0
00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:15,000


1
00:01:39,532 --> 00:01:41,283
My name is Kathy H.

2
00:01:42,577 --> 00:01:44,453
I'm 28 years old.

3
00:01:47,749 --> 00:01:50,167
I've been a carer
for nine years.

4
00:01:57,550 --> 00:01:59,509
And I'm good at my job.

5
00:02:00,345 --> 00:02:03,138
My patients always do better
than expected

6
00:02:03,222 --> 00:02:05,223
and are hardly ever classified
as agitated,

7
00:02:06,726 --> 00:02:09,519
even if they're
about to make a donation.

8
00:02:12,523 --> 00:02:14,483
I'm not trying to boast,

9
00:02:14,567 --> 00:02:17,694
but I feel a great sense
of pride in what we do.

10
00:02:18,696 --> 00:02:21,406
Carers and donors
have achieved so much.

11
00:02:24,786 --> 00:02:27,037
That said,
we aren't machines.

12
00:02:30,583 --> 00:02:32,793
In the end,
it wears you down.

13
00:02:34,587 --> 00:02:39,049
I suppose that's why I now spend
most of my time not looking forwards

14
00:02:39,133 --> 00:02:41,301
but looking back,

15
00:02:41,386 --> 00:02:44,596
to The Cottages and Hailsham,

16
00:02:45,348 --> 00:02:47,099
and what happened to us there.

17
00:02:48,601 --> 00:02:50,018
Me,

18
00:02:51,354 --> 00:02:53,271
Tommy,

19
00:02:53,940 --> 00:02:56,191
and Ruth.

20
00:03:05,243 --> 00:03:10,831
When we are scattered
afar and asunder

21
00:03:10,915 --> 00:03:15,669
Parted are those
who are singing today

22
00:03:16,087 --> 00:03:21,258
When we look back
and forgetfully wonder

23
00:03:21,509 --> 00:03:26,304
What we were like
in our learning and play

24
00:03:26,931 --> 00:03:31,935
Oh, the great days
will bring distance enchanted

25
00:03:32,300 --> 00:03:37,023
Days of fresh air in the rain
and the sun

26
00:03:37,275 --> 00:03:42,320
How we rejoiced as we struggled
and panted

27
00:03:42,488 --> 00:03:49,327
Echoes of dreamland,
Hailsham lives on

28
00:03:56,252 --> 00:03:57,878
Good morning, students.

29
00:03:57,962 --> 00:04:00,839
Good morning, Miss Emily.

30
00:04:01,966 --> 00:04:06,094
It has come to my attention that
three burned cigarettes were discovered,

31
00:04:06,471 --> 00:04:09,556
hidden behind a pot
in the flower garden.

32
00:04:11,851 --> 00:04:14,019
I know that on occasion
students have seen

33
00:04:14,103 --> 00:04:17,898
some of the caretakers and deliverymen
smoking cigarettes,

34
00:04:17,982 --> 00:04:22,444
but I must emphasize, once again,
that it is much, much worse

35
00:04:22,528 --> 00:04:26,031
for a student of Hailsham to smoke
cigarettes than anyone else.

36
00:04:28,409 --> 00:04:31,786
Students of Hailsham
are special.

37
00:04:33,706 --> 00:04:37,876
Keeping yourselves well,
keeping yourselves healthy inside,

38
00:04:37,960 --> 00:04:40,128
is of paramount importance.

39
00:04:40,463 --> 00:04:42,422
Have I made myself clear?

40
00:04:42,507 --> 00:04:44,633
Yes, Miss Emily.

41
00:04:47,428 --> 00:04:50,889
I think, one day,
I'd like five horses.

42
00:04:51,933 --> 00:04:56,645
I don't know all their names,
but I know I'd like five horses.

43
00:04:56,771 --> 00:04:58,480
The best would be Thunder.

44
00:04:58,564 --> 00:05:01,733
He'd be dangerous to ride,
so you can't ride him.

45
00:05:02,818 --> 00:05:04,903
You can ride

46
00:05:05,863 --> 00:05:07,489
Bramble.

47
00:05:08,241 --> 00:05:11,326
Just so long as you don't
use your crop on him.

48
00:05:12,954 --> 00:05:14,996
That's pretty.

49
00:05:15,081 --> 00:05:16,498
You have it.

50
00:05:19,168 --> 00:05:22,087
Look. Who's that
with Miss Emily?

51
00:05:23,589 --> 00:05:25,757
Do you think
it's the new guardian?

52
00:05:25,841 --> 00:05:27,008
Miss Lucy.

53
00:05:28,553 --> 00:05:30,470
I think it must be.

54
00:05:30,555 --> 00:05:33,181
We haven't had
a new guardian for ages.

55
00:05:45,611 --> 00:05:48,280
Arthur! Arthur!

56
00:05:52,201 --> 00:05:53,702
Catch it, Tommy.

57
00:06:16,434 --> 00:06:19,019
Why didn't Tommy
get the ball?

58
00:06:20,771 --> 00:06:22,397
Excuse me, Miss Lucy?

59
00:06:22,815 --> 00:06:25,066
Why didn't Tommy
get the ball?

60
00:06:25,901 --> 00:06:27,110
When it bounced
over the fence,

61
00:06:27,194 --> 00:06:28,570
it couldn't have
been far from him.

62
00:06:29,238 --> 00:06:31,615
The fence is the boundary
of the Hailsham grounds.

63
00:06:31,741 --> 00:06:34,409
We don't go outside
the boundary, Miss Lucy.

64
00:06:34,660 --> 00:06:36,411
It's too dangerous.

65
00:06:36,871 --> 00:06:38,330
Dangerous?

66
00:06:38,414 --> 00:06:41,041
There was once a boy who had
a big row with all his friends

67
00:06:41,125 --> 00:06:43,501
and then ran off
beyond the boundary.

68
00:06:43,586 --> 00:06:47,797
They found him, two days later,
in the woods. Tied to a tree.

69
00:06:48,341 --> 00:06:49,924
With his hands
and feet cut off.

70
00:06:50,718 --> 00:06:51,968
Dead.

71
00:06:52,762 --> 00:06:54,721
And there was the girl
who climbed over the fence,

72
00:06:54,805 --> 00:06:56,139
by the front gate.

73
00:06:56,223 --> 00:06:59,476
And when she tried
to get back, she wasn't allowed.

74
00:06:59,769 --> 00:07:02,395
And then she starved.
Out there.

75
00:07:03,105 --> 00:07:04,856
Right by the gates.

76
00:07:07,610 --> 00:07:08,777
Who told you these stories?

77
00:07:09,320 --> 00:07:11,363
Everybody knows them.

78
00:07:11,614 --> 00:07:13,281
And how do you know
they're true?

79
00:07:13,616 --> 00:07:14,616
Of course they're true.

80
00:07:15,201 --> 00:07:17,994
Who'd make up stories
as horrible as that?

81
00:07:44,730 --> 00:07:47,524
Tommy, what are you doing?

82
00:07:47,817 --> 00:07:49,943
What is it, exactly?

83
00:07:50,027 --> 00:07:52,821
I think it must be a dog.
Is it a dog, Tommy?

84
00:07:53,197 --> 00:07:55,740
It can't be a dog.
lts eyes are too small.

85
00:07:55,950 --> 00:07:58,326
I think it must be a kind of rat.

86
00:07:58,411 --> 00:08:00,203
Yes, that's it.
Tommy's drawn a rat.

87
00:08:00,287 --> 00:08:01,371
It's not finished yet.

88
00:08:01,455 --> 00:08:03,456
That's right.
You haven't finished the whiskers.

89
00:08:03,541 --> 00:08:05,500
Do you think Tommy's rat
will be selected for The Gallery?

90
00:08:05,584 --> 00:08:07,127
It's not a rat.

91
00:08:09,880 --> 00:08:11,506
It's an elephant.

92
00:08:11,632 --> 00:08:13,508
Children, back to work.

93
00:08:43,622 --> 00:08:46,750
He's got his shirt on.
His favorite polo shirt.

94
00:08:48,002 --> 00:08:50,378
He really doesn't
suspect a thing.

95
00:08:52,381 --> 00:08:54,674
Looks like no one
wants you, Tommy.

96
00:09:05,978 --> 00:09:07,812
What's he doing?

97
00:09:07,938 --> 00:09:09,314
It's his own fault.

98
00:09:09,398 --> 00:09:12,859
If he learnt to keep his cool,
they'd leave him alone.

99
00:09:13,027 --> 00:09:14,986
I hate you!
I hate you all!

100
00:09:15,070 --> 00:09:16,279
Kath... No, don't!

101
00:09:27,416 --> 00:09:29,209
You shouldn't have...

102
00:09:51,440 --> 00:09:53,274
Kathy H.

103
00:10:06,455 --> 00:10:08,122
What's this from?

104
00:10:08,791 --> 00:10:10,458
I don't remember.

105
00:10:10,626 --> 00:10:12,502
Doctor?

106
00:10:19,802 --> 00:10:21,970
It's nothing.
Just a bruise.

107
00:10:28,561 --> 00:10:30,270
Hello.

108
00:10:30,771 --> 00:10:32,814
Kathy. Kathy H.

109
00:10:33,566 --> 00:10:35,984
Of course. Kathy H.

110
00:10:36,652 --> 00:10:38,194
Come in.

111
00:10:44,201 --> 00:10:45,743
So what can I do for you?

112
00:10:47,162 --> 00:10:48,621
Well,

113
00:10:49,456 --> 00:10:52,500
I was wondering
what you said to Tommy.

114
00:10:53,627 --> 00:10:55,628
Out on the playing fields.

115
00:10:55,713 --> 00:10:57,714
I see. Oh.

116
00:10:58,632 --> 00:11:00,300
So what did I say?

117
00:11:02,845 --> 00:11:05,221
I believe I was trying
to calm him down.

118
00:11:05,306 --> 00:11:07,181
Because he seemed upset.

119
00:11:07,683 --> 00:11:11,269
He explained he was often
teased about sport and art,

120
00:11:11,353 --> 00:11:14,689
so I told him he shouldn't get
upset about these things.

121
00:11:15,107 --> 00:11:18,735
The other children are only
teasing him to get a reaction.

122
00:11:20,821 --> 00:11:23,531
And if it happens that he's not
particularly good at sport or art,

123
00:11:23,616 --> 00:11:25,658
well, that doesn't matter.

124
00:11:26,452 --> 00:11:28,328
It's not so important.

125
00:11:34,043 --> 00:11:35,543
Thank you.

126
00:11:58,275 --> 00:11:59,734
Kathy.

127
00:12:02,738 --> 00:12:04,155
Aren't you sitting
with the girls?

128
00:12:04,239 --> 00:12:05,239
Well, I just checked

129
00:12:05,699 --> 00:12:07,951
and I'm pretty sure I'm not sitting
with the girls.

130
00:12:08,035 --> 00:12:09,285
I'm sitting with you.

131
00:12:11,580 --> 00:12:13,122
I wanted to say

132
00:12:15,376 --> 00:12:17,043
I'm sorry.

133
00:12:18,420 --> 00:12:20,421
I didn't mean to hit you.

134
00:12:21,590 --> 00:12:25,176
I mean, I wouldn't
want to hit any girl.

135
00:12:27,972 --> 00:12:29,639
But particularly not you.

136
00:12:31,100 --> 00:12:33,893
Well, it was an accident,
that's all.

137
00:12:36,105 --> 00:12:38,690
Tommy, finish those vegetables.

138
00:12:56,125 --> 00:12:58,543
I'm not gonna get angry
like that anymore.

139
00:12:58,627 --> 00:13:02,422
Because of what Miss Lucy told you,
about being creative?

140
00:13:02,506 --> 00:13:04,090
How do you know about that?

141
00:13:04,174 --> 00:13:05,216
I'm nosey.

142
00:13:08,637 --> 00:13:12,849
She can't actually mean that being creative
isn't important, can she?

143
00:13:13,017 --> 00:13:15,226
I mean, what about The Gallery?

144
00:13:15,310 --> 00:13:17,311
If being creative isn't important,

145
00:13:17,396 --> 00:13:19,397
then why have a gallery at all?

146
00:13:22,192 --> 00:13:23,651
I don't know.

147
00:13:28,657 --> 00:13:32,160
...by arching her back, or perhaps
with the aid of a pillow,

148
00:13:33,078 --> 00:13:35,079
the woman can arrange herself...

149
00:13:50,596 --> 00:13:53,264
Smile

150
00:14:07,446 --> 00:14:08,863
Good morning, ma'am.

151
00:14:08,947 --> 00:14:10,114
Good morning.

152
00:14:10,199 --> 00:14:11,699
Can I help you?

153
00:14:11,784 --> 00:14:14,702
I wanted one tea, with milk
and sugar in it.

154
00:14:15,454 --> 00:14:17,997
One tea. Right.

155
00:14:24,505 --> 00:14:26,047
Tommy.

156
00:14:26,131 --> 00:14:28,716
Oh! One tea with milk and sugar
in it, please.

157
00:14:29,051 --> 00:14:31,052
No, Tommy.

158
00:14:33,639 --> 00:14:35,848
I want to hear your own order.

159
00:14:35,933 --> 00:14:37,600
Don't simply repeat
the one you've just heard.

160
00:14:38,393 --> 00:14:41,229
What other drinks
do they serve in cafes?

161
00:14:41,313 --> 00:14:42,647
Water.

185
00:15:02,318 --> 00:15:03,318
Coffee.

162
00:14:46,902 --> 00:14:47,902
Coffee.

163
00:14:49,780 --> 00:14:51,072
So, then.

164
00:14:51,949 --> 00:14:53,241
So, then,

165
00:14:54,409 --> 00:14:57,078
one coffee, please, with milk
and sugar in it.

166
00:15:02,960 --> 00:15:04,293
Thank you.

167
00:15:13,303 --> 00:15:15,263
I think Laura likes Arthur.

168
00:15:16,098 --> 00:15:18,724
All the girls like
Arthur, don't they?

169
00:15:19,601 --> 00:15:21,102
Maybe.

170
00:15:22,604 --> 00:15:24,021
I'm not sure you do.

171
00:15:25,399 --> 00:15:27,525
He's not my type.

172
00:15:27,609 --> 00:15:30,862
I think Laura and Arthur will be the first
in our year to have sex

173
00:15:30,946 --> 00:15:34,407
because, if Arthur wants to,
Laura wouldn't stop him.

174
00:15:35,117 --> 00:15:37,285
I'm sure you're right.

175
00:15:41,623 --> 00:15:43,082
Tommy's changed.

176
00:15:44,084 --> 00:15:45,501
Changed how?

177
00:15:46,795 --> 00:15:48,296
Just changed.

178
00:15:49,464 --> 00:15:50,840
That's all.

179
00:16:21,246 --> 00:16:23,831
What about this one
by Madeleine Kane?

180
00:16:24,208 --> 00:16:27,501
I think it shows more
than technical ability.

181
00:16:27,669 --> 00:16:30,213
It gives a real insight
into the child.

182
00:16:30,339 --> 00:16:33,382
Which is precisely what Marie-Claude
wants for The Gallery.

183
00:16:33,467 --> 00:16:35,259
Yes, I agree.

184
00:16:39,014 --> 00:16:40,097
Mmm.

185
00:16:40,641 --> 00:16:42,516
Put these two together.

186
00:16:43,602 --> 00:16:45,228
Madame is coming.

187
00:17:35,862 --> 00:17:37,571
Good morning, students.

188
00:17:37,698 --> 00:17:40,700
Good morning, Miss Emily.

189
00:17:42,077 --> 00:17:44,787
There are several
points of order today.

190
00:17:44,871 --> 00:17:48,624
The first is that our good friend,
Madame Marie-Claude, is visiting us.

191
00:17:48,792 --> 00:17:53,004
She will, as usual, be carefully inspecting
your artwork and poetry

192
00:17:53,171 --> 00:17:57,133
and selecting the very best pieces
for inclusion in her Gallery.

193
00:17:57,551 --> 00:18:00,011
We will, of course,
extend to her every courtesy

194
00:18:00,095 --> 00:18:02,763
and make her feel most welcome.

195
00:18:03,098 --> 00:18:06,684
Second point of order, a piece of good news
for all students

196
00:18:06,768 --> 00:18:09,645
who have been diligent
in collecting tokens.

197
00:18:10,022 --> 00:18:12,857
After studies tomorrow,
there will be a sale.

198
00:18:14,067 --> 00:18:16,444
The delivery will arrive in the morning,

199
00:18:16,570 --> 00:18:18,904
and I was assured by the van driver

200
00:18:18,989 --> 00:18:22,241
that the boxes will
contain a bumper crop.

201
00:19:12,000 --> 00:19:14,126
Is it really a bumper crop?

202
00:19:15,504 --> 00:19:18,923
I should say so. Yeah, sweetheart.
It's a bumper crop.

203
00:20:23,738 --> 00:20:25,114
Hey.

204
00:20:26,324 --> 00:20:27,992
Aren't you buying?

205
00:20:28,368 --> 00:20:31,829
If you've already spent all your tokens,
you can have some of mine.

206
00:20:32,080 --> 00:20:35,666
I have tokens. I was just gonna wait
till the rush died down.

207
00:20:35,750 --> 00:20:38,502
I'm sure there'll be
something good left.

208
00:20:39,629 --> 00:20:41,589
What's the matter, Kath?

209
00:20:45,427 --> 00:20:46,969
Well, anyway, it doesn't matter

210
00:20:47,053 --> 00:20:49,597
if you can't find anything in the sale

211
00:20:49,681 --> 00:20:53,309
because I already found you something.

212
00:20:56,021 --> 00:20:57,480
KATHY: A music tape.

213
00:20:57,564 --> 00:21:01,192
I don't know much about it,
if it's much good or anything.

214
00:21:05,405 --> 00:21:06,864
Thank you.

249
00:21:29,121 --> 00:21:31,122
* Darling *

215
00:21:17,459 --> 00:21:28,302
* Hold me *

216
00:21:28,386 --> 00:21:29,970
* And never *

217
00:21:31,014 --> 00:21:34,808
* Never *

218
00:21:35,477 --> 00:21:39,104
* Let me go *

219
00:21:48,448 --> 00:21:50,699
* Darling *

220
00:21:52,827 --> 00:22:04,088
* Kiss me *

221
00:22:04,172 --> 00:22:06,048
* And never *

222
00:22:06,550 --> 00:22:10,678
* Never *

223
00:22:11,137 --> 00:22:15,849
* Let me go *

224
00:22:46,965 --> 00:22:48,799
The problem is

225
00:22:49,926 --> 00:22:53,178
you've been told and not told.

226
00:22:54,014 --> 00:22:56,515
That's what I've seen
while I've been here.

227
00:22:57,851 --> 00:22:59,768
You've been told

228
00:23:00,061 --> 00:23:02,688
but none of you really understand.

229
00:23:03,690 --> 00:23:07,818
So I've decided I'll talk to you
in a way that you will understand.

230
00:23:11,489 --> 00:23:13,782
Do you know what happens to children
when they grow up?

231
00:23:16,536 --> 00:23:20,247
No, you don't, because nobody knows.

232
00:23:22,584 --> 00:23:25,127
They might grow up to become actors,

233
00:23:26,129 --> 00:23:28,088
move to America.

234
00:23:29,841 --> 00:23:32,343
Or they might work in supermarkets.

235
00:23:33,011 --> 00:23:34,762
Or teach in schools.

236
00:23:35,847 --> 00:23:40,684
They might become sportsmen or bus conductors
or racing car drivers.

237
00:23:40,935 --> 00:23:43,354
They might do almost anything.

238
00:23:45,690 --> 00:23:47,650
But with you we do know.

239
00:23:50,779 --> 00:23:53,072
None of you will go to America.

240
00:23:54,866 --> 00:23:57,826
None of you will work in supermarkets.

241
00:24:00,080 --> 00:24:02,373
None of you will do anything
except live the life

242
00:24:02,457 --> 00:24:04,667
that has already been set out for you.

243
00:24:07,295 --> 00:24:09,380
You will become adults,

244
00:24:11,132 --> 00:24:12,800
but only briefly.

245
00:24:16,262 --> 00:24:17,971
Before you are old,

246
00:24:19,557 --> 00:24:21,892
before you are even middle-aged,

247
00:24:22,310 --> 00:24:25,646
you will start to donate
your vital organs.

248
00:24:28,149 --> 00:24:30,651
That's what you were created to do.

249
00:24:33,154 --> 00:24:37,658
And sometime around your third
or fourth donation,

250
00:24:38,743 --> 00:24:41,495
your short life will be complete.

251
00:24:43,248 --> 00:24:47,584
You have to know who you are
and what you are.

252
00:24:48,545 --> 00:24:51,714
It's the only way you'll lead
decent lives.

253
00:25:42,974 --> 00:25:46,143
There will be only one
announcement this morning,

254
00:25:47,395 --> 00:25:48,937
which is that Miss Lucy,

255
00:25:49,022 --> 00:25:51,440
who was guardian to the fourth-year students,

256
00:25:51,816 --> 00:25:54,193
is no longer working at Hailsham.

257
00:25:58,114 --> 00:26:00,991
A replacement will be found for her,
and in the meantime

258
00:26:01,075 --> 00:26:05,078
her classes will be divided between
Miss Geraldine and myself.

259
00:26:07,207 --> 00:26:09,750
It is hard, is it not,

260
00:26:10,293 --> 00:26:14,296
to continue in the face
of deliberate subversion.

261
00:26:16,090 --> 00:26:20,093
There are those who seek
to thwart us, this is clear.

262
00:26:20,512 --> 00:26:24,181
And we are aware that the tide
is not with forward thinking.

263
00:26:24,265 --> 00:26:25,599
It never is.

264
00:26:26,768 --> 00:26:30,521
No, the tide is with
the entrenched mindset.

265
00:26:30,605 --> 00:26:33,232
With values that are still unexamined.

266
00:26:35,985 --> 00:26:38,362
But I will not be coerced.

267
00:26:43,284 --> 00:26:45,452
I will not be coerced.

268
00:26:48,414 --> 00:26:50,791
And neither will Hailsham.

269
00:27:55,315 --> 00:27:59,860
I didn't understand why,
after all her teasing,

270
00:28:00,862 --> 00:28:05,073
Ruth would decide that Tommy was the boy
she liked most of all.

271
00:28:13,958 --> 00:28:17,336
They say girls are always mean
to the boys they like.

272
00:28:21,049 --> 00:28:23,717
So maybe Ruth had liked him all along.

273
00:28:28,723 --> 00:28:31,600
Maybe I should have teased him, too.

274
00:28:45,823 --> 00:28:48,241
I kept hoping they would separate,

275
00:28:48,451 --> 00:28:52,204
like the other childhood
and teenage romances at the school.

276
00:28:58,169 --> 00:28:59,711
They never did.

277
00:29:34,122 --> 00:29:36,873
We were moved from Hailsham at 18

278
00:29:36,958 --> 00:29:39,376
and sent to various accommodations
around the country,

279
00:29:39,460 --> 00:29:42,713
to wait until we were old enough
to start the donations.

280
00:29:45,550 --> 00:29:47,342
Tommy, Ruth and I

281
00:29:47,427 --> 00:29:51,388
were sent to a collection of farm buildings
called The Cottages.

282
00:29:57,228 --> 00:29:58,895
During our stay there, we were told

283
00:29:58,980 --> 00:30:02,607
that some of us would be permitted
to volunteer as carers.

284
00:30:04,861 --> 00:30:08,989
But, apart from that, we'd be left largely
to our own devices

285
00:30:09,073 --> 00:30:13,285
and even allowed to take day trips into
the surrounding countryside.

286
00:30:18,332 --> 00:30:20,250
The Cottages were also
our first contact

287
00:30:20,334 --> 00:30:23,253
with those who had not
grown up at Hailsham.

288
00:30:23,504 --> 00:30:25,505
There were people from White Mansion,

289
00:30:26,007 --> 00:30:30,552
Oakhill, Morningdale and other homes
I'd never heard of.

290
00:30:33,473 --> 00:30:37,184
Everyone seemed wiser
and more worldly than us.

291
00:30:39,729 --> 00:30:42,689
None more so than
Rodney and Chrissie.

292
00:30:42,774 --> 00:30:45,484
They'd already been at The Cottages
for over a year

293
00:30:45,568 --> 00:30:48,779
and would soon be leaving
for the completion centers.

294
00:30:48,863 --> 00:30:51,615
Ricky? I don't know what
you're talking about.

295
00:30:51,699 --> 00:30:53,575
Oh, I can help you out there.

296
00:30:53,659 --> 00:30:57,579
He's talking about blue eyes, blond hair,
cute dimples when he smiles.

297
00:30:57,663 --> 00:31:00,373
And biceps that could crack walnuts.

298
00:31:02,960 --> 00:31:04,878
Jennifer, get real, I saw you with him.

299
00:31:04,962 --> 00:31:08,548
Jen and Ricky sitting in a tree,
K-I-S-S-I-N-G.

300
00:31:09,383 --> 00:31:11,927
That is so not true.

301
00:31:14,222 --> 00:31:15,722
We weren't in a tree.

302
00:31:33,491 --> 00:31:34,908
Hey.

303
00:31:38,955 --> 00:31:40,747
Where you going?

304
00:31:41,415 --> 00:31:43,542
I thought I'd go for a walk.

305
00:31:43,918 --> 00:31:47,921
Does that mean you want to be alone?

306
00:32:19,078 --> 00:32:21,079
I'm not even saying that I'll apply
to be a carer.

307
00:32:21,164 --> 00:32:23,415
Just that several people have said that
I'd be good at it.

308
00:32:23,749 --> 00:32:25,625
But then Laura went around
telling everyone

309
00:32:25,710 --> 00:32:28,211
that I'd been saying I was the most likely
to get selected.

310
00:32:28,296 --> 00:32:29,379
That's so not true.

311
00:32:29,463 --> 00:32:30,922
So not true.

312
00:32:31,299 --> 00:32:32,883
Thank you.

313
00:32:35,845 --> 00:32:37,804
I'm getting more plates.

314
00:32:39,473 --> 00:32:41,308
Is there anything left for us?

315
00:32:41,434 --> 00:32:43,435
I don't know.

316
00:32:45,813 --> 00:32:47,189
Perhaps not.

317
00:32:48,649 --> 00:32:50,901
Ruth, why do you do that thing?

318
00:32:51,652 --> 00:32:53,028
Squeezing Tommy's shoulder.

319
00:32:55,364 --> 00:32:56,990
I'm allowed to touch Tommy,
aren't I?

320
00:32:57,074 --> 00:32:59,326
It's the way you're touching him.

321
00:32:59,410 --> 00:33:01,828
You know what I mean. It's copied
from that television show.

322
00:33:02,997 --> 00:33:03,997
That's so not...

323
00:33:04,081 --> 00:33:06,625
Don't tell me "that's so not true."

324
00:33:08,628 --> 00:33:11,588
All that behavior, that's not
what people do out there, in real life,

325
00:33:11,672 --> 00:33:12,923
if that's what you were thinking.

326
00:33:13,007 --> 00:33:16,092
So what? Look, it's no big deal.
A lot of us do it.

327
00:33:16,177 --> 00:33:18,261
What you mean is Chrissie and Rod do it.

328
00:33:19,347 --> 00:33:21,181
Oh, Kathy.

329
00:33:23,935 --> 00:33:26,144
So that's what this is about.

330
00:33:27,104 --> 00:33:28,188
It must be really awful for you,

331
00:33:28,272 --> 00:33:29,731
surrounded by all these couples.

332
00:33:30,316 --> 00:33:34,110
I never said that.
I just think it's daft.

333
00:33:34,820 --> 00:33:37,405
You copy them, and they copy from
a television show.

334
00:33:37,490 --> 00:33:39,574
I'm right, aren't I?

335
00:33:40,534 --> 00:33:44,913
You don't like the fact that Tommy
and I are friends with Chrissie and Rod,

336
00:33:44,997 --> 00:33:46,873
whereas you hardly speak to anyone.

337
00:33:49,877 --> 00:33:52,879
No. You're not right.

338
00:33:54,090 --> 00:33:55,966
"So" not right?

339
00:34:15,403 --> 00:34:17,237
Thank you, Mr. Keffers.

387
00:35:40,304 --> 00:35:41,805
Hello, Tommy.

340
00:35:26,140 --> 00:35:27,891
Hello, Kath.

390
00:35:47,854 --> 00:35:51,982
Well, don't just hover in the doorway.
Come in. Join the fun.

341
00:35:37,109 --> 00:35:39,819
Didn't know you liked
that sort of stuff.

342
00:35:41,113 --> 00:35:42,864
You're very welcome to them
after I've finished.

343
00:35:43,324 --> 00:35:45,450
Oh, no, it's just sex stuff.

344
00:35:45,993 --> 00:35:48,828
I expect I've seen
them all already anyway.

345
00:35:53,834 --> 00:35:55,251
Kathy, what are you looking for?

346
00:35:56,003 --> 00:35:59,339
What do you mean? I'm just looking
at dirty pictures.

347
00:36:00,674 --> 00:36:01,758
What, just for kicks?

348
00:36:01,842 --> 00:36:04,302
I suppose you could say that, yes.

349
00:36:10,184 --> 00:36:13,645
If it's just for kicks,
then you don't do it like that.

350
00:36:14,855 --> 00:36:17,482
You need to look at each picture
more carefully.

351
00:36:17,691 --> 00:36:20,026
Nothing really happens
if you go that fast.

352
00:36:20,319 --> 00:36:22,654
How do you know what works for girls?

353
00:36:24,865 --> 00:36:27,367
Kath, you're not looking for kicks.

354
00:36:31,330 --> 00:36:35,125
Here, give it to Ruth.
See if it does anything for her.

355
00:36:49,890 --> 00:36:54,894
Hi.

356
00:36:57,314 --> 00:36:59,691
I suppose you've heard what Rod
and Chrissie have been saying.

357
00:37:00,734 --> 00:37:02,235
No, I haven't.

358
00:37:07,408 --> 00:37:09,451
Well, you know that Rod and Chrissie

359
00:37:09,535 --> 00:37:10,994
have been thinking of applying
to be carers,

360
00:37:11,078 --> 00:37:12,078
so they've been learning how to drive.

361
00:37:12,163 --> 00:37:13,163
Yeah.

362
00:37:13,247 --> 00:37:17,917
Well, last weekend, they went up
to a town on the Norfolk coast,

363
00:37:18,711 --> 00:37:21,421
and they think they saw this person.

364
00:37:21,589 --> 00:37:23,006
What kind of person?

365
00:37:24,175 --> 00:37:25,717
A lady

366
00:37:26,886 --> 00:37:28,344
working in an office.

367
00:37:28,888 --> 00:37:30,054
And...

368
00:37:31,807 --> 00:37:33,433
What is it, Ruth?

369
00:37:35,269 --> 00:37:38,188
But they thought this person
was a Possible.

370
00:37:40,566 --> 00:37:42,317
For me.

371
00:37:43,027 --> 00:37:44,360
They found your Original?

372
00:37:44,445 --> 00:37:46,779
They aren't sure, obviously,

373
00:37:46,864 --> 00:37:49,866
but Rodney said that the resemblance
was really striking.

374
00:37:49,950 --> 00:37:52,243
Oh, my God. Ruth!
I know.

375
00:37:53,496 --> 00:37:57,165
They want to drive me back up there
so that I can see for myself.

376
00:37:57,291 --> 00:37:59,542
Tommy will come, but...

377
00:37:59,877 --> 00:38:01,294
Do you want me to come?

378
00:38:04,798 --> 00:38:06,758
Ruth, of course.

379
00:38:16,977 --> 00:38:21,064
So, exactly how much experience have
you guys had with the outside?

380
00:38:21,941 --> 00:38:22,982
Quite a lot.

381
00:38:23,067 --> 00:38:24,484
No, we haven't.

382
00:38:26,153 --> 00:38:29,239
We did a lot of role-playing
exercises at Hailsham.

383
00:38:29,323 --> 00:38:30,990
They don't count.

384
00:38:29,323 --> 00:38:30,990
They don't count.

385
00:38:34,745 --> 00:38:37,747
Okay? There's really...
There's nothing to it.

386
00:38:39,542 --> 00:38:41,167
We aren't scared.

387
00:38:42,002 --> 00:38:43,461
Good.

388
00:39:06,652 --> 00:39:08,111
I'll get sausage,
egg and chips.

389
00:39:12,658 --> 00:39:13,783
Sausage, egg and chips, please.

390
00:39:13,867 --> 00:39:14,951
Yes, sausage, egg and chips.

391
00:39:15,035 --> 00:39:17,078
Sausage, egg and chips,
me, too, please.

392
00:39:18,247 --> 00:39:21,416
Well, I suppose I'd better get sausage,
egg and chips, too, then.

393
00:39:21,500 --> 00:39:25,628
Five sausage, egg and chips. Drinks?

394
00:39:28,382 --> 00:39:29,882
Five Cokes, please.

395
00:39:44,398 --> 00:39:46,691
It was good. It was really good.

396
00:39:48,235 --> 00:39:49,444
What?
Sorry.

397
00:39:54,199 --> 00:39:58,536
You know, there's something I've been
wanting to talk to you lot about.

398
00:39:59,872 --> 00:40:02,165
The problem is that back there
at The Cottages it's impossible.

399
00:40:02,249 --> 00:40:04,584
Someone's always listening in.

400
00:40:05,919 --> 00:40:07,337
So,

401
00:40:10,049 --> 00:40:12,342
someone was saying that some Hailsham
students in the past

402
00:40:12,426 --> 00:40:15,094
have managed to get a deferral.

403
00:40:15,262 --> 00:40:16,763
Apparently those Hailsham students

404
00:40:16,847 --> 00:40:19,932
could have their first donation
put back by three

405
00:40:20,643 --> 00:40:23,061
or even four years.

406
00:40:26,440 --> 00:40:28,441
As long as they qualified.

407
00:40:29,360 --> 00:40:31,569
If there was a boy and a girl,

408
00:40:31,987 --> 00:40:33,988
and they were in love
with each other,

409
00:40:34,073 --> 00:40:37,909
really properly in love,
and they could prove it,

410
00:40:38,577 --> 00:40:41,496
then they would be given
a few years together

411
00:40:41,705 --> 00:40:44,123
before they began their donations.

412
00:40:47,294 --> 00:40:49,545
Where did you hear about this?

413
00:40:50,422 --> 00:40:51,798
When we were at White Mansion.

414
00:40:51,924 --> 00:40:54,092
People there were always going on about
this Hailsham couple.

415
00:40:54,760 --> 00:40:56,344
When the guy was only a few weeks
from donation,

416
00:40:56,428 --> 00:40:59,931
he just went to see someone.
He applied, and everything got sorted out.

417
00:41:00,683 --> 00:41:04,435
I suppose you lot would know about
that sort of thing.

418
00:41:04,520 --> 00:41:08,314
Being from Hailsham, you'd know how that
sort of thing works.

419
00:41:08,899 --> 00:41:11,317
Who is it you go to?

420
00:41:12,319 --> 00:41:15,822
Who would we talk to
if we wanted to apply?

421
00:41:24,248 --> 00:41:26,124
To be honest, I don't know what
you're talking about.

422
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:29,669
Come on.

423
00:41:31,338 --> 00:41:32,672
Do you expect us to believe that?

424
00:41:32,756 --> 00:41:35,591
Everybody knows Hailsham is special.

425
00:41:36,176 --> 00:41:37,844
So what is it?

426
00:41:39,138 --> 00:41:41,723
Why keep these things to yourself?

427
00:41:48,188 --> 00:41:50,857
There were lots of
stories at Hailsham.

428
00:41:51,817 --> 00:41:55,319
I don't think many of them
turned out to be true.

429
00:42:22,055 --> 00:42:23,973
It may be down here.

430
00:42:34,067 --> 00:42:35,443
Yeah.

431
00:42:35,903 --> 00:42:37,236
That's it.

432
00:43:03,680 --> 00:43:05,431
God, it must be her.

433
00:43:06,266 --> 00:43:08,726
Yeah, that's her.

434
00:43:35,087 --> 00:43:36,712
It's not her.

435
00:43:38,340 --> 00:43:40,341
- I'm not her.
- No, you're not.

436
00:43:40,634 --> 00:43:42,051
It was really close, though.

437
00:43:42,135 --> 00:43:44,720
Oh, shut up, Tommy!
It wasn't close. It wasn't close at all.

438
00:43:44,805 --> 00:43:48,140
And I knew it wasn't gonna be her
before we even got here!

439
00:43:48,642 --> 00:43:50,351
It was never gonna be her.

440
00:43:50,477 --> 00:43:53,521
They never, ever model us
on people like that woman.

441
00:43:53,605 --> 00:43:55,231
- Ruth, don't.
- What?

442
00:43:55,858 --> 00:43:57,984
We all know it, we just never say it.

443
00:43:59,278 --> 00:44:01,571
We are modeled on trash.

444
00:44:01,697 --> 00:44:05,658
Junkies, prostitutes,
winos, tramps.

445
00:44:06,285 --> 00:44:09,370
Convicts, maybe,
as long as they
aren't psychos.

446
00:44:10,497 --> 00:44:14,500
If you want to lookfor Possibles,
if you want to do it properly,

447
00:44:16,670 --> 00:44:17,879
look in the gutter.

448
00:44:19,798 --> 00:44:21,799
That's where we came from.

449
00:44:49,369 --> 00:44:53,748
That's where we came from.

450
00:45:25,238 --> 00:45:27,239
We should go back.

451
00:46:50,157 --> 00:46:52,783
Don't tell me to calm down!

452
00:46:53,744 --> 00:46:56,078
You walked down the pier
and you left me there.

453
00:46:56,163 --> 00:46:57,830
You knew I was well upset.

454
00:47:10,677 --> 00:47:11,677
Out here.

455
00:47:26,818 --> 00:47:31,280
Chrissie and Rod are pretty obsessed
about this rumor, aren't they?

456
00:47:31,364 --> 00:47:33,324
- About the deferrals?
- Mmm.

457
00:47:35,494 --> 00:47:38,537
I was thinking about it
again last night,

458
00:47:39,039 --> 00:47:40,998
and if this rumor's true

459
00:47:42,209 --> 00:47:44,460
it might explain a few things.

460
00:47:44,836 --> 00:47:46,295
- Such as?
- Well,

461
00:47:47,881 --> 00:47:49,298
The Gallery, for instance.

462
00:47:49,382 --> 00:47:53,094
We never got to the bottom of it,
what The Gallery was for.

463
00:47:53,470 --> 00:47:55,638
Pictures, poetry and sculpture.

464
00:47:55,722 --> 00:47:57,264
Say something about yourself.

465
00:47:57,432 --> 00:47:59,600
That's the whole point
about art, isn't it?

466
00:47:59,684 --> 00:48:02,937
It says what's inside of you.
It reveals your soul.

467
00:48:03,396 --> 00:48:04,980
It says what's inside of you.
It reveals your soul.

468
00:48:14,825 --> 00:48:18,911
Suppose for a second
that the rumor is true.

469
00:48:19,079 --> 00:48:22,206
That there is a special arrangement
for Hailsham students,

470
00:48:22,290 --> 00:48:23,833
if they're in love.

471
00:48:24,835 --> 00:48:28,087
Well, there would have to be
some kind of way

472
00:48:28,421 --> 00:48:32,424
to decide if couples
are telling the truth

473
00:48:32,843 --> 00:48:35,511
and not just lying
to put off their donations.

474
00:48:43,520 --> 00:48:46,021
That's what The Gallery
could be for.

475
00:48:46,898 --> 00:48:49,275
In The Gallery they have everything
about us they need to know.

476
00:48:49,359 --> 00:48:51,694
So if we say that we're in love,

477
00:48:53,488 --> 00:48:55,823
they can look into our souls
and they can see.

478
00:48:55,907 --> 00:48:58,617
They'll know if it's real love
or if it's just a lie.

479
00:48:59,786 --> 00:49:01,829
That's a strange idea, Tommy.

480
00:49:03,415 --> 00:49:04,498
What?

481
00:49:06,668 --> 00:49:09,670
No, no. I don't think that's any stranger
than any other idea.

482
00:49:09,754 --> 00:49:13,174
And didn't Miss Lucy say that making art
for The Gallery wasn't even important?

483
00:49:13,258 --> 00:49:14,633
Yes.

484
00:49:16,428 --> 00:49:18,637
But look what happened to her.

485
00:49:29,482 --> 00:49:31,692
Are you thinking of applying?

486
00:49:32,485 --> 00:49:33,986
With Ruth?

487
00:49:37,365 --> 00:49:38,407
No.

488
00:49:39,701 --> 00:49:40,910
It wouldn't work.

489
00:49:42,829 --> 00:49:44,246
Why?

490
00:49:51,630 --> 00:49:53,172
Because

491
00:50:01,348 --> 00:50:02,848
you forget that

492
00:50:04,017 --> 00:50:06,602
you got lots of stuff into The Gallery
over the years,

493
00:50:06,686 --> 00:50:10,147
and if I applied
they wouldn't have
anything to go on.

494
00:50:24,579 --> 00:50:26,747
It's all just rumors
and theories.

495
00:50:31,127 --> 00:50:32,586
Yeah, I know.

496
00:50:35,840 --> 00:50:37,341
Tommy.

497
00:51:26,099 --> 00:51:37,651
* Kiss me *

498
00:51:37,736 --> 00:51:40,195
* And never *

499
00:51:40,280 --> 00:51:44,742
* Never *

500
00:51:44,826 --> 00:51:48,620
* Let me go *

501
00:51:57,130 --> 00:51:59,298
* Lock my heart *

502
00:52:01,760 --> 00:52:05,220
* Throw away the key *

503
00:52:06,264 --> 00:52:09,099
* Feel my love *

504
00:52:27,994 --> 00:52:30,496
I know what you think, Kathy.

505
00:52:33,750 --> 00:52:37,753
I know you think that you and Tommy
would have made a more natural couple,

506
00:52:38,505 --> 00:52:40,005
and you believe

507
00:52:40,090 --> 00:52:43,550
that there's a chance that Tommy and I
will split up some day.

508
00:52:45,011 --> 00:52:48,722
And when we do, perhaps that will be
your chance with Tommy.

509
00:52:49,682 --> 00:52:52,017
Chance to do it right this time.

510
00:52:59,401 --> 00:53:02,069
But you see, the thing is, Kathy,

511
00:53:02,612 --> 00:53:06,031
although Tommy really likes you
as a friend,

512
00:53:07,158 --> 00:53:09,868
he just doesn't see you that way.

513
00:53:14,040 --> 00:53:17,126
He told me about the porno magazines.

514
00:53:19,921 --> 00:53:22,172
We had quite a laugh about it.

515
00:53:25,135 --> 00:53:28,929
He doesn't understand
what you were doing.

516
00:53:31,015 --> 00:53:32,683
But I did.

517
00:53:36,396 --> 00:53:37,396
Oh!

518
00:53:57,250 --> 00:54:00,294
I said I'll just be five minutes.

519
00:54:05,467 --> 00:54:07,259
I want to be a carer.

520
00:54:09,304 --> 00:54:10,679
It's you who I apply to, isn't it?

521
00:54:10,763 --> 00:54:12,097
Yeah.

522
00:54:12,223 --> 00:54:14,224
I said that I'm applying.

523
00:54:16,603 --> 00:54:18,604
I'll bring the forms tomorrow,

524
00:54:18,688 --> 00:54:20,772
and that'll start the process.

525
00:54:32,118 --> 00:54:35,287
By the time Ruth and Tommy
actually did separate,

526
00:54:35,371 --> 00:54:37,498
my carer training had already begun.

527
00:54:39,709 --> 00:54:42,294
So I was hardly ever at The Cottages.

528
00:55:07,570 --> 00:55:10,739
It had never occurred to me
that our lives,

529
00:55:11,241 --> 00:55:13,659
which had been so closely interwoven,

530
00:55:16,579 --> 00:55:19,164
could unravel with such speed.

531
00:55:33,930 --> 00:55:35,389
If I'd known,

532
00:55:36,349 --> 00:55:38,684
maybe I'd have kept
tighter hold of them

533
00:55:41,145 --> 00:55:44,356
and not let unseen tides
pull us apart.

534
00:56:29,819 --> 00:56:31,486
Once I began working with my donors,

535
00:56:31,571 --> 00:56:34,740
I didn't have much time
to dwell on Tommy or Ruth.

536
00:56:35,742 --> 00:56:37,451
Eventually, so many years had passed

537
00:56:37,535 --> 00:56:40,287
I came to think I would never
see them again.

538
00:56:47,587 --> 00:56:51,131
Many carers find themselves just going
through the motions,

539
00:56:51,257 --> 00:56:55,427
waiting for the day that they can stop
and become donors.

540
00:56:59,807 --> 00:57:03,352
But for the most part, being a carer
has suited me fine.

541
00:57:05,438 --> 00:57:08,690
I quite enjoy traveling across
the country,

542
00:57:08,775 --> 00:57:12,402
shuttling from center to center,
hospital to hospital.

543
00:57:26,042 --> 00:57:27,501
Here you are.

544
00:57:29,462 --> 00:57:30,962
Dark chocolate.

545
00:57:31,798 --> 00:57:35,133
If you knew how many shops I had to go to
before I found those.

546
00:57:35,385 --> 00:57:38,762
I thought I wasn't allowed to eat so soon
before the operation.

547
00:57:38,846 --> 00:57:42,015
Oh, you're not. But I am.

548
00:57:42,100 --> 00:57:43,225
And after the operation,

549
00:57:43,309 --> 00:57:46,269
you can wolf down the whole packet in one go.

550
00:58:00,827 --> 00:58:03,912
For me, the real test
of being a carer

551
00:58:03,996 --> 00:58:07,124
is when a donor completes
earlier than expected.

552
00:58:07,834 --> 00:58:11,169
On the second or even first donation.

553
00:58:11,587 --> 00:58:12,963
Can I just have a quick word?

554
00:58:13,047 --> 00:58:14,131
Okay.

555
00:58:15,383 --> 00:58:17,759
I was wondering who'd be
working on Hannah today.

556
00:58:17,844 --> 00:58:21,179
I'd never say I've become immune
to the completions.

557
00:58:22,140 --> 00:58:25,142
But they are something
I am able to live with.

558
00:58:29,522 --> 00:58:31,982
You're Hannah's carer,
aren't you?

559
00:58:32,900 --> 00:58:34,651
- Hannah's carer?
- Yes.

560
00:58:35,945 --> 00:58:39,573
I'm sorry, it's always hard,
but there were complications.

561
00:58:43,703 --> 00:58:45,162
You need me to sign the release?

562
00:58:45,246 --> 00:58:46,455
Please.

563
00:58:48,666 --> 00:58:50,751
Are you going to leave now?

564
00:58:50,835 --> 00:58:52,961
We can quite easily provide you
with a bed tonight

565
00:58:53,045 --> 00:58:54,546
if you've got a long drive.

566
00:58:54,672 --> 00:58:57,048
I can be back home in under two hours.

567
00:58:57,133 --> 00:58:58,759
It's always better to wake at home,
isn't it?

568
00:59:08,311 --> 00:59:09,978
Is that someone you know?

569
00:59:10,104 --> 00:59:11,563
Yeah.

570
00:59:13,941 --> 00:59:15,859
Actually, we grew up together.

571
00:59:16,235 --> 00:59:18,028
- Oh.
- How is she?

572
00:59:18,321 --> 00:59:20,197
Were you close?

573
00:59:20,323 --> 00:59:22,908
We haven't seen each other
now for almost 10 years.

574
00:59:22,992 --> 00:59:27,370
Well, Ruth isn't as strong as we would
hope, at this stage.

575
00:59:29,582 --> 00:59:31,541
She's done two donations.

576
00:59:32,084 --> 00:59:33,418
She has.

577
00:59:34,420 --> 00:59:35,921
You think she'll complete
on the third?

578
00:59:36,798 --> 00:59:39,007
I think she wants to complete.

579
00:59:39,926 --> 00:59:44,262
And, as you know, when they want to complete,
they usually do.

580
01:01:03,467 --> 01:01:05,135
Kathy.

581
01:01:15,563 --> 01:01:18,523
I've been keeping tabs on you
over the years.

582
01:01:18,774 --> 01:01:20,317
And Tommy, too.

583
01:01:20,651 --> 01:01:22,611
What do you hear about Tommy?

584
01:01:22,695 --> 01:01:25,947
That he's done his second donation, too,

585
01:01:26,032 --> 01:01:28,867
and apparently he's doing
very well on it.

586
01:01:29,535 --> 01:01:30,702
Apparently he's in better shape

587
01:01:30,786 --> 01:01:33,246
than some after their first donation.

588
01:01:33,456 --> 01:01:36,207
Good old Tommy.
I'm not surprised.

589
01:01:38,336 --> 01:01:40,295
Are you surprised at me?

590
01:01:42,298 --> 01:01:45,133
I expect I look a bit broken, Kath.

591
01:01:46,218 --> 01:01:47,302
(SNICKERS)

592
01:01:47,386 --> 01:01:49,054
It's okay.

593
01:01:49,347 --> 01:01:52,390
I don't think I'd want to survive
my third donation, anyway.

594
01:01:53,059 --> 01:01:55,185
You hear things, don't you?

595
01:01:55,394 --> 01:01:57,354
What kind of things?

596
01:01:57,897 --> 01:01:59,689
Oh, you know.

597
01:02:02,902 --> 01:02:05,070
How, maybe, after the fourth donation,

598
01:02:05,154 --> 01:02:07,948
even if you've technically completed,

599
01:02:08,074 --> 01:02:11,242
you're still conscious
in some sort of way.

600
01:02:12,161 --> 01:02:16,331
And then you find out that there are more
donations, plenty of them.

601
01:02:16,415 --> 01:02:20,627
No more recovery centers.
No more carers.

602
01:02:22,380 --> 01:02:24,422
Just watching and waiting.

603
01:02:26,175 --> 01:02:28,510
Till they switch you off.

604
01:02:34,350 --> 01:02:36,768
I don't think I fancy that.

605
01:02:40,773 --> 01:02:43,191
Is it the end of the day already?

606
01:02:44,568 --> 01:02:46,319
Do you know, it's funny,

607
01:02:46,404 --> 01:02:50,699
I think I've thought about you every day
for the last few months.

608
01:02:50,783 --> 01:02:52,784
Hoping I'd see you again.

609
01:02:54,453 --> 01:02:57,288
Do you know, I felt sure
that I would.

610
01:02:58,791 --> 01:03:03,878
Seemed impossible that I'd complete without
seeing you one last time.

611
01:03:06,298 --> 01:03:08,800
It's not the last time, Ruth.

612
01:03:09,802 --> 01:03:11,678
They offered me a bed.

613
01:03:11,762 --> 01:03:14,139
I was planning on
staying the night anyway.

614
01:03:14,348 --> 01:03:15,974
Well.

615
01:03:40,916 --> 01:03:43,418
I always knew you'd be a good carer.

616
01:03:43,878 --> 01:03:46,004
Your donors are very lucky.

617
01:03:51,385 --> 01:03:54,471
Look, I was lying
awake last night

618
01:03:54,555 --> 01:03:57,515
and I suddenly had an idea that we'd take
a trip together.

619
01:03:57,725 --> 01:03:59,517
Where to?

620
01:04:00,019 --> 01:04:02,896
I hadn't much thought
of where, just a trip.

621
01:04:07,276 --> 01:04:08,860
Although

622
01:04:10,446 --> 01:04:12,197
a place did spring to mind.

623
01:04:12,281 --> 01:04:14,783
One of the boys on the other floor
was talking about it.

624
01:04:14,867 --> 01:04:16,701
It's near the Kingsfield Recovery Center.

625
01:04:17,203 --> 01:04:20,705
Is it the boat?
The one left on the beach?

626
01:04:20,831 --> 01:04:22,415
You've heard about it, too?

627
01:04:22,500 --> 01:04:25,043
I heard. One of the carers
who worked there.

628
01:04:28,255 --> 01:04:30,006
And do you suppose,

629
01:04:31,050 --> 01:04:34,260
if we're driving all that way,

630
01:04:35,012 --> 01:04:37,305
that we could call in on Tommy?

631
01:04:41,519 --> 01:04:44,479
Told you I'd been keeping tabs on you.

632
01:04:46,190 --> 01:04:47,607
Have you seen him?

633
01:04:48,859 --> 01:04:50,193
No, not since The Cottages.

634
01:04:51,237 --> 01:04:52,862
No, neither have I.

635
01:04:58,994 --> 01:05:00,495
RUTH: How will
we find him?

636
01:05:00,579 --> 01:05:03,248
His carer said he'd be waiting outside.

637
01:05:20,099 --> 01:05:21,599
Look, there he is.

638
01:05:28,482 --> 01:05:31,693
Do you think he's recognized us
through the glass?

639
01:05:33,946 --> 01:05:35,780
No, no, no.

640
01:05:35,865 --> 01:05:37,866
Let's not get out.

641
01:05:54,550 --> 01:05:55,717
Ruth's in the car.

642
01:05:55,801 --> 01:05:56,968
Oh, right.

643
01:05:57,094 --> 01:05:58,469
Hey!

644
01:05:58,929 --> 01:06:00,305
Hi!

645
01:06:01,807 --> 01:06:03,141
- Hi.
- Hi.

646
01:06:04,602 --> 01:06:05,643
How are you?

647
01:06:05,728 --> 01:06:06,811
I'm good.

648
01:06:07,146 --> 01:06:08,354
Look at your hair.

649
01:06:08,439 --> 01:06:10,148
Oh, yeah. My hair.

650
01:06:18,574 --> 01:06:20,909
I can't quite believe
that I have you both here.

651
01:06:23,954 --> 01:06:25,538
Does it feel to you that we're back
at Hailsham again?

652
01:06:25,623 --> 01:06:27,916
Like no time has passed?

653
01:06:28,542 --> 01:06:29,626
No, it doesn't.

654
01:06:29,710 --> 01:06:31,002
No, it doesn't at all, does it?

655
01:06:31,420 --> 01:06:34,172
It really doesn't at all.
It's really weird.

656
01:06:34,298 --> 01:06:35,924
But a good weird, I think.

657
01:06:40,804 --> 01:06:44,349
I don't suppose you both heard
that Hailsham was closed?

658
01:06:46,936 --> 01:06:50,188
The only schools left now,
you hear they're like battery farms.

659
01:06:51,232 --> 01:06:52,857
Like Morningdale.

660
01:06:53,317 --> 01:06:56,361
I'm sure that's an exaggeration, though.

661
01:06:58,489 --> 01:07:00,698
Are you sure we're going
the right way?

662
01:07:16,882 --> 01:07:18,383
It's locked, it looks like.

663
01:07:19,301 --> 01:07:20,802
No one said anything about this.

664
01:07:20,886 --> 01:07:22,637
No one said anything
about a locked gate.

665
01:07:22,721 --> 01:07:25,556
Ruth, just relax. It's okay.

666
01:07:34,233 --> 01:07:36,067
Can walk through here.

667
01:08:04,096 --> 01:08:05,138
Wow.

668
01:08:18,610 --> 01:08:20,737
Hey, come on.

669
01:09:08,369 --> 01:09:11,496
I wonder if that's what
Hailsham looks like now.

670
01:09:14,124 --> 01:09:17,085
Do you ever hear, Kath, about any of
the students from Hailsham?

671
01:09:17,169 --> 01:09:19,087
Sometimes, yeah.

672
01:09:20,589 --> 01:09:25,551
I heard that Amanda completed
on her first donation.

673
01:09:26,178 --> 01:09:29,263
I think that happens
more than they ever tell us.

674
01:09:29,348 --> 01:09:30,348
Hmm.

675
01:09:30,432 --> 01:09:34,227
Yeah, there was this
guy at my care center

676
01:09:34,353 --> 01:09:39,357
who was always really scared of completing
on his first donation.

677
01:09:40,567 --> 01:09:42,360
But it was all fine.

678
01:09:42,444 --> 01:09:45,363
And he's just come through
his third one now,

679
01:09:45,989 --> 01:09:48,866
and he's completely all right.

680
01:09:53,997 --> 01:09:56,124
It's funny, I don't think...

681
01:09:57,209 --> 01:09:59,293
Well, I know I wouldn't have been
a very good carer,

682
01:09:59,378 --> 01:10:01,421
but in a way I actually think
I'm quite a good donor.

683
01:10:01,505 --> 01:10:04,215
That's what we're supposed to be,
isn't it?

684
01:10:16,770 --> 01:10:18,396
I'd like you to forgive me.

685
01:10:21,024 --> 01:10:22,817
I don't expect you to.

686
01:10:23,402 --> 01:10:24,527
Forgive you for what?

687
01:10:31,827 --> 01:10:34,162
For keeping you and Tommy apart.

688
01:10:38,041 --> 01:10:41,335
Should have been you two together,
I always knew it.

689
01:10:41,420 --> 01:10:43,671
As far back as I can remember.

690
01:10:45,674 --> 01:10:49,093
It wasn't just because of the rumors
about deferrals.

691
01:10:53,557 --> 01:10:55,766
It was because I was jealous.

692
01:10:58,353 --> 01:11:02,482
You had real love
and I didn't,

693
01:11:06,278 --> 01:11:09,614
and I didn't want to be
the one that was left alone.

694
01:11:20,751 --> 01:11:22,418
It's the worst thing
I ever did.

695
01:11:26,965 --> 01:11:29,300
And now I want to put it right.

696
01:11:29,676 --> 01:11:31,385
I don't know how you can
do that, Ruth.

697
01:11:31,887 --> 01:11:33,304
I can

698
01:11:34,806 --> 01:11:36,474
if you two get a deferral.

699
01:11:37,476 --> 01:11:39,644
It's too late
for that, Ruth.

700
01:11:40,145 --> 01:11:42,980
Way too late. It's stupid to even
think about it.

701
01:11:43,190 --> 01:11:47,360
It isn't too late. Look, you'll see,
both of you.

702
01:11:48,111 --> 01:11:52,657
I wanted to do this trip because I had
something that I wanted to give you.

703
01:11:54,117 --> 01:11:55,993
It's Madame's address.

704
01:11:58,914 --> 01:12:02,625
That's who you apply to.
That's who you have to go and see.

705
01:12:05,420 --> 01:12:07,213
How did you get this?

706
01:12:08,924 --> 01:12:12,718
It wasn't easy, but I've had years
to think about what I did.

707
01:12:12,970 --> 01:12:17,348
And years to try and work out
a way to make it right.

708
01:13:02,394 --> 01:13:05,605
I started doing them when we were
at The Cottages.

709
01:13:05,772 --> 01:13:08,274
The day after we went to find
Ruth's Possible.

710
01:13:08,400 --> 01:13:11,319
I realized that if I was ever going to
apply for a deferral,

711
01:13:11,403 --> 01:13:13,654
then I'd have to
show them something.

712
01:13:15,073 --> 01:13:18,075
And I've done hundreds of them
over the years.

713
01:13:19,620 --> 01:13:21,287
They're wonderful.

714
01:13:22,080 --> 01:13:23,581
What? Really?

715
01:13:23,832 --> 01:13:25,249
Yeah.

716
01:13:26,835 --> 01:13:28,502
Well, thank you.

717
01:13:30,547 --> 01:13:32,131
(TOMMY CHUCKLES)

718
01:13:40,641 --> 01:13:43,768
I have never showed anyone
them until now.

719
01:13:46,229 --> 01:13:48,314
They were my secret.

720
01:13:50,025 --> 01:13:52,777
Just like you and those
porno magazines.

721
01:13:53,528 --> 01:13:55,196
You remember that?

722
01:13:55,614 --> 01:13:56,697
Yeah.

723
01:13:59,201 --> 01:14:01,118
Ruth said you didn't understand
what I was doing.

724
01:14:01,203 --> 01:14:03,329
No, I don't think she understood
what you were doing.

725
01:14:03,497 --> 01:14:05,498
She thought you were looking
at the dirty pictures

726
01:14:05,582 --> 01:14:08,125
in order to find out about sex

817
01:14:26,712 --> 01:14:30,339
and to find out what you were missing out
on or something.

727
01:14:17,344 --> 01:14:18,886
I knew.

728
01:14:20,555 --> 01:14:23,683
I knew you were looking
for your Original.

729
01:14:26,353 --> 01:14:30,147
I used to have these huge urges
to have sex sometimes.

730
01:14:31,149 --> 01:14:33,693
And sometimes they'd be so powerful,

731
01:14:34,236 --> 01:14:36,153
I just thought I'd do it with anyone.

732
01:14:38,657 --> 01:14:41,492
So I thought that
had to tell me something.

733
01:14:41,618 --> 01:14:44,412
Something about the kind of person
I was modeled on.

734
01:14:46,832 --> 01:14:48,499
It's stupid,

735
01:14:50,085 --> 01:14:53,170
but I guessed the magazines would be
the most likely place I'd find her.

736
01:14:55,340 --> 01:14:57,091
You know those urges
are natural, don't you?

737
01:14:57,175 --> 01:15:00,720
You know all of us had them.
You know that now, right?

738
01:15:14,443 --> 01:15:16,193
"From Basrah we sailed,

739
01:15:17,612 --> 01:15:21,365
"day after day, night after night,
over the sea,

740
01:15:22,492 --> 01:15:26,370
"visiting island after island
and land after land,

741
01:15:27,706 --> 01:15:30,750
"selling or bartering
our goods at each.

742
01:15:34,337 --> 01:15:38,799
"One day, after some weeks of sailing
out of sight of land,

743
01:15:38,884 --> 01:15:41,594
"we saw an island in the sea
with such fair greenery

744
01:15:41,678 --> 01:15:44,889
"that it appeared like one of the
gardens of Eden.

745
01:15:45,474 --> 01:15:48,893
"At once the captain made towards
this delectable land

746
01:15:48,977 --> 01:15:52,980
"and, when the anchor had been cast
and the ladder lowered,

747
01:15:53,064 --> 01:15:55,900
"allowed his passengers
to disembark."

748
01:16:02,532 --> 01:16:04,241
Don't stop.

749
01:18:30,096 --> 01:18:34,975
Ruth got it right. Right street,
right door, everything.

750
01:18:39,481 --> 01:18:43,025
We have to decide which of my drawings
we're gonna take.

751
01:18:46,446 --> 01:18:49,073
Just take the best ones.
Maybe six or seven of them.

752
01:18:49,157 --> 01:18:51,158
- You have to help me.
- Yeah, I know.

753
01:18:57,499 --> 01:19:00,334
So, we'll just go there.

754
01:19:00,418 --> 01:19:01,460
Mmm.

755
01:19:01,544 --> 01:19:03,212
Next week.

756
01:19:03,296 --> 01:19:05,839
I'll take you out for lab tests, I'll sign
you out for the whole day

757
01:19:05,924 --> 01:19:07,633
and we'll visit Madame
on the way back.

758
01:19:24,317 --> 01:19:26,443
We're going to do it.

759
01:19:28,738 --> 01:19:30,781
I thought you should know.

760
01:19:33,785 --> 01:19:35,661
You're going to apply?

761
01:19:38,415 --> 01:19:39,790
Yes.

762
01:19:45,547 --> 01:19:46,964
Good.

763
01:21:50,088 --> 01:21:51,964
Madame?

764
01:21:57,262 --> 01:21:58,679
Sorry.

765
01:21:59,556 --> 01:22:01,765
We didn't mean to startle you.

766
01:22:02,433 --> 01:22:04,184
We were at Hailsham.

767
01:22:08,940 --> 01:22:11,275
I'm Kathy. This is Tommy.

768
01:22:13,778 --> 01:22:16,113
We're not here to
give you any trouble.

769
01:22:19,576 --> 01:22:21,034
From Hailsham?

770
01:22:21,119 --> 01:22:22,661
We just came to talk to you.

771
01:22:24,539 --> 01:22:26,790
And I brought you some things.

772
01:22:27,792 --> 01:22:30,669
Some things you might like
for your Gallery.

773
01:22:32,839 --> 01:22:34,423
Come inside.

774
01:23:09,918 --> 01:23:11,919
Please, wait here.

775
01:23:30,021 --> 01:23:31,813
Look, it's Hailsham.

776
01:23:33,524 --> 01:23:35,692
Kathy, it's Hailsham.

777
01:23:37,654 --> 01:23:40,364
That's exactly how I remember it.

778
01:23:47,455 --> 01:23:49,081
Please, sit down.

779
01:24:04,389 --> 01:24:05,764
So...

780
01:24:08,977 --> 01:24:10,477
We're in love.

781
01:24:11,271 --> 01:24:13,814
And it's true love.
It's verifiable.

782
01:24:14,899 --> 01:24:16,900
Verifiable. I see.

783
01:24:22,949 --> 01:24:24,449
Go on.

784
01:24:24,701 --> 01:24:26,118
Well,

785
01:24:27,787 --> 01:24:30,414
we'd heard about the deferrals.

786
01:24:32,625 --> 01:24:35,377
And we'd worked out the purpose
of The Gallery.

787
01:24:36,754 --> 01:24:38,505
Tell me the purpose.

788
01:24:40,300 --> 01:24:43,385
To use our art from Hailsham

789
01:24:43,594 --> 01:24:45,929
to look into our souls,

790
01:24:46,973 --> 01:24:50,392
which would verify that we deserved
a deferral.

791
01:24:51,102 --> 01:24:54,479
(CHUCKLING)
But the problem is

792
01:24:54,564 --> 01:24:57,441
I was a little bit mixed up back then

793
01:24:57,525 --> 01:25:01,737
and I didn't really do any art,

794
01:25:03,406 --> 01:25:05,741
so you never took anything of mine.

795
01:25:05,825 --> 01:25:09,286
I know, I know that
that is my fault

796
01:25:09,370 --> 01:25:12,581
and it is probably much too late,

797
01:25:12,665 --> 01:25:14,666
but I brought some stuff
with me today.

798
01:25:20,631 --> 01:25:23,717
This is a book of stuff and...

799
01:25:35,813 --> 01:25:37,856
Other stuff here.

800
01:25:42,653 --> 01:25:45,781
Some of them I've done
quite recently,

801
01:25:46,824 --> 01:25:48,158
and others

802
01:25:50,119 --> 01:25:52,996
were done several years ago,
so there's a real spread.

803
01:25:54,290 --> 01:25:57,584
You already have a load of stuff
from Kath already.

804
01:25:57,668 --> 01:26:00,712
She got loads of stuff into The Gallery over
the years, didn't...

805
01:26:00,838 --> 01:26:02,506
I'm sorry.

806
01:26:05,843 --> 01:26:07,803
I never know what to do.

807
01:26:14,644 --> 01:26:16,520
I'll take it from here.

808
01:26:22,402 --> 01:26:24,069
Thank you, George.

809
01:26:28,533 --> 01:26:30,951
Kathy H and Tommy D.

810
01:26:32,703 --> 01:26:34,663
I remember you both.

811
01:26:35,206 --> 01:26:38,333
Kathy, a bright girl, and so creative.

812
01:26:38,626 --> 01:26:41,920
And Tommy, a big heart
and terrible rages.

813
01:26:46,175 --> 01:26:47,884
You have to understand,

814
01:26:48,886 --> 01:26:53,473
Hailsham was the last place to consider
the ethics of donation.

815
01:26:53,891 --> 01:26:57,269
We used your art to show
what you were capable of.

816
01:26:57,937 --> 01:27:00,605
To show that donor children
are all but human.

817
01:27:02,442 --> 01:27:06,403
But we were providing an answer to a question
no one was asking.

818
01:27:07,989 --> 01:27:10,198
If you ask people to return to darkness,

819
01:27:10,283 --> 01:27:14,786
the days of lung cancer,
breast cancer, motor neurone disease,

820
01:27:15,746 --> 01:27:17,622
they'll simply say no.

821
01:27:21,002 --> 01:27:24,296
We used to get two or three couples
like you a year.

822
01:27:25,923 --> 01:27:27,841
Not so much these days.

823
01:27:29,343 --> 01:27:31,845
You're the first for quite a while.

824
01:27:35,975 --> 01:27:38,268
To apply for a deferral?

825
01:27:46,694 --> 01:27:49,112
There are no deferrals, Tommy.

826
01:27:54,118 --> 01:27:58,330
There are no deferrals.
And there never have been.

827
01:28:08,799 --> 01:28:12,552
We didn't have The Gallery in order
to look into your souls.

828
01:28:12,970 --> 01:28:16,181
We had The Gallery to see if you had
souls at all.

829
01:28:29,237 --> 01:28:30,904
Do you understand?

830
01:28:41,791 --> 01:28:43,166
Yes.

831
01:28:50,007 --> 01:28:52,842
Your drawings are very good.

832
01:28:54,178 --> 01:28:56,680
If you want, I'll keep them.

833
01:29:59,118 --> 01:30:01,244
Thank you for talking to us.

834
01:30:05,082 --> 01:30:06,833
You poor creatures.

835
01:30:08,628 --> 01:30:10,587
I wish I could help you.

836
01:31:10,523 --> 01:31:13,149
Sorry, can we stop for a second?
I need to get out.

837
01:34:20,963 --> 01:34:23,548
It's been two weeks since I lost him.

838
01:34:54,163 --> 01:34:56,372
I've been given my notice now.

839
01:35:00,210 --> 01:35:02,879
My first donation is in a month's time.

840
01:35:11,555 --> 01:35:14,807
I come here and imagine
that this is the spot

841
01:35:14,892 --> 01:35:18,811
where everything I've lost since
my childhood has washed up.

842
01:35:22,775 --> 01:35:26,110
I tell myself if that were true,

843
01:35:26,946 --> 01:35:29,280
and I waited long enough,

844
01:35:30,366 --> 01:35:34,243
then a tiny figure would appear
on the horizon across the field

845
01:35:34,411 --> 01:35:38,373
and gradually get larger
until I'd see it was Tommy.

846
01:35:41,418 --> 01:35:43,002
He'd wave

847
01:35:43,462 --> 01:35:45,338
and maybe call.

848
01:35:47,675 --> 01:35:50,718
I don't let the fantasy
go beyond that.

849
01:35:50,928 --> 01:35:52,261
I can't let it.

850
01:35:54,390 --> 01:35:58,393
I remind myself I was lucky to have had
any time with him at all.

851
01:36:02,940 --> 01:36:05,191
What I'm not sure about

852
01:36:05,693 --> 01:36:10,279
is if our lives have been so different
from the lives of the people we save.

853
01:36:13,242 --> 01:36:15,159
We all complete.

854
01:36:17,621 --> 01:36:21,332
Maybe none of us really understand
what we've lived through

855
01:36:23,293 --> 01:36:25,837
or feel we've had enough time.

856
01:42:48,887 --> 01:42:54,308
When we are scattered
afar and asunder

857
01:42:54,643 --> 01:42:59,855
Parted are those who are singing today

858
01:43:00,440 --> 01:43:06,070
When we look back and forgetfully wonder

859
01:43:06,571 --> 01:43:12,034
What we were like
in our learning and play

860
01:43:12,452 --> 01:43:17,957
Oh, the great days
will bring distance enchanted

861
01:43:18,208 --> 01:43:23,295
Days of fresh air
in the rain and the sun

862
01:43:23,839 --> 01:43:29,176
How we rejoiced
as we struggled and panted

863
01:43:29,636 --> 01:43:36,600
Echoes of dreamland,
Hailsham lives on