[music]
rwoman] Ersatz
[water splashing]
[oom-pah music]
[phone ringing]
-Hi, Mina. -[Mina] Mom, Lola says, ~Don'tforget me toilet paper.~
lt's the only thing l'm buying, why would l forget it?
l'm just telling you what Lola said.
Tell your Lola that l have it
and l'm already on the bus.
Can you get me some Green Tea Kit Kats?
[Shelly] l already told you l'm on the bus, Mina.
There's gonna be a lot of sweets tonight.
Tell your Lola not to put any sweets out until l get home.
[Mina] Okay. Dad said to get his cigarettes too.
-Okay, l'll get his cigarettes. -So can you get me the Kit Kats, then?
Yes, Mina, l'll get your Kit Kats.
-Green Tea Kit Kats, okay? -Yes, Mina.
-Thanks, mom. -[Lola] It's Troy's favorite.
Wait a minute. Did you tell your mom?
Yeah, Mom said to put out all the sweets before she gets home.
Are you sure your mom is bringing the mango cake?
[Tiva] Yes, Auntie. N4 mom is bringing the mango cake.
l saw her making it from scratch.
Scratch? Why? She can buy it from Red Ribbon.
Well, it'll be better than Red Ribbon.
Yeah, okay, because it's Troy's favorite.
Whoa, it's Troy's favorite. So basically, it'll piss Troy o_, right?
-[Lola] Tiva. -l don't know how you could even live with Troy.
-l'd be so depressed. -Depression is forwhite people.
Depression is forwhite people. Okay, Auntie. l've gotta go. l'm almost at the airport now.
-Tiva's almost at the airport and you're in Denver?
Only for a little while. l'm literally running to catch my connecting flight.
-You could've texted me, Moe. -Howwas l gonna do that, Declan, huh?
By the time l realized l was late, l was already up in the air.
-You could've messaged, emailed. _ am not paying for Wi-Fi on a plane.
-lt's way too expensive. -You are so cheap.
l gotta get off. You're racking up my minutes.
Alright. l'll let evey_ know you'll be late,
butcan you at IeasttextTiva to let her know?
Fine, l'll text her. Fuckin A, man. Pull the stick out ofyour ass.
-Excuse me? -You knowl didn't mean it like that. l'll call you when l land.
[car honking]
-What's up, cuz? -What up, cuz?
[chuckles]
People who hear us will think we're Mexican.
People always think we're Mexican.
Pack of Newports.
-Do you have Green Tea Kit Kats? -Green Tea Kit Kats? What is that? Athing?
lt doesn't matter.
Look, we're going to Skype with mom tonight, so be a good sister.
Oh? What time?
7:30.
That's 10:30am in the Philippines, it's so early!
Well, yeah l have to leave at 8.
Why?
Jeannie's family is having Christmas dinner, too. So we have to go to Oakland.
And what about me? l should be able to spend time with my own brother. And for more than just an hour.
Oh. N4. God! ''Guilt trip!'' You're worse than mom.
Wow, you have been keeping busy.
That's why l spent four months in Mali.
-Wow, Mali, Africa? -No, Molly Ringwald.
-Wow, sobra. -[chuckles]
[voice mail] Justgot a textfrom Moe.
''Fuckin a man. Gonna be a few hours late, sory.''
[chuckles] He's not fucking a man.
He's saying, ''Fuckin A, man.''
Julie, l'm not stressed. l just hate my family, you know. -You don't hate your family.
l do and Declan was one person who l thought was on my side.
Just because he wants you to be on time, you think that he's not on your side?
l should shut this down. We're racking up limits.
This isn't about Declan at all, is it?
You think l'm stressed about you?
-Uh, l didn't say you're stressed about me. -You just did.
-No, l said- Julie, l heard what you said.
Moe, calm down. Just answer me this, did you tell your family about us yet?
-[Tiva] Oh, no, you didn't. -[Declan] l just feel more at home in NewYork.
-[Tiva] Not my thing. -Well, you should come visit and experience my NewYork.
What's so great about your NewYork?
Well, for one, [chuckles] there's actual black people.
[Tiva] We have black folk in Oakland.
Yeah, but the train stops running aRer midnight.
-We have better produce here. -But the food choice is better in NewYork.
-[Tiva] Even Filipino food? -[Declan] It actually has amazing Filipino food.
[Tiva] So what's the number one reason why you love NewYork?
[Declan] My family is not there.
[music]
[doorbell rings]
Tiva, what are you doing? Troy gets pissed ifyou ring the doorbell more than once.
Who the fuck is ringing the doorbell?
Sory, we didn't know if anybody was home, uh...
l'm just fucking with you, man, what's up, Dec?
l got the surround sound all calibrated, man.
_t sounds like a movie theatre in here now. -Nice.
Yeah, l'll put on the, uh, Lion King later, you'll see.
-Declan. [laughs] -Hi, mom.
-Mery Christmas, Anak. -Hi, Auntie Tiva.
-Hi, Mina. Where can l put this? -l'll take it.
-Hi, uncle Declan. -Hi, Mina. Gosh, you're getting so tall.
-Look what l made. -Oh, wow, what's that?
-lt's an ornament. Oh, is that you?
-Yeah. -And is that your dad?
-No, that's you. Oh, l love it, Mina. Uh, what is that?
-lt's the birth of Christ. -Oh.
-See? Jesus. -Huh?
Uh, you know, when you were really small, you used to draw a lot of monsters.
-l did? -Yeah, they were scay.
You don't actually believe in monsters, do you?
l like your drawings, Mina. You're a really good drawer.
-Mina, what do you say? -Yeah, Mina, don't be rude. -Thank you.
-What the fuck took you so long? -Hi, Shelly.
Mery Christmas, Declan.
Hey, Dec you're hugging my wife a little passionately, man.
-Beginning to didn't think this whole gay thing's fake. -Yeah, right.
Mom, l asked for Green Tea Kit Kats. This is a Cliff Bar.
What are all the sweets doing out?
[Lola] Oh, Mina told me to put all the sweets out.
l told her don't put it out, not until l get home.
Okay, l'm just doing what l was told. -lt doesn't matter.
l'm home now. l just didn't want Mina eating a bunch of sweets before l got home.
No rest forthe weay, Shelly.
-[Mina] Pikachu... -[Tiva] Mery Christmas
-Mery Christmas, Tiva. -[Declan] All l know is Pikachu.
-How are you doing? -Where's Moe?
Uh, he's running late. He's still on the plane.
-What? -He promises to be home, but doesn't make it.
Looks like we know which one of us took after dad.
Uh, anybody heard from dad?
Nobody's heard from him in years. Right, babe?
-[sighs] Dec, you want a beer? Yeah. -Um, sure, why not.
lt's a shame. Mina's never met her Lolo.
She doesn't need her Lolo as long as she has her Lola.
-Right, Mina? -Yeah.
-Mm, rememberthat. -Nowwhy are you putting all the sweets away?
-Huh? -Your mother's deaf.
-What? -Nothing. l'll get it myself.
Hey, Dec, you wanna see my man cave?
Check that shit out, man. Xbox 1, PS4 Pro, we'll play Karate Champ later.
-You have a disk playing. -l probably forgot to turn it off.
[Declan] Oh, straight porn.
You're funny, man. Who calls it straight porn?
[Declan] Damn, that's a barbecue.
When the whole family comes over, l don't want them anywhere near this thing.
Ah, why not?
Because l don't like bitches all up on my grill. [laughs]
[Troy] This is where you'll be sleeping.
[Declan] Oh, l'm not sleeping in my room?
-No, we gave that to Mina. Oh, she has her own room now?
_he's not a baby anymore, Dec. -Karaoke?
Shelly actually asked me why l bought that. She keeps forgetting.
-Forgetting what? -Don't tell me you forgot?
Um, man, l_ think l knowwhat you're talking about, but l'm not sure.
-That l was gonna be a part of Kai? -Kai?
-Yeah. -The Boy Band?
-See? You remember. -Yeah.
l can't wait to finish city college so l can transfer.
-Transfer? -Yeah, l wanna transfer SF State.
Hey, Shelly, can we turn the N down a little bit?
You have to ask Troy ifthat's okay.
-l have to ask Troy if it's okay to turn the N down? -Here's your beer.
-Mom, what time is eveybody getting here? -Six.
Okay, cool, that gives me some time. l'm gonna smoke.
-Shelly, you got my smokes? -Yeah, they're on the table.
-Hey, Troy, can l turn the N down a little bit? -What for?
You got matches?
Oh, l thought you had your lighter.
-You know my lighter died. -Oh, l- l thought you had your lighter.
So, did you or did you not get matches?
No, sory, babe.
Oh, what about the thing for barbecue? -What?
That thing for barbecue.
l heard you. You're just saying the same thing twice.
Yeah, the barbecue thing.
You mean the lighter? Yeah, l'm gonna have to use that now.
Troy, l actually have to go to the store. Do you want me to get you a lighter?
Dude, hold on. l can hardly hear you.
l said l'm heading down to the store anyway. You want me to get you a lighter?
No, man. Just relax, finish your beer. What do you need at the store?
l have to get some gin for the cocktails l'm making tonight.
-What? You don't think we got gin? -Oh, you have gin?
Dude, we have eveything. This is a Santos house, man.
You think we're not gonna be fully stocked? [laughs]
Shelly, show Dec the booze.
Shelly, you're always forgetting something.
_lasses clanking]
[festive music]
-Who wants mango cake? -Ooh-wee. You brought my favorite.
-Hi, Troy. -Auntie Divi, l heard you made this cake for me.
Well, l made it, yeah.
Shelly, get over here.
Look at that. Looks even better than Red Ribbon.
-Of course it does. -ls that the mango cake?
-Declan, oh, my goodness. -Been a while, right? -Oh, cool.
-Ho_s NewYork? -lt's good.
Declan came back from NewYork to judge us.
Merry Christmas, Uncle Boy.
[festive music]
That's a huge grill.
Yeah, l haven't seen a grill that big since Madonna's mom.
[chuckles] Why doesn't Troy barbecue if he's so proud of it?
l think tonight's his night to prove that he's a real singer.
Oh, yeah. Wasn't he supposed tojoin Jodeci or some shit?
-Kai. -Kai?
He says he was supposed to be a part of Kai?
You know howmany people in San Francisco actually know Kai?
Yeah, but don't burst his bubble.
He'll probably bash your head in.
ls that what happened at his lastjob?
No one knom what happened at his lastjob.
All l know is he called his mom to pick him up saying he quit, but when she got there,
4he said two security guards were escorting him out. -Lovely.
-l can't imagine what it's like living with him. -l can't either.
Blocked it from my mind.
But didn't he actually bash some guys head in, though?
-That was thejob before that. Jesus.
Yeah, he went to jail for a while for that.
There you are.
-What are you guys doing? -Smoking.
-Yeah, you want some? -No, l got my own.
-Oh, this is the good stuff. -Oh, l see what you're smoking.
Divi, it looks like eveyone liked your dish.
l'm glad eveyone liked it. Did you?
Sure.
Guess what?
''Guess what.'' Just tell me.
lt's not meat.
lt's not MEAT!
Was it supposed to be?
Cheers.
Hey.
Shelly, does Troy hit you?
Oh, my god. What a question?
Yeah, well it's a real ques'tion.
Hi, Shelly. Mery Christmas.
Can l have a beer? Does Troy hit you?
Thank you.
-Ah, vey nice. -l'll be right back.
Let me get another beer.
Troy, why don't you sing one ofthe Kai songs?
l know right. l wish they had karaoke tracks of Kai.
Well, didn't you audition forthem?
-Didn't you audition with one of their songs? -Ahem.
-You want to see the audition tape? Oh, uh.
Babe, get eveyone to check out my audition tape.
Okay, babe. l should get back to Troy.
Wait, Shelly. l volunteer at this place called Alway.
lf you have time tomorrow, can we chat?
Sure.
_hh, it's starting. -Looks like VHS.
Shut up.
Hi. My name is Troy Santos.
Slide right, slide left.
# Goodbye, Saturday morning. Morning
# The one day, l could stretch forever
# Up until Monday morning Morning Saturday morning
Nice, Troy. Good video.
Sit down. It's not done yet.
[continues singing]
[in Spanish] What's happening?
-Moe, Anak. -Mom. -Hi.
-Kinda late, man. -Kinda late, man. -Where's Julie?
-Oh, it's just me. Julie couldn't make it. -Why not?
-Hey, good to see you. -Hi, Moe.
-What's up, Moe? -Good to see you.
[chuckles]
Why not, Moe?
Here, bro.
[Christmas music]
Oh, what is this? _t's a digital keychain.
l asked eveyone to email me pictures ofthemselves.
So now, you can cary them with you eveywhere you go.
Say ''thank you'', why don't you?
What for?
-Mery Christmas to Inang. -Mery Christmas.
-Mery Christmas, Inang. -You all look fat.
[laughter]
lt's because ofthe camera. It just makes us look fat, Inang.
No, it's you're fat that make you look fat.
[laughter]
Mom, not eveyone here speaks Ilocano, so we're going to speak English.
Okay, you speak English. N4 English enough.
[clears throat] We just want to say how contented we are
of ourtogetherness in the day of our Lord, Jesus Christ.
And it heartens me to the arrival of Moe and Declan
visiting from the East Coast ofthe United States ofAmerica.
Talking to you, Inang, via the Internet
with the help ofthis newtechnology called Skype.
Jesus Christ, Boy, your voice is BORING.
So that we can be all together again
with the veritable cornucopia of, uh, food.
-Especially mango cake. [laughs] -Hold on, Troy.
Let someone else do the talking for a moment.
And we are blessed ofthese wonde_ul blessings bestowed upon us.
With that, we'll just segue to this.
[somber music]
See?
The trick is to have self4ontrol
and to know howfar your arms extend.
See my arms?
Okay, we have to go.
Ok, don't forget your plates.
-Thank you, Manang. -Okay.
Thank you, sister.
-Come on, we're going to be late. -Where's Aria?
Be careful, honey.
What? There's no danger.
You underestimate my precision.
-Do something. -What do you want me to do?
-Boy, please. _he likes it.
[making kung-fu noises]
-_roy. Oh, so sweet.
_roy?
[laughs]
Troy.
[sound of hot fire]
Look, Auntie Divi leR her casserole dish.
Oh, that's her veggie dish.
l think it's supposed to taste like meat.
-Where are the boys? -They left the mess for us girls to clean.
-Let me get one ofthose. -Yeah, sure.
So, ho_s it going man?
Where are you working at no_
-No job? _'m in between.
Still got that wind chime, huh?
Of course.
lt doesn't sound the same like it did when we were kids.
One ofthe, uh, ahem...
One ofthe, uh, chimes doesn't, uh, ring anymore.
That sound would drive me crazy.
Like someone ringing the doorbell over and over again.
rfog horn]
There's a fog horn.
-Cold, huh? -Yeah.
You don't knowcold till you've been shoving snow offyour stoop in Philadelphia.
Declan probably has to deal with that shit all the time in NewYork.
lt sounds like hell.
-lt can be, man. -So why did you guys leave then?
Seriously? You mean instead of staying here?
-Yeah. -Shit, you're serious.
No, l'm not serious.
-You heard from dad? -You're getting all serious, man.
-Pft, it's Christmas. l'm just asking. -You'rejust drunk.
-Christmas always makes me think of dad. -Yeah, me too.
Reminds me ofthat one Christmas where dad kicked me out ofthe house.
Or about the time he took me and slammed my head
into the stone fireplace over and over again.
Yeah, l don't remember that.
But it did happen.
No, l'm sure it did. It's just--
-l'm going to sleep, man. -Yeah.
4oming in? -Yeah, l'm just going to finish my smoke.
[ominous music]
-[Shelly] Did you get drunk Iast night? -[Tiva] No, not really.
l just had a couple of drinks, but that's about it.
-Troy got drunk. -Yeah, l saw.
l guess that's why we're here talking, right?
To talk about Troy?
This is hard.
l guess to answer your question from last night.
Yeah, yeah, he hits me.
One time l filed a temporay restraining order against him.
-What happened? -He came back. He just made sure that we kept the blinds closed
4o the police wouldn't see him there. -Huh, what?
Yeah, it's like nothing ever happened. He just acted like we were all on his side.
-What did Auntie Prisca do? -Shejust took him back in.
Didn't even ask how l felt about it.
Shelly, l can take you to Alway.
They help women like you. You do knowyou have options, right?
Does he hit Mina?
l don't know.
lfyou need a place to stay, you can stay with me, or if Mina needs a place to stay
or ifyou decide that you want to stay with Troy,
l'll respect that too.
-You will? -Yes.
-Really? -Of course.
Because when l filed a temporary restraining order against him
no one seemed to respect me,
like l'd done something against family or something.
Prisca would ask me how l was doing physically,
but she just kept talking about howworried she was about Troy.
Your mom wouldn't even talk to her about it.
-My mom's the ''no drama'' kind of woman. -Her own sister?
l didn't know. l'm sory.
And then when it would come up, it was this annoyance
like l was some whiny bitch with thin skin and you knowwhat?
They convinced me that l was and nothing was the same for me.
Like l had done something wrong and eveybody wanted me to know it.
You didn't do anything wrong.
So when he came back, eveybody acted like it was normal.
''Hey, Troy. Ho_s the going, Troy? Have you eaten, Troy?''
The only person l could talk to about it was my daughter
and she didn't even know what was going on. So you want to respect me?
When l turn Troy in to the police and he comes back and kills me,
will your respect-save me?
What good will your respect do me?
What good is anything in this fucked up world?
Here's your casserole dish. l tried to wash it, but itjust crusted up all over.
You just have to let it soak overnight in hot water.
This isn't even mine.
-Has anybody heard from dad at all? -No.
Any ideas where he might be?
Most likely in the Philippines, gambling.
Ugh, dad made his bet l guess.
-Slow down, Declan, my knees. -What's happening with your knees?
Mom, what's going on with your knees?
l heard you. N4 hearing is fine.
-Okay, so what's wrong with your knees? -Oh, where's the bitter melon.
Oh, mom.
l know, it's the end ofthe season, but it might still be good.
-Bitter melon is never good. -l need it for my high blood pressure.
Besides, you should probably go to an Asian market for bitter melon.
-This farmer's market got pretty gentrified. -What word is that, Declan?
-What? Gentrified? -Yes, yourAuntie Divi uses that on Facebook.
Um...
Okay, gentrification is when you ty to turn an old neighborhood
into a new neighborhood by bringing in newer people with more money.
-Like here in The Mission. -Exactly.
The Filipinos really gentrified The Mission.
What? No, no, no. You're not getting it.
No, because when your Lolo and Lola first moved here,
it was an Irish neighborhood.
Your Lola had a coworker, Irish woman
and she always said, ''This is not The Mission anymore.''
And now she's dead.
Huh.
Boom bitch. Sent your immigrant ass back to where it came from.
-[laughs] -All right, all right.
Let me pick a different character.
Yeah, pick a real character, not some fake ass bitch.
Damn, dude. Oh, hold up.
What's happening, hot stuff?
[laughs] Sweet, see you at 7:OO. Late.
-Who was that? -That was Marcus. -Oh.
Yeah, l haven't see the guys in at least 10 years. We're going out tonight.
l was gonna barbecue tonight. l got the meat marinating.
Shit, l didn't knowyou were barbecuing.
Just bring the guys over. l got plenty of meat for eveybody. [laughs]
Yeah, let me see what their plans are.
-Call him. -What?
-Call Marcus. Oh, um, he's busy.
-l'll call him later. -All right, text him.
Dude, don't be weird. [laughs]
l'm gonna hang out with the guys and l'll see if we can come back here later.
All right?
Who's ready for barbecue?
l've been meaning to tell you, l'm not going to be here, Mom.
-Where are you going? -Out with friends.
But Troy is going to barbecue.
Mom, l love you, but when l come to San Francisco, l'm notjust visiting family.
Hmpf. Well, you're here for dinner, Dec?
l'm going out with friends, too.
-Friends? -Yeah.
l thought you said you didn't have any friends left in San Francisco, Dec.
That's why you leR.
-No, l have friends here, still. -Who?
You don't knowthem.
Fine, make your own fucking dinners then.
And get the fuck out of my life.
Hey, Shelly. It's Tiva.
Look, l'm really sory about earlier today.
l intended to offeryou support and instead l said something that pissed you off
and l'm so sorry about that.
l really hope you know that was not my intention at all
and l would never force you to do anything that you wouldn't wanna do.
All l want you to know is that l'm a safe space, okay?
So, uh, l really don't know howto end these messages.
That wasn't my mom's casserole dish.
l'll talk to you later.
[clock ticking]
This place is nice.
Yeah, it's pretty nice, huh? Homey.
Homey, yeah.
l mean the dark wood is a little oppressive, but--
l have to say, l was pretty surprised to hearfrom you.
l mean, l thought you pretty much cut off all ties with eveyone.
Yeah, l don't know, l just felt like it's Christmas, you kno_
l wanted to see people.
-Hey, you guys. -Here's Johnny.
-lt's shomime. Just get in the car, man.
Oh, man. l wanted to do my Scar Face quote.
What? ''Say hello to my little friend''? That doesn't even fit in here.
-What up, ninja? -Lisa.
Oh, shit. Is that Troy?
-[Lisa] Oh, that's some horror movie shit. -Fuck.
He's been calling me nonstop and wants to hang out and shit.
So, have you guys been hanging out?
[laughter]
So, now he's in his room pouting.
Did you check on him?
Why should l check on him?
lt's a cy for attention.
Well, he locked his door.
Exactly, it's a cy for attention.
lt's so hard to talk to him when he's like this. Why no_ Not on Christmas!
Troy's jealous of Moe.
Why?
Moe's your favorite.
l don't have favorites.
So why does Troy feel that way?
-So, are you still like that? -Like what?
-Self-hating. -l was never self-hating.
You hate effeminate men.
First of all that is a flat out lie: Second, l dated you, didn't l?
Yeah, until you didn't.
l love effeminate men.
lt's not the femininity that l hate,
it's this kind of adopted persona that comes with gay pride. You kno_
-No, educate me. Fill me with yourwisdom. -See, that right there.
lf anybody has a differing opinion, you make it sound like that person is an erudite snob.
An erudite snob?
-Yeah, l'm still there. _till there? -Yeah.
Dude, howcan you afford to be living in the same neighborhood ifyou have no job?
-Well, l mean l live with my parents. 4ool.
-So Declan's gay, huh? -Yeah, crazy, huh?
-Uh, is he all faggy no_ -No, he's the same old Declan.
4an l call him ''Dicklan'' no_ [laughter] -Humor.
Yo, Moe. Tell Lisa about that video we did about howto talk with a Filipino accent.
-Oh, shit. That's rad. -l probably still have that.
What? Dude, you need to upload it.
Seriously, that shit could go viral.
Moe, do you still have that video we took of Benjie
pissing on the electric fence?
Oh, god. l had criminal taste in men.
Fuck yeah, you did.
Moe, l hope you don't have any videos of that.
You kno_ Actually, l do.
[laughter]
l saved all that shit.
You have to send those to us. That was some funny shit, man.
Yeah, Benjie was like fucking crying like a little girl.
No offense. [laughs]
What? l'm not offended. l'm not a little girl.
[laughter]
All l'm saying is that when l worked in The Castro,
l met a ton of effeminate menwho were sweet,
compassionate, Iovely, sexy people,
and then years down the road, they become catty, mean, misogynous, racist, you know.
Okay, l hearyou. So, look, the gay community may not be pe_ect, but it's all we have.
l mean, all l've ever wanted my entire life is to belong
and when l moved to San Francisco, l felt like l did.
Okay, and all l'm saying is that as a native San Franciscan, l never experienced racism
until l came out ofthe closet. So there's that.
For all the talk of equality and getting rid of hate speech and eradicating stereotypes,
the gay community has an awesome way of making people of color
feel like they're second class citizens.
And if anyone tries to call out their racism,
''Girl, relax. It's a fucking joke.''
Okay, and are you saying none of that exists in NewYork?
l don't know.
-Fundamental di_erences. -What are you saying?
-lsn't that what you said when you dumped me? -l did not say that.
-Yeah, you did. _ wouldn't.
l mean it sounds like something l would say, but-
Okay, well, l may not be quoting you verbatim orwhatever,
but you pretty much made that sentiment clear.
Why is it so hard foryou to accept
the fact that not eveybody thinks or lives like you do?
-That's a fair question. -l need to find the bathroom.
-l'm sory. -Can't you just be normal?
Normal.
[theatrical music]
[phone vibrates]
[Lisa] So, howthe fuck are you, Moe?
[Moe] Kinda good. l mean, good.
Yeah. Philly, right?
Yeah, Philly. Lived there for almost, uh, 10 years.
-Married? -Yeah. Yeah, l'm married.
Mm, not me.
l can't even imagine being married. That's some adulting right there.
Lisa, you do know that l've been drug free for over 10 years, right?
l'm not ready to act my age yet. Do you act your age?
[chuckles]
You knowwhat? l don't know.
l mean it's like l turned 25 and-- and then l had a birthday party
and eveyone's all like, ''Surprise, you're 40.''
-l look at my mom and then... You know she's retiring soon? -Mm hmm.
N4 mom comes to Philly once a yearto visit, right?
l'll probably see my mom 10 more times.
That's sobering.
And l just wanna look back at all the things l have in my life
and see all this adds up, but l can't.
You kno_ Not yet.
Then, when? When will it all add up?
That's just it. l don't know.
Hmm.
Okay, so, Moe, you know l love you
-and l've always been one ofthe guys, right? -Mm hmm.
lt's a thing. Like l'm a thing.
l'm one ofthose women that's always been one ofthe guys
and has trouble making female friends, so l understand men.
Like, l do, but l have to say,
what you're going through right now is some male shit.
Seriously, l'm not one to call myselffeminist, like, but l gotta be honest.
l've had so many of my male friends tell me howthey don't knowwhere the time went,
what they've done with their lives, howtheir kids got so big without them knowing
and l'm always like, what have you done with your lives?
Well, your mom who you've been living with, she knom. Ask her.
What have you done with your life?Ask your wife, she's been there at your side.
Howdid your kids get so big without you knowing?
l'll tell you how, their mother raised them. See?
Women don't go through this kind of mid-life crisis because they're too fucking busy
4etting shit done. -Hmm.
Men feel like there's this Iegacy they have to leave behind
as if the future gives a shit about Marcus and Lionel over there.
Do you know how many civilizations
have had their whole histoy swept away by some cataclysm?
l wonder howmany men thought that their recorded histories were so damn important
that they needed to preserve them.
You think those videos you uploaded from your camera are safe?
Your computer isn't safe. Your hard drive isn't safe.
The Cloud isn't safe.
And you think everything is forever.
lt's not.
All we have is now.
All we have is us.
And until we get wiped away as a civilization
and all our records and proof of existence are obliterated,
all we have left are the men
who fear not leaving a mark in this world
and the women who actually run it.
Of course, that's not my style.
l'm just one ofthe guys.
[clock ticking]
-Matias? -Yeah, Declan?
-That's me. -Nice to meet you.
Nice to meet you.
So...
[groaning]
[music]
[phone vibrates]
-Hey, Tiva. What's up? -Hey, l got Moe in my car.
We're thinking ofgeffing a drink. What are you up to?
-Fucking a man. -That's stupid.
Whatever, l'm coming to get you.
[TV sport commentator]
Troy, are you going to eat more? l'm going to put the food in the fridge.
Yeah, leave it out. l'm gonna have more aRer this.
Okay, l'll just cover it.
Don't forget to leave enough Ieftovers for Moe and Declan.
-Fuck them. -l'm going to sleep.
You know, we let them stay here for Christmas
and they don't even have the decency to consider us when they make plans.
-Good night, Anak. -They don't care about family.
To family!
-l can't believe we're all here. -You mean in a sports bar?
[crowd cheering]
That too, but l mean us, in San Francisco.
Then you guys leave.
-l know. -We're not leaving until Tuesday morning.
-What are your plans until then? -Honestly, nothing.
-Yeah, me neither. -Okay, let's do something.
-Yes, let's do something. -Like what?
Whateveryou guys want.
l wanna take a trip down memoy lane.
You know, Anna's Danish Cookies.
Moe, that place has been closed forever.
-What? -What?
-G-O-D. -Damn.
Well, there must be some other cookies around there.
Oh hell, yeah. l'll take you to some places you haven't been.
We could go for pupusas at that Colombian place.
Oh, at [indistinct].
-Yeah. -Yeah. 4losed.
-What? -What? -Yup.
Well, let's take Moe to that place
we used to go forfood and drinks down at Embarcadero.
Oh, you mean that wate_ront place you guys used to love?
Oh yeah, Sinbad's.
-Yeah. -Yeah.
Closed.
-What? -What?
[video game sounds]
[Troy mu_led] What the fuck?
[door slamming]
-What? -What?
l'm serious. You guys have been gone a long time.
-Man, look at all those cranes. -l know, what's up with that?
lt's a city. They're building it.
l like it. It kinda looks like NewYork.
You would say that, Mr. NewYork.
J That's not even clever Mr. Not clever.
[laughter]
Hey, hey, have you guys ever, uh, had Filipino cocktails?
Yeah, there's a place in Manhattan that makes a cocktail with Tang.
Oh, you mean Tang? -Yeah, Tang.
What do they call that, Tang Ina ?
[laughs]
''Your mother's a whore.''
lt's stupid. [laughter]
''Your mother's a whore.'' (roughly)
lt's stupid. [laughs]
-You knowwhat we're gonna do? -What?
We're gonna have, uh, Filipino food.
We're gonna go to Pampalasa_or Kamayan.
-What? -What is that?
[music]
-[Shelly] What are you doing? Just listening to some music.
-lt's dark in here. -Leave the light o_.
-Why? -Remember how this used to be our song?
-lt still is our song, right? -lt was our first slow dance.
-l'm gonna put the groceries away. -What--what did you do today?
Well, l went to work to see if l could get extra hours, and then l went shopping.
-For what? -For these, the groceries.
So you stopped by work? Did you get the extra hours?
No, they went to someone else.
So that couldn't have taken more than 30 minutes, right?
-Well... -lt didn't.
And then you went grocey shopping and you're only coming home now.
-Yeah. -And what time did you leave this morning?
l don't remember.
Where was the first place you went this morning?
-l don't remember. -Are you sure?
[slap]
[muffled voices]
[hitting]
-[Shelly cries] -[Troy] What the fuck?
-Mom! -Mina, close that fucking door.
l swearto God. What the fuck would you do without me?
-What are you doing? _hh. Stay here, _nak.
-You'll be safe here. Shh. 4all the police.
-[Troy] What the fuck are you gonna do without me, huh? -[Shelly cries]
-What the fuck are you gonna do without me? -Troy, easy, man.
-Fuck you, Moe. -That's enough.
-You hittin' Shelly, man? -Mind your own business, Moe.
-[Shelly cries] _helly, are you okay?
Shelly, do you need a hospital?
-l can call Tiva and have her come right back. -No, no.
Seriously, she's probably just around the corner.
-l can have her come back. -Don't call her.
-Mom. -Shh, it's all right, Mina.
Want me to get you a hotel? Shelly, l can do it right now.
lt's fine, Declan. Thank you.
Shelly, you can stay in my room tonight. l'll sleep on the couch.
Why didn't youjust call the police?
Mina, do you really want to lose yourfather?
Think of what you're asking for.
Shelly, l won't call Tiva,
but we can take the car ifyou want to go to the hospital.
-lt's fine, Moe, thank you. -Mom, you need ice for your lip.
l'm fine, Mina.
-Come on. Come on, take my room. -Thank you, ma.
Mom, can l sleep in your room? l don't wanna be alone tonight.
Of course, you can, sweetie.
[sighs]
-You guys, go to sleep now. -What's going to happen no_
You're going to sleep now. That's what's going to happen.
Come on.
-All right. -Yeah, let's go to bed.
-Mom, are you all right? -l'm fine.
l just need to sleep. l'll see you in the morning.
Mom, why don't you sleep in my room? l'll take the couch.
No, no, no. l'm okay, Anak.
Come on, why don't you get situated?
Yeah, okay. Night, mom.
-Night, mom. 4ood night, guys.
[somber music]
[cying]
[birds chirping]
[laughter]
l seriously didn't even knowwhat she was asking.
Alway, what a lame name. Can l buy an S?
-[laughing] -Totally, totally.
Good morning.
Fuckin' bitch, man. Check this shit out.
Tiva forced Shelly to talk to her yesterday about ''domestic abuse''.
[laughs]
Tiva and her mom are so nosy.
Always trying to save the world and shit. Save the rainforest.
''That goes in recycling. Don't hit women.''
[laughter]
So you guys are cool now?
l don't know. Are we cool, babe?
-Yeah, we're cool. Just like that, huh?
No, notjust like that. We had awesome make up sex.
-Pig. [laughs] -Pig?
-Ow, careful. -What about Tiva?
She's just meddling in other people's business just like her mom.
Fuckin' bitch made me hurt Shelly.
Don't wory, though. She's getting what's coming to her.
lf l ever see her in the street, she's dead.
Like l always say, l may have two strikes against me,
but if l'm gonna break the law for my third strike, l'm gonna make it count.
Okay, guys. l'm going to McDonald's to get breakfast.
Stop it. [laughing]
-Moe, what do you want? -Whatever.
[somber music]
-[Declan] Mom? -What?
Why do you keep Troy in the house?
What do you mean?
l mean, if he's so bad, why do you keep him in the house?
Believe me, Declan. If it weren't for Mina, l would have kicked him out of the house.
Oh, really?
Don't give me that, ''Oh really?'' Of course, l would.
And why would you kick him out ofthe house?
Because he's mean. He's violent and he scares eveybody.
But Mina's stopping you from kicking him out?
No, she's not stopping me, but she needs a dad.
l didn't have a dad and look at howwell l turned out.
-And l feel so guilty. -About what?
4uilty about what, mom? _ don't know.
Stop asking. [sighs]
-Does anybody like him? -No, eveybody's scared of him.
-Even his own daughter. -Yeah.
You don't like him either.
Declan, why do you keep on asking all of these things?
Mom, you can love someone and not like them.
Yeah, okay. l don't like your brother.
ls there anything Troy can do to make people's lives better?
No. He makes everybody's life worse.
So, as he makes eveyone's life worse
and nobody will miss him,
and the world would be a better place without him.
Why don't we kill Troy?
[laughs] Declan, that's sick.
Howwould we do it?
[laughing]
lt's just really intense around here, Julie. l haven't had time to bring it up.
What happened?
Julie, look, l'll tell you when l get back.
l'm always scared somebody can hear me.
Okay. How areyou holding up?
Julie, you ever think that eveyone ends up just like their parents?
l don't know.
[wind chimes sounding]
What's that sound? -What sound?
-Are you smoking? -No.
-lt sounds like you're smoking. -No, it's just me breathing.
Okay. Well, do whatyou goffa do.
-But let them know? -Yeah.
-At least tell your mom. -l will.
Okay. l have togo.
Okay. Hey Julie?
-Yeah? -l love you.
l love you, too, Moe.
[wind chimes sounding]
rtense music]
Oh, holy shit. It smells like McDonald's in here.
-ls that a bad thing? -Uh, hell no.
# One day for me
# Anotherday foryou is Enough for us to go on now
-[Prisca] They can really sing. -[Troy] l should go on this show.
You knowwhat l'm saying? Half of these mothe_uckers can't even sing.
l know. What about that one guy?
He looks Filipino but he's black. Oh, he sings beautifully.
l just said people on the show can't sing.
Nowyou're saying someone on the show can sing beautifully?
Are you even a part ofthis conversation? Clean yourfucking ears.
l think his name is Lorenzo. He even has a Filipino sounding name.
l can't hear it.
-[Tiva] Hello? -Oh, shit.
-l thought you told her? -l thought you were gonna tell her.
That's why l give you this look like this.
How am l supposed to know what that means?
So, you automatically assume l meant l got this?
Hi, l came to get my mom's casserole dish.
You got some nerve coming up in here unannounced like you live here.
-l have keys. -Don't fucking give me that attitude.
What's going on?
You're a fucking bitch. That's what's going on.
l'm just gonna leave this dish here. You can keep my mom's dish.
Where the fuck do you think you're going? l ain't done with you.
No, l ain't even started. Not by a damn sight.
[glass breaking]
-Why did you do that? -Fuck.
Why did you do that for?
-Stay back, Troy. -Oh, you're gonna hurt me?
You're gonna hurt me, is that it?
Come on. Bring it. Hurt me.
ls this part of that whole cycle of violence you keep going on about?
What are you gonna do? End it? Show me howyou're gonna end it. Showme, Declan.
Do it. Do it!
Plastic? Dude, you are so fucking cheap.
l wasn't gonna buy a real nunchucks.
Have you met Troy?
Moe did.
You little shit. You think you could take me on?
You come into my house, you talk to me that way?
Stop it!
[fighting noises]
-Calm down! -lt's all right. It's all right, Mina.
Mommy, l don't wanna be here. l don't wanna be here.
lt's okay, Mina. l'm gonna take you to Madison's house.
l don't know if Madison's home or not.
lt's okay. Let's go.
-Daddy? -[indistinct]
[screaming]
Wake the fuck up.
[wind chimes sounding]
-[Troy] What the fuck are you doing? -l want to talk to you, Troy.
What the fuck did you do to my bench?
[Declan] We want to talk to you, but you never make it easy.
[Troy] What the fuck are you doing to me?
So nowyou can't hurt us.
-We want to ask you a few questions. -Where's Mina?
l took herto Madison's. Her parents are letting her spend the night.
-What'd you tell them? _ told them you got violent in the house again.
Again? You talk about me with Madison's parents?
Yeah. Yeah.
l talk to eveybody about how violent you are. Everybody knom about it.
-Bullshit. -Yeah, it's true.
-Tell him, Tiva. -Hey, l don't want to be a part ofthis.
l talk to my friends at work about it. l talk to the girls at school about it.
l talk to Prisca about it.
-You talk to my mom about it? -Of course l do.
-Psh, unbelievable. _ talk to Mina about it.
You're both backstabbing bitches.
Mina talks to me about it. What do you expect me to do?
You pretend that you're on my side and you talk shit about me behind my back?
-You'd hit me! -Fucking traitors. You're fucking traitors!
No, l'm the fucking traitor!
Stop it, Troy! This is not your house.
This is my house.
You haven't had ajob foryears
and what do you plan to do when l retire, huh?
So, when you say we are disrespecting you in your own house?
Rememberwhose house it really is.
Well if you want to ge! t technical, this isn't your house either.
-lt's the landlord's house. -Shut the fuck up.
Make me.
rthud]
You have no idea how many people you've terrorized, do you?
Living with you was hell.
l spent my childhood afraid to say anything against you because you'd hit me.
Fuckin' one time you kicked me in the face because l ate the last piece of chicken.
-Why are you bringing that up? We patched that. -We didn't patch shit.
Youjust started acting like nothing ever happened.
That's howeveything gets resolved with you. You never apologize.
-lt's why you don't have any friends. -Uh, l do have friends.
-Who are yourfriends? -Uh, you don't knowthem.
Who? The parents ofthe kids at school? They don't like you.
-They are all afraid ofyou. -l wasn't talking about them.
Your old coworkers? They haven't called since you were fired.
-Who the fuck are you friends, Troy? -Uh, Marcus, Lionel.
Oh, bullshit, Troy. Bullshit!
l hung out with them last night and they told me that they ty to avoid you,
because you're drama. You're always drama.
Oh, l'm drama? Look at those guys. -What about them?
Fucking druggies. It's what they are.
[laughs] Oh, my god. you don't get it, do you?
They're not what's wrong with this equation. You're the bad guy here.
Then why did they hang out with me in high school?
They were afraid ofyou.
Good. l'm glad they were afraid of me.
That's what l wanted.
Maybe l should be proud l was abused more than you, Moe.
Maybe l should just accept the fact that l was abused because l was a disappointment.
l was a child protege who could program computers
and got first place in the spelling bee in the first grade. Smart.
So smart that they had me skip a grade and that's when it all went downhill.
l went from all A's to all F's. l was the disappointment
because mom and dad didn't think that l was living up to my potential.
l'm sorry, Moe. l'm sory they didn't have as high expectations foryou,
but let's face it. You were the dumb one.
Do it, goofy, you goo_ ass punk,
corny joke telling mothe_ucker.
You think that guys didn't talk shit about you?
l got to hear it all. l want you to invite them over and get fucked up.
You passed out and l'd hang out with them.
Oh yeah, you got on their fucking nerves.
Oh, yeah? But why did they hang out with me, then?
-l don't know, man. -You're lying.
They called you Moe-ron.
They fucking hated howyou always quoted movies and shit.
Always coming into a party, ~Orale vato. What's happening?''
Come on, man. You didn't think that shit was actually cool, did you?
Not as cool as you being the sixth member of Kai.
[laughs]
Oh, this should be good. Okay, Tiva, what've you got?
What you got to say, you fucking homewrecker?
l asked her one question, Troy. l asked ifyou hit her.
One question? Bitch, you ty to get herto turn me in.
Tell him, Shelly. Tell him l supported your decision no matterwhat.
What the fuck does it matter anyway?
You all fucked yourselves. What next? You're gonna release me?
Howdo you knowl'm not going to beat the shit out of each ofyou?
Maybe we're gonna call the police.
[laughs] Yeah, right, and tell them what?
That l attacked you? If l recall, Declan hit me first.
-No, he didn't. -Yes, he did.
-No, he didn't. -Yes, l did.
lt doesn't matter. We'll all just say that you attacked first.
And howare you gonna present me to them?
Like this? You knowthis looks bad, right?
They're not gonna believe you.
-Moe, fucking, ex-junkie? -Fuck you!
Shelly, who violated the temporay restraining order
by letting me back in the house in the first place?
''Oh, cying wolf again, sweetie? Oh, okay.
This time it's serious? Oh, we believe you thistime.''
-We're not going to call the police. -Yeah.
-We're gonna kill you. -Yeah.
-You knowwe were gonna kill him? -No, l was just playing along.
-l'm actually pretty shocked right now. -Yeah.
l'm gonna go to the root of all our pain and kill it.
-Auntie? -[Prisca moaning]
-Oh, shit, Auntie Prisca! -Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa!
-She fainted. -What the fuck is she doing?
-N4 mom faints like this too. -What the hell is happening?
-This is what l do with my mom. -What the fuck is happening?
[alarm going of_
She's not moving.
[alarm continues]
-Mom! -Mom. Ow.
-[Troy] Mom! 4an you hear me?
[Troy] Mom. Mom.
Yeah. l'm listening, Troy.
l'm interested, really.
We need to take her upstairs.
l just need to sit down. l just need to sit down.
[Troy] So, my family's been secretly conspiring to kill me.
You all think l've abused you for so long even though l'm the one who was abused the most.
l'm just tripping o_ the fact that this is what l always wanted to do to dad.
Get him in a room and let him knowexactly what he did to me.
l'd tie him up too so he couldn't hit me.
Funny howyou're the one in this position now, huh?
But you? You never got beat by dad.
-Now, that's funny. -Why is that funny?
Because me and Moe got the shit kicked out of us
and you somehowescaped it.
-Yeah, but you and Mom beat me. -We did not beat you.
-Yes, you did. -Okay, but not as bad as dad beat me.
This is stupid. Nowwe're competing over who got beat the worst.
You're right. This is stupid especially since you're just gonna kill me.
-Look, l just said that. _o, you're not going to kill me?
Now, hold on.
l'm just saying there wasn't some consensus in the family.
l just said that in the moment.
So, you might kill me?
Man, you are fucking pussy.
Shut the fuck up.
Well, l might as well Iet you knowsomething.
-What? -Dad's still around.
-Yeah, right. -l'm serious.
-Dad's still around. -Oh, okay.
Dad's still around. l guess l should untie you now.
l'm not tying to get you to do anything.
l figured since this is a big confessional,
l might as well let you know that dad's still around.
Driving the same bus, doing the same shit, drinking in the same bars.
Okay, let's say you're telling the truth and that dad's still a part ofyour life.
l'm not saying he's a part of my life. l'm just saying he's still around.
Okay. Well, whatever.
Why tell me no_
Well, l just thought that you should know
what it's like to have a family hide something from you.
-Hm, family? -Yeah.
The whole family knom that dad's still around and they kept it a secret for me?
Kinda kills, doesn't it?
You all knewthat l was tying to get in contact with him.
Yeah.
-Why didn't you guys tell me? -Because dad doesn't want to talk to you.
What? Why doesn't he wanna talk to me?
Why does anyone in the family not wanna talk to you?
What are you saying?
What are you saying, Troy? Why won't dad talk to me?
Call me a monster all you want, Declan,
but l stand by what l told you over a decade ago.
l'm the only person in this family who actually accepts you being gay.
Hmm. Do it slower.
-Ho_s that? -Do it stronger.
-Ho_s that? -[moaning] Do it better.
-So, dad's still in San Francisco? -What?
-My dad is still in San Francisco. -No, Declan.
Come on, Mom. Troy obviously told him.
-Wait, what? -Eveyone knom.
-Except me and Mina. -And me.
-Mom, come on, give it up.
This, all of this, this is a dream.
-Declan, just forget about your dad. _ feel like l'm going cray.
You don't need your father. He's gone.
God, isn't any wonder l sufferfrom depression?
-Depression? Depression is for white-- -Mom, don't!
Tiva, this is exactly what l'm talking about.
Are you seeing this? This is howfucked up my family is.
Tiva, you're not throwing us under the bus.
lfwe're going down, you're coming with us.
The fuck is that supposed to mean?
-Dec, l'm so sory. -Aw! Of course, you knew!
Fucking two timing bitch.
-Don't call me a bitch, bitch. -You and your mom.
A couple of snobby bitches talking about making the world a better place,
but you don't even know howto fix the problems in your own home,
the problems in your own head.
You're fucked up, Tiva! You're all fucked up.
-That's enough-- -Fuck you!
This entire time he's been in San Francisco?
Mina's own grandfather, and you kept him a secret?
-Shelly, it's kinder than you think. -Kinder than you think?
What can be kind about keeping Mina's grandfather a secret?
Our dad only comes around evey once in a while to ask for money.
He doesn't want to be a part of our lives.
He's just a drunk that gambles too much.
But why would you lie to me and Mina?
Because he doesn't want to meet you.
When Troy told him about you, he doesn't want to meet you and Mina.
So, what am l supposed to say?
''Hey, Mina, your Lolo is still here,
but you can't meet him because he doesn't want to meet you.''
-At least it would've been honest. -How dare you?
l was just looking out for your feelings.
-l have sacrificed so much forthis family! _ know!
-We never hearthe end of it! -Tell me about it.
Declan, the way you to talk to me is like you're forgetting l'm your mother.
Oh, really? So, you want me to talk to you more like Troy?
You want me to call you names? You want me to call you a bitch? You want me to call you a cunt?
-He doesn't say those words. -Oh, okay. He doesn't say those words.
[in Tagalog] You have no respect.
The kids back home, they know howto respect their parents,
but you, you're like a typical American.
Probably shouldn't have given birth to me here then, huh?
-You're just my son! -Oh, shut the fuck up,
you manipulative self-pitying bitch!
-Stop! -[Troy sings] # You never know What there could be
# Somedy l hope that _ love will find me
Auntie, where are you going?
You're not going down there, are you?
# l know it's true
# Someday l ho_ That _ love will find you
# l've never known What love could be
_roy? l just want to check on you.
Okay?
-Does your wrist hurt? -Fuck you, bitch, cunt!
Of course it fucking hurts. What are you going to do?
Loosen them up? Yeah, come over here, loosen them up, see what happens.
-Don't talk to me like that, _nako. -Fucking FOB.
-How dare you? -You knowwhat, Troy?
lfyou promise to be nicer, maybe Declan will let you go.
Fuck you! Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!
l wish dad did kill you. l wish he'd fucking killed you.
-You're pathetic piece of shit. -l hate you, l hate you, l hate you!
[Troy sobs]
Mom! Mom!
[ominous music]
[Run Away Before It Gets Too Good by H.P. Mendoza plays]
-Hey, Jesse. -[bartender] Hey, Rogelio.
-You know it's, uh, last call. -Oh.
-You started early tonight, huh? Just shut up.
-Give me some double. -Damn, coming right up.
l didn't know you were still in town.
Who the fuck are you?
lt's me.
-Declan? -Hi, dad.
Declan. Declan.
Jesse, this is my son. This is my son.
Get him a whiskey too. Why are you here?
Uh, l thought you were- Where were you?
New York. l'm in town for Christmas.
How long has it been since you were away from Frisco?
_t's been a minute. -Oh, Frisco has changed.
People say you're not supposed to call it Frisco.
Fuck people. You know, l've lived here for 30 years
and eveyone in the Mission called it Frisco.
Especially since we all grew up in the Mish.
-Oh, what's the- the Mission? -Yeah, the Mish.
That's annoying. Don't call it that.
[bartender] Rogelio.
[clunk]
[bar music]
What's up, Declan?
l just heard that you're still around.
Oh, yeah? Who told you?
-Troy told me. -Oh, thank you, Jesse.
Ho_s your mom?
When was the last time you sawmom?
A long time.
lt's been a while.
She's fine.
Do you still remember when she left me?
Of course l do.
She let Troy hit me.
She actually let Troy hit me.
''You will never touch my mom again.''
He turned eveyone against me.
l may not be the pe_ect father,
but l protected my family and l built character in my kids.
Character?
You're mad at me, aren't you?
You know, the last time we talked, we were both in phone booths.
Nobody even had cellphones yet.
That's how long it's been.
And l was tying to get in touch with you
so we could catch up,
but you hung up on me.
l-- l remember that. N4 time ran out
on my phone and l didn't have any more quarters.
And before that, l saw you at a family pa_
and you promised you'd come back.
[bar music]
-Do you remember that? -Yeah.
You promised you'd come back.
And you didn't.
l'm sory.
Doesn't that mean anything?
l'm sory.
When people say they want apologies,
they don't want apologies.
They want blood.
Ho_s the family?
Honestly? It's fucked up.
[sighs] Eveything is all fucked up.
Mom is a wreck.
Troy is abusive.
What's happening?
Tsk, you wouldn't believe.
This was the worst Christmas ever.
-[sobs] -Dec.
Finish your drink and l'll order-- order another round.
l'm good.
Okay. Jesse, one more double, please.
Dad, are you sure you need another shot?
l wanna hear all about what's happening to you,
to the family, to your mom, and l want to know how can l help.
Of course l need another shot.
Dad...
You knowabout me, right?
Oh, hold on, hold on, son.
Stay here while l go to the restroom. l can't listen with a full bladder.
[bar music]
-lt's your dad, huh? -[laughs] Yeah.
Here. This one's on me.
Wow. Thanks.
No way. You've actually shot that back.
[laughs]
Yeah, well.
l wish people sipped their whiskeys.
Yeah, well, l would've, but looks like l got my work cut out for me.
[''Run Away Before It Gets Too Good'' still playing]
Dad, you piece of shit.
[chuckles]
Mom, why don't you go lay down in your room?
-l can't sleep. -lt's quieter in your room, mom.
Get some sleep.
Well, l won't be able to sleep until l see Declan.
Shit, l think he's home.
Declan?
-So? -So?
-l sawdad. -Yeah?
-Yeah. -And?
And he was drunk.
-Did you kiss and make up? -Fuck you, all right?
Are we one big happy family no_
You got some nerve being sarcastic with me
especially since l have you trapped here.
Trapped? You think l give a fuck about being trapped?
l've been trapped in this house for years.
-You've been trapped? -Yes, me. -How are you trapped?
First, Moe leaves, then you leave.
_ was alone with mom. -You could've leR.
-Who was gonna take care of mom? -Bullshit, Troy.
She didn't need taking care of then, she doesn't need it now.
Don't make it sound like you were trapped because of me and Moe.
And l got Shelly pregnant.
-What the fuck was l gonna do? -All right, Troy, l get it.
You feel trapped by your wife and daughter.
That--You're twisting my words, Dec.
l'm sure no man has ever felt that before.
Fuck you! Why can't you just listen to me?
Well, what do you mean?
Moe got real bad with the drugs.
He used people.
He stole from people and he got arrested
and then he went to rehab and look at him now.
Living his second chance.
And you, l mean, dad didn't beat you, but we all pretty much treated you like shit.
What did you do? You leR.
You brought yourself somewhere far, far away from the things that hurt you.
And here you are, Declan's life, take two.
And l've been here... scared.
You're tying to make a point?
No point to be made.
People air their grievances, apologies are made,
second chances are given, but not to monsters.
Eveything is forever.
Patterns repeat themselves and no one learns anything.
l'm tired, Dec.
l'm tired ofthis life.
So, ifyou're gonna kill me, kill me now
before you get all soft.
# l've never known What love could be
# One day l ho_ that My love will find me
# Deep in _ heart l know the trum
# One day l ho_ that Nothing will _nd you
# l've never known
[ominous music]
[smash]
Oh my god.
[ominous music]
-[Moe] l can't. -[Declan] What do you mean you can't?
-[Moe] l can't. -[Prisca] Like youjust can't?
-[Prisca] Like you can't even? -[Moe] We've been up for almost 24 hours.
[Prisca] You should have had co_ee, _nak. Oh.
-[Moe] This is too heavy. -[Tiva] Oh, let's change bags.
[Moe] Oh, it's okay.
[Prisca] That bag contains his head, that's why it's too heavy.
-Let me cary it foryou. -[Declan] Pretty sure l have a bag with his head.
[retching]
-Moe, are you okay? -No, l'm not okay.
What are you feeling?
-We created this monster! -Shhh.
-People might hear us. -There's no one here.
That's the point. That's why we came here.
Why are you complaining now?
Nowthat he's cut into pieces? Why are you complaining?
-Mom, there's something l've been meaning to tell you. -What?
[sighs] You wanna knowthe real reason why Julie wasn't with us at Christmas?
Yeah, why?
-She's pregnant. -Huh?
-Yeah. -Oh.
[laughs]
-You'll be a dad, Anak. -Yeah.
[laughs] l'm so happy foryou.
Dude, why now?
Couldn't you wait until aRer we dumped our bags in the lake to tell us?
l just wanted to tell you just in case something happened to us.
-Like what? _ don't know.
This is some fucked up shit here.
l mean, this is crazy. This is murder!
Yes, it is. This is murder and you're an accomplice.
Not me. l didn't kill him.
You just said that we all created this monster.
You're his older brother. You knew he was being abused and you did nothing to stop it.
Whenever he had his small moments of victoy, did you help raise him up?
Whenever he needed carrying, did you help cary him?
This mothe_ucker had a heavy fucking life and nowyou want to say it's too heavy?
[sobs]
l wanna go back. l wanna go back and tell him l'm sory.
Me too.
l wanna tell him that he didn't deserve to be abused by dad.
-Yeah. -l want to tell him he was talented.
Yeah, well.
l wanna go back. l wanna go back.
You can't go back. You wanna fix things?
You wanna make up for what you've done? This is your brother.
He needs carrying. For once in your life, cary your brother.
[underwater music]
# Ourfather
# Who art in heaven
# Hallowed be
# Thy Name
# Tm Kingdom come
# Thy will be done
# On earth
1 As it is
# In heaven
# Give us this day Ourdaily bread
# And forgive us Our trespasses
# As we forgive those Whotrespass against us
# And lead us not Into temptation
# Butdeliver us mom evil
# And lead us not Into temptation
# But deliver us
# from evil
P Ame444n
# A-a-a-amen
-Hey, is that eveything? -Yup.
Wanna do an idiot check on the car before l leave?
Yup, think l have eveything.
-Have a safe flight to Philly, Moe. -You too--
l mean, thanks.
All right, well.
Yeah, l hate to break this up, but l gotta run and catch my flight.
Yeah, l'm sory, l--
-Have a good flight. -You too.
Oh, Moe. -Well.
Closure?
Closure.
# And lead us not Into temptation
# But deliver us
# from evil
[sobs]
P Ame444n
# A-a-a-amen
Okay, l'm only asking because l wanna make sure we did eveything right,
eveything clean.
-Are you sure nobody sawyou? -Yeah, l'm sure.
Moe didn't see you? His flight wasn't that long ago.
The cab literally just dropped me off.
There's no way Tiva or Moe could've seen me.
This isn't a trap, you're not gonna go sickin' the cops on me, are you?
l don't even know where you're flying to, Troy.
-Well, l'm flying to-- -l don't want to know where you're flying to.
All right.
Bye, Troy.
mind Chime by H.P. Mendoza plays]
# Hey, what's mat sound?
# Hearthe chime, time t go
# Hey, you're in pain
# l am down too, timetogo
# Which way will you _rn?
# Which road?
# Which track?
# When me winds ofchange
# Are atyour back
Hey--
[Mina] Dad hasn't come home yet.
Really? What time is it?
-lt's eight o'clock. -Hmm.
-Maybe he's with his friends. -Daddy doesn't have friends--
Mina, l swearto God--
mind Chime continues playing]
[cying]
[music]