0 00:00:11,000 --> 00:00:20,000 1 00:01:07,133 --> 00:01:09,068 - Are you gettin' hungry? 2 00:01:09,070 --> 00:01:09,835 Wanna a hot dog? 3 00:01:09,837 --> 00:01:11,070 - Yeah. 4 00:01:11,072 --> 00:01:12,237 - Okay. 5 00:01:13,139 --> 00:01:15,841 Right over here, sweetie. 6 00:01:15,843 --> 00:01:17,409 Stay close to me. 7 00:01:21,815 --> 00:01:26,085 Could I get just two hot dogs, whatever you do to it. 8 00:01:27,353 --> 00:01:28,754 Stay here, okay? 9 00:01:30,490 --> 00:01:31,390 Thank you. 10 00:01:35,128 --> 00:01:35,794 All right, let's go across the street 11 00:01:35,796 --> 00:01:37,362 and see that music guy. 12 00:01:59,586 --> 00:02:03,655 Okay, let's go this way, get you some beads. 13 00:02:08,195 --> 00:02:09,895 Over here, baby. 14 00:02:09,897 --> 00:02:13,198 Do me a favor, I'm gonna see how much these are. 15 00:02:13,200 --> 00:02:14,800 You hold this for me? 16 00:02:15,902 --> 00:02:17,169 Thank you. 17 00:02:34,420 --> 00:02:35,754 - Hi. 18 00:02:38,892 --> 00:02:40,225 - Hi. 19 00:02:41,361 --> 00:02:44,196 - You want one of my hot dogs? 20 00:02:44,198 --> 00:02:48,167 - Well, that's very nice of you, I'll be okay. 21 00:02:48,169 --> 00:02:49,168 - Will you? 22 00:02:50,603 --> 00:02:51,503 - Charlie! 23 00:02:52,639 --> 00:02:56,575 Charlie, I told you not to leave my sight! 24 00:02:56,577 --> 00:02:58,377 - I was just talking to this man. 25 00:02:58,379 --> 00:03:01,613 - No, don't look at that filth! 26 00:03:01,615 --> 00:03:03,615 Come on, you know better than that. 27 00:03:07,955 --> 00:03:08,854 Charlie! 28 00:03:09,822 --> 00:03:11,890 - Hey, what's your name? 29 00:04:22,329 --> 00:04:24,630 - It's been eight years. 30 00:04:24,632 --> 00:04:28,300 It's been eight years since I last saw you. 31 00:04:29,402 --> 00:04:33,305 I can still see myself in that parking garage, 32 00:04:33,307 --> 00:04:36,041 looking through my rear view mirror, 33 00:04:36,043 --> 00:04:40,479 watching you drive away with a family that isn't your own. 34 00:04:41,814 --> 00:04:46,385 I've never stopped thinking about you, I never will. 35 00:04:46,387 --> 00:04:48,287 In some ways I feel as though I never left 36 00:04:48,289 --> 00:04:51,290 that damn parking garage 37 00:04:51,292 --> 00:04:54,660 because that's where i left my heart. 38 00:04:54,662 --> 00:04:58,597 But eventually I did leave and just started driving west 39 00:04:58,599 --> 00:05:02,734 for no other reason than i didn't know where else to go. 40 00:05:02,736 --> 00:05:05,804 I love you, grace, you hold my heart. 41 00:05:07,440 --> 00:05:10,409 And I hope that one day when you read the pages 42 00:05:10,411 --> 00:05:14,346 of this journal you could know that I always loved you 43 00:05:14,348 --> 00:05:18,317 and I always wanted to be your dad and I'm sorry. 44 00:05:19,686 --> 00:05:21,453 I'm so damn sorry. 45 00:05:22,055 --> 00:05:23,355 Love, Jim. 46 00:07:22,810 --> 00:07:24,075 Hey, excuse me. 47 00:07:24,077 --> 00:07:25,544 - Can I help you with something? 48 00:07:25,546 --> 00:07:26,812 - Yeah, do you guys sell journals here? 49 00:07:26,814 --> 00:07:28,447 - At the end of the aisle. 50 00:07:31,752 --> 00:07:33,518 - Um, which aisle? 51 00:07:35,087 --> 00:07:37,489 - The one behind you. 52 00:07:38,491 --> 00:07:39,591 - Uh, 53 00:07:39,593 --> 00:07:43,228 they're all behind me, there's like a billion of 'em. 54 00:07:43,230 --> 00:07:45,564 Which aisle is it? 55 00:07:45,566 --> 00:07:46,932 - Are you serious? 56 00:07:47,733 --> 00:07:49,201 - Oh, hey, what are you readin'? 57 00:07:49,203 --> 00:07:51,136 Is that, uh, is that a book on customer service? 58 00:07:51,138 --> 00:07:53,705 Yes, I'm serious, which aisle? 59 00:07:55,541 --> 00:07:56,208 - That aisle. 60 00:07:56,210 --> 00:07:57,042 - Thank you. 61 00:07:57,044 --> 00:07:58,510 - You're welcome. 62 00:08:44,223 --> 00:08:45,624 - Hey, you ready to check out? 63 00:08:45,626 --> 00:08:48,026 - Yeah, hey, uh, this book was, uh, left 64 00:08:48,028 --> 00:08:49,294 in the journal section. 65 00:08:49,296 --> 00:08:52,230 - People are always doing this to me. 66 00:08:52,232 --> 00:08:54,566 They're always putting things back where they don't belong, 67 00:08:54,568 --> 00:08:56,635 moving things around without permission. 68 00:08:56,637 --> 00:08:57,936 How would you like it if i came to your place of work 69 00:08:57,938 --> 00:09:00,005 and I started putting things in different places? 70 00:09:00,007 --> 00:09:01,273 "Oh, you alphabetize things? 71 00:09:01,275 --> 00:09:05,577 "Let me put z with a, oh, b, b goes with d." 72 00:09:05,579 --> 00:09:08,179 - Well, hey, that's why they pay you the big bucks. 73 00:09:08,181 --> 00:09:10,181 - They don't pay me crap. 74 00:09:10,183 --> 00:09:14,286 - 'Scuse me, I've been looking down that aisle you told me 75 00:09:14,288 --> 00:09:17,622 and I simply cannot find that cookbook. 76 00:09:19,025 --> 00:09:21,593 - I took you right to it, it's the third aisle on the right. 77 00:09:21,595 --> 00:09:24,296 - I looked there, can you show me? 78 00:09:25,765 --> 00:09:28,767 - I physically touched the book. 79 00:09:28,769 --> 00:09:32,003 - I know, but then you walked away, 80 00:09:32,005 --> 00:09:33,805 and I didn't see where you were pointing. 81 00:09:33,807 --> 00:09:35,707 - I'll be right back. 82 00:09:38,145 --> 00:09:38,143 It's over here. 83 00:09:38,145 --> 00:09:44,182 - The ragamuffin gospel by Brennan Manning. 84 00:09:44,184 --> 00:09:46,685 This book was written with a specific reading audience 85 00:09:46,687 --> 00:09:48,086 in mind. 86 00:09:48,088 --> 00:09:50,989 This book wasn't written for the super-spiritual 87 00:09:50,991 --> 00:09:53,825 or for those who live only on the mountaintop 88 00:09:53,827 --> 00:09:58,597 and have never visited the valley of desolation. 89 00:09:58,599 --> 00:10:00,365 It's not for the complacent who hoist 90 00:10:00,367 --> 00:10:03,301 over their shoulders a tote bag of honors, diplomas, 91 00:10:03,303 --> 00:10:07,606 and good works, actually believing that they've made it. 92 00:10:07,608 --> 00:10:10,375 It's not for legalists who would rather surrender control 93 00:10:10,377 --> 00:10:13,678 of their souls to rules rather than run the risk 94 00:10:13,680 --> 00:10:15,347 of living in union with Jesus. 95 00:10:20,786 --> 00:10:24,689 This is a book for the bedraggled, beat up, and burnt out. 96 00:10:24,691 --> 00:10:24,689 For the sorely burdened 97 00:10:24,691 --> 00:10:27,726 who are still shifting the heavy suitcase 98 00:10:27,728 --> 00:10:30,395 from one hand to another. 99 00:10:30,397 --> 00:10:30,395 For the wobbly and weak-kneed 100 00:10:30,397 --> 00:10:33,331 who know they don't have it all together 101 00:10:33,333 --> 00:10:37,936 and are too proud to accept the handout of amazing grace. 102 00:10:42,241 --> 00:10:44,309 For poor, weak, sinful men and women 103 00:10:44,311 --> 00:10:47,746 with hereditary faults and limited talents. 104 00:10:47,748 --> 00:10:49,414 This book is for the bent and bruised who feel 105 00:10:49,416 --> 00:10:53,752 that their life is a grave disappointment to god. 106 00:11:06,966 --> 00:11:08,767 Yes, sir? 107 00:11:08,769 --> 00:11:10,402 - You okay, son? 108 00:11:10,404 --> 00:11:12,270 - Yes, sir. 109 00:11:12,272 --> 00:11:14,806 - You know you can't park here, right? 110 00:11:14,808 --> 00:11:16,441 - Yes, I, what's wro-- 111 00:11:16,443 --> 00:11:18,943 sorry, sir, I'm just waking up, where do you, 112 00:11:18,945 --> 00:11:20,812 where should I park? 113 00:11:20,814 --> 00:11:24,115 - I really don't care, just not in the middle of my beach 114 00:11:24,117 --> 00:11:25,850 middle of the night. 115 00:11:31,424 --> 00:11:33,992 - Good morning, lifegate church. 116 00:11:33,994 --> 00:11:35,360 - Yeah, is mark there? 117 00:11:35,362 --> 00:11:36,261 - Pastor mark? 118 00:11:36,263 --> 00:11:38,263 No, he's in San Diego. 119 00:11:38,265 --> 00:11:38,263 - He's in San Diego? 120 00:11:38,265 --> 00:11:41,766 - Uh, yes, sir, he goes out there every year 121 00:11:41,768 --> 00:11:43,468 for an annual pastor's conference. 122 00:11:43,470 --> 00:11:44,969 - That's right. 123 00:11:46,072 --> 00:11:49,274 Hey, do you know where that's being held? 124 00:12:29,014 --> 00:12:31,850 - I need you to go to office depot and get these laminated. 125 00:12:31,852 --> 00:12:33,318 I put it in the to-do list and I need you 126 00:12:33,320 --> 00:12:35,086 to follow the directions. 127 00:12:35,088 --> 00:12:36,254 - Okay. 128 00:12:36,256 --> 00:12:37,856 - This is a big moment for you, okay? 129 00:12:37,858 --> 00:12:39,190 And I need you to be there-- - hi, there, is this 130 00:12:39,192 --> 00:12:40,825 where the thing is? 131 00:12:40,827 --> 00:12:43,394 - Oh, absolutely, hello, are you ready to check in? 132 00:12:43,396 --> 00:12:44,829 - Uh, yeah. 133 00:12:44,831 --> 00:12:45,897 - Okay, well, it looks like 134 00:12:45,899 --> 00:12:47,899 somebody just rolled outta bed. 135 00:12:49,369 --> 00:12:50,802 - Somethin' like that. 136 00:12:50,804 --> 00:12:51,870 - Oh, we're just jokin' with ya. 137 00:12:51,872 --> 00:12:51,870 - Okay. - - All right. 138 00:12:51,872 --> 00:12:54,239 - So, what church are you with, honey? 139 00:12:54,241 --> 00:12:55,206 - Uh, 140 00:12:55,208 --> 00:12:56,541 church? 141 00:12:56,543 --> 00:12:58,009 - Yeah, if they didn't put you down by your church, 142 00:12:58,011 --> 00:12:59,444 they would've put you down by your name, 143 00:12:59,446 --> 00:13:01,045 so you could just tell us that. 144 00:13:01,047 --> 00:13:02,881 Now, seriously, why are you just sittin' here? 145 00:13:02,883 --> 00:13:02,881 I need you to be laminatin'. 146 00:13:02,883 --> 00:13:05,884 We got two hundred n-- - this is me right here. 147 00:13:05,886 --> 00:13:06,818 - Ryan brinson? - - Yup. 148 00:13:06,820 --> 00:13:08,820 - I loved your books. 149 00:13:08,822 --> 00:13:08,820 They have changed my life. 150 00:13:08,822 --> 00:13:11,089 - Oh, well, I'm, uh, goo-- - we have a lanyard 151 00:13:11,091 --> 00:13:12,023 for you-- - yeah. 152 00:13:12,025 --> 00:13:12,957 - And you better get in 153 00:13:12,959 --> 00:13:14,125 because the first session-- 154 00:13:14,127 --> 00:13:15,360 is about to fill up. 155 00:13:15,362 --> 00:13:16,494 - Uh, thank you, hey, uh, quick question. 156 00:13:16,496 --> 00:13:16,494 I've never been here before. 157 00:13:16,496 --> 00:13:19,931 Is there a place I can grab a smoke real quick? 158 00:13:19,933 --> 00:13:21,166 - Excuse me? 159 00:13:21,168 --> 00:13:23,201 - Before the sess-- do i have time for a smoke? 160 00:13:27,841 --> 00:13:29,340 All right, later. 161 00:13:51,063 --> 00:13:54,465 Excuse me, are you Brennan Manning? 162 00:13:54,467 --> 00:13:56,034 - Unfortunately, yes. 163 00:13:56,036 --> 00:13:57,602 - You wrote this book, ragamuffin gospel? 164 00:13:57,604 --> 00:13:59,838 - A long time, look, i, I'm, I'm busy. 165 00:13:59,840 --> 00:14:01,840 I'm going over my notes, thank you very much, goodbye. 166 00:14:01,842 --> 00:14:03,241 - Oh, I'm sorry, i just wanted to say 167 00:14:03,243 --> 00:14:04,209 you got a cool-- - how many ways 168 00:14:04,211 --> 00:14:05,410 do I have to tell you I'm busy? 169 00:14:05,412 --> 00:14:07,846 I'm going over my notes! 170 00:14:07,848 --> 00:14:11,316 - Sorry to bother you. - What are you, deaf? 171 00:14:14,153 --> 00:14:17,488 - Tellin' ya you had a cool book. 172 00:14:21,228 --> 00:14:22,527 - Thank you. 173 00:14:22,529 --> 00:14:27,632 Welcome to the 2005 San Diego pastor's convention! 174 00:14:27,634 --> 00:14:30,034 Ah, thank you, 175 00:14:30,036 --> 00:14:31,970 give it up for the band. 176 00:14:33,540 --> 00:14:35,974 He's dedicated his life to traveling the world 177 00:14:35,976 --> 00:14:37,909 and preaching the love of god 178 00:14:37,911 --> 00:14:39,510 as a vagabond evangelist. 179 00:14:39,512 --> 00:14:41,346 Please welcome, Brennan Manning. 180 00:14:48,153 --> 00:14:49,554 Brennan Manning. 181 00:14:55,929 --> 00:14:56,561 - Hmm? 182 00:14:56,563 --> 00:14:58,196 - You dropped this. 183 00:15:00,499 --> 00:15:02,000 - Okay, let's try this one more time. 184 00:15:03,036 --> 00:15:04,435 Brennan Manning. 185 00:15:06,105 --> 00:15:07,472 Thank you. 186 00:15:13,379 --> 00:15:15,146 - In the words of St. Francis of assisi 187 00:15:15,148 --> 00:15:19,050 to brother Dominic on the way to umbria, "hi." 188 00:15:20,519 --> 00:15:23,955 I'd like to speak to what response does god look for 189 00:15:23,957 --> 00:15:27,525 from us in return for the gift of his love 190 00:15:28,694 --> 00:15:31,596 that knows no boundary, limit, or breaking point. 191 00:15:31,598 --> 00:15:34,032 In 1982, the movie of the year 192 00:15:34,034 --> 00:15:37,268 that won the best Oscar was chariots of fire. 193 00:15:37,270 --> 00:15:41,005 There was one scene in the film that really grabbed me. 194 00:15:41,007 --> 00:15:43,675 The night before the race she goes to him, 195 00:15:43,677 --> 00:15:47,178 in fact, she pleads with him to drop out of the race, 196 00:15:47,180 --> 00:15:50,682 and he looks at her with eyes of great compassion 197 00:15:50,684 --> 00:15:54,018 and in a gentle voice he says, 198 00:15:54,020 --> 00:15:56,120 "but, Mary, god made me fast, 199 00:15:56,122 --> 00:15:59,157 "and when I run i feel his pleasure. 200 00:15:59,159 --> 00:16:00,692 "Do you understand Mary? 201 00:16:00,694 --> 00:16:03,594 "When I run I feel his pleasure." 202 00:16:03,596 --> 00:16:06,064 The splendor of the human heart 203 00:16:06,066 --> 00:16:09,367 that trusts it is loved unconditionally 204 00:16:10,736 --> 00:16:14,706 gives god more pleasure than the westminster cathedral, 205 00:16:16,008 --> 00:16:19,744 Beethoven's ninth symphony, Van gogh's sunflowers, 206 00:16:19,746 --> 00:16:23,281 the sight of ten thousand butterflies in flight, 207 00:16:23,283 --> 00:16:26,684 or the scent of a million orchids in bloom. 208 00:16:26,686 --> 00:16:31,122 Trust is our gift back to god that he finds it so enchanting 209 00:16:33,025 --> 00:16:35,994 that Jesus died for love of it. 210 00:16:35,996 --> 00:16:39,197 In 1932, there was a French philosopher. 211 00:16:40,599 --> 00:16:43,167 He tried to interpret the Bible-- 212 00:16:46,539 --> 00:16:47,739 - thank you. 213 00:17:00,652 --> 00:17:02,620 - What are you doin' here? 214 00:17:02,622 --> 00:17:04,722 - Hey, mark, how you doin' man? 215 00:17:04,724 --> 00:17:06,758 - I asked why you're here, man. 216 00:17:06,760 --> 00:17:08,393 - I live here. 217 00:17:08,395 --> 00:17:10,061 - I know, but here. 218 00:17:11,730 --> 00:17:12,630 - I, uh, 219 00:17:14,566 --> 00:17:17,402 I need your help, i need your help. 220 00:17:17,404 --> 00:17:18,636 - I gotta catch a plane. 221 00:17:18,638 --> 00:17:22,140 - No, no, no, look, come on, you know me. 222 00:17:22,142 --> 00:17:23,674 You know if I had any other options, 223 00:17:23,676 --> 00:17:26,644 I wouldn't be asking you, but i really need your help, man. 224 00:17:26,646 --> 00:17:31,049 I really need your help, can you help me? 225 00:17:31,051 --> 00:17:34,152 - I'm takin' Sarah and the kid across the street for lunch. 226 00:17:34,154 --> 00:17:35,586 Meet me there and we'll talk. 227 00:17:35,588 --> 00:17:36,421 - Okay. - Yeah. 228 00:17:36,423 --> 00:17:37,255 - Thank you, sir. 229 00:17:47,700 --> 00:17:51,636 Hey, um, so, hey, so sorry to interrupt. 230 00:17:51,638 --> 00:17:54,072 Uh, hey, man, I really enjoyed your, uh, sermon. 231 00:17:54,074 --> 00:17:57,375 Uh, hey, this is maybe stupid but do you wanna, um, 232 00:17:57,377 --> 00:17:59,177 wanna go grab a beer or something? 233 00:17:59,179 --> 00:18:00,645 - That's not a good question 234 00:18:00,647 --> 00:18:02,847 to ask a recovering alcoholic. 235 00:18:02,849 --> 00:18:04,549 - I, uh, sorry, i-- - and besides, 236 00:18:04,551 --> 00:18:06,184 I gotta get back to n'awlins. 237 00:18:06,186 --> 00:18:08,419 - Oh, hey, that's where I'm from, New Orleans. 238 00:18:08,421 --> 00:18:10,521 - No, no, no, no, no, no, if you're from n'awlins, 239 00:18:10,523 --> 00:18:12,156 you don't say New Orleans. 240 00:18:12,158 --> 00:18:14,358 You say n'awlins, or else they'll kill ya. 241 00:18:14,360 --> 00:18:16,260 No, they will. - That's funny. 242 00:18:16,262 --> 00:18:18,863 It's been a long time since I lived there, so. 243 00:18:18,865 --> 00:18:20,131 Anyway, it was great to meet you, sir. 244 00:18:20,133 --> 00:18:21,532 - Good. 245 00:18:21,534 --> 00:18:24,569 - All right, take care, guys. 246 00:18:24,571 --> 00:18:26,204 - Great job in there today. 247 00:18:26,206 --> 00:18:27,438 - Oh, thank you very much, it was my pleasure. 248 00:18:27,440 --> 00:18:28,673 - All right, listen, 249 00:18:28,675 --> 00:18:29,474 I'm gonna go pull the car around. 250 00:18:29,476 --> 00:18:30,408 - Okay, I'll wait here. 251 00:18:30,410 --> 00:18:31,476 - All right. 252 00:18:40,385 --> 00:18:42,220 - So, where do I sit? 253 00:18:43,322 --> 00:18:46,858 - Oh, I thought you had a flight to catch. 254 00:18:46,860 --> 00:18:49,560 - I'll catch a later one. 255 00:18:49,562 --> 00:18:51,229 - But won't your wife be mad? 256 00:18:51,231 --> 00:18:52,830 - Look, I'm a grumpy old man. 257 00:18:52,832 --> 00:18:55,133 I don't wanna change my mind. 258 00:18:55,135 --> 00:18:57,168 - Okay, okay, lemme clear out some stuff. 259 00:19:02,775 --> 00:19:03,908 Uh, just I'll make some room for you, sir. 260 00:19:08,213 --> 00:19:09,780 - Hey, don't go without this, guy. 261 00:19:09,782 --> 00:19:10,748 Go ahead and grab that. 262 00:19:10,750 --> 00:19:12,183 - Oh, thank you very much. 263 00:19:12,185 --> 00:19:12,183 - You're welcome. - I appreciate that. 264 00:19:12,185 --> 00:19:14,685 - Well, you might notice it's a little heavier. 265 00:19:14,687 --> 00:19:16,354 I put some take homes in there and, oh, some snacks. 266 00:19:16,356 --> 00:19:17,655 Do you, do you eat cheese? 267 00:19:17,657 --> 00:19:21,159 We'll talk about it, listen, I'll go pull the car up? 268 00:19:21,161 --> 00:19:22,593 - Oh, no, I, I have a ride. 269 00:19:22,595 --> 00:19:24,262 - Oh, yeah. - Thank you very, 270 00:19:24,264 --> 00:19:27,198 very much, I appreciate it. - Yeah, hey, yeah, yeah. 271 00:19:27,200 --> 00:19:28,933 - Hey, I can take it, i can take it for you. 272 00:19:28,935 --> 00:19:31,269 There you go, there you go, 273 00:19:31,271 --> 00:19:33,871 just get you right in there, sir. 274 00:19:35,307 --> 00:19:38,209 Watch your head, I'm a cop, no, just kidding. 275 00:19:38,211 --> 00:19:39,677 This back door doesn't open, 276 00:19:39,679 --> 00:19:41,779 so I'm just gonna go right over your head, there, 277 00:19:41,781 --> 00:19:43,314 right over your head, sorry. 278 00:19:45,451 --> 00:19:46,951 Again, sorry about this door, 279 00:19:46,953 --> 00:19:48,252 just goin' right over your head, right over your head, 280 00:19:48,254 --> 00:19:50,354 right over your head, sorry about that. 281 00:19:50,356 --> 00:19:52,356 Okay, okay, and that. 282 00:19:53,759 --> 00:19:54,659 All right. 283 00:19:55,894 --> 00:19:55,893 Um, 284 00:19:57,796 --> 00:20:00,431 I don't know where my keys are. 285 00:20:02,201 --> 00:20:04,368 - Well, I don't like preachers, either. 286 00:20:04,370 --> 00:20:06,704 - I mean that's not you. 287 00:20:06,706 --> 00:20:09,740 Well, I mean what I saw in you is different. 288 00:20:09,742 --> 00:20:14,378 - The god of many christians is too small for me. 289 00:20:14,380 --> 00:20:18,616 A god who loves me when I'm good and hates me when I'm bad, 290 00:20:20,252 --> 00:20:24,889 a very fickle god where everything depends on my behavior, 291 00:20:24,891 --> 00:20:27,458 a god of moralism, a god of legalism, 292 00:20:27,460 --> 00:20:30,962 a very heavy-handed god of authoritarianism, 293 00:20:30,964 --> 00:20:33,965 and it's not the Jesus who said, 294 00:20:33,967 --> 00:20:36,701 "make your home in me as I make mine in you." 295 00:20:36,703 --> 00:20:39,403 - Yeah, Jesus, I, i have no problem with. 296 00:20:39,405 --> 00:20:42,707 It's the christians that I can live without. 297 00:20:42,709 --> 00:20:44,008 - Who hurt you? 298 00:20:47,312 --> 00:20:49,280 - I've just had enough, that's all. 299 00:20:49,282 --> 00:20:52,350 - How long have you been living in your car? 300 00:20:52,352 --> 00:20:54,252 - I've been living in my car a little while, 301 00:20:54,254 --> 00:20:56,587 I mean maybe eight months or so. 302 00:20:56,589 --> 00:20:58,322 I have friends i stay at occasionally. 303 00:20:58,324 --> 00:21:01,325 I've met, I've made some friends out here in San Diego, 304 00:21:01,327 --> 00:21:04,862 and I've been able to crash on some couches and stuff and, 305 00:21:04,864 --> 00:21:08,633 but I mean longer than it's comfortable, 306 00:21:08,635 --> 00:21:09,600 you know what I mean? 307 00:21:09,602 --> 00:21:11,702 Longer than it's comfortable. 308 00:21:11,704 --> 00:21:13,337 Well, you know what I figure? 309 00:21:13,339 --> 00:21:16,440 I figure it's better to be alone than to be hurting people. 310 00:21:16,442 --> 00:21:19,644 - Do you believe god loves you as you are, 311 00:21:19,646 --> 00:21:21,979 not as you should be? 312 00:21:26,318 --> 00:21:29,620 Because none of us are as we should be. 313 00:21:31,690 --> 00:21:33,291 - I'm trying to. 314 00:21:34,993 --> 00:21:37,662 - Good, because here's the revelation, 315 00:21:37,664 --> 00:21:39,730 bright as the evening star. 316 00:21:39,732 --> 00:21:41,799 Jesus comes for sinners, 317 00:21:42,901 --> 00:21:46,370 for those as outcast as tax collectors 318 00:21:46,372 --> 00:21:50,408 and those caught up in squalid choices and failed dreams. 319 00:21:52,511 --> 00:21:56,647 He comes for corporate executives, street people, 320 00:21:56,649 --> 00:22:00,885 superstars, farmers, hookers, addicts, IRS agents, 321 00:22:02,587 --> 00:22:06,557 aids victims, and even used-car salesmen. 322 00:22:06,559 --> 00:22:09,360 Jesus not only talks with these people, 323 00:22:09,362 --> 00:22:12,563 he dines with them, with sinners, 324 00:22:12,565 --> 00:22:16,534 will raise the eyebrows of religious bureaucrats 325 00:22:16,536 --> 00:22:19,704 who hold up the robes, an insignia 326 00:22:19,706 --> 00:22:24,508 of their religious authority to justify their condemnation 327 00:22:24,510 --> 00:22:28,746 of the truth and their rejection of the gospel of grace. 328 00:22:35,354 --> 00:22:37,488 - You're still here. 329 00:22:37,490 --> 00:22:39,523 - I'll be right back, Brennan. 330 00:22:39,525 --> 00:22:40,791 So, where were you? 331 00:22:40,793 --> 00:22:42,393 I was waiting for a couple of hours. 332 00:22:42,395 --> 00:22:43,461 - Yeah, w-- - you said we'd meet 333 00:22:43,463 --> 00:22:44,395 right over there. 334 00:22:44,397 --> 00:22:45,429 - Yeah, we didn't have time 335 00:22:45,431 --> 00:22:45,429 for lunch. - You didn't have time? 336 00:22:45,431 --> 00:22:48,432 What are you talking about you didn't have time? 337 00:22:48,434 --> 00:22:48,432 We were in the coffee shop. - No, well, we had to pack, 338 00:22:48,434 --> 00:22:48,432 and then w-- - no, wait, wait, wait, 339 00:22:48,434 --> 00:22:51,535 what do you mean you had to pack? 340 00:22:51,537 --> 00:22:52,503 You said you were in a hurry for a flight. 341 00:22:52,505 --> 00:22:53,771 - Hi. - Yeah, we are. 342 00:22:53,773 --> 00:22:54,605 - And now, it's, this all sounds like cr-- 343 00:22:54,607 --> 00:22:55,806 - it's not crap, son, 344 00:22:55,808 --> 00:22:56,874 we're in a hurry. - I'm Sarah. 345 00:22:56,876 --> 00:22:58,676 - I'm sorry, Sarah. - Jim. 346 00:22:58,678 --> 00:22:59,677 - This is Sarah's son-- 347 00:22:59,679 --> 00:23:00,745 - our son. 348 00:23:00,747 --> 00:23:02,079 - Our son. - Yeah. 349 00:23:02,081 --> 00:23:03,080 - I apologize. - That's okay, that's okay. 350 00:23:03,082 --> 00:23:05,583 - It's our son, Jake. 351 00:23:05,585 --> 00:23:06,784 You know what? 352 00:23:06,786 --> 00:23:08,452 - We better get going. - - Okay. 353 00:23:08,454 --> 00:23:10,421 - All right, so, uh, why don't you meet me in the car 354 00:23:10,423 --> 00:23:11,856 and I'll be right with you, all right? 355 00:23:11,858 --> 00:23:13,090 - Yeah, it was nice to meet you. 356 00:23:13,092 --> 00:23:14,425 - Yeah, you too. 357 00:23:14,427 --> 00:23:16,394 - Come on, baby, come on. 358 00:23:17,662 --> 00:23:20,531 - Don't you blame me for your ruined life. 359 00:23:20,533 --> 00:23:22,400 You got no one to blame but yourself. 360 00:23:22,402 --> 00:23:26,070 If you want my help, all you gotta do is come back 361 00:23:26,072 --> 00:23:28,806 to New Orleans, come back to the church, 362 00:23:28,808 --> 00:23:31,742 and apologize for what you did. 363 00:23:31,744 --> 00:23:32,643 Or not. 364 00:23:33,879 --> 00:23:36,180 It's all up to you, though. 365 00:23:42,053 --> 00:23:44,889 - What was that? 366 00:23:44,891 --> 00:23:47,491 - That was my dad. 367 00:23:47,493 --> 00:23:50,528 You'd like him, he's a preacher. 368 00:23:53,199 --> 00:23:54,765 - You didn't have to come in with me. 369 00:23:54,767 --> 00:23:56,033 - Oh, I didn't mind. 370 00:23:56,035 --> 00:23:58,202 - Well, sorry to have to rush off like this, 371 00:23:58,204 --> 00:23:59,804 but you take care, man. 372 00:23:59,806 --> 00:24:01,572 - Yeah, take care. 373 00:24:02,174 --> 00:24:03,073 - Jim, 374 00:24:04,743 --> 00:24:05,976 why did you want to speak with me today? 375 00:24:05,978 --> 00:24:07,878 Now, honestly, I don't mean to offend you, 376 00:24:07,880 --> 00:24:09,647 but you don't seem like the type 377 00:24:09,649 --> 00:24:13,150 that would wanna chitchat about theology. 378 00:24:14,453 --> 00:24:16,887 - I don't know, i just, need help. 379 00:24:18,223 --> 00:24:21,992 Um, I think I'm just at a point in my life where I feel, um, 380 00:24:23,495 --> 00:24:25,563 stuck, and, uh, I don't, 381 00:24:28,467 --> 00:24:31,202 I don't know how to get unstuck. 382 00:24:32,637 --> 00:24:36,040 - Well, then, that's what I'll pray for. 383 00:24:37,576 --> 00:24:38,642 - Take care. 384 00:24:41,247 --> 00:24:43,214 - 7 pm flight to New Orleans. 385 00:24:43,216 --> 00:24:43,214 - I'm sorry, but all flights 386 00:24:43,216 --> 00:24:46,517 out to New Orleans have been canceled due to weather. 387 00:24:46,519 --> 00:24:48,786 - I was supposed to be on the 5 pm! 388 00:24:48,788 --> 00:24:51,255 - And that was actually the last flight out. 389 00:24:51,257 --> 00:24:53,257 - You don't understand, i have to be home! 390 00:24:53,259 --> 00:24:54,792 There's nothing you can do? 391 00:24:54,794 --> 00:24:56,894 - Sir, there's actually a large storm front 392 00:24:56,896 --> 00:24:58,596 that's headed for the Gulf right now 393 00:24:58,598 --> 00:24:59,964 and unfortunately, all flights 394 00:24:59,966 --> 00:25:01,632 to that region have been canceled. 395 00:25:01,634 --> 00:25:02,933 They're not gonna schedule anymore 396 00:25:02,935 --> 00:25:04,134 until that weather passes. 397 00:25:04,136 --> 00:25:05,736 - Can you get me a flight to another city 398 00:25:05,738 --> 00:25:07,905 and then I can drive to New Orleans. 399 00:25:07,907 --> 00:25:10,541 - Well, unfortunately any of the other cities 400 00:25:10,543 --> 00:25:13,110 I could get you into tonight would actually be further 401 00:25:13,112 --> 00:25:16,614 from New Orleans than here, so I'm sorry, 402 00:25:16,616 --> 00:25:18,249 but I really think you'd get there faster 403 00:25:18,251 --> 00:25:20,618 by driving than waiting for a flight out from here. 404 00:25:23,589 --> 00:25:27,525 - An attendant will help you find your car outside. 405 00:25:27,527 --> 00:25:28,158 - Hi. 406 00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:29,894 - Oh, just one second. 407 00:25:29,896 --> 00:25:33,564 Borrow-a-car-rent-a-car, this is Paul. 408 00:25:33,566 --> 00:25:35,266 I told you you're not supposed to be calling me 409 00:25:35,268 --> 00:25:36,667 at work anymore. 410 00:25:38,003 --> 00:25:40,738 - Sir, I'm in a major hurry, I need to get home. 411 00:25:40,740 --> 00:25:43,607 - Sir, I'm on a business call. 412 00:25:43,609 --> 00:25:45,943 You're being very rude. 413 00:25:45,945 --> 00:25:47,244 Go ahead, mom. 414 00:25:47,246 --> 00:25:50,648 - I swear I'm in the twilight zone of idiots. 415 00:25:50,650 --> 00:25:52,683 - Mom, I have to hang up now. 416 00:25:52,685 --> 00:25:56,186 Okay, this old guy is gonna die on me. 417 00:25:56,188 --> 00:25:58,556 All right, make it quick. 418 00:25:59,758 --> 00:26:03,027 You know I love you, okay, bye. 419 00:26:03,029 --> 00:26:04,228 How can I help you today? 420 00:26:04,230 --> 00:26:04,228 - I need to rent a car. 421 00:26:04,230 --> 00:26:08,999 - I was afraid you were gonna say that, we're out. 422 00:26:09,001 --> 00:26:10,200 - Nothing? 423 00:26:10,202 --> 00:26:11,135 - They cleaned us out because 424 00:26:11,137 --> 00:26:12,870 of the cancellations back east. 425 00:26:12,872 --> 00:26:14,305 The lady before you got the last one. 426 00:26:14,307 --> 00:26:15,739 Have you actually tried, though, 427 00:26:15,741 --> 00:26:17,141 going to the other rental places? 428 00:26:17,143 --> 00:26:19,677 - I've tried everything! 429 00:26:28,821 --> 00:26:30,821 - What's his problem? 430 00:26:30,823 --> 00:26:33,624 Borrow-a-car-rent-a-car, this is-- 431 00:26:33,626 --> 00:26:35,926 no, I didn't hang up on you. 432 00:26:40,999 --> 00:26:41,832 - Jim! 433 00:26:49,809 --> 00:26:54,044 - Hey, kid, you got another sleeping bag? 434 00:26:54,980 --> 00:26:57,281 - I do, but I'll be honest. 435 00:26:57,283 --> 00:27:00,651 I have no idea where. 436 00:27:00,653 --> 00:27:04,054 - I'm gonna be honest with you, I need help. 437 00:27:04,056 --> 00:27:05,656 - What's up? 438 00:27:05,658 --> 00:27:08,859 - My flight's been canceled, no rental cars, 439 00:27:08,861 --> 00:27:10,661 and I've got to get back to n'awlins 440 00:27:10,663 --> 00:27:12,997 as fast as humanly possible. 441 00:27:12,999 --> 00:27:15,666 - Oh, man, why the rush? 442 00:27:15,668 --> 00:27:18,736 - I'm tryin' to save my marriage. 443 00:27:18,738 --> 00:27:21,171 - Well, then, that's what I'll pray for. 444 00:27:26,011 --> 00:27:30,681 I'm just kiddin', get in, of course I'm take ya! 445 00:27:32,652 --> 00:27:33,817 - New Orleans is a pretty far distance, 446 00:27:33,819 --> 00:27:35,119 I hope you don't mind, kid. 447 00:27:35,121 --> 00:27:37,321 - Oh, no, no, I'm headed there anyway. 448 00:27:37,323 --> 00:27:37,321 - I know I said I'm in a hurry, 449 00:27:37,323 --> 00:27:40,391 but you don't have to drive so fast. 450 00:27:40,393 --> 00:27:42,159 - Oh, don't worry, I'm a safe driver. 451 00:27:42,161 --> 00:27:42,993 - Brake lights! 452 00:27:47,299 --> 00:27:50,167 Why ya driving like a maniac? 453 00:27:50,169 --> 00:27:51,669 - Hey, 454 00:27:51,671 --> 00:27:54,138 no one likes a backseat driver. 455 00:27:56,675 --> 00:27:59,276 Oh, here's that sleeping bag. 456 00:28:12,724 --> 00:28:14,892 Hey, we're actually not too far from Arizona, I think we're 457 00:28:14,894 --> 00:28:15,826 making good time-- - good, I wanna get 458 00:28:15,828 --> 00:28:17,027 an early start in the morning. 459 00:28:17,029 --> 00:28:17,928 - Yeah. 460 00:28:18,763 --> 00:28:18,762 Uh oh, one bed. 461 00:28:22,434 --> 00:28:25,202 Sure hope my hand doesn't end up between two pillows. 462 00:28:28,307 --> 00:28:30,941 Planes, trains and automobiles? 463 00:28:32,043 --> 00:28:33,177 It's a movie? 464 00:28:34,179 --> 00:28:35,112 - Why don't you run downstairs, 465 00:28:35,114 --> 00:28:36,380 get us a couple of sandwiches? 466 00:28:36,382 --> 00:28:37,715 Here, take this. 467 00:28:37,717 --> 00:28:38,849 - Okay, sure. 468 00:28:39,417 --> 00:28:40,250 - Yeah. 469 00:28:40,252 --> 00:28:41,151 - Um, 470 00:28:42,821 --> 00:28:44,154 yeah, I, uh, 471 00:28:44,156 --> 00:28:46,824 I guess I'll, uh, just be right back, then. 472 00:28:46,826 --> 00:28:48,058 - No, no, take your time. 473 00:28:48,060 --> 00:28:49,860 I'd appreciate a few minutes alone. 474 00:28:49,862 --> 00:28:51,762 - Oh, yeah, yeah, sorry about that, of course. 475 00:28:51,764 --> 00:28:53,430 - No sorries, just go! 476 00:28:53,432 --> 00:28:57,868 - Okay, okay, going. 477 00:28:58,470 --> 00:28:59,737 Was that enough time? 478 00:29:00,506 --> 00:29:01,772 I'm kidding. 479 00:29:04,042 --> 00:29:06,910 - It's gonna be a long car ride. 480 00:29:18,089 --> 00:29:21,191 - Roslyn, it's me, say something. 481 00:29:21,193 --> 00:29:22,860 - Where are you? 482 00:29:22,862 --> 00:29:25,929 - Just outside of San Diego, my flight was canceled. 483 00:29:25,931 --> 00:29:27,831 - Don't lie to me. 484 00:29:27,833 --> 00:29:29,533 I'm not lying. 485 00:29:29,535 --> 00:29:31,502 - I just went to pick you up. 486 00:29:31,504 --> 00:29:34,037 Your flight was on time, you weren't on it. 487 00:29:34,039 --> 00:29:35,906 - Oh, that was my original flight. 488 00:29:35,908 --> 00:29:38,542 There was this kid that needed help, so I switched flights 489 00:29:38,544 --> 00:29:40,978 and we needed to talk. 490 00:29:40,980 --> 00:29:42,780 - When are you coming home? 491 00:29:42,782 --> 00:29:43,947 - A few days. 492 00:29:45,316 --> 00:29:47,050 - I'll see you then. 493 00:29:51,323 --> 00:29:53,857 - Hey, I'm back, sorry it took me so long. 494 00:29:53,859 --> 00:29:56,426 They didn't have any Mayo, so I'm like, 495 00:29:56,428 --> 00:29:58,829 "hey, dude, I'm a Mayo guy." 496 00:30:00,832 --> 00:30:04,835 - Thought I told you i wanted to be alone. 497 00:30:04,837 --> 00:30:05,869 - You okay, man? 498 00:30:05,871 --> 00:30:07,905 I, I'm-- 499 00:30:07,907 --> 00:30:11,074 - I just wanted to be alone for a few minutes. 500 00:30:11,076 --> 00:30:12,442 - I thought you wanted me to get the sandwiches. 501 00:30:12,444 --> 00:30:13,977 - Are you deaf or stupid? 502 00:30:13,979 --> 00:30:15,879 I just wanna be alone! 503 00:30:17,982 --> 00:30:20,818 - I'll, uh, I'll leave you alone. 504 00:30:24,122 --> 00:30:28,458 Dear grace, I'm coming home. 505 00:30:28,460 --> 00:30:31,461 I haven't spoken or seen anyone there in years, 506 00:30:31,463 --> 00:30:33,063 not even my cousin Dave. 507 00:30:33,065 --> 00:30:35,098 It's just been too painful, 508 00:30:35,100 --> 00:30:37,234 because everything and everyone there 509 00:30:37,236 --> 00:30:39,436 just reminds me of what I lost. 510 00:30:39,438 --> 00:30:40,337 You. 511 00:30:41,472 --> 00:30:44,308 I'm traveling there with this guy named Brennan 512 00:30:44,310 --> 00:30:47,044 who's a preacher, you know, but not one like my father. 513 00:30:47,046 --> 00:30:50,314 He doesn't play games, doesn't wear masks. 514 00:30:50,316 --> 00:30:52,616 Yeah, he's rough around the edges, but you know what? 515 00:30:52,618 --> 00:30:56,053 What you see is what you get and I like that. 516 00:30:56,055 --> 00:31:00,624 No one is perfect, yet so many times I see so many people 517 00:31:00,626 --> 00:31:04,094 pretending to be something they're not, especially folks 518 00:31:04,096 --> 00:31:08,465 that call themselves christians, but not him. 519 00:31:08,467 --> 00:31:09,333 He's not like that. 520 00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:17,307 - Abba, I belong to you. 521 00:31:20,011 --> 00:31:21,912 I belong to you, abba. 522 00:31:24,549 --> 00:31:26,116 Forgive me, daddy. 523 00:31:27,652 --> 00:31:29,953 I belong to you, abba. 524 00:31:32,090 --> 00:31:33,490 Abba, ambush Jim 525 00:31:35,960 --> 00:31:38,929 so he can feel the fury of your love. 526 00:31:40,465 --> 00:31:42,366 Abba, I belong to you. 527 00:31:44,669 --> 00:31:46,970 I belong to you, abba. 528 00:31:58,951 --> 00:32:00,517 - Wake up, sleepyhead. 529 00:32:01,487 --> 00:32:02,653 Got you some coffee. 530 00:32:02,655 --> 00:32:04,655 - Morning, thank you. 531 00:32:05,990 --> 00:32:08,625 Mm, nothing like motel coffee, right? 532 00:32:08,627 --> 00:32:11,962 - I'm sorry about last night, I just, you know. 533 00:32:11,964 --> 00:32:15,632 - Ah, it's okay, no sorries, remember? 534 00:32:15,634 --> 00:32:18,101 - Hey, we gotta get an early start and get outta here. 535 00:32:18,103 --> 00:32:21,605 I got a million stops to make, so I'll meet you downstairs. 536 00:32:21,607 --> 00:32:23,540 - Where are we going? 537 00:32:23,542 --> 00:32:27,411 Let me just finish my brown water first. 538 00:32:27,413 --> 00:32:31,648 Not gonna do it, nope, no way. 539 00:32:32,951 --> 00:32:35,519 - Take the right turn at the next corner. 540 00:32:35,521 --> 00:32:37,254 - All, right, where are we goin'? 541 00:32:37,256 --> 00:32:38,689 - A friend's. 542 00:32:48,133 --> 00:32:49,599 Andrea! 543 00:32:49,601 --> 00:32:51,702 Wow are you grown up, oh my. 544 00:32:51,704 --> 00:32:54,304 - Oh, thank you for coming, he was asking for you. 545 00:32:54,306 --> 00:32:57,107 - Oh, sure, and this is my friend, Jim. 546 00:32:57,109 --> 00:32:58,642 - Hi, hi. - Hi, Andrea. 547 00:32:58,644 --> 00:32:59,977 - Hi, I'm Jim. 548 00:32:59,979 --> 00:33:02,245 - Come in, this way. 549 00:33:04,182 --> 00:33:06,083 Uh, Jim, can I get you something to drink? 550 00:33:06,085 --> 00:33:08,151 - Oh, no, that's nice of you, I'm okay. 551 00:33:08,153 --> 00:33:09,319 - Oh. 552 00:33:09,321 --> 00:33:12,022 - You have a very lovely place here. 553 00:33:12,024 --> 00:33:13,623 - Thank you. 554 00:33:13,625 --> 00:33:16,026 Uh, please, uh, have a seat. 555 00:33:17,628 --> 00:33:18,528 - Hi, Joe. 556 00:33:19,664 --> 00:33:21,231 - Padre, you came. 557 00:33:23,034 --> 00:33:27,404 - I thought you were expecting me, I saw the empty chair. 558 00:33:27,406 --> 00:33:29,639 - You were one of the best 559 00:33:31,009 --> 00:33:33,110 of our parish, father, 560 00:33:34,412 --> 00:33:34,411 so kind. 561 00:33:36,447 --> 00:33:39,082 Always so kind with my familia. 562 00:33:40,718 --> 00:33:44,287 I was always so sorry what happens to you. 563 00:33:46,424 --> 00:33:49,326 Would you mind closing the door? 564 00:33:49,328 --> 00:33:52,029 - The door's already closed, Joe. 565 00:33:52,031 --> 00:33:53,030 - So, how do you know him? 566 00:33:53,032 --> 00:33:54,464 How do you know father Manning? 567 00:33:54,466 --> 00:33:57,434 - Oh, father mann-- i forget, yeah, that's right, 568 00:33:57,436 --> 00:33:59,803 that's he's, he's a, was a priest, right? 569 00:33:59,805 --> 00:34:02,172 - Well, a long time ago, when I was small, 570 00:34:02,174 --> 00:34:04,775 you know, he was in my church in Brooklyn and-- 571 00:34:04,777 --> 00:34:06,143 - so he's not a priest anymore? 572 00:34:06,145 --> 00:34:07,377 - Oh, it's a long story. 573 00:34:07,379 --> 00:34:09,079 You have to ask him about it one day. 574 00:34:09,081 --> 00:34:12,349 - Oh, if I remem--yeah, oh, i will do that, I'll do that. 575 00:34:12,351 --> 00:34:14,251 - So, you guys are just 576 00:34:14,253 --> 00:34:15,485 together now? - Yeah, uh, 577 00:34:15,487 --> 00:34:18,622 I mean three days ago i never heard of the guy 578 00:34:18,624 --> 00:34:21,491 and then I read his book and now I'm here, so. 579 00:34:21,493 --> 00:34:23,560 - Three days ago, wow. 580 00:34:23,562 --> 00:34:25,796 Well, that sounds like something he would do. 581 00:34:25,798 --> 00:34:27,764 - How so? 582 00:34:27,766 --> 00:34:31,802 - Oh, you know, he's, he's unpredictable. 583 00:34:31,804 --> 00:34:34,805 You know, they say that people who follow the spirit, 584 00:34:34,807 --> 00:34:37,674 they're, they're like the wind. 585 00:34:39,077 --> 00:34:42,813 He's a vagabond, you never know where he's coming from 586 00:34:42,815 --> 00:34:44,548 or where he's going. 587 00:34:45,850 --> 00:34:45,849 - Mama, mama! 588 00:34:48,387 --> 00:34:50,821 - Mindy! 589 00:34:50,823 --> 00:34:52,856 This is mindy, this is Jim. 590 00:34:52,858 --> 00:34:54,291 - Hi, mindy. 591 00:34:54,293 --> 00:34:57,327 - Do you have any kids? 592 00:34:57,329 --> 00:34:59,496 - Uh, no, I don't. 593 00:34:59,498 --> 00:35:01,164 - You should, 594 00:35:01,166 --> 00:35:04,801 it's the best thing that ever happened to me. 595 00:35:06,871 --> 00:35:11,308 - I never say to anyone this, no even my daughter. 596 00:35:12,577 --> 00:35:15,212 I have never known how to pray, 597 00:35:16,147 --> 00:35:17,214 but one day, 598 00:35:19,450 --> 00:35:21,184 a friend said to me, 599 00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:26,223 "Joe, you put an empty chair in front of you 600 00:35:27,525 --> 00:35:31,128 "and in faith you see Jesus in the chair 601 00:35:33,231 --> 00:35:37,501 "and you talk to him and listen like you're doing 602 00:35:37,503 --> 00:35:39,236 "with me right now." 603 00:35:40,538 --> 00:35:41,438 I try 604 00:35:43,174 --> 00:35:45,876 and I like it so much I'm doin' it 605 00:35:47,512 --> 00:35:49,646 a couple hours every day. 606 00:35:50,815 --> 00:35:52,215 But I'm careful. 607 00:35:54,218 --> 00:35:56,453 If my daughter sees me talking 608 00:35:56,455 --> 00:36:01,158 with an empty chair, she will send me to the loony bin. 609 00:36:04,629 --> 00:36:06,796 - May I pray for you, Joe? 610 00:36:08,399 --> 00:36:09,900 You've reached Brennan. 611 00:36:09,902 --> 00:36:12,169 - And roslyn, leave a message after the beep. 612 00:36:12,171 --> 00:36:14,871 - And we'll get back to you as-- 613 00:36:14,873 --> 00:36:14,871 - any luck? 614 00:36:14,873 --> 00:36:19,176 - No, she must be at Sunday mass. 615 00:36:19,178 --> 00:36:20,944 - So, you used to be a priest, right? 616 00:36:20,946 --> 00:36:22,779 - Yes. 617 00:36:22,781 --> 00:36:23,813 - But you're not anymore? 618 00:36:23,815 --> 00:36:25,415 - No. 619 00:36:25,417 --> 00:36:27,450 - What happened? 620 00:36:27,452 --> 00:36:28,852 - I met a girl. 621 00:36:39,530 --> 00:36:41,264 - What are you doin' here? 622 00:36:41,266 --> 00:36:43,967 - Well, we were driving by and I remembered you were here 623 00:36:43,969 --> 00:36:46,436 and I thought I'd stop by, say hello, 624 00:36:46,438 --> 00:36:48,505 and introduce you to my friend, Jim. 625 00:36:48,507 --> 00:36:49,940 - Hi, Jim English. 626 00:36:49,942 --> 00:36:52,676 - Yeah, hi, Jim, Ryan brinson, how you doin'? 627 00:36:52,678 --> 00:36:53,977 - Your name's Ryan brinson? 628 00:36:53,979 --> 00:36:57,814 - Yeah. 629 00:36:57,816 --> 00:36:59,216 What? 630 00:37:03,222 --> 00:37:04,955 - Brennan, lemme ask you somethin'. 631 00:37:04,957 --> 00:37:06,323 Why do you think there are so many 632 00:37:06,325 --> 00:37:09,859 judgmental Christian assholes out there? 633 00:37:09,861 --> 00:37:11,995 - Well, judgmental people 634 00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:16,333 have never been broken themselves. 635 00:37:18,302 --> 00:37:19,436 My wife roslyn, 636 00:37:21,439 --> 00:37:23,974 she was married once before me. 637 00:37:23,976 --> 00:37:28,511 When she got a divorce, her best friend, a devout Christian, 638 00:37:28,513 --> 00:37:30,313 wouldn't talk to her. 639 00:37:32,383 --> 00:37:37,354 Several years later, when she, herself, got a divorce, 640 00:37:37,356 --> 00:37:40,890 she called roslyn and asked for forgiveness. 641 00:37:43,794 --> 00:37:46,529 Christianity isn't a moral code. 642 00:37:47,632 --> 00:37:49,299 It's a love affair. 643 00:37:50,334 --> 00:37:51,401 - Nailed it. 644 00:37:54,372 --> 00:37:55,839 - What's that? 645 00:37:55,841 --> 00:37:56,806 - Pound it. 646 00:37:58,676 --> 00:38:00,310 - Oh. 647 00:38:00,312 --> 00:38:03,280 What brought you so many miles from home to San Diego? 648 00:38:06,285 --> 00:38:10,320 - Guess I just didn't feel like it was home anymore. 649 00:38:10,322 --> 00:38:12,022 - You mind if I take a nap? 650 00:38:12,024 --> 00:38:15,392 - Oh, yeah, I forgot, old people need naps. 651 00:38:15,394 --> 00:38:16,893 - What? 652 00:38:17,728 --> 00:38:18,662 - I'm sorry, did I, are we not 653 00:38:18,664 --> 00:38:19,896 to the point in our friendship 654 00:38:19,898 --> 00:38:21,064 where we can joke with each other? 655 00:38:21,066 --> 00:38:24,067 I didn't mean to offend you, I'm so sorry. 656 00:38:24,069 --> 00:38:25,902 Get all the rest you can get. 657 00:38:25,904 --> 00:38:28,672 I love naps, personally, i take them all the time. 658 00:38:28,674 --> 00:38:31,941 In fact I had a, I had a big nap the other day, well I thi-- 659 00:38:31,943 --> 00:38:33,376 I slept so long it was like eight hours. 660 00:38:33,378 --> 00:38:35,312 Well, then, technically it was called sleep, 661 00:38:35,314 --> 00:38:37,347 - but I love naps. - - Jim, Jim! 662 00:38:37,349 --> 00:38:38,448 Shh! 663 00:38:39,417 --> 00:38:40,317 - Sorry. 664 00:38:55,066 --> 00:38:56,066 - Shh! 665 00:38:56,068 --> 00:38:58,101 - What, hey, what? 666 00:38:58,103 --> 00:38:59,002 - You were snoring. 667 00:38:59,004 --> 00:39:00,337 - I don't snore! 668 00:39:00,339 --> 00:39:02,539 - Oh, baby, you snore. 669 00:39:02,541 --> 00:39:03,373 Bad! - No, I don't sn-- 670 00:39:03,375 --> 00:39:05,108 I don't snore. 671 00:39:05,110 --> 00:39:07,377 And I'm gonna show you I don't snore. 672 00:39:07,379 --> 00:39:08,578 I don't snore, no, I don't. - No, no, no, no, no, no. 673 00:39:08,580 --> 00:39:10,013 - I don't-- - no, no, no, no, 674 00:39:10,015 --> 00:39:11,715 I hate to be tickled, 675 00:39:11,717 --> 00:39:12,816 - you know that! - - I know. 676 00:39:12,818 --> 00:39:14,584 - Stop it, stop it! 677 00:39:14,586 --> 00:39:15,685 - I don't snore! 678 00:39:15,687 --> 00:39:19,456 I don't snore, mwah! 679 00:39:20,624 --> 00:39:24,127 - Nobody makes me laugh more than you do. 680 00:39:26,665 --> 00:39:28,765 And nobody makes me more sad. 681 00:39:30,969 --> 00:39:34,037 - Jim, give me one of those, please. 682 00:39:35,539 --> 00:39:38,575 Stop at the next hotel or motel you see, okay? 683 00:39:38,577 --> 00:39:39,776 - I thought you wanted to keep driving. 684 00:39:39,778 --> 00:39:41,378 - I, I need to make a phone call. 685 00:39:41,380 --> 00:39:43,580 And, and we need some rest, anyway. 686 00:39:43,582 --> 00:39:45,081 You've reached Brennan. 687 00:39:45,083 --> 00:39:47,417 - And roslyn, leave a message after the beep. 688 00:39:47,419 --> 00:39:48,618 - And we'll get back to you 689 00:39:48,620 --> 00:39:50,053 as soon as we can. 690 00:39:50,889 --> 00:39:53,156 - Hello, roz, it's me. 691 00:39:53,158 --> 00:39:56,559 I'm calling from someplace in new Mexico. 692 00:39:56,561 --> 00:39:58,495 You can reach me at the hotel-- 693 00:39:58,497 --> 00:40:00,497 - no, uh, te-- give her my cell number. 694 00:40:02,467 --> 00:40:03,767 - Uh, I miss you. 695 00:40:04,635 --> 00:40:07,036 - Oh, baby, I miss you, too. 696 00:40:08,572 --> 00:40:10,073 - Are you allowed to smoke in here? 697 00:40:10,075 --> 00:40:11,541 - I have no idea. 698 00:40:13,677 --> 00:40:15,678 - I love you. 699 00:40:19,985 --> 00:40:22,519 - Do you wanna play some cards? 700 00:40:22,521 --> 00:40:23,753 - No. 701 00:40:23,755 --> 00:40:27,457 - I'm a big cards guy; My grandma, um, 702 00:40:27,459 --> 00:40:29,759 she taught all us kids, all of us cousins, 703 00:40:29,761 --> 00:40:30,693 to play cards when we were younger. 704 00:40:30,695 --> 00:40:31,895 She was this big card shark. 705 00:40:31,897 --> 00:40:33,530 Her, like, brothers taught her how to play. 706 00:40:33,532 --> 00:40:35,465 Anyway, so when we were younger, we'd go to her house 707 00:40:35,467 --> 00:40:38,668 and one of my favorite memories is we'd surround ourselves 708 00:40:38,670 --> 00:40:40,069 around the kitchen table and she'd be there, 709 00:40:40,071 --> 00:40:41,504 she'd be super-sweet, right? 710 00:40:41,506 --> 00:40:41,504 And she'd be like, she'd be like, 711 00:40:41,506 --> 00:40:44,207 "hey, you guys wanna play some cards?" 712 00:40:44,209 --> 00:40:46,976 Right, and we're like, you know, tryin' to be nice, right? 713 00:40:46,978 --> 00:40:49,112 Be like, "sure, grandma, we'd love to play cards." 714 00:40:49,114 --> 00:40:50,880 And then all of a sudden she'd turn and go, 715 00:40:50,882 --> 00:40:55,518 "good, all right, how much money you got on you, kid?" 716 00:40:55,520 --> 00:40:56,886 That's my grandma. 717 00:41:00,524 --> 00:41:00,523 So, cards? 718 00:41:00,525 --> 00:41:04,661 - How many ways do i have to tell it to you? 719 00:41:04,663 --> 00:41:06,996 I do not wish to play cards. 720 00:41:09,900 --> 00:41:12,735 - I'll just watch some TV or something. 721 00:41:12,737 --> 00:41:14,504 Oh, readings good. 722 00:41:17,575 --> 00:41:21,177 Those gideons sure do make a good Bible, huh? 723 00:41:21,179 --> 00:41:21,177 - Has anyone ever told you 724 00:41:21,179 --> 00:41:26,182 that you don't pick up on social cues too well? 725 00:41:28,018 --> 00:41:29,919 - Sorry, I was just tryin' to make chitchat. 726 00:41:29,921 --> 00:41:31,754 - I don't wanna chitchat. 727 00:41:31,756 --> 00:41:33,857 I don't wanna play cards. 728 00:41:33,859 --> 00:41:37,894 I don't wanna hear you ramble on about random thoughts 729 00:41:37,896 --> 00:41:40,163 that enter your feeble brain 730 00:41:40,165 --> 00:41:42,665 because you don't have the ability to refrain, 731 00:41:42,667 --> 00:41:45,034 or the competency to understand, 732 00:41:45,036 --> 00:41:49,272 that nobody gives a damn about what you have to say! 733 00:41:53,110 --> 00:41:55,545 - Look, I'll leave but you don't have 734 00:41:55,547 --> 00:41:56,746 to make me feel stupid about it. 735 00:41:56,748 --> 00:41:58,081 You're the one that invited me in. 736 00:41:58,083 --> 00:42:00,517 - Well, now I'm uninviting you. 737 00:42:00,519 --> 00:42:01,818 - For good? 738 00:42:01,820 --> 00:42:05,522 - Yeah, for good, I'll find another way home. 739 00:42:05,524 --> 00:42:06,656 - You better do that. 740 00:42:18,802 --> 00:42:20,303 You've reached Brennan. 741 00:42:20,305 --> 00:42:22,605 - And roslyn, leave a message after the beep. 742 00:43:21,666 --> 00:43:22,932 Brennan, they took it, 743 00:43:22,934 --> 00:43:24,000 they took my journal. 744 00:43:24,002 --> 00:43:25,602 They took my journal. 745 00:43:28,373 --> 00:43:30,840 They took it, they took my journal, Brennan, 746 00:43:30,842 --> 00:43:34,744 they took my journal, it had my letters in it. 747 00:43:36,814 --> 00:43:38,881 It had my letters in it. 748 00:43:40,250 --> 00:43:44,053 It had my letters, it had my letters to Gracie in it. 749 00:43:44,055 --> 00:43:45,321 It had my letters in it. 750 00:43:46,291 --> 00:43:48,024 I had these letters. 751 00:43:49,660 --> 00:43:51,728 I had all these letters. 752 00:43:52,630 --> 00:43:54,163 They stole my letters. 753 00:43:54,165 --> 00:43:57,634 They stole my letters to this girl. 754 00:43:57,636 --> 00:43:59,936 They stole the letters to my girl. 755 00:43:59,938 --> 00:44:01,838 They stole my letters. 756 00:44:03,273 --> 00:44:04,941 It had everything in there. 757 00:44:04,943 --> 00:44:07,176 It had everything in there. 758 00:44:08,145 --> 00:44:09,846 But now she won't know. 759 00:44:12,283 --> 00:44:15,351 Now she won't know that I loved her. 760 00:44:16,420 --> 00:44:18,955 And I love her so much, i love her so much. 761 00:44:18,957 --> 00:44:23,359 I love her so much, i think about her every day. 762 00:44:23,361 --> 00:44:25,395 I think abou-- I can't stop thinkin' about her. 763 00:44:25,397 --> 00:44:26,829 She's my girl. 764 00:44:28,999 --> 00:44:32,101 I just think about her every day. 765 00:44:32,103 --> 00:44:33,436 I think about her every day, 766 00:44:33,438 --> 00:44:35,004 I just want her to know that i-- 767 00:44:35,006 --> 00:44:37,707 I just want her to know that I love her. 768 00:44:37,709 --> 00:44:39,976 I want her to know that I love her so bad. 769 00:44:39,978 --> 00:44:41,811 That's why I write to her every day. 770 00:44:41,813 --> 00:44:43,446 I write to her every day. 771 00:44:43,448 --> 00:44:46,282 And the days that I don't write to her I feel like cr- 772 00:44:46,284 --> 00:44:47,850 I feel like I wanna die. 773 00:44:47,852 --> 00:44:50,219 I don't care what anybody thinks about me! 774 00:44:50,221 --> 00:44:52,789 I don't care what anybody thinks about me. 775 00:44:52,791 --> 00:44:56,359 I just want my girl, I just want her to know I love her. 776 00:44:56,361 --> 00:45:00,063 I just want her to know I love her. 777 00:45:00,065 --> 00:45:02,832 And I can't, I can't go see her, I can't. 778 00:45:02,834 --> 00:45:05,068 I wanna go see her so bad. 779 00:45:05,070 --> 00:45:07,103 It's like people think that i don't wanna go see her 780 00:45:07,105 --> 00:45:10,740 and it's like she's everything to me. 781 00:45:10,742 --> 00:45:12,742 But I just can't do it. 782 00:45:12,744 --> 00:45:15,912 I want her, I want her back. 783 00:45:15,914 --> 00:45:18,715 And I know I'm crazy, i know I'm crazy. 784 00:45:18,717 --> 00:45:21,818 I know it, I know it and i hate how I feel inside. 785 00:45:21,820 --> 00:45:25,021 I hate how I, i don't like myself! 786 00:45:25,023 --> 00:45:27,990 I hate myself for what I did. 787 00:45:27,992 --> 00:45:31,928 I hate that I destroyed my, my life and everybody's life 788 00:45:31,930 --> 00:45:35,832 that comes into contact with me, I don't like myself! 789 00:45:35,834 --> 00:45:40,403 I hate, I wanna kill myself, I wanna kill myself. 790 00:45:40,405 --> 00:45:42,972 I don't wanna be here anymore. 791 00:45:45,509 --> 00:45:48,144 I don't wanna be here anymore without her, Brennan. 792 00:45:48,146 --> 00:45:51,814 I don't wanna be here anymore without her. 793 00:45:51,816 --> 00:45:55,752 I'd do anything to get her back and I can't. 794 00:46:01,425 --> 00:46:03,993 - What was her name? 795 00:46:04,762 --> 00:46:05,828 - Grace. 796 00:46:08,232 --> 00:46:09,799 She's my daughter. 797 00:46:22,312 --> 00:46:24,313 - Blackjack, you in? 798 00:46:55,512 --> 00:46:59,382 - I mean I think in the beginning it was, 799 00:46:59,384 --> 00:47:01,551 we wanted to do what was best for her 800 00:47:01,553 --> 00:47:04,153 versus what was best for us. 801 00:47:05,856 --> 00:47:08,057 But no one could've prepared me for the living hell 802 00:47:08,059 --> 00:47:10,126 that it would be to wake up 803 00:47:10,128 --> 00:47:12,995 and not have her in my life, you know? 804 00:47:12,997 --> 00:47:15,464 And I wanna be her dad, i, I wish I was her dad, 805 00:47:15,466 --> 00:47:18,568 and, and, and the reality is that I'll never be that. 806 00:47:18,570 --> 00:47:21,103 I'll never be her dad and, and there's no goin' back, 807 00:47:21,105 --> 00:47:22,839 you know what I mean? 808 00:47:22,841 --> 00:47:24,373 - At least you are still in each other's lives, 809 00:47:24,375 --> 00:47:26,108 so that's wonderful. 810 00:47:30,314 --> 00:47:32,048 - You want another cup of coffee? 811 00:47:32,050 --> 00:47:32,982 - Yeah. 812 00:47:32,984 --> 00:47:33,983 - All right, I'll be right back. 813 00:47:39,890 --> 00:47:41,224 Roslyn? 814 00:47:41,226 --> 00:47:42,458 - This is Andrea. 815 00:47:42,460 --> 00:47:44,894 I got this number from father Brennan. 816 00:47:44,896 --> 00:47:46,128 - Oh, oh, this is Brennan. 817 00:47:46,130 --> 00:47:49,298 - It's my father, he's gone. 818 00:47:52,936 --> 00:47:54,036 - Oh, did, 819 00:47:55,272 --> 00:47:57,139 did he seem to die in peace? 820 00:47:57,141 --> 00:47:58,040 - Yes, 821 00:47:59,476 --> 00:48:02,645 yes he did, but there was something strange. 822 00:48:02,647 --> 00:48:04,380 - What? 823 00:48:04,382 --> 00:48:08,484 - Just before he died, he was so strange. 824 00:48:08,486 --> 00:48:11,554 I saw him there with his head 825 00:48:11,556 --> 00:48:13,990 just resting on the chair. 826 00:48:15,559 --> 00:48:19,996 Thank you for talking to me, i just thought you should know. 827 00:48:35,178 --> 00:48:36,312 - Joe's dead. 828 00:48:38,949 --> 00:48:40,416 - Oh, I'm so sorry. 829 00:48:43,287 --> 00:48:44,954 What are you doin'? 830 00:48:52,397 --> 00:48:53,963 What are you doin'? 831 00:48:53,965 --> 00:48:56,098 - Come on in, don't be a fuddy-duddy! 832 00:48:56,100 --> 00:48:57,266 - I'm not gettin' in there, 833 00:48:57,268 --> 00:48:58,200 we don't on-- - come on! 834 00:48:58,202 --> 00:48:59,435 - We don't have on swimsuits! 835 00:48:59,437 --> 00:49:01,203 - Come on, live a little! 836 00:49:01,205 --> 00:49:03,973 No, scratch that, live a lot! 837 00:49:03,975 --> 00:49:05,174 Life is short and getting shorter 838 00:49:05,176 --> 00:49:06,676 and I'm gonna live every second of it! 839 00:49:06,678 --> 00:49:06,676 - You're actin' like a little kid! 840 00:49:06,678 --> 00:49:10,579 - That's the best compliment anybody's ever paid me! 841 00:49:12,016 --> 00:49:13,115 - Brennan, you need to grow up, all right? 842 00:49:13,117 --> 00:49:14,583 I'm not gettin' in there! 843 00:49:14,585 --> 00:49:16,585 - Come on, Jim-- - no! You're a child! 844 00:49:16,587 --> 00:49:18,955 - Come on! - You're a child, grow up! 845 00:49:18,957 --> 00:49:21,157 - I said grow up, ah! - - Hey, yeah! 846 00:49:24,262 --> 00:49:26,395 Atta-boy! 847 00:49:26,397 --> 00:49:27,630 - Oh, it went up my nose! 848 00:49:29,734 --> 00:49:29,732 - Yeah, yeah, yeah, come on. 849 00:50:02,632 --> 00:50:05,234 In late 19th century New Orleans, 850 00:50:05,236 --> 00:50:09,105 they didn't use the term born again or saved. 851 00:50:09,107 --> 00:50:13,342 They said you were seized by the power of great affection. 852 00:50:17,014 --> 00:50:18,481 - Well, I was, uh, seven years old 853 00:50:18,483 --> 00:50:20,583 when I went to this church camp 854 00:50:20,585 --> 00:50:21,784 and that's where i decided to follow Jesus. 855 00:50:21,786 --> 00:50:23,219 I remember it specifically 856 00:50:23,221 --> 00:50:25,354 because that was also the same year 857 00:50:25,356 --> 00:50:28,057 that I, um, wet my bunk bed. 858 00:50:29,560 --> 00:50:30,793 And all the guys in the cabin told the whole camp, right? 859 00:50:30,795 --> 00:50:33,562 So, they were torturing me all week. 860 00:50:33,564 --> 00:50:35,331 Yes, it was the best of times 861 00:50:35,333 --> 00:50:37,633 and the worst of times, as they say. 862 00:50:37,635 --> 00:50:39,068 That's dickens. 863 00:50:39,070 --> 00:50:41,070 - I know, tale of two cities. 864 00:50:41,072 --> 00:50:42,271 - Well, I'm glad you know, I don't know how to read. 865 00:50:42,273 --> 00:50:43,739 - Well, I can believe that. 866 00:50:45,610 --> 00:50:48,044 - So, you were a monk? 867 00:50:48,046 --> 00:50:50,079 - I guess you can say that, uh, 868 00:50:50,081 --> 00:50:52,214 they were known as the little brothers of Jesus. 869 00:50:52,216 --> 00:50:54,050 - Mm-hmm. - We lived in a 870 00:50:54,052 --> 00:50:55,317 small town in France. 871 00:50:55,319 --> 00:50:56,786 - Oh, wow, France? - Dedicated our lives 872 00:50:56,788 --> 00:50:59,355 to live amongst the poor. 873 00:50:59,357 --> 00:51:02,825 - That's cool, so, I gotta ask, why the potato sacks? 874 00:51:02,827 --> 00:51:04,293 - Potato sacks? 875 00:51:04,295 --> 00:51:05,561 - Yeah, that's what monks wear, right? 876 00:51:05,563 --> 00:51:05,561 I mean I've never met a monk before. 877 00:51:05,563 --> 00:51:09,098 That's what you guys wear, right, potato sacks? 878 00:51:09,100 --> 00:51:12,201 - Jim, I have to ask you this. 879 00:51:12,203 --> 00:51:14,703 Have you ever had an IQ test? 880 00:51:48,205 --> 00:51:50,139 - I wanna tell you something I have, 881 00:51:50,141 --> 00:51:52,475 I haven't told anybody yet. 882 00:51:52,477 --> 00:51:54,743 I've never gone to see my daughter. 883 00:51:54,745 --> 00:51:55,644 - Why not? 884 00:51:57,247 --> 00:52:00,316 - Honestly, I don't even know how to answer that question. 885 00:52:00,318 --> 00:52:03,619 - So you're punishing yourself? 886 00:52:03,621 --> 00:52:07,456 - Yeah, you're damn right I am, I deserve it. 887 00:52:07,458 --> 00:52:10,259 - So, where does this come from? 888 00:52:10,261 --> 00:52:12,795 Is that what you meant by being stuck? 889 00:52:12,797 --> 00:52:14,497 - I wanna be with her so bad. 890 00:52:14,499 --> 00:52:17,299 She's my little girl, but I just, 891 00:52:18,568 --> 00:52:19,468 I just, 892 00:52:21,538 --> 00:52:24,206 I just can, I just can't. 893 00:52:24,208 --> 00:52:25,875 - Look, stop the car. 894 00:52:25,877 --> 00:52:26,809 - What? 895 00:52:26,811 --> 00:52:28,344 - Stop the car and get out! 896 00:52:32,849 --> 00:52:34,450 Out, out, get out. 897 00:52:34,452 --> 00:52:35,684 Get over here! 898 00:52:37,420 --> 00:52:41,524 If you could only comprehend a mere fraction 899 00:52:41,526 --> 00:52:43,926 of the love of god for you. 900 00:52:43,928 --> 00:52:47,763 Not in some vague way that he loves the whole human race, 901 00:52:47,765 --> 00:52:49,899 but he loves you in such a way 902 00:52:49,901 --> 00:52:52,868 that he'd rather die than be without you! 903 00:52:52,870 --> 00:52:56,505 When you scorn yourself, then you scorn all those plans 904 00:52:56,507 --> 00:53:00,476 of his, and all the hope he placed in you. 905 00:53:00,478 --> 00:53:02,211 Do you get it, kid? 906 00:53:02,213 --> 00:53:04,880 And when you're brave enough to let our god's reckless 907 00:53:04,882 --> 00:53:09,752 and furious love run rampant and wreak havoc in your life, 908 00:53:09,754 --> 00:53:13,222 you won't delay in going to see your kid. 909 00:53:14,624 --> 00:53:17,860 Because your identity will be clothed in your father's love, 910 00:53:17,862 --> 00:53:19,895 not in your past. 911 00:53:19,897 --> 00:53:19,895 Got it, kid? 912 00:53:19,897 --> 00:53:23,299 Look, I gotta get home, get in the car. 913 00:54:31,836 --> 00:54:33,269 - You nervous? 914 00:54:33,271 --> 00:54:33,269 - Hell yeah. 915 00:54:35,672 --> 00:54:38,674 - All right then, what's your plan? 916 00:54:42,345 --> 00:54:44,446 - To get my wife back. 917 00:54:45,415 --> 00:54:47,316 You know, you're welcome to stay. 918 00:54:47,318 --> 00:54:49,051 - Oh, no, no, no, I got a place. 919 00:54:49,053 --> 00:54:49,051 Here, take your bag. 920 00:54:49,053 --> 00:54:53,756 - Well, if you change your mind my door is always open. 921 00:54:53,758 --> 00:54:55,491 - I appreciate that. 922 00:54:56,860 --> 00:55:00,062 - You know, as my good friend rich mullins always said, 923 00:55:00,064 --> 00:55:03,799 "be good, but you probably won't be. 924 00:55:03,801 --> 00:55:05,034 "So be god's." 925 00:55:06,569 --> 00:55:06,568 Ai-yi. 926 00:55:09,339 --> 00:55:11,874 - Jeez, old people take forever. 927 00:55:39,503 --> 00:55:41,337 - What do you want? 928 00:55:41,339 --> 00:55:42,838 I don't know why I'm askin', i know what you want. 929 00:55:42,840 --> 00:55:44,540 - Yeah, leave the bottle. 930 00:55:44,542 --> 00:55:46,608 - Pretty sure they only do that in movies. 931 00:55:46,610 --> 00:55:47,876 Westerns, I think. 932 00:55:52,850 --> 00:55:54,917 Five nine bar and grill. 933 00:55:56,686 --> 00:55:58,087 Yeah, he's here. 934 00:55:59,723 --> 00:56:00,956 Brennan? 935 00:56:00,958 --> 00:56:02,091 It's for you. 936 00:56:03,426 --> 00:56:04,993 - This is Brennan. 937 00:56:07,764 --> 00:56:11,734 - You broke my heart for the last time. 938 00:56:11,736 --> 00:56:12,835 - Roslyn? 939 00:56:12,837 --> 00:56:14,670 - I just called to say goodbye. 940 00:56:14,672 --> 00:56:17,506 - No, no, no, wait, I'm on my way home. 941 00:56:17,508 --> 00:56:21,143 - Why wouldn't you come here first? 942 00:56:21,145 --> 00:56:23,445 - Well, thi-- this place was on my ride's way home. 943 00:56:23,447 --> 00:56:24,747 We just stopped off for a second. 944 00:56:24,749 --> 00:56:25,814 I'm on my way home, 945 00:56:25,816 --> 00:56:27,816 don't go. - Are you lying to me? 946 00:56:27,818 --> 00:56:31,387 - No, roz, just wait, i love you, I'm on my way. 947 00:56:31,389 --> 00:56:33,422 - I've waited long enough. 948 00:56:38,396 --> 00:56:40,662 - I'm sorry there's no room for you at the house, 949 00:56:40,664 --> 00:56:42,131 but I'll give the church a call tomorrow and see 950 00:56:42,133 --> 00:56:45,067 if we can fit you in somewhere, okay? 951 00:56:45,069 --> 00:56:46,602 - Well, don't go out of your way. 952 00:56:46,604 --> 00:56:48,537 - Lose the attitude. 953 00:56:53,610 --> 00:56:55,544 You gonna apologize? 954 00:56:56,813 --> 00:56:57,880 - I'm sorry. 955 00:56:59,149 --> 00:57:01,984 - I'm just really proud of you, 956 00:57:01,986 --> 00:57:03,752 for humblin' yourself, comin' back 957 00:57:03,754 --> 00:57:06,188 and apologizin' to everybody. 958 00:57:07,590 --> 00:57:09,758 - Yeah, I wanted to talk to you about that. 959 00:57:09,760 --> 00:57:13,128 I don't think I'm gonna do that anymore. 960 00:57:13,130 --> 00:57:15,798 - You still don't know what's good for you, do you? 961 00:57:15,800 --> 00:57:18,066 - Good for me or good for you? 962 00:57:18,068 --> 00:57:22,070 - Oh, givin' away grace, that was good for you? 963 00:57:28,678 --> 00:57:32,748 - It's been a long time since we talked, so, um, 964 00:57:34,117 --> 00:57:37,486 I think I'll, I think I'll show you a little grace. 965 00:57:37,488 --> 00:57:40,489 But let me remind you what I told you last time, 966 00:57:40,491 --> 00:57:43,525 back when I still lived here. 967 00:57:43,527 --> 00:57:44,993 I don't ever want you to talk about my daughter 968 00:57:44,995 --> 00:57:46,528 in front of me. 969 00:57:47,464 --> 00:57:50,199 If you weren't my dad, I swear, 970 00:57:50,201 --> 00:57:52,568 I swear I'd beat the living hell out of you. 971 00:57:52,570 --> 00:57:53,836 And I don't mean that as a joke. 972 00:57:53,838 --> 00:57:56,972 I mean I would, i would destroy you. 973 00:57:59,176 --> 00:58:00,943 - Do you, you think you're mad, what about me? 974 00:58:02,980 --> 00:58:05,914 People in our family don't give away their kids. 975 00:58:05,916 --> 00:58:07,483 So, why did you? 976 00:58:07,485 --> 00:58:08,917 - You wanna know why I did it? 977 00:58:08,919 --> 00:58:10,152 - Yes, I wanna know! 978 00:58:10,154 --> 00:58:10,152 - All right, I'll tell you. 979 00:58:10,154 --> 00:58:15,157 I'll tell you something, dad, that I never told anybody. 980 00:58:15,159 --> 00:58:17,826 You wanna hear the real truth about why I gave away grace? 981 00:58:17,828 --> 00:58:20,796 It's this: Because one day i was afraid I was gonna grow up 982 00:58:20,798 --> 00:58:23,198 and I was gonna be like you, 983 00:58:24,501 --> 00:58:26,602 and that I'd have her, 984 00:58:27,570 --> 00:58:29,605 I'd have my kid, I'd have my little Gracie, 985 00:58:29,607 --> 00:58:31,507 and one day I'd be you 986 00:58:32,675 --> 00:58:35,611 and I didn't want her to grow up and have a dad like you, 987 00:58:35,613 --> 00:58:37,679 a dad like that I had, because she deserv-- 988 00:58:41,151 --> 00:58:43,785 - you will not disrespect me in my house! 989 00:58:43,787 --> 00:58:45,888 Yeah, I remember the day you gave away my granddaughter. 990 00:58:45,890 --> 00:58:47,789 You told me you didn't want her to grow up 991 00:58:47,791 --> 00:58:49,591 in a broken home like you did! 992 00:58:49,593 --> 00:58:51,927 Well, as noble as that may sound, 993 00:58:51,929 --> 00:58:54,930 there's just one problem for that. 994 00:58:54,932 --> 00:58:56,899 You'll never be with anybody. 995 00:58:56,901 --> 00:58:58,800 You wanna know why? 996 00:58:58,802 --> 00:59:01,537 Because you want a woman of quality 997 00:59:01,539 --> 00:59:02,938 and the problem with that is 998 00:59:02,940 --> 00:59:05,140 a woman of quality will never want you. 999 00:59:05,142 --> 00:59:06,308 And why would they? 1000 00:59:06,310 --> 00:59:10,078 You won't even go after your own daughter. 1001 00:59:10,080 --> 00:59:13,148 You just leave her there, abandoned. 1002 00:59:14,284 --> 00:59:17,653 You don't want her, you're just a loser. 1003 00:59:18,555 --> 00:59:21,723 That's all you are, a fucking coward. 1004 00:59:25,563 --> 00:59:27,696 Get outta my house. 1005 00:59:30,601 --> 00:59:32,834 - Hello, ragamuffin. 1006 00:59:35,772 --> 00:59:37,639 - How'd you find me? 1007 00:59:37,641 --> 00:59:40,342 - I just looked for the, uh, closest bar to your house. 1008 00:59:40,344 --> 00:59:43,111 - I need another shot. 1009 00:59:43,113 --> 00:59:43,111 - Hey, take it easy. 1010 00:59:43,113 --> 00:59:47,316 - Kid, they used to call me the funnel before I was 20. 1011 00:59:47,318 --> 00:59:49,284 You don't have to worry about me. 1012 00:59:49,286 --> 00:59:51,053 I'll have another drink. 1013 00:59:51,055 --> 00:59:52,888 Hey, give me one. 1014 00:59:52,890 --> 00:59:55,057 - How are you and roslyn? 1015 00:59:57,627 --> 00:59:58,293 - Roslyn. 1016 01:00:01,698 --> 01:00:02,764 I met her in 1017 01:00:04,667 --> 01:00:06,668 Morgan city, Louisiana. 1018 01:00:12,175 --> 01:00:15,177 I was on a speaking engagement and, 1019 01:00:17,747 --> 01:00:20,749 this bombshell brunette walks in. 1020 01:00:24,287 --> 01:00:27,322 She comes up to me and she says, "i don't know why I'm here. 1021 01:00:27,324 --> 01:00:29,224 "There's nothing wrong with me." 1022 01:00:29,226 --> 01:00:30,659 But there was. 1023 01:00:31,327 --> 01:00:33,729 With her, just like with me. 1024 01:00:36,366 --> 01:00:37,899 - That's how you met? 1025 01:00:37,901 --> 01:00:39,067 - Yeah. 1026 01:00:42,039 --> 01:00:42,938 We liked 1027 01:00:45,642 --> 01:00:46,341 walks, 1028 01:00:49,045 --> 01:00:51,747 ice cream, her two daughters. 1029 01:00:54,117 --> 01:00:55,951 I love my roz. 1030 01:00:55,953 --> 01:00:59,655 (Muffled blues music 1031 01:00:59,657 --> 01:01:00,922 give me another drink! 1032 01:01:00,924 --> 01:01:02,691 - No, no, no, you had enough. 1033 01:01:02,693 --> 01:01:03,725 You're done, Brennan. 1034 01:01:03,727 --> 01:01:04,693 - Hey, no more for him. 1035 01:01:04,695 --> 01:01:05,427 - No, no, he's, he's cut off. 1036 01:01:05,429 --> 01:01:07,729 - I want another drink! 1037 01:01:07,731 --> 01:01:10,065 - All right, Brennan, you know, you're done, all right? 1038 01:01:10,067 --> 01:01:12,067 - I want another drink! 1039 01:01:13,002 --> 01:01:14,269 Give me another drink! 1040 01:01:14,271 --> 01:01:15,671 - You need to keep your voice down. 1041 01:01:15,673 --> 01:01:18,240 - I want another drink! 1042 01:01:18,242 --> 01:01:18,240 - I want another drink! - - Calm down. 1043 01:01:18,242 --> 01:01:20,842 - No, you didn't finish that. - - Calm down. 1044 01:01:20,844 --> 01:01:21,777 - Give me another drink! 1045 01:01:21,779 --> 01:01:23,045 - Hey, Brennan, calm down. 1046 01:01:23,047 --> 01:01:24,713 - I told you, that was-- - I want another drink-- 1047 01:01:24,715 --> 01:01:25,681 - the last one that you got. - Give me another drink! 1048 01:01:25,683 --> 01:01:25,681 - Hey! - I want another drink! 1049 01:01:25,683 --> 01:01:28,116 - Get outta here-- - come on, let's go. 1050 01:01:28,118 --> 01:01:29,418 - Or I'm gonna have to call the cops, git! 1051 01:01:29,420 --> 01:01:30,786 - I just wanted a, a-- - you don't have 1052 01:01:30,788 --> 01:01:32,020 to call the cops. - I just wanted a, no-- 1053 01:01:32,022 --> 01:01:33,422 - come on, we're getting out of here. 1054 01:01:33,424 --> 01:01:34,089 - I wanted anoth-- come on, Brennan, come on. 1055 01:01:35,459 --> 01:01:37,726 It's okay, Brennan. 1056 01:01:37,728 --> 01:01:39,761 - Yeah, i could walk on my own. 1057 01:01:39,763 --> 01:01:41,763 - I got you. - No, don't drop me. 1058 01:01:41,765 --> 01:01:41,763 - I'm not gonna drop you. 1059 01:01:41,765 --> 01:01:43,432 - No, don't drop me. - I'm not gon-- 1060 01:01:46,770 --> 01:01:49,805 well, you're drunk anyway, you won't remember. 1061 01:02:34,785 --> 01:02:37,152 You had one hell of a life, haven't ya? 1062 01:02:45,129 --> 01:02:47,095 God, I know that 1063 01:02:47,097 --> 01:02:51,500 you and I haven't exactly been on speaking terms. 1064 01:02:51,502 --> 01:02:54,503 I'm sorry about that, I just, uh, 1065 01:02:55,838 --> 01:02:59,374 I think if I'm honest with you I just, uh, 1066 01:02:59,376 --> 01:03:02,277 I've been really angry at you, um, 1067 01:03:04,781 --> 01:03:07,783 I think I've just been mad that, um, 1068 01:03:09,085 --> 01:03:12,087 mad that I'm convinced you're real. 1069 01:03:13,322 --> 01:03:14,222 Um, 1070 01:03:15,491 --> 01:03:16,558 because, uh, 1071 01:03:21,532 --> 01:03:24,366 'cause I just don't like how, uh, 1072 01:03:26,102 --> 01:03:29,070 you know, I've been treated by, um, 1073 01:03:30,473 --> 01:03:34,109 some of these folks that call themselves christians and, uh, 1074 01:03:36,112 --> 01:03:39,881 it's just not a club i wanna be a part of. 1075 01:03:40,983 --> 01:03:44,986 At least that's how i feel most days and, uh, 1076 01:03:46,088 --> 01:03:48,924 and I guess I just have taken it out on you, I guess. 1077 01:03:48,926 --> 01:03:52,160 I don't know, I'm just, I'm just worried 1078 01:03:52,162 --> 01:03:54,963 about my friend Brennan, and, uh, 1079 01:03:56,265 --> 01:03:59,501 I'm really worried about him, and, um, 1080 01:04:01,604 --> 01:04:03,438 if I'm being honest, 1081 01:04:05,442 --> 01:04:07,843 I'm worried about me, too. 1082 01:04:10,847 --> 01:04:12,614 I'm worried about me, too. 1083 01:04:19,622 --> 01:04:20,889 Better? 1084 01:04:20,891 --> 01:04:21,990 - Thanks. 1085 01:04:21,992 --> 01:04:26,995 - Hey, I, uh also got you this, too, just in case. 1086 01:04:29,365 --> 01:04:31,099 - Give me your hand. 1087 01:04:32,401 --> 01:04:36,605 You are filled with the compassion of our father, Jim. 1088 01:04:37,440 --> 01:04:39,040 I see it in you. 1089 01:04:49,386 --> 01:04:51,586 - I guess that's better than what you're filled with. 1090 01:04:51,588 --> 01:04:52,487 - Oh. 1091 01:04:53,489 --> 01:04:54,923 Roslyn's gone. 1092 01:04:55,625 --> 01:04:57,092 - All right, then, so what's your plan? 1093 01:04:57,094 --> 01:04:58,560 - Plan? 1094 01:04:58,562 --> 01:05:00,195 - Yeah, you're always talkin' about a plan 1095 01:05:00,197 --> 01:05:01,897 how you're gonna save your marriage. 1096 01:05:01,899 --> 01:05:03,598 - Yeah, then she left. 1097 01:05:04,500 --> 01:05:04,499 - So? 1098 01:05:04,501 --> 01:05:08,069 She's your wife, get her back, don't stop fighting for her. 1099 01:05:08,071 --> 01:05:09,337 - I've ruined everything. 1100 01:05:09,339 --> 01:05:10,906 - No, you haven't. 1101 01:05:12,275 --> 01:05:14,209 You're talkin' to a guy that's ruined everything. 1102 01:05:14,211 --> 01:05:16,978 I'll let you know when you do. 1103 01:05:17,980 --> 01:05:19,514 So, what's your plan? 1104 01:05:19,516 --> 01:05:21,583 Come on, Brennan, what's your plan? 1105 01:05:21,585 --> 01:05:23,218 - You wanna know what my plan is? 1106 01:05:23,220 --> 01:05:25,954 I'm gonna start drinking, and I'm gonna keep drinking, 1107 01:05:25,956 --> 01:05:28,156 and I'm gonna drink until i can't remember anything. 1108 01:05:28,158 --> 01:05:29,958 And I'm gonna drink until I forget 1109 01:05:29,960 --> 01:05:31,359 that I've lost one of the greatest gifts 1110 01:05:31,361 --> 01:05:33,695 that god has ever given me. 1111 01:05:35,164 --> 01:05:36,631 Plan. 1112 01:05:36,633 --> 01:05:37,699 - No, drinking doesn't make you forget the past. 1113 01:05:37,701 --> 01:05:39,367 You know what it does? 1114 01:05:39,369 --> 01:05:41,670 It makes you wanna take off your shirt, run around, 1115 01:05:41,672 --> 01:05:45,006 chant some African tribe mantra, 1116 01:05:45,008 --> 01:05:47,676 and try to make out with a monkey at the zoo. 1117 01:05:50,480 --> 01:05:52,280 I should know. 1118 01:05:52,282 --> 01:05:54,049 I went to college. 1119 01:05:54,951 --> 01:05:56,384 - You know, you're my only friend, Jim. 1120 01:05:56,386 --> 01:05:57,585 - Hey, sleep it off, Brennan. 1121 01:05:57,587 --> 01:06:00,188 You'll feel better in the morning, okay? 1122 01:06:00,190 --> 01:06:02,524 - I'm a drunk, Jim. 1123 01:06:02,526 --> 01:06:06,194 - Brennan, one night doesn't make you a drunk. 1124 01:06:06,196 --> 01:06:08,063 - If you only knew. 1125 01:06:10,099 --> 01:06:11,967 I'm a hypocrite. 1126 01:06:11,969 --> 01:06:14,235 - Hey, hey, no you're not. 1127 01:06:14,237 --> 01:06:16,071 - Yes, I am. 1128 01:06:16,073 --> 01:06:18,740 - Brennan, I want you to listen to me, okay? 1129 01:06:18,742 --> 01:06:21,743 You're not a drunk, you're not a hypocrite, 1130 01:06:21,745 --> 01:06:25,413 you're not a protestant, you're not a catholic. 1131 01:06:25,415 --> 01:06:28,583 You're not a franciscan priest, you're not an author. 1132 01:06:28,585 --> 01:06:29,517 You're not even Brennan Manning, 1133 01:06:29,519 --> 01:06:31,987 the vagabond evangelist, okay? 1134 01:06:33,222 --> 01:06:35,557 You wanna know who you are? 1135 01:06:36,492 --> 01:06:37,459 - Who am I? 1136 01:06:38,561 --> 01:06:41,396 - You're the one that Jesus loves. 1137 01:06:45,768 --> 01:06:47,535 - Good night, Jim. 1138 01:06:53,476 --> 01:06:54,609 - Good night. 1139 01:07:01,183 --> 01:07:04,753 I'll let you clean that up in the morning. 1140 01:07:10,127 --> 01:07:13,361 Hey, I got it, what do you say we get our mind off things, 1141 01:07:13,363 --> 01:07:15,530 go out, have some fun, maybe we could hit up 1142 01:07:15,532 --> 01:07:18,099 the French quarter, caf� du monde. 1143 01:07:18,101 --> 01:07:19,534 - You know, just because I'm divorced doesn't mean 1144 01:07:19,536 --> 01:07:19,534 I need a babysitter. 1145 01:07:19,536 --> 01:07:23,505 - Don't look at it like that, you'd be helping me out. 1146 01:07:23,507 --> 01:07:26,207 Seriously, I genuinely need some help. 1147 01:07:26,209 --> 01:07:28,543 I won't be a burden, if i could just crash on your couch 1148 01:07:28,545 --> 01:07:30,779 for a few days, I'd really appreciate it. 1149 01:07:30,781 --> 01:07:33,715 - What are you gonna do when you get back to San Diego? 1150 01:07:33,717 --> 01:07:36,051 I mean, what kind of work do you do? 1151 01:07:36,053 --> 01:07:38,520 - Yeah, I'm still tryin' to figure that out. 1152 01:07:38,522 --> 01:07:40,588 Um, ironically, i used to actually 1153 01:07:40,590 --> 01:07:42,490 wanna be a preacher like you. 1154 01:07:42,492 --> 01:07:44,692 Uh, but what I found is that it's pretty tough 1155 01:07:44,694 --> 01:07:48,396 to find a pastor job when you're a foul-mouthed, 1156 01:07:48,398 --> 01:07:52,100 chain-smoking guy who had a baby outta wedlock. 1157 01:07:52,102 --> 01:07:54,302 - Yeah, that's tough. 1158 01:07:54,304 --> 01:07:56,704 - So, do you really feel like you don't have any friends? 1159 01:07:56,706 --> 01:07:58,440 - I never said that. 1160 01:07:58,442 --> 01:08:00,809 - You said it, last night. 1161 01:08:00,811 --> 01:08:03,244 - Figures, no, I got plenty of friends. 1162 01:08:03,246 --> 01:08:05,513 I got, I have friends in all parts of the world. 1163 01:08:05,515 --> 01:08:08,083 Why, why, Paul, Paul is my best friend. 1164 01:08:08,085 --> 01:08:11,419 But then there's fil and Jim, butch, 1165 01:08:11,421 --> 01:08:14,823 Suzy, ed, James, got lots of frie-- 1166 01:08:14,825 --> 01:08:17,859 oh, ray, did I ever tell you about ray? 1167 01:08:17,861 --> 01:08:18,693 - Mm mm. 1168 01:08:18,695 --> 01:08:20,095 - Ray Brennan? 1169 01:08:20,097 --> 01:08:21,830 - Oh, you guys have the same name? 1170 01:08:21,832 --> 01:08:24,232 - Well, my name wasn't always Brennan. 1171 01:08:24,234 --> 01:08:25,667 - I totally wanna hear this story, 1172 01:08:25,669 --> 01:08:26,801 but would you mind if I went outside 1173 01:08:26,803 --> 01:08:26,801 and grabbed a quick smoke? 1174 01:08:26,803 --> 01:08:30,772 - You know, you should really consider quitting smoking. 1175 01:08:30,774 --> 01:08:34,109 - You know, you should really consider quitting being old. 1176 01:08:34,111 --> 01:08:36,744 - No, no, no, I'm serious, this thing is gonna kill you. 1177 01:08:36,746 --> 01:08:38,513 - No, I'm serious, being old will kill you. 1178 01:08:38,515 --> 01:08:39,581 - Oh, Jesus. 1179 01:09:08,445 --> 01:09:11,779 I remember one fateful day in the foxhole. 1180 01:09:11,781 --> 01:09:14,782 We were sharing a bar of chocolate, 1181 01:09:16,418 --> 01:09:20,288 a live grenade came flying into the trench. 1182 01:09:21,490 --> 01:09:25,560 Ray looked at me, smiled, then threw himself on it. 1183 01:09:26,829 --> 01:09:28,263 Saved my life. 1184 01:09:29,899 --> 01:09:30,932 - Wow. 1185 01:09:30,934 --> 01:09:32,200 - Yeah, wow. 1186 01:09:34,203 --> 01:09:36,738 I was born Richard Manning. 1187 01:09:36,740 --> 01:09:40,708 But when I decided to become a priest, 1188 01:09:40,710 --> 01:09:43,211 I took Ray's name. 1189 01:09:43,213 --> 01:09:45,680 - That's beautiful and intense. 1190 01:09:48,584 --> 01:09:50,852 So, do you guys always dress like this? 1191 01:10:10,740 --> 01:10:12,207 Well, the only thing i ever did for anybody, 1192 01:10:12,209 --> 01:10:13,675 was I made dinner for my buddy's girlfriend, 1193 01:10:13,677 --> 01:10:16,578 but I let my buddy pretend like he made it. 1194 01:10:16,580 --> 01:10:20,949 - Well, what about driving 27 hours taking me to Louisiana? 1195 01:10:20,951 --> 01:10:22,584 - Hey, I'll be right back. 1196 01:10:43,772 --> 01:10:44,772 April? 1197 01:10:49,613 --> 01:10:50,912 - Hey, mom? 1198 01:10:59,822 --> 01:11:01,389 - What's goin' on? 1199 01:11:03,826 --> 01:11:04,659 - Nothin'. 1200 01:11:15,638 --> 01:11:20,541 Dear grace, I wish I could change the past, but I can't and 1201 01:11:20,543 --> 01:11:22,043 even though we were making a choice 1202 01:11:22,045 --> 01:11:24,412 or trying to make a choice that was better for you, 1203 01:11:24,414 --> 01:11:28,016 versus better for us, it's still an impossible reality 1204 01:11:28,018 --> 01:11:32,287 to live with because it's a reality without you. 1205 01:11:35,658 --> 01:11:38,559 - You're writing to your daughter? 1206 01:11:41,397 --> 01:11:42,530 Don't you think she'd rather hear 1207 01:11:42,532 --> 01:11:45,833 what you have to say in person? 1208 01:11:45,835 --> 01:11:47,502 - I don't wanna talk about it with you, Brennan. 1209 01:11:47,504 --> 01:11:48,736 Isn't it obvious? 1210 01:11:48,738 --> 01:11:50,772 - Well, you don't have to, forget it. 1211 01:11:59,381 --> 01:12:01,816 - Okay, got a question for you. 1212 01:12:03,419 --> 01:12:05,386 Why are you a preacher? 1213 01:12:08,757 --> 01:12:12,360 - Do you remember the talk I gave awhile back? 1214 01:12:12,362 --> 01:12:15,463 About the movie, chariots of fire? 1215 01:12:17,032 --> 01:12:20,435 "When I run fast i feel god's pleasure." 1216 01:12:23,405 --> 01:12:27,709 Well, when I preach, when i talk, and when I rant, 1217 01:12:27,711 --> 01:12:30,478 and when I rave about god's love, 1218 01:12:30,480 --> 01:12:32,380 I feel god's pleasure. 1219 01:12:33,682 --> 01:12:36,084 What else do you wanna know? 1220 01:12:37,653 --> 01:12:41,889 - If you could be Batman of superman, who would you choose? 1221 01:12:44,093 --> 01:12:46,394 - No question, Batman! 1222 01:12:48,364 --> 01:12:51,099 - Brennan, I think you and I were destined 1223 01:12:51,101 --> 01:12:52,834 to become friends. 1224 01:12:52,836 --> 01:12:54,535 - You're a nut. 1225 01:12:54,537 --> 01:12:57,572 - Oh, you wanna go walk around the quarter? 1226 01:12:57,574 --> 01:13:00,375 Lemme finish this first. 1227 01:13:09,386 --> 01:13:13,621 No way, you spent six months in a jail, a Swiss jail? 1228 01:13:14,957 --> 01:13:18,993 - Yes, only the warden knew i wasn't a real inmate. 1229 01:13:18,995 --> 01:13:18,993 - You're lucky he didn't die. 1230 01:13:18,995 --> 01:13:21,863 You would've had a Shawshank redemption situation 1231 01:13:21,865 --> 01:13:23,765 on your hands. 1232 01:13:23,767 --> 01:13:24,999 - What's that? 1233 01:13:26,935 --> 01:13:28,669 - You really don't watch movies, do you? 1234 01:13:35,612 --> 01:13:37,445 Why, what's your favorite book? 1235 01:13:37,447 --> 01:13:40,848 - On being a Christian, hans kung, favorite movie? 1236 01:13:40,850 --> 01:13:42,750 - I'd say it's a tie between dead poet society 1237 01:13:42,752 --> 01:13:44,952 and good will hunting, although I will say 1238 01:13:44,954 --> 01:13:47,622 that I liked die hard so much as a kid, 1239 01:13:47,624 --> 01:13:49,457 I used to dress up in a tank top 1240 01:13:49,459 --> 01:13:53,060 and run around my, uh, front driveway barefoot, 1241 01:13:53,062 --> 01:13:54,429 pretending I was fighting terrorists. 1242 01:13:55,765 --> 01:13:58,433 I still do that now but people stare more. 1243 01:14:25,994 --> 01:14:28,029 - Excuse me, are you Brennan Manning? 1244 01:14:28,031 --> 01:14:29,130 - I've been told I am. 1245 01:14:29,132 --> 01:14:31,566 - Damn it, I owe him 20 dollars, 1246 01:14:31,568 --> 01:14:32,533 I thought you were Anthony Hopkins. 1247 01:14:32,535 --> 01:14:33,968 - Oh, I'm-- 1248 01:14:33,970 --> 01:14:35,770 - Brennan, these are my friends, this is, uh, Randy-- 1249 01:14:35,772 --> 01:14:36,871 - hi, Randy. - Good to meet you. 1250 01:14:36,873 --> 01:14:36,871 - P.C. And Justin. - Hi. 1251 01:14:36,873 --> 01:14:39,941 - How you doin', brother? - Two of our good buddies 1252 01:14:39,943 --> 01:14:41,476 wanted to be here tonight but they couldn't make it, 1253 01:14:41,478 --> 01:14:42,844 Sean chadwell and Kyle Jennings, 1254 01:14:42,846 --> 01:14:45,179 but I wanted them to meet you and you to meet them. 1255 01:14:45,181 --> 01:14:47,748 - Well, I have an idea, let's all get a drink. 1256 01:14:47,750 --> 01:14:48,883 - Yup! 1257 01:14:49,819 --> 01:14:51,919 - My kinda guy. 1258 01:14:51,921 --> 01:14:54,589 - I can hang out with these guys any time. 1259 01:14:54,591 --> 01:14:54,589 We've had a fun day-- - well, look-- 1260 01:14:54,591 --> 01:14:56,657 - we've had a long day-- - here are my keys-- 1261 01:14:56,659 --> 01:14:57,892 let's just go home. 1262 01:14:57,894 --> 01:14:59,560 - No, no, here are my keys, just a sec. 1263 01:14:59,562 --> 01:14:59,560 - No, no, look, if you're goin' in I'm coming with you. 1264 01:14:59,562 --> 01:15:04,699 - Look, I told you once before i don't need a babysitter. 1265 01:15:04,701 --> 01:15:06,100 - We're friends now, right? 1266 01:15:06,102 --> 01:15:07,034 - Uh huh. 1267 01:15:07,036 --> 01:15:08,169 - I can be honest with you? 1268 01:15:08,171 --> 01:15:09,036 - Be honest. - Be real with you? 1269 01:15:09,038 --> 01:15:10,605 - Okay. - Okay, 1270 01:15:10,607 --> 01:15:13,508 you're drinking yourself to death. 1271 01:15:14,576 --> 01:15:17,245 Okay, listen, you're drinking yourself to death, 1272 01:15:17,247 --> 01:15:21,749 and just, and doin' that is not gonna bring roslyn back. 1273 01:15:21,751 --> 01:15:24,519 - Okay, you don't wanna talk about your daughter, right? 1274 01:15:24,521 --> 01:15:28,155 Right, well, I don't wanna talk about my drinking, 1275 01:15:28,157 --> 01:15:29,524 so just leave it at that. 1276 01:15:29,526 --> 01:15:29,524 You wanna go home? 1277 01:15:29,526 --> 01:15:33,127 Go home, I'm going in for a drink! 1278 01:15:40,068 --> 01:15:40,968 - Brennan? 1279 01:15:54,284 --> 01:15:55,116 Brennan? 1280 01:16:03,593 --> 01:16:05,059 Oh my god, Brennan. 1281 01:16:06,595 --> 01:16:09,864 She's gone, she's gone, my roz is gone 1282 01:16:09,866 --> 01:16:11,599 and she's not coming back! 1283 01:16:11,601 --> 01:16:15,670 Roz is gone. 1284 01:16:15,672 --> 01:16:18,973 And it's my fault, it's all, 1285 01:16:18,975 --> 01:16:22,043 I wanted to tell her i love her and now I can't. 1286 01:16:22,045 --> 01:16:24,712 I can't, I'm a stupid drunk and I'm a liar, 1287 01:16:24,714 --> 01:16:26,681 I'm a hypocrite, I'm an imposter 1288 01:16:26,683 --> 01:16:28,683 and I don't wanna be a pastor anymore. 1289 01:16:28,685 --> 01:16:31,152 I don't wanna be a preacher, i don't wanna be anything! 1290 01:16:31,154 --> 01:16:33,921 I don't think i wanna live anymore. 1291 01:16:33,923 --> 01:16:35,723 Roz is gone, you understand? 1292 01:16:35,725 --> 01:16:37,325 - Roz is gone! - - I know. 1293 01:16:37,327 --> 01:16:39,694 - I don't wanna be a priest or, I don't wanna 1294 01:16:39,696 --> 01:16:41,128 be anything anymore, - you're just 1295 01:16:41,130 --> 01:16:42,997 - havin' a hard time. - - I, no, no, no, 1296 01:16:42,999 --> 01:16:44,632 - you're just havin' 1297 01:16:44,634 --> 01:16:45,099 - a hard time, Brennan. - - No, no, no, no! 1298 01:16:45,101 --> 01:16:46,033 - Yes! 1299 01:16:46,035 --> 01:16:47,201 - I can't accept, 1300 01:16:47,203 --> 01:16:48,135 I don't know what's wrong with me. 1301 01:16:48,137 --> 01:16:49,737 Why do I lie, why do I drink? 1302 01:16:49,739 --> 01:16:51,339 I don't know what the hell is wrong with me! 1303 01:16:51,341 --> 01:16:51,339 - Lies, what are you 1304 01:16:51,341 --> 01:16:53,608 talkin' about? - I'm just outta my mind! 1305 01:16:53,610 --> 01:16:54,875 She's gone, you understand that? 1306 01:16:54,877 --> 01:16:58,145 And she's not coming back, my roz is gone! 1307 01:18:30,739 --> 01:18:33,741 - What is this Thomas Jefferson's phone? 1308 01:18:46,788 --> 01:18:46,787 - What are you still doing here? 1309 01:18:46,789 --> 01:18:49,423 - I live here, what are you doing here? 1310 01:18:49,425 --> 01:18:51,092 - The whole neighborhood's being evacuated. 1311 01:18:51,094 --> 01:18:53,227 Get what you need and get out of here! 1312 01:18:53,229 --> 01:18:53,227 - Are, are you serious? 1313 01:18:53,229 --> 01:18:57,231 - Yes, I'm serious, don't you watch the news? 1314 01:18:57,233 --> 01:18:59,400 Jessie, you and Brian check that house. 1315 01:18:59,402 --> 01:19:01,068 Get everyone outta here! 1316 01:19:04,073 --> 01:19:05,940 - Jim, get up, it's an emergency! 1317 01:19:05,942 --> 01:19:07,274 We gotta get out of here! 1318 01:19:07,276 --> 01:19:08,409 Come on, Jim! 1319 01:19:10,979 --> 01:19:13,114 - They are calling it hurricane Katrina 1320 01:19:13,116 --> 01:19:14,448 and experts are saying it is 1321 01:19:14,450 --> 01:19:16,917 quite possibly the third strongest hurricane 1322 01:19:16,919 --> 01:19:20,454 America has seen in the last hundred years. 1323 01:19:20,456 --> 01:19:21,922 This hurricane is hitting the Gulf shore 1324 01:19:21,924 --> 01:19:24,191 with the power of a nuclear explosion. 1325 01:19:24,193 --> 01:19:27,394 Estimated winds are set at 125 miles per hour 1326 01:19:27,396 --> 01:19:30,097 with expectations to increase overnight. 1327 01:19:30,099 --> 01:19:34,268 - Yeah, yeah, it's right across the street. 1328 01:19:34,270 --> 01:19:35,169 No. 1329 01:19:36,004 --> 01:19:37,805 Okay, see you in a second. 1330 01:19:37,807 --> 01:19:38,038 - Who is that? 1331 01:19:42,444 --> 01:19:44,845 - Hey, take it easy with that. 1332 01:19:44,847 --> 01:19:46,380 - You know what? 1333 01:19:46,382 --> 01:19:47,882 - But it's simply too dangerous 1334 01:19:47,884 --> 01:19:49,550 right now-- - I had it with your, 1335 01:19:49,552 --> 01:19:52,553 "enough's enough and take it easy." 1336 01:19:52,555 --> 01:19:55,956 You sound like a, a, a, a broken record. 1337 01:19:59,996 --> 01:20:00,961 Who's that? 1338 01:20:02,330 --> 01:20:03,564 - I'll get it. 1339 01:20:07,904 --> 01:20:08,536 - Jim? 1340 01:20:08,538 --> 01:20:10,004 - Yeah. - Paul. 1341 01:20:10,006 --> 01:20:10,805 - Hey, man, thanks for comin'. 1342 01:20:12,809 --> 01:20:15,476 - How are you, Brennan? 1343 01:20:15,478 --> 01:20:19,280 - I, I, I'm not good, I'm not good, I, it's-- 1344 01:20:20,415 --> 01:20:23,350 - well, I brought the guys together. 1345 01:20:23,352 --> 01:20:25,152 - You brought the guys together? 1346 01:20:25,154 --> 01:20:26,420 - Yeah, they all wanna see you. 1347 01:20:26,422 --> 01:20:28,589 We're doing another one of our retreats. 1348 01:20:28,591 --> 01:20:29,890 - Hm? 1349 01:20:30,559 --> 01:20:31,926 Was that this weekend? 1350 01:20:31,928 --> 01:20:33,994 - Yeah, uh-- - oh. 1351 01:20:33,996 --> 01:20:36,931 - You and your friend Jim wanna come? 1352 01:20:36,933 --> 01:20:38,299 - Jim? 1353 01:20:38,301 --> 01:20:42,102 - I'm right here, yeah, I'd love to go. 1354 01:20:43,071 --> 01:20:44,205 - Yeah, okay. 1355 01:20:45,040 --> 01:20:46,907 - Great, let's go. 1356 01:20:46,909 --> 01:20:47,608 Yeah. 1357 01:20:48,977 --> 01:20:49,877 Okay. 1358 01:20:54,617 --> 01:20:55,583 - The search and rescue teams brought 1359 01:20:55,585 --> 01:20:57,384 more people-- - oh, boy. 1360 01:20:58,887 --> 01:20:58,886 You know what? 1361 01:20:58,888 --> 01:21:01,121 He kinda looks like a surprised fish 1362 01:21:01,123 --> 01:21:04,091 when he's drunk passed out, doesn't he? 1363 01:21:04,093 --> 01:21:05,292 - Um, you got 1364 01:21:05,294 --> 01:21:06,327 that answer, and we'll talk about it. 1365 01:21:06,329 --> 01:21:08,028 - Okay. 1366 01:21:09,631 --> 01:21:13,934 - Uh, Brennan, you know, this is not a retreat. 1367 01:21:13,936 --> 01:21:18,372 I, I, I think you know what's going on here, don't you? 1368 01:21:18,374 --> 01:21:20,908 Brennan, this is an intervention. 1369 01:21:20,910 --> 01:21:22,943 - Did you instigate this, Jim? 1370 01:21:22,945 --> 01:21:24,144 - Calm down, Brennan. 1371 01:21:24,146 --> 01:21:25,646 - Don't treat me like a child, Paul. 1372 01:21:25,648 --> 01:21:29,516 All right, get on with it, say what you're gonna say. 1373 01:21:29,518 --> 01:21:32,386 - You're drinking is outta control, Brennan. 1374 01:21:32,388 --> 01:21:33,587 - Brennan, I don't understand 1375 01:21:33,589 --> 01:21:35,456 why you don't return any of my calls. 1376 01:21:35,458 --> 01:21:35,456 - Man, we've been friends for a long time 1377 01:21:35,458 --> 01:21:40,661 but it feels like all you care about is just you. 1378 01:21:40,663 --> 01:21:43,597 - Brennan, I just can't believe how selfish you seem. 1379 01:21:43,599 --> 01:21:44,999 You're, you're, you're a hypocrite 1380 01:21:45,001 --> 01:21:46,667 and you just don't seem to care. 1381 01:21:46,669 --> 01:21:47,968 - Let's cut straight to the chase. 1382 01:21:47,970 --> 01:21:50,004 You manipulate everyone. 1383 01:21:50,006 --> 01:21:51,438 - And you're addicted to lying. 1384 01:21:51,440 --> 01:21:53,240 - Brennan, the truth is you've hurt all of us, 1385 01:21:53,242 --> 01:21:55,342 but you've been there for all of us, too. 1386 01:21:55,344 --> 01:21:57,945 - Brennan, I have learned more about compassion 1387 01:21:57,947 --> 01:22:02,016 and kindness from you than anyone I've ever been around. 1388 01:22:02,018 --> 01:22:04,084 - You're one of my closest friends. 1389 01:22:04,086 --> 01:22:06,020 - I don't know where my wife and I would be today, 1390 01:22:06,022 --> 01:22:08,923 Brennan, without you, you, you saved our marriage. 1391 01:22:08,925 --> 01:22:10,591 - And you're loved. 1392 01:22:10,593 --> 01:22:14,361 - I agree with Paul, you, you have hurt all of us 1393 01:22:14,363 --> 01:22:15,596 and your wife. 1394 01:22:17,332 --> 01:22:19,533 - And you need help. 1395 01:22:19,535 --> 01:22:21,268 - You know my story. 1396 01:22:22,304 --> 01:22:25,673 And you're the one that got me to love me. 1397 01:22:27,976 --> 01:22:30,945 Why can't you do that for yourself? 1398 01:22:30,947 --> 01:22:34,982 Why can't you love you the way you love everybody else? 1399 01:22:37,152 --> 01:22:38,519 - Finished, that's it? 1400 01:22:38,521 --> 01:22:40,187 You got anything to say? 1401 01:22:40,189 --> 01:22:41,956 Okay, I'm done. 1402 01:22:49,431 --> 01:22:51,198 - Let me go get your the trashcan so you-- 1403 01:22:51,200 --> 01:22:52,266 - you know, you're stupid. 1404 01:22:52,268 --> 01:22:53,667 - Don't throw up 1405 01:22:53,669 --> 01:22:54,601 - all over all my stuff. - - You're just plain 1406 01:22:54,603 --> 01:22:56,236 stupid, yeah, you're stupid, 1407 01:22:56,238 --> 01:23:00,474 you're plain stupid! 1408 01:23:01,609 --> 01:23:03,143 - I was just trying to be your friend. 1409 01:23:03,145 --> 01:23:04,111 - Friend? 1410 01:23:04,113 --> 01:23:05,112 You're no friend of mine! 1411 01:23:05,114 --> 01:23:07,047 You're no friend of mine! 1412 01:23:07,049 --> 01:23:09,683 Ray was a friend of mine, ray! 1413 01:23:09,685 --> 01:23:12,286 He was truly my best friend in Chicago 1414 01:23:12,288 --> 01:23:15,656 and then he had to go die in a house fire, my friend, ray. 1415 01:23:17,727 --> 01:23:19,593 - What'd you just say? 1416 01:23:19,595 --> 01:23:21,028 - I said ray was my best friend. 1417 01:23:21,030 --> 01:23:22,730 - Before that, what did you say? 1418 01:23:22,732 --> 01:23:25,532 - I said he died in a house fire. 1419 01:23:25,534 --> 01:23:27,601 - That's what I thought you said, you lied to me. 1420 01:23:27,603 --> 01:23:29,703 - I never lied to you. 1421 01:23:29,705 --> 01:23:31,138 - You told me, 1422 01:23:32,073 --> 01:23:33,774 you told me that your friend died in Korea. 1423 01:23:33,776 --> 01:23:34,742 - I never said that! 1424 01:23:34,744 --> 01:23:36,010 - I'm not done! 1425 01:23:37,179 --> 01:23:39,246 You told me your friend died in Korea, 1426 01:23:39,248 --> 01:23:41,715 jumping on a grenade, saving your life. 1427 01:23:41,717 --> 01:23:43,517 That's the story! - I never said that! 1428 01:23:43,519 --> 01:23:44,685 - You never said that? 1429 01:23:44,687 --> 01:23:44,685 - No, I didn't. 1430 01:23:44,687 --> 01:23:47,388 - Did you lie to me about anything else? 1431 01:23:47,390 --> 01:23:49,089 - I ain't never lied to you about anything else. 1432 01:23:49,091 --> 01:23:49,089 - So you did lie! 1433 01:23:49,091 --> 01:23:51,058 - No, I didn't lie! 1434 01:23:51,060 --> 01:23:52,493 - I'm sick of guys like you-- 1435 01:23:52,495 --> 01:23:53,761 - listen, I'm sick of you-- - coming into my life 1436 01:23:53,763 --> 01:23:56,130 tryin' to be-- - I am sick and tired of you! 1437 01:23:56,132 --> 01:23:59,133 Let me tell you something, you got a kid there 1438 01:23:59,135 --> 01:24:01,802 that you don't go and visit, you have nothing but sick, 1439 01:24:01,804 --> 01:24:06,140 pathetic excuses for a sick, pathetic little boy. 1440 01:24:06,142 --> 01:24:08,108 You gotta start caring about you 1441 01:24:08,110 --> 01:24:08,108 when you get it in here. 1442 01:24:08,110 --> 01:24:08,108 - Do you want me to throw you - that you care about you-- 1443 01:24:08,110 --> 01:24:11,512 - across the room? - Because you don't know 1444 01:24:11,514 --> 01:24:13,714 what the hell life is all about. 1445 01:24:13,716 --> 01:24:15,082 - You listen to me, 1446 01:24:15,084 --> 01:24:15,082 listen to me-- - I'm sick and tired 1447 01:24:15,084 --> 01:24:17,051 of listening to you. - Listen to me. 1448 01:24:17,053 --> 01:24:17,818 Listen to me. - Just get out! 1449 01:24:17,820 --> 01:24:20,621 I've had it with you, get out! 1450 01:24:20,623 --> 01:24:22,122 - Don't you-- 1451 01:24:22,124 --> 01:24:22,122 - we're done, out! 1452 01:24:22,124 --> 01:24:24,358 - Listen to me. 1453 01:24:24,360 --> 01:24:25,592 - Get out! 1454 01:24:25,594 --> 01:24:26,827 - Not until you-- 1455 01:24:26,829 --> 01:24:26,827 - no, you get out! - Listen to me, 1456 01:24:26,829 --> 01:24:29,096 are you listening to me? - I'm sick and tired of you. 1457 01:24:29,098 --> 01:24:30,164 Listening to you. 1458 01:24:30,166 --> 01:24:30,164 Get out! 1459 01:24:30,166 --> 01:24:32,533 - Don't you talk about my kid. 1460 01:24:32,535 --> 01:24:33,700 - Get out, out! - I never want you 1461 01:24:33,702 --> 01:24:34,501 to talk about my kid before - out! 1462 01:24:52,187 --> 01:24:54,121 - In the wake of hurricane Katrina, 1463 01:24:54,123 --> 01:24:56,356 many parts of New Orleans are still underwater. 1464 01:24:56,358 --> 01:24:57,858 One encouraging sign, though, is that 1465 01:24:57,860 --> 01:24:59,460 that it's been two weeks 1466 01:24:59,462 --> 01:25:01,528 since the mayor has reopened the French quarter 1467 01:25:01,530 --> 01:25:03,230 and we have already seen a large amount 1468 01:25:03,232 --> 01:25:05,199 of business owners opening their doors. 1469 01:25:34,762 --> 01:25:36,830 - What can I get for ya? 1470 01:25:38,233 --> 01:25:42,202 - The ragamuffin's prayer to god be merciful to us. 1471 01:25:44,139 --> 01:25:44,838 What? 1472 01:25:46,274 --> 01:25:48,208 - You all right, man? 1473 01:25:48,210 --> 01:25:50,377 - I, I don't have enough. 1474 01:25:51,746 --> 01:25:55,816 I, I, I got more money in, in, in my motel room. 1475 01:25:57,218 --> 01:26:00,487 Save this for me, I, I, i really need it, I need it. 1476 01:26:00,489 --> 01:26:02,189 - Save what for you, man? 1477 01:26:02,191 --> 01:26:04,258 - Oh, and another thing. 1478 01:26:04,260 --> 01:26:07,928 Roslyn, please tell roslyn I miss her. 1479 01:26:07,930 --> 01:26:08,762 - Who's roslyn? 1480 01:26:35,690 --> 01:26:36,857 - Hi. 1481 01:26:40,229 --> 01:26:41,361 - Hi. 1482 01:26:42,497 --> 01:26:45,265 - You want one of my hot dogs? 1483 01:26:45,267 --> 01:26:48,735 - Well, that's very nice of you, I'll be okay. 1484 01:26:48,737 --> 01:26:49,736 - Will you? 1485 01:26:51,940 --> 01:26:52,839 - Charlie! 1486 01:26:53,741 --> 01:26:54,975 Charlie! 1487 01:26:54,977 --> 01:26:57,844 I told you not to leave my sight. 1488 01:26:57,846 --> 01:26:59,680 - I'm just talking to this man. 1489 01:26:59,682 --> 01:27:02,282 - No, don't look at that filth! 1490 01:27:02,284 --> 01:27:05,252 Come on, you know better than that. 1491 01:27:08,991 --> 01:27:09,890 Charlie! 1492 01:27:11,492 --> 01:27:13,760 - Hey, what's your name? 1493 01:27:20,635 --> 01:27:23,537 - I'm the one that Jesus loves. 1494 01:27:48,396 --> 01:27:52,399 - Stop playing games, just tell us the truth. 1495 01:27:56,638 --> 01:28:00,674 - Okay, fine, I hide bottles everywhere. 1496 01:28:00,676 --> 01:28:04,645 Everything from medicine cabinets to suitcases. 1497 01:28:08,349 --> 01:28:09,916 Maybe you should check the plank in your own eye 1498 01:28:09,918 --> 01:28:11,785 before you worry about the speck in mine. 1499 01:28:11,787 --> 01:28:11,785 - I have your wife on the phone. 1500 01:28:11,787 --> 01:28:15,322 If you're not willing to tell us the complete truth, 1501 01:28:15,324 --> 01:28:16,690 maybe she can help us. 1502 01:28:16,692 --> 01:28:18,058 - Look, I told you I drink. 1503 01:28:18,060 --> 01:28:19,726 What more do you want from me? 1504 01:28:19,728 --> 01:28:23,730 - Max, have you ever been unkind to any one your children 1505 01:28:23,732 --> 01:28:24,965 while you were drinking? 1506 01:28:24,967 --> 01:28:27,668 - No more or less than any other father. 1507 01:28:27,670 --> 01:28:29,403 - Shelley, I got you on speaker. 1508 01:28:29,405 --> 01:28:31,805 Shelley, has Max ever been unkind to any one 1509 01:28:31,807 --> 01:28:35,676 of your children while he was drinking? 1510 01:28:35,678 --> 01:28:38,078 - Yes. 1511 01:28:38,080 --> 01:28:40,347 - Come on, shelley, tell us. 1512 01:28:40,349 --> 01:28:43,050 Uh, one night, 1513 01:28:45,420 --> 01:28:49,456 Max was taking our daughter to go Christmas shopping, 1514 01:28:51,959 --> 01:28:55,395 he stopped at a bar for a quick drink. 1515 01:28:59,367 --> 01:29:02,936 Four hours later Max came back to the car. 1516 01:29:06,441 --> 01:29:09,443 They had to amputate her thumb from frostbite 1517 01:29:09,445 --> 01:29:11,411 and she lost her hearing. 1518 01:29:16,751 --> 01:29:19,386 - I'm sorry, shelley, thank you. 1519 01:29:27,362 --> 01:29:32,399 - Get out of here, Max, I'm not running rehab for liars! 1520 01:29:37,438 --> 01:29:38,372 Hey, Brennan, looking forward 1521 01:29:38,374 --> 01:29:40,107 to getting out of here tomorrow? 1522 01:29:40,109 --> 01:29:43,577 - I don't wanna lie to you, absolutely! 1523 01:29:43,579 --> 01:29:46,446 If I have to have another chicken-fried steak, 1524 01:29:46,448 --> 01:29:47,914 I think I'll take up drinking again 1525 01:29:47,916 --> 01:29:50,083 just as a matter of principle. 1526 01:29:50,085 --> 01:29:51,718 - Any preaching gigs lined up? 1527 01:29:51,720 --> 01:29:53,854 - No, I don't think I'm gonna do that anymore. 1528 01:29:53,856 --> 01:29:56,456 I'll do something else. 1529 01:29:56,458 --> 01:30:00,527 - What do you think about what Max shared today? 1530 01:30:02,864 --> 01:30:04,164 - I envied him. 1531 01:30:07,769 --> 01:30:12,139 - I like you, Brennan, but you're not fooling anyone. 1532 01:30:12,141 --> 01:30:15,675 You may be sober, but you're far from honest. 1533 01:30:15,677 --> 01:30:16,910 You don't wanna be transparent with me? 1534 01:30:16,912 --> 01:30:18,512 That's fine. 1535 01:30:18,514 --> 01:30:20,180 But I'm telling you, please, 1536 01:30:20,182 --> 01:30:22,949 you find someone you can be honest with, okay? 1537 01:30:22,951 --> 01:30:24,017 Start there. 1538 01:30:36,532 --> 01:30:37,764 - You shouldn't even be here. 1539 01:30:37,766 --> 01:30:39,466 - Just, just give me five minutes, roz. 1540 01:30:39,468 --> 01:30:42,002 - Oh. - Just five minutes. 1541 01:30:42,004 --> 01:30:43,904 I'm a liar and a drunk 1542 01:30:46,007 --> 01:30:50,444 and trust me when I tell you I'm worse than you know. 1543 01:30:50,446 --> 01:30:52,879 But the one thing I know 1544 01:30:52,881 --> 01:30:53,713 more than anything else-- 1545 01:30:53,715 --> 01:30:54,614 - what? 1546 01:30:55,583 --> 01:30:56,650 - I'm sorry. 1547 01:31:01,489 --> 01:31:04,458 - Brennan, what all have you lied about? 1548 01:31:04,460 --> 01:31:07,861 - What scares me the most are not the lies I can remember 1549 01:31:07,863 --> 01:31:09,629 but those I can't. 1550 01:31:10,765 --> 01:31:13,600 - Well, it doesn't matter because you're not your sins. 1551 01:31:13,602 --> 01:31:14,534 You know that, right? 1552 01:31:14,536 --> 01:31:15,535 - Yes. 1553 01:31:15,537 --> 01:31:17,070 - You taught me that. 1554 01:31:17,072 --> 01:31:19,639 You know who you are, Brennan. 1555 01:31:19,641 --> 01:31:21,174 - Yes. 1556 01:31:21,176 --> 01:31:23,910 But knowing isn't the hard part. 1557 01:31:27,482 --> 01:31:29,516 I'm gonna let you go, roz. 1558 01:31:31,652 --> 01:31:33,820 - Where are you going? 1559 01:31:39,027 --> 01:31:40,594 Hello, ragamuffin. 1560 01:31:41,229 --> 01:31:43,196 - What are you doing here? 1561 01:31:43,198 --> 01:31:45,732 - I'm here to make amends. 1562 01:31:45,734 --> 01:31:47,067 - Jim, come on. 1563 01:31:47,935 --> 01:31:50,637 Jim's giving his testimony today. 1564 01:31:52,607 --> 01:31:54,241 - What are you doing here? 1565 01:31:54,243 --> 01:31:56,776 - Jim, you don't have to do this. 1566 01:31:56,778 --> 01:31:59,513 - No, Jim does have to do this. 1567 01:31:59,515 --> 01:32:01,715 We made a deal; I let him stay a few weeks, 1568 01:32:01,717 --> 01:32:03,517 he gives his testimony. 1569 01:32:03,519 --> 01:32:05,552 He earns enough money to go back to San Diego. 1570 01:32:05,554 --> 01:32:07,721 Get in the car, Jim. 1571 01:32:07,723 --> 01:32:08,889 - Jim, Jim! 1572 01:32:08,891 --> 01:32:10,156 - Get in the car, Jim. 1573 01:32:10,158 --> 01:32:11,825 - Jim, why are you doing this? 1574 01:32:11,827 --> 01:32:13,593 - I have to. 1575 01:32:13,595 --> 01:32:14,928 - You stay outta this, Manning. 1576 01:32:29,610 --> 01:32:32,646 Today's a great day, isn't it? 1577 01:32:32,648 --> 01:32:34,648 Today we have a special treat for you. 1578 01:32:34,650 --> 01:32:36,983 Well, more of a special treat for me. 1579 01:32:36,985 --> 01:32:38,785 You all remember Jim? 1580 01:32:39,987 --> 01:32:42,956 Well, the prodigal son has returned. 1581 01:32:42,958 --> 01:32:45,926 - Thank you, thank you. 1582 01:32:45,928 --> 01:32:48,128 Thank you, stab me in the face, kill me now. 1583 01:32:48,130 --> 01:32:49,329 - What'd you say? 1584 01:32:49,331 --> 01:32:52,933 - I said, "bless me now," I just wanna bathe 1585 01:32:52,935 --> 01:32:54,768 in a bathwater of blessing. 1586 01:32:54,770 --> 01:32:56,202 - Amen. 1587 01:32:56,204 --> 01:32:57,671 - You said it, sister, 1588 01:32:57,673 --> 01:32:59,573 - if y'all wouldn't mind, 1589 01:32:59,575 --> 01:33:02,075 Jim would like to come up and say a few words. 1590 01:33:02,077 --> 01:33:03,677 Come on up, Jim. 1591 01:33:14,723 --> 01:33:15,622 - Hi. 1592 01:33:16,724 --> 01:33:19,960 I don't know how you do it, um, this is 1593 01:33:23,097 --> 01:33:27,000 not as easy as it looks, I'll put it that way. 1594 01:33:28,369 --> 01:33:30,670 Oh, um, what specifically did you want me to say, 1595 01:33:30,672 --> 01:33:33,340 'cause you wanted me to come up here and-- 1596 01:33:33,342 --> 01:33:34,641 - I think you know 1597 01:33:34,643 --> 01:33:36,142 what to say. - Oh, okay, yeah, um, 1598 01:33:36,144 --> 01:33:39,279 so my dad wanted me to come up here and talk to you about 1599 01:33:39,281 --> 01:33:41,615 how I had a, a baby once. 1600 01:33:46,020 --> 01:33:47,954 I'll be honest, I don't know that I can do this. 1601 01:33:47,956 --> 01:33:52,125 I know we, we talked about this and I was gonna do it. 1602 01:33:52,127 --> 01:33:55,128 - It's okay, relax, you'll be fine. 1603 01:34:00,635 --> 01:34:01,735 - Um, 1604 01:34:02,903 --> 01:34:07,007 well, I guess if there's one thing I know is true 1605 01:34:08,376 --> 01:34:12,746 that I could say, I'll say that I love that little girl 1606 01:34:14,649 --> 01:34:17,017 and there's not a moment that, 1607 01:34:19,687 --> 01:34:22,255 there's not a moment that goes by that 1608 01:34:22,257 --> 01:34:23,757 I don't wish I was her dad 1609 01:34:25,894 --> 01:34:28,728 and I just miss her every day. 1610 01:34:28,730 --> 01:34:33,066 - Go sit down, son, go, take a seat, go ahead. 1611 01:34:33,068 --> 01:34:34,234 Go, sit down. 1612 01:34:37,772 --> 01:34:39,739 - Who do you think you are? 1613 01:34:39,741 --> 01:34:42,208 - I'm the one that Jesus loves. 1614 01:34:42,210 --> 01:34:44,177 Put your ass in a seat. 1615 01:34:52,953 --> 01:34:56,756 - The single greatest cause of atheism today is christians. 1616 01:34:56,758 --> 01:34:59,125 Those who profess Jesus with their mouths, 1617 01:34:59,127 --> 01:35:01,428 yet deny him with their lifestyles. 1618 01:35:01,430 --> 01:35:05,699 That is what an unbelieving world, simply finds 1619 01:35:05,701 --> 01:35:05,699 unbelievable. 1620 01:35:05,701 --> 01:35:10,770 Now, you may think I'm referring to Jim, pastor mark's kid. 1621 01:35:10,772 --> 01:35:14,374 After all, he claims to be a Christian, 1622 01:35:14,376 --> 01:35:16,209 but just let's look at what he did. 1623 01:35:16,211 --> 01:35:19,245 He knocked up his girlfriend, 1624 01:35:19,247 --> 01:35:22,716 and then abandoned both her and the baby! 1625 01:35:27,888 --> 01:35:28,788 Now, 1626 01:35:30,925 --> 01:35:33,827 before Jim says a word, 1627 01:35:33,829 --> 01:35:35,095 if he chooses to, 1628 01:35:36,297 --> 01:35:38,198 I want to tell you about my initial encounter 1629 01:35:38,200 --> 01:35:41,367 with this broken, yet bold young man. 1630 01:35:43,938 --> 01:35:46,172 From the day we first met, 1631 01:35:47,808 --> 01:35:49,175 Jim shared with me 1632 01:35:50,478 --> 01:35:53,446 his gift of vulnerability. 1633 01:35:53,448 --> 01:35:56,816 There was no extinguishing his transparency. 1634 01:35:56,818 --> 01:35:58,184 Trust me, I tried. 1635 01:35:58,186 --> 01:36:04,424 But as a result of Jim, figuratively and almost literally, 1636 01:36:04,426 --> 01:36:07,160 crashing into my life, my heart has been ravished 1637 01:36:07,162 --> 01:36:10,830 by his scorching honesty and humble spirit. 1638 01:36:12,199 --> 01:36:15,935 I strongly sense that Jim's story will someday reveal 1639 01:36:17,404 --> 01:36:21,841 how moral failures often lead to spiritual transformation. 1640 01:36:23,210 --> 01:36:27,447 Yet, I understand that some of you are disgusted and angry 1641 01:36:27,449 --> 01:36:30,984 because of the heartache that Jim has caused you 1642 01:36:30,986 --> 01:36:33,153 and his dad, your pastor. 1643 01:36:34,255 --> 01:36:37,457 So, for that reason, my brother Jim was asked 1644 01:36:37,459 --> 01:36:40,894 to come here today to publicly apologize 1645 01:36:40,896 --> 01:36:45,131 for his moral failures and to ask your forgiveness. 1646 01:36:46,100 --> 01:36:47,834 But let's be honest. 1647 01:36:49,470 --> 01:36:52,138 He's here for a public stoning, 1648 01:36:54,308 --> 01:36:57,143 not the kind of stones that break your flesh and bones, 1649 01:36:57,145 --> 01:36:59,979 but the socially acceptable kind, 1650 01:37:01,081 --> 01:37:03,583 the type of stones that modern christians use 1651 01:37:03,585 --> 01:37:07,854 are rightly called shame, humiliation and hatred. 1652 01:37:10,191 --> 01:37:14,427 But please, folks, trust me, Jim's not as bad as you think. 1653 01:37:15,830 --> 01:37:17,030 He's much worse! 1654 01:37:18,399 --> 01:37:22,068 But I can also assure you, he's not worse than me! 1655 01:37:23,337 --> 01:37:25,038 So, let me ask you this, 1656 01:37:25,040 --> 01:37:28,942 what makes you lovable in the eyes of god? 1657 01:37:28,944 --> 01:37:31,578 What makes Brennan Manning lovable in the eyes of god? 1658 01:37:31,580 --> 01:37:35,248 Because 49 years ago i committed my life to Jesus? 1659 01:37:35,250 --> 01:37:38,017 Does god love me because I've given the last 42 years 1660 01:37:38,019 --> 01:37:40,587 of my life preaching the gospel of grace? 1661 01:37:40,589 --> 01:37:43,590 Does god love me because i tithe to the poor? 1662 01:37:43,592 --> 01:37:46,259 Does god love me because i spend two hours 1663 01:37:46,261 --> 01:37:48,261 every day in prayer? 1664 01:37:48,263 --> 01:37:51,631 Does god love me because i work with alcoholics, 1665 01:37:51,633 --> 01:37:54,968 addicts, and those suffering from aids? 1666 01:37:54,970 --> 01:37:58,171 If I believe that stuff, I'm a pharisee! 1667 01:37:59,540 --> 01:38:03,610 Brothers and sisters, the gospel of grace makes clear 1668 01:38:03,612 --> 01:38:06,980 the truth that god loves us as we are, 1669 01:38:09,116 --> 01:38:11,584 not as we should be, 1670 01:38:11,586 --> 01:38:15,421 because none of us are as we should be, 1671 01:38:15,423 --> 01:38:19,392 not me, not you, not Jim, not even pastor mark! 1672 01:38:22,997 --> 01:38:27,533 The idea that god loved me so deeply and unconditionally 1673 01:38:27,535 --> 01:38:30,536 used to sound like sheer madness to me. 1674 01:38:30,538 --> 01:38:33,039 And that's because it is! 1675 01:38:33,041 --> 01:38:37,043 He loves in a manner that defies human comprehension 1676 01:38:37,045 --> 01:38:39,445 and escapes human imitation. 1677 01:38:40,547 --> 01:38:43,316 And that's why I can stand here tonight 1678 01:38:43,318 --> 01:38:46,653 with rare theological certainty, and with the power 1679 01:38:46,655 --> 01:38:51,024 and authority of god's own words and proclaim 1680 01:38:51,026 --> 01:38:55,061 god loves you as you are, not as you should be, 1681 01:38:55,063 --> 01:38:59,032 because, again, none of us are as we should be! 1682 01:39:01,235 --> 01:39:04,203 So, do you believe god loves you? 1683 01:39:04,205 --> 01:39:07,473 Most christians say they do, but they don't. 1684 01:39:07,475 --> 01:39:09,042 They believe god loves them 1685 01:39:09,044 --> 01:39:11,945 in some vague, distant, abstract way, 1686 01:39:11,947 --> 01:39:15,415 but they would be hard-pressed to say the essence 1687 01:39:15,417 --> 01:39:18,217 of their life is a love affair, 1688 01:39:18,219 --> 01:39:21,321 and not a simple love affair, 1689 01:39:21,323 --> 01:39:25,558 but what g.K. Chesterton called a furious love affair. 1690 01:39:29,129 --> 01:39:32,031 Do you honestly believe that god loves you 1691 01:39:32,033 --> 01:39:36,002 beyond worthiness, and unworthiness, 1692 01:39:36,004 --> 01:39:38,071 beyond fidelity and infidelity, 1693 01:39:38,073 --> 01:39:40,073 that he loves you in the morning sun, 1694 01:39:40,075 --> 01:39:42,108 and in the evening rain? 1695 01:39:42,110 --> 01:39:46,012 Without caution, regret, boundary, limit, 1696 01:39:46,014 --> 01:39:49,615 breaking point, no matter what's gone down, 1697 01:39:49,617 --> 01:39:51,751 he can't stop loving you. 1698 01:39:54,355 --> 01:39:55,488 I believe it. 1699 01:39:57,992 --> 01:40:01,060 But I'm a bundle of paradoxes. 1700 01:40:01,062 --> 01:40:04,030 I trust god with all my heart, 1701 01:40:04,032 --> 01:40:07,066 but when I see three hundred thousand people wiped away 1702 01:40:07,068 --> 01:40:09,102 in a Tsunami in southeast Asia, 1703 01:40:09,104 --> 01:40:11,104 when I see a six-month-old baby ripped out 1704 01:40:11,106 --> 01:40:15,008 of his mother's arms in a hurricane named Katrina, 1705 01:40:15,010 --> 01:40:19,278 when I see a nine-year-old girl raped by a sex maniac, 1706 01:40:19,280 --> 01:40:23,616 or a four-year-old boy slaughtered by a drunken driver, 1707 01:40:23,618 --> 01:40:25,785 I wonder if god exists. 1708 01:40:25,787 --> 01:40:28,688 I trust him and get discouraged. 1709 01:40:28,690 --> 01:40:33,192 I love and I hate, I feel bad about feeling good. 1710 01:40:33,194 --> 01:40:36,029 I feel guilty if i don't feel guilty. 1711 01:40:36,031 --> 01:40:39,065 I'm wide open and I'm locked in. 1712 01:40:39,067 --> 01:40:41,734 I'm trusting and suspicious. 1713 01:40:41,736 --> 01:40:44,804 I'm honest and still play games. 1714 01:40:44,806 --> 01:40:49,075 Aristotle said, "I'm a rational animal." 1715 01:40:49,077 --> 01:40:53,312 I say I'm an angel with an incredible capacity for beer. 1716 01:40:54,481 --> 01:40:58,384 Take me or leave me, but that's the real Brennan. 1717 01:41:00,754 --> 01:41:03,189 Do you remember how I said that I'm worse than Jim? 1718 01:41:03,191 --> 01:41:08,127 Not too long ago I woke up in alleyway, in an alcoholic fog. 1719 01:41:08,129 --> 01:41:10,797 If you had seen me that way, you might have said, 1720 01:41:10,799 --> 01:41:16,169 "don't look at that bum, all that is, is pure filth!" 1721 01:41:16,171 --> 01:41:17,203 Yet that filth 1722 01:41:18,839 --> 01:41:20,773 was Brennan Manning. 1723 01:41:22,109 --> 01:41:27,146 Yet, the abba of Jesus loved me as much that morning, 1724 01:41:27,148 --> 01:41:30,850 in that state of disgrace, as he does now 1725 01:41:30,852 --> 01:41:34,120 in my present state of grace 1726 01:41:34,122 --> 01:41:37,623 for his love is never, never, never based 1727 01:41:38,725 --> 01:41:41,561 on our performance, never conditioned 1728 01:41:41,563 --> 01:41:45,198 by our moods of elation or depression. 1729 01:41:45,200 --> 01:41:48,568 It knows no shadow, alteration, or change. 1730 01:41:50,204 --> 01:41:54,440 The love of god in Christ Jesus his son is reliable. 1731 01:41:59,480 --> 01:42:02,849 My friends this isn't something I read in a book 1732 01:42:02,851 --> 01:42:05,384 or heard in a sermon. 1733 01:42:05,386 --> 01:42:08,221 This is the Jesus of my own journey, 1734 01:42:08,223 --> 01:42:10,123 the son of compassion. 1735 01:42:11,291 --> 01:42:13,326 When I was ambushed by Jesus 1736 01:42:13,328 --> 01:42:16,529 in a small chapel in loreto, Pennsylvania, 1737 01:42:16,531 --> 01:42:19,665 in a community of the little brothers of Jesus 1738 01:42:19,667 --> 01:42:23,736 in the south of France, in a Swiss prison, in a cave 1739 01:42:23,738 --> 01:42:25,705 in the zaragota desert, 1740 01:42:26,673 --> 01:42:29,175 in the eyes of a small boy, 1741 01:42:31,411 --> 01:42:33,146 in eating ice cream, 1742 01:42:34,248 --> 01:42:35,248 in a smile, 1743 01:42:38,719 --> 01:42:40,153 in friendship. 1744 01:42:44,424 --> 01:42:45,658 Jim asked me, he said, 1745 01:42:45,660 --> 01:42:47,660 "Brennan, do you really believe 1746 01:42:47,662 --> 01:42:50,930 "that god loves you as you are, and not as you should be? 1747 01:42:50,932 --> 01:42:54,300 "Because none of us are as we should be." 1748 01:42:54,302 --> 01:42:57,236 The truth is no, but I'm trying. 1749 01:42:58,305 --> 01:43:01,340 My friends, this is not pious poetry. 1750 01:43:01,342 --> 01:43:03,743 Jesus not only knows what hurts us, 1751 01:43:03,745 --> 01:43:07,580 but knowing seeks us out whatever our poverty, 1752 01:43:08,916 --> 01:43:12,652 whatever our pain, his plea to his people right now, 1753 01:43:13,787 --> 01:43:16,789 his promise to us is, "come to me." 1754 01:43:18,358 --> 01:43:21,260 Not to church, not to a Bible study, 1755 01:43:21,262 --> 01:43:24,931 not to an annual conference, not to a movie, 1756 01:43:24,933 --> 01:43:26,933 but you come to me. 1757 01:43:26,935 --> 01:43:30,503 Come to me as you are whether you're celibate 1758 01:43:30,505 --> 01:43:33,206 or you're promiscuous, whether you're married 1759 01:43:33,208 --> 01:43:35,541 or whether you're single, whether you've had a baby 1760 01:43:35,543 --> 01:43:37,710 out of wedlock or whether you've judged a guy 1761 01:43:37,712 --> 01:43:40,613 that had a baby out of wedlock. 1762 01:43:40,615 --> 01:43:42,949 Don't wait 'til you got your head on straight, 1763 01:43:42,951 --> 01:43:47,286 until you get your act together, 'til you're free of sin, 1764 01:43:47,288 --> 01:43:50,389 selfishness, dishonesty, degraded love, 1765 01:43:52,859 --> 01:43:56,329 but come now, wounded, frightened, angry, 1766 01:43:57,698 --> 01:44:01,367 lonely, empty, depressed, tilting towards despair, 1767 01:44:02,736 --> 01:44:05,238 and I'll meet you where you live 1768 01:44:05,240 --> 01:44:08,307 'cause I'm gonna love you as you are, 1769 01:44:08,309 --> 01:44:09,942 not as you should be, 1770 01:44:11,678 --> 01:44:14,914 'cause none of us are as we should be. 1771 01:44:23,523 --> 01:44:26,325 As St. Francis of assisi said to brother Dominic 1772 01:44:26,327 --> 01:44:28,728 as he was leaving umbria, 1773 01:44:28,730 --> 01:44:29,629 "bye." 1774 01:45:38,565 --> 01:45:39,498 - Hey, Brennan, you in here? 1775 01:45:39,500 --> 01:45:40,399 - In here. 1776 01:45:42,869 --> 01:45:45,871 - Uh oh, is it someone's nap time? 1777 01:45:45,873 --> 01:45:47,440 - I'm not napping. 1778 01:45:48,709 --> 01:45:49,775 I'm resting. 1779 01:45:52,412 --> 01:45:55,514 - Brennan, we need to have a talk. 1780 01:45:56,416 --> 01:45:59,585 2 pm is way too early for bedtime. 1781 01:45:59,587 --> 01:46:01,020 At least wait 'til three. 1782 01:46:01,022 --> 01:46:02,455 - I'm not napping. 1783 01:46:04,592 --> 01:46:08,494 - So, I love what you have done with the place. 1784 01:46:09,129 --> 01:46:10,563 - Oh, thank you. 1785 01:46:10,565 --> 01:46:12,398 - So, what are you gonna do? 1786 01:46:12,400 --> 01:46:14,800 - Moving to Jersey with my sweetie pie sister Gerry, 1787 01:46:14,802 --> 01:46:16,502 and my brother-in-law, art. 1788 01:46:16,504 --> 01:46:18,804 - Oh, is that this guy here? 1789 01:46:18,806 --> 01:46:20,573 - Yeah. 1790 01:46:20,575 --> 01:46:22,541 - He looks a little like Jack Nicholson. 1791 01:46:22,543 --> 01:46:23,609 - He wishes. 1792 01:46:25,145 --> 01:46:27,646 Hey, if you're ever in Jersey, you look me up. 1793 01:46:27,648 --> 01:46:29,582 - Oh, yeah, I'd love that. 1794 01:46:29,584 --> 01:46:31,117 I actually have an uncle that lives there. 1795 01:46:31,119 --> 01:46:34,854 Uh, you may have heard of him, Tony soprano? 1796 01:46:36,623 --> 01:46:38,124 Not a TV guy, huh? 1797 01:46:38,126 --> 01:46:39,759 Well, hey, same goes for you. 1798 01:46:39,761 --> 01:46:41,460 If you're ever in San Diego, look me up. 1799 01:46:41,462 --> 01:46:42,928 - Yeah, I'll let you know so you won't have 1800 01:46:42,930 --> 01:46:44,997 to steal a name tag to sneak into the conference. 1801 01:46:48,002 --> 01:46:51,470 - Well, I guess I'll let you take a nap. 1802 01:46:51,472 --> 01:46:53,406 - Oh, shut up. 1803 01:46:53,408 --> 01:46:54,106 - Hey, 1804 01:46:56,009 --> 01:46:57,510 um, 1805 01:46:57,512 --> 01:47:00,045 I just wanted to thank you, 1806 01:47:00,047 --> 01:47:02,681 uh, for helpin' me get unstuck. 1807 01:47:04,785 --> 01:47:05,718 - Pound it. 1808 01:47:10,424 --> 01:47:12,625 - I'll see ya down the road. 1809 01:47:15,028 --> 01:47:16,529 - Bye, my friend. 1810 01:47:32,746 --> 01:47:35,181 A nap does sound good. 1811 01:51:01,355 --> 01:51:04,123 - I just wanted the extra pretzels, it's fine. 1812 01:51:04,125 --> 01:51:05,758 All right, not that cool, guys. 1813 01:51:05,760 --> 01:51:08,927 Someone's dippin' into my tip jar, tom. 1814 01:51:08,929 --> 01:51:10,763 Tom, stop actin' like you're passed out. 1815 01:51:10,765 --> 01:51:13,666 I know you're fakin' it, worst actor. 1816 01:51:13,668 --> 01:51:15,734 Hey, what are you doin' on Tuesday? 1817 01:51:15,736 --> 01:51:16,702 - Like this Tuesday? 1818 01:51:16,704 --> 01:51:16,702 - Next, next Tuesday. 1819 01:51:16,704 --> 01:51:20,239 - I don't, I don't know, I work here until 10. 1820 01:51:20,241 --> 01:51:22,708 - Do you wanna come to an improv, my improv show? 1821 01:51:22,710 --> 01:51:23,676 - You have an improv show? 1822 01:51:23,678 --> 01:51:25,210 - Yeah. 1823 01:51:25,212 --> 01:51:26,712 - I don't wanna go to an improv show, Jeremy. 1824 01:51:27,448 --> 01:51:29,181 - No, no, we're not doin' that. 1825 01:51:29,183 --> 01:51:31,383 Guess who's not gettin' their pretzels now. 1826 01:51:31,385 --> 01:51:32,451 - God. 1827 01:51:33,787 --> 01:51:35,954 - I ate all this butter. 1828 01:51:35,956 --> 01:51:36,855 Brennan. 1829 01:51:38,158 --> 01:51:39,058 Brennan. 1830 01:51:39,060 --> 01:51:43,162 Brennan, I ate all this butter, what do I do? 1831 01:51:43,164 --> 01:51:44,096 - We're, we're just really big fans. 1832 01:51:44,098 --> 01:51:45,330 We've read all your books. 1833 01:51:45,332 --> 01:51:47,700 - I, I might stare at you if that's all right. 1834 01:51:47,702 --> 01:51:49,868 - No, don't stare at me. 1835 01:51:49,870 --> 01:51:53,338 - I mean, it's good to see Brennan. 1836 01:51:53,340 --> 01:51:54,740 - Wait, you like Brennan Manning? 1837 01:51:55,976 --> 01:51:57,943 - You guys are idiots. 1838 01:51:57,945 --> 01:52:01,046 - Not your family or your friends, but you! 1839 01:52:01,048 --> 01:52:04,149 And so on and so on and so on and so on 1840 01:52:04,151 --> 01:52:05,751 and so on and so on and so on. 1841 01:52:05,753 --> 01:52:07,853 All right, kid, let's get going, I gotta get outta here. 1842 01:52:08,789 --> 01:52:09,855 - You've been looking old. 1843 01:52:09,857 --> 01:52:11,757 - Oh, at least i pee standing up. 1844 01:52:13,928 --> 01:52:15,260 - Ah, old man humor. 1845 01:52:16,464 --> 01:52:16,462 - What planet are you from? 1846 01:52:16,464 --> 01:52:20,432 How do you think that's gonna help? 1847 01:52:20,434 --> 01:52:23,435 - I'm sorry, are you, are you really asking me 1848 01:52:23,437 --> 01:52:25,471 what planet I'm from? 1849 01:52:25,473 --> 01:52:26,972 Um, it's earth. 1850 01:52:29,310 --> 01:52:30,476 - I have to go, mom, I think this old guy's gonna cry. 1851 01:52:31,512 --> 01:52:32,411 - Get in. 1852 01:52:36,783 --> 01:52:38,484 And that's how a scene goes in acting. 1853 01:52:38,486 --> 01:52:40,385 - That was great. 1854 01:52:40,387 --> 01:52:41,353 - That's gonna kill ya. 1855 01:52:41,355 --> 01:52:43,088 - So will being old. 1856 01:52:44,824 --> 01:52:46,492 - I'm still gonna drink it. 1857 01:52:46,494 --> 01:52:48,093 - Oh. 1858 01:52:52,833 --> 01:52:53,866 Cut. 1859 01:52:53,868 --> 01:52:56,268 In this pretend world. 1860 01:52:59,173 --> 01:53:00,506 Hey, Brennan. 1861 01:53:00,508 --> 01:53:01,340 - Yes? 1862 01:53:07,948 --> 01:53:10,215 - J.B. Is not amused by you. 1863 01:53:10,217 --> 01:53:11,216 - Was it, yeah? 1864 01:53:11,218 --> 01:53:12,384 - That was 1865 01:53:12,386 --> 01:53:13,552 - you got it? 1866 01:53:13,554 --> 01:53:13,552 - Yeah, we talked, we got to Gracie 1867 01:53:13,554 --> 01:53:16,021 - if you wanna do it again? - - All right, cool. 1868 01:53:16,023 --> 01:53:16,889 - Let's do it again? 1869 01:53:18,192 --> 01:53:19,124 - Right. 1870 01:53:19,126 --> 01:53:20,526 Good night, kid. 1871 01:53:21,427 --> 01:53:23,328 - Good night, Brennan. 1872 01:53:25,532 --> 01:53:30,369 I'm like thirty, why does he keep callin' me kid? 1873 01:53:30,371 --> 01:53:33,539 - I'm sorry, I cannot find the restroom. 1874 01:53:33,541 --> 01:53:36,108 Ooh, where is it again? 1875 01:53:36,110 --> 01:53:37,142 - Oh, you know what? 1876 01:53:37,144 --> 01:53:40,813 Um, I am so sorry 1877 01:53:40,815 --> 01:53:43,882 to be the one to have to tell you this, 1878 01:53:43,884 --> 01:53:46,552 but there is no hope for you in this life. 1879 01:53:46,554 --> 01:53:49,254 - Do I have time for a smoke? 1880 01:53:52,926 --> 01:53:54,893 - I'm gonna pretend that he didn't just say that. 1881 01:53:54,895 --> 01:53:56,528 - Listen, we're a sketch comedy team 1882 01:53:56,530 --> 01:53:57,863 called the color green 1883 01:53:57,865 --> 01:53:59,598 and we're sorta wondering if we could go 1884 01:53:59,600 --> 01:54:01,867 on the road with you. 1885 01:54:01,869 --> 01:54:03,836 - What do you think? 1886 01:54:03,838 --> 01:54:05,237 - I think I'm gonna cut this scene. 1887 01:54:36,336 --> 01:54:39,571 - 'Cause you know you're a ragamuffin. 1888 01:54:41,541 --> 01:54:45,010 You're not ashamed of being a ragamuffin. 1889 01:54:47,013 --> 01:54:49,248 You're the beloved of god.