00:25:19,976 --> 00:25:22,103
It was sudden infant death syndrome.

307
00:25:22,187 --> 00:25:23,772
It happened for no reason.

308
00:25:25,065 --> 00:25:27,943
They woke up one morning,
and the baby wasn't breathing.

309
00:25:28,026 --> 00:25:32,072
The funeral will proceed
as I just explained to you.

310
00:25:33,073 --> 00:25:37,202
But we don't have a name for the deceased.

311
00:25:38,078 --> 00:25:39,078
The baby…

312
00:25:42,874 --> 00:25:43,874
had no name.

313
00:25:44,668 --> 00:25:46,670
THE DECEASED
MR. CHOI JUN-GI'S BABY

314
00:25:46,753 --> 00:25:48,088
We hadn't picked out

315
00:25:49,339 --> 00:25:50,757
a name for our baby yet.

316
00:25:53,009 --> 00:25:54,094
I'm sorry!

317
00:25:56,680 --> 00:25:58,932
My baby!

318
00:26:00,850 --> 00:26:01,977
Gyeong-seo.

319
00:26:23,832 --> 00:26:24,832
Gyeong-seo.

320
00:26:59,784 --> 00:27:01,369
Leave it. Okay?

321
00:27:01,453 --> 00:27:02,704
I'll clean them up.

322
00:27:04,289 --> 00:27:05,289
You can go in.

323
00:27:05,915 --> 00:27:07,083
Go get some rest.

324
00:27:07,751 --> 00:27:09,878
Jun-gi did everything he could.

325
00:27:09,961 --> 00:27:13,256
No one can fathom how a parent must feel,
burying his child

326
00:27:13,340 --> 00:27:15,342
with no reason given as to why.

327
00:27:15,967 --> 00:27:18,762
But my sister-in-law started
to speak less and less…

328
00:27:21,056 --> 00:27:22,891
All Jun-gi could do

329
00:27:23,558 --> 00:27:25,477
was endure in silence.

330
00:27:31,858 --> 00:27:33,568
How could she leave him like that?

331
00:27:34,819 --> 00:27:35,945
Did she even consider

332
00:27:37,113 --> 00:27:38,948
the people who would be left behind?

333
00:27:40,158 --> 00:27:41,785
His symptoms of delusion

334
00:27:41,868 --> 00:27:42,952
might stem from

335
00:27:43,995 --> 00:27:46,122
the grief over his wife's death.

336
00:27:47,165 --> 00:27:50,293
The way he expressed his grief
wasn't normal. That much is certain.

337
00:27:51,044 --> 00:27:53,880
Then what will happen to my brother?

338
00:27:56,383 --> 00:28:00,178
First, we'll lessen his delusions
and anxiety with medicine.

339
00:28:00,261 --> 00:28:03,306
Until then, it's imperative
that he stays calm.

340
00:28:41,010 --> 00:28:43,471
Which case should we use
for this week's conference?

341
00:28:43,555 --> 00:28:45,348
I'd like to touch on Ms. Kwak's case.

342
00:28:45,432 --> 00:28:47,892
She was admitted
for compulsive hoarding syndrome.

343
00:28:47,976 --> 00:28:53,022
Patient Kim Geon-jong in Room 509
seems to have Capgras syndrome.

344
00:28:53,106 --> 00:28:54,566
I don't know how we...

345
00:28:54,649 --> 00:28:55,483
Good morning, sir.

346
00:28:55,567 --> 00:28:57,986
- Hey, stay seated. Sit.
- Good morning, sir.

347
00:28:58,778 --> 00:29:01,489
Are you busy little bees
getting any sleep?

348
00:29:01,573 --> 00:29:03,616
- Well, we're fine, sir.
- We're okay, sir.

349
00:29:03,700 --> 00:29:06,202
Jeez, Hwang, it's about time
you washed your hair.

350
00:29:06,286 --> 00:29:07,286
Yes, sir.

351
00:29:09,330 --> 00:29:10,582
- Hwang Yeo-hwan.
- Sir.

352
00:29:10,665 --> 00:29:14,210
Do you want to give a presentation
at the upcoming grand conference?

353
00:29:14,294 --> 00:29:15,628
A presentation?

354
00:29:15,712 --> 00:29:20,258
I was thinking of discussing
PTSD found in suicide survivors.

355
00:29:21,259 --> 00:29:24,971
Then, why don't we cover
Mr. Choi Jun-gi's case as well, sir?

356
00:29:25,555 --> 00:29:26,431
Mr. Choi Jun-gi?

357
00:29:26,514 --> 00:29:30,351
It's a rare case. The death of his family
resulted in his depression and psychosis.

358
00:29:30,435 --> 00:29:31,895
I wanted to study his case.

359
00:29:32,479 --> 00:29:35,398
Okay, then. Let's get that one ready.

360
00:29:35,482 --> 00:29:36,733
- Sir.
- I'll leave it to you.

361
00:29:36,816 --> 00:29:39,110
Update the chart
before the shift change, okay?

362
00:29:39,194 --> 00:29:40,987
- I will.
- Don't make the same mistake.

363
00:29:41,070 --> 00:29:42,071
I won't.

364
00:29:42,155 --> 00:29:44,365
- Hello, everyone.
- Hello.

365
00:29:45,575 --> 00:29:46,826
I'm here to deliver snacks.

366
00:29:47,494 --> 00:29:48,953
What's all this?

367
00:29:50,330 --> 00:29:53,958
I was getting myself some
and you ladies came to mind, so here I am.

368
00:29:54,042 --> 00:29:55,376
You're a big spender.

369
00:29:55,919 --> 00:29:57,796
- Thank you so much.
- No problem.

370
00:29:57,879 --> 00:29:59,005
Sandwiches!

371
00:29:59,088 --> 00:30:01,424
Let's leave these for the night shift.

372
00:30:01,508 --> 00:30:02,342
Sure.

373
00:30:02,425 --> 00:30:03,843
Enjoy, then. Yup.

374
00:30:03,927 --> 00:30:05,887
- We will. Thank you.
- Thank you.

375
00:30:05,970 --> 00:30:07,555
Thank you, Dr. Hwang.

376
00:30:08,223 --> 00:30:10,391
There's more than enough
for the night shift.

377
00:30:10,475 --> 00:30:12,477
Didn't you say you were on a diet?

378
00:30:12,977 --> 00:30:14,729
You don't gain weight from sandwiches.

379
00:30:14,813 --> 00:30:16,773
Just have one, not two, okay?

380
00:30:17,315 --> 00:30:18,315
Okay.

381
00:30:41,005 --> 00:30:43,007
MS. MIN DEUL-RE
PAYMENT REMINDER

382
00:30:53,017 --> 00:30:54,269
DAEHAN CARD
PAYMENT REMINDER

383
00:31:37,103 --> 00:31:38,104
Hey.

384
00:31:38,730 --> 00:31:41,441
- Why did you ask me to come?
- To feed you this.

385
00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:43,651
You made tteokbokki?

386
00:31:44,319 --> 00:31:46,988
You always crave spicy food
when you have a cold. Sit!

387
00:31:48,865 --> 00:31:51,367
This is nice. I happen to be starving.

388
00:31:51,451 --> 00:31:53,369
Dig in. I'll get you a soda.

389
00:32:07,133 --> 00:32:08,760
It's so spicy but so good.

390
00:32:08,843 --> 00:32:11,471
Do you know why people crave spice
during hardships?

391
00:32:11,554 --> 00:32:12,388
Huh?

392
00:32:12,472 --> 00:32:14,891
Our bodies register spiciness
as a type of pain,

393
00:32:14,974 --> 00:32:17,810
and to relieve the pain,
they release a rush of adrenaline,

394
00:32:17,894 --> 00:32:20,021
which ends up relieving the stress.

395
00:32:20,104 --> 00:32:22,607
The capsaicin and quercetin
in the tteokbokki

396
00:32:22,690 --> 00:32:26,986
help with blood circulation
and expel bodily waste.

397
00:32:27,070 --> 00:32:28,196
What are you on about?

398
00:32:28,279 --> 00:32:31,282
Whatever!
It does help with the stress though.

399
00:32:31,366 --> 00:32:32,366
Thanks, buddy.

400
00:32:35,870 --> 00:32:36,870
All right.

401
00:32:37,914 --> 00:32:40,083
What… what are you doing?

402
00:32:40,166 --> 00:32:41,250
Now I'm short.

403
00:32:42,085 --> 00:32:43,419
I'll make more.

404
00:32:43,503 --> 00:32:45,171
You don't eat spicy food.

405
00:32:45,254 --> 00:32:46,255
I don't.

406
00:32:47,340 --> 00:32:49,300
But I'm craving it right now.

407
00:33:14,659 --> 00:33:17,704
Sir, you can't go in there.
It's a closed ward.

408
00:33:18,329 --> 00:33:19,329
I'm sorry.

409
00:33:20,498 --> 00:33:21,498
I

410
00:33:22,542 --> 00:33:24,627
Just laid Seo-wan to rest.

411
00:33:25,837 --> 00:33:26,837
Now…

412
00:33:29,257 --> 00:33:31,551
I don't even have a son
to hold and cry over.

413
00:33:34,429 --> 00:33:35,429
I'm sorry,

414
00:33:36,180 --> 00:33:37,974
but this isn't the right place, sir.

415
00:33:39,100 --> 00:33:40,768
Then what do you expect me to do?

416
00:33:41,811 --> 00:33:45,064
Am I to just bury my son in my heart
and go on with my life?

417
00:34:35,948 --> 00:34:37,492
Hello.

418
00:34:39,160 --> 00:34:40,578
Hello.

419
00:34:42,663 --> 00:34:44,999
- Hello, Dr. Im.
- Sir.

420
00:34:45,958 --> 00:34:51,172
ON SUICIDE SURVIVORS

421
00:34:51,255 --> 00:34:52,548
Shall we begin?

422
00:34:54,092 --> 00:34:56,219
Ms. Min, could you get the lights?

423
00:34:56,302 --> 00:34:57,302
Yes.

424
00:34:57,762 --> 00:35:00,515
- What about the station?
- Ms. Jung stayed back.

425
00:35:05,937 --> 00:35:07,657
SUICIDE SURVIVORS:
SURVIVORS OF SUICIDE LOSS

426
00:35:08,064 --> 00:35:10,233
We're gathered here today to discuss PTSD.

427
00:35:10,983 --> 00:35:13,611
More specifically,

428
00:35:13,694 --> 00:35:17,281
the post-traumatic stress disorder

429
00:35:18,074 --> 00:35:19,659
found in suicide survivors.

430
00:35:21,661 --> 00:35:23,037
Suicide survivor

431
00:35:24,080 --> 00:35:29,210
is a term reserved for those
who have lost loved ones to suicide

432
00:35:29,293 --> 00:35:30,293
and must live on

433
00:35:31,254 --> 00:35:33,631
while enduring psychological pain.

434
00:35:35,383 --> 00:35:37,844
All of us have gone through

435
00:35:39,011 --> 00:35:40,346
a devastating event recently.

436
00:35:41,180 --> 00:35:44,684
I hope this conference will allow us
to look back on ourselves

437
00:35:45,434 --> 00:35:50,022
and learn to better understand
the pain that our patients go through.

438
00:35:51,816 --> 00:35:53,609
Mr. Choi Jun-gi, 33 years old.

439
00:35:54,277 --> 00:35:55,277
About six months ago,

440
00:35:56,487 --> 00:36:00,116
he lost his firstborn
to sudden infant death syndrome.

441
00:36:01,200 --> 00:36:04,412
Shortly after, the shock drove his wife

442
00:36:05,496 --> 00:36:07,373
to tragically take her own life.

443
00:36:11,043 --> 00:36:13,921
I know it's very difficult,

444
00:36:14,964 --> 00:36:16,424
but could you tell me…

445
00:36:18,426 --> 00:36:20,845
about the deceased?

446
00:36:22,054 --> 00:36:23,054
My

447
00:36:24,098 --> 00:36:25,098
Wife?

448
00:36:29,437 --> 00:36:30,855
She was very caring.

449
00:36:33,482 --> 00:36:34,901
She loved people,

450
00:36:36,903 --> 00:36:37,903
and especially,

451
00:36:38,946 --> 00:36:40,489
she loved babies.

452
00:36:53,169 --> 00:36:54,670
Oh, give it to me. I'll do it.

453
00:36:56,422 --> 00:36:57,548
Your shirt is wet.

454
00:37:00,009 --> 00:37:01,510
Oh, this?

455
00:37:03,554 --> 00:37:04,847
It's breast milk.

456
00:37:06,057 --> 00:37:07,266
I keep lactating,

457
00:37:08,726 --> 00:37:10,394
although there's no baby to feed.

458
00:37:47,473 --> 00:37:49,267
Why does she have the lights off?

459
00:37:54,021 --> 00:37:55,021
Gyeong-seo.

460
00:37:55,606 --> 00:37:58,442
Gyeong-seo! No!

461
00:37:58,943 --> 00:38:01,487
Gyeong-seo!

462
00:38:02,321 --> 00:38:03,321
No.

463
00:38:04,782 --> 00:38:07,118
I can see how Gyeong-seo died…

464
00:38:10,371 --> 00:38:12,123
every time I close my eyes.

465
00:38:17,545 --> 00:38:19,690
NUMBER OF SURVIVORS SERIOUSLY AFFECTED
BY SUICIDE PER CASE: 5-10

466
00:38:19,714 --> 00:38:22,300
Suicide survivors have a strong tendency

467
00:38:24,468 --> 00:38:26,637
to blame themselves for everything

468
00:38:27,346 --> 00:38:30,516
when they're faced with
an unbearable tragedy like suicide.

469
00:38:31,559 --> 00:38:33,936
Spending time alone made me realize…

470
00:38:37,815 --> 00:38:40,109
how awfully quiet our apartment was.

471
00:38:43,154 --> 00:38:44,154
What if…

472
00:38:45,865 --> 00:38:47,366
Doctor, what if

473
00:38:48,743 --> 00:38:52,246
I hadn't left Gyeong-seo alone like that?

474
00:38:55,082 --> 00:38:56,542
Would she still be alive?

475
00:38:57,626 --> 00:39:00,004
What if I had talked to her about it
even once…

476
00:39:02,631 --> 00:39:04,842
or at least cried my eyes out with her?

477
00:39:07,303 --> 00:39:08,804
Would she still be alive?

478
00:39:09,972 --> 00:39:12,558
They may even…
blame themselves for the death.

479
00:39:12,641 --> 00:39:14,841
ESTIMATED NUMBER OF SURVIVORS
PER YEAR: 68,350 - 136,700

480
00:39:16,562 --> 00:39:18,147
That concludes my presentation.

481
00:39:23,194 --> 00:39:24,194
Suicide

482
00:39:25,154 --> 00:39:28,574
greatly affects
at least five to ten people

483
00:39:28,657 --> 00:39:30,117
who know the deceased.

484
00:39:31,786 --> 00:39:32,786
Recently,

485
00:39:33,120 --> 00:39:34,372
in our ward,

486
00:39:36,916 --> 00:39:39,627
a patient who had been discharged
died by suicide.

487
00:39:41,545 --> 00:39:43,381
Despite being medical professionals,

488
00:39:44,632 --> 00:39:47,176
we're only human,
so I'm sure some of you here

489
00:39:48,219 --> 00:39:50,096
haven't gotten over his death yet.

490
00:39:52,973 --> 00:39:53,973
We are

491
00:39:54,517 --> 00:39:56,060
just survivors,

492
00:39:57,686 --> 00:39:59,688
constantly coping with loss.

493
00:40:00,898 --> 00:40:03,025
So we shouldn't let it stop us.

494
00:40:03,109 --> 00:40:05,236
Instead, we should take one day at a time.

495
00:40:25,464 --> 00:40:27,341
In some ways,

496
00:40:28,259 --> 00:40:30,010
living in the present can be

497
00:40:31,470 --> 00:40:33,639
the same as standing on a knife-edge.

498
00:40:35,099 --> 00:40:36,976
It's because the future is yet to come,

499
00:40:37,852 --> 00:40:40,271
and the past has already gone by.

500
00:40:42,565 --> 00:40:43,565
We're standing

501
00:40:44,108 --> 00:40:47,403
on the edge of a knife called the present.

502
00:40:58,330 --> 00:40:59,915
Oh! Dr. Dong.

503
00:40:59,999 --> 00:41:01,959
- It's been a while, Ms. Jung.
- It has.

504
00:41:02,543 --> 00:41:04,378
- You heading home now?
- Yes.

505
00:41:06,547 --> 00:41:08,382
The night air feels so nice.

506
00:41:11,802 --> 00:41:13,554
You're right. It does.

507
00:41:17,433 --> 00:41:21,479
You look a bit tired though.
Did you have a lot of work?

508
00:41:22,938 --> 00:41:23,981
A bit, yes.

509
00:41:28,694 --> 00:41:29,987
Oh, the bus is here.

510
00:41:45,002 --> 00:41:47,671
Are you feeling a bit better now?

511
00:41:48,672 --> 00:41:50,925
Well, yes…

512
00:41:52,593 --> 00:41:57,056
You know, when your heart aches,
your body suffers as well.

513
00:41:57,723 --> 00:41:59,475
There's no other medicine for it.

514
00:41:59,558 --> 00:42:02,269
You just eat good food, watch fun stuff,

515
00:42:02,353 --> 00:42:04,104
and indulge your own whims.

516
00:42:04,188 --> 00:42:07,191
These things help you
forget about the pain, if only a little.

517
00:42:11,445 --> 00:42:14,740
It sounds like you experienced
some kind of heartbreak.

518
00:42:16,116 --> 00:42:18,410
Oh, yes. Of course…

519
00:42:26,544 --> 00:42:29,338
DEFEAT LORENKRANTZ THE FIRE DRAGON

520
00:42:29,421 --> 00:42:32,758
That must be the game
Mr. Kim Seo-wan used to talk about.

521
00:42:34,552 --> 00:42:37,012
I think that's the Mediator character.

522
00:42:37,096 --> 00:42:39,014
What do you think? Do we look alike?

523
00:42:41,684 --> 00:42:42,810
Yes, maybe a bit.

524
00:42:43,519 --> 00:42:44,520
You think so?

525
00:42:44,603 --> 00:42:47,565
God, Ms. Hong would be upset
if she saw this.

526
00:42:47,648 --> 00:42:50,985
You see, Mr. Kim told her
that she looked like some kind of monster.

527
00:42:51,068 --> 00:42:52,403
I guess that's the one.

528
00:42:53,195 --> 00:42:56,031
Gosh, that was really mean,
don't you think?

529
00:43:38,532 --> 00:43:39,532
Ma'am.

530
00:43:42,661 --> 00:43:43,661
Yes, Mr. Kim.

531
00:43:45,539 --> 00:43:47,333
I'm sure you and your staff…

532
00:43:49,960 --> 00:43:50,961
must have sat

533
00:43:52,171 --> 00:43:54,089
next to my boy like this.

534
00:43:56,634 --> 00:43:57,634
I guess…

535
00:44:00,888 --> 00:44:03,474
he wasn't lonely at this hospital.

536
00:44:05,809 --> 00:44:06,810
So I think…

537
00:44:10,147 --> 00:44:12,983
he took at least one good memory with him.

538
00:44:15,069 --> 00:44:17,446
I'm sure he did.

539
00:44:21,325 --> 00:44:22,325
Thank you…

540
00:44:26,372 --> 00:44:27,372
for everything.

541
00:44:37,841 --> 00:44:38,967
Wait, Mr. Kim.

542
00:44:45,432 --> 00:44:49,812
Our unit has a therapy group
for survivors of suicide loss.

543
00:44:51,063 --> 00:44:52,690
Would you like to attend?

544
00:44:53,899 --> 00:44:55,317
A therapy group?

545
00:44:56,360 --> 00:44:58,862
You will be able to express your grief.

546
00:44:59,780 --> 00:45:01,532
Why are you being so nice to me

547
00:45:03,158 --> 00:45:04,868
when you don't have to?

548
00:45:06,537 --> 00:45:07,955
I think I understand

549
00:45:09,081 --> 00:45:10,416
how you must feel.

550
00:45:16,171 --> 00:45:17,715
- Hello.
- Hello.

551
00:45:21,552 --> 00:45:22,886
Yes, she's at the station.

552
00:45:24,596 --> 00:45:31,311
I hope this group therapy session
can become your safety nets.

553
00:45:31,395 --> 00:45:34,690
It'd be safer to use several safety nets

554
00:45:34,773 --> 00:45:36,608
instead of just one, right?

555
00:45:36,692 --> 00:45:37,692
Yes.

556
00:45:38,736 --> 00:45:41,989
Taking your meds regularly,
going to therapy,

557
00:45:42,072 --> 00:45:45,325
telling your doctor
about your exact symptoms,

558
00:45:45,951 --> 00:45:47,453
and having emergency pills ready,

559
00:45:47,536 --> 00:45:50,914
such practices will become
your safety nets.

560
00:45:51,540 --> 00:45:54,710
This group therapy session
is about providing a safe space

561
00:45:54,793 --> 00:45:58,046
where it's okay to openly discuss
what's inside our hearts

562
00:45:59,006 --> 00:46:03,802
so that we may better understand
our own pain and that of others.

563
00:46:04,970 --> 00:46:08,974
Before we begin, let me introduce
a new member of our group.

564
00:46:09,057 --> 00:46:10,225
Mr. Choi Jun-gi.

565
00:46:10,851 --> 00:46:12,770
Let's welcome him
with a round of applause.

566
00:46:16,440 --> 00:46:17,775
Then, let's begin.

567
00:46:20,277 --> 00:46:22,488
After my dad died by suicide…

568
00:46:25,365 --> 00:46:26,575
I had a very hard time.

569
00:46:30,579 --> 00:46:32,831
We often argued because of money,

570
00:46:34,291 --> 00:46:36,418
so I wonder
if that's why he took his own life.

571
00:46:37,419 --> 00:46:38,545
Even now,

572
00:46:39,630 --> 00:46:42,007
I can't bring myself to delete
the phone number.

573
00:46:43,884 --> 00:46:47,763
If only I had answered my friend's call
at the time…

574
00:46:49,473 --> 00:46:51,225
Living by myself feels strange.

575
00:46:56,021 --> 00:46:57,689
I feel like I should follow.

576
00:46:59,650 --> 00:47:01,777
The guilt of being alive drives me insane.

577
00:47:04,238 --> 00:47:05,238
At night,

578
00:47:06,865 --> 00:47:09,701
I shut my eyes,
wishing I won't wake up the next morning.

579
00:47:13,372 --> 00:47:14,372
But…

580
00:47:16,500 --> 00:47:17,626
my eyes open

581
00:47:19,336 --> 00:47:20,671
and the pain starts again.

582
00:47:27,803 --> 00:47:28,803
Mr. Choi Jun-gi.

583
00:47:30,264 --> 00:47:31,431
What do you think?

584
00:47:32,015 --> 00:47:35,143
Would you like to share
anything that's on your mind?

585
00:47:39,147 --> 00:47:43,026
If you need more time,
it can wait until the next session.

586
00:47:45,195 --> 00:47:46,195
My wife…

587
00:47:48,949 --> 00:47:49,949
di…

588
00:47:53,370 --> 00:47:55,038
died by suicide.

589
00:47:58,292 --> 00:48:01,003
I never expected to lose her so abruptly.

590
00:48:03,130 --> 00:48:05,173
Honestly, it was so sudden…

591
00:48:07,426 --> 00:48:09,803
that it still doesn't feel real at all.

592
00:48:13,891 --> 00:48:15,517
I feel so sorry for her.

593
00:48:19,146 --> 00:48:20,314
I also wonder…

594
00:48:23,025 --> 00:48:24,276
whether it was my fault…

595
00:48:26,945 --> 00:48:27,945
so I feel terrible.

596
00:48:41,752 --> 00:48:43,045
To me, it sounds like

597
00:48:43,128 --> 00:48:46,506
you still haven't
truly laid your wife to rest.

598
00:48:48,133 --> 00:48:49,133
Did you, perhaps,

599
00:48:49,760 --> 00:48:52,346
see your wife in her casket?

600
00:48:54,056 --> 00:48:56,391
No, I couldn't bring myself to see her.

601
00:48:59,061 --> 00:49:00,061
Then…

602
00:49:02,022 --> 00:49:05,275
what if we were to hold
your wife's funeral once more?

603
00:49:07,986 --> 00:49:10,030
Dr. Cha, could you lend me a hand?

604
00:49:10,113 --> 00:49:11,113
Yes, Dr. Im.

605
00:49:11,156 --> 00:49:13,158
Could you lie down here for a minute?

606
00:49:14,910 --> 00:49:15,910
Mr. Choi Jun-gi.

607
00:49:17,287 --> 00:49:18,287
Try to imagine

608
00:49:18,872 --> 00:49:23,293
that the person in front of you
is your late wife.

609
00:49:24,086 --> 00:49:27,464
And if there's something
you didn't get to say to her,

610
00:49:28,465 --> 00:49:29,758
please try saying it now.

611
00:50:01,540 --> 00:50:04,167
I just thought I was giving you time.

612
00:50:06,378 --> 00:50:09,798
Time to be sad, time to grieve,

613
00:50:10,924 --> 00:50:11,924
and time to forget.

614
00:50:13,260 --> 00:50:14,260
Yup.

615
00:50:14,594 --> 00:50:16,388
I thought I was giving you that.

616
00:50:18,890 --> 00:50:20,726
But looking back,

617
00:50:22,310 --> 00:50:24,229
I see now that I was just neglecting you.

618
00:50:25,897 --> 00:50:27,691
I shouldn't have left you alone,

619
00:50:29,651 --> 00:50:31,903
nor should I have left you
to cry by yourself.

620
00:50:32,404 --> 00:50:34,489
Had I realized this a bit sooner…

621
00:50:36,825 --> 00:50:40,162
Had I just been
more attentive to the signs, you…

622
00:50:52,090 --> 00:50:53,967
Next time, I won't leave you alone.

623
00:50:56,053 --> 00:50:57,387
I won't neglect you.

624
00:50:59,264 --> 00:51:00,390
So promise me

625
00:51:01,516 --> 00:51:02,642
that we'll meet again.

626
00:51:20,035 --> 00:51:21,369
And when we do…

627
00:51:23,580 --> 00:51:24,790
let's have a happier life.

628
00:51:36,176 --> 00:51:38,428
Ma'am, I'll take these
to the therapy room.

629
00:51:39,638 --> 00:51:42,682
Experiencing the suicide
of someone you know

630
00:51:42,766 --> 00:51:44,768
is a severely traumatic event.

631
00:51:45,811 --> 00:51:49,815
It can lead to a type
of post-traumatic stress disorder.

632
00:51:51,358 --> 00:51:55,320
The negative energy coming
from these memories is so strong

633
00:51:55,821 --> 00:51:59,116
that your mind might distance
any information related to those memories

634
00:51:59,199 --> 00:52:02,202
from your consciousness.

635
00:52:03,036 --> 00:52:05,372
This is called dissociative amnesia.

636
00:52:07,874 --> 00:52:10,460
The truth is so painful

637
00:52:11,002 --> 00:52:16,383
that your mind denies
it ever happened to you.

638
00:52:16,967 --> 00:52:18,635
Jung Da-eun? What about her?

639
00:52:18,718 --> 00:52:20,470
She just seems too okay.

640
00:52:20,554 --> 00:52:22,389
What does that mean, "too okay"?

641
00:52:22,472 --> 00:52:25,809
Well, she seemed to have forgotten
about Mr. Kim Seo-wan's passing.

642
00:52:27,769 --> 00:52:28,770
Thank you for sharing.

643
00:52:28,854 --> 00:52:30,647
- You all did so well.
- Thank you.

644
00:52:30,730 --> 00:52:31,982
Great job, everyone.

645
00:52:35,902 --> 00:52:38,655
Aren't you Mr. Kim Seo-wan's father?

646
00:52:40,949 --> 00:52:42,200
Ms. Jung Da-eun.

647
00:52:43,535 --> 00:52:45,745
I was hoping I could meet you.

648
00:52:46,788 --> 00:52:47,788
What did…

649
00:52:49,249 --> 00:52:51,001
what did Seo-wan say?

650
00:52:52,711 --> 00:52:54,004
Mr. Kim Seo-wan?

651
00:52:55,172 --> 00:53:00,051
You were the last person to speak to him
on the phone before he died.

652
00:53:01,011 --> 00:53:04,431
What do you mean, Mr. Kim Seo-wan is dead?

653
00:53:08,476 --> 00:53:12,063
But he was discharged.
I saw him as an outpatient recently.

654
00:56:17,957 --> 00:56:20,919
ALL PEOPLE, GROUPS,
LOCATIONS, ORGANIZATIONS,

655
00:56:21,002 --> 00:56:24,005
AND EVENTS IN THE SHOW
HAVE NO RELATION TO REAL LIFE