1 00:00:07,341 --> 00:00:09,343 (audience cheering) 2 00:00:11,970 --> 00:00:15,224 (drum kit thumping) 3 00:00:17,184 --> 00:00:19,186 (electric guitar) 4 00:00:24,274 --> 00:00:25,400 (man) All right. 5 00:00:30,364 --> 00:00:34,660 - Are you ready for one more? - (crowd screaming) 6 00:00:34,743 --> 00:00:36,954 (drumsticks clacking) 7 00:00:37,037 --> 00:00:42,417 (guitar starts) 8 00:00:46,838 --> 00:00:50,842 (man vocalizing) 9 00:01:12,447 --> 00:01:15,492 ♪ I had a girlfriend ♪ 10 00:01:15,576 --> 00:01:19,121 ♪ She said she loves me ♪ 11 00:01:19,204 --> 00:01:22,666 ♪ She likes to hold me ♪ 12 00:01:22,749 --> 00:01:25,836 ♪ She once told me ♪ 13 00:01:26,545 --> 00:01:29,881 ♪ 'Cause she don't mind ♪ 14 00:01:29,965 --> 00:01:33,343 ♪ Nothin', nothin' ♪ 15 00:01:33,427 --> 00:01:39,933 ♪ She don't mind Nothin', nothin' ♪ 16 00:01:43,145 --> 00:01:45,147 (women laughing) 17 00:01:53,196 --> 00:01:54,615 You with the band? 18 00:01:54,740 --> 00:01:56,617 Yeah. Record label. 19 00:01:56,700 --> 00:01:59,745 - You better put that on. - Yes, sir. 20 00:01:59,828 --> 00:02:01,830 (band continues, muffled) 21 00:02:05,250 --> 00:02:08,962 (girls chattering) 22 00:02:09,046 --> 00:02:10,297 (coughing, vomiting) 23 00:02:10,380 --> 00:02:11,548 Whoa. 24 00:02:11,673 --> 00:02:14,593 ♪ Nothin', nothin' ♪ 25 00:02:16,219 --> 00:02:19,765 Guys, cleanup on aisle seven. What's up, man? 26 00:02:19,848 --> 00:02:24,019 - (music gets louder) - (women cheering) 27 00:02:27,022 --> 00:02:30,901 Hi, Leo. Keep playing that thing, you're gonna go blind. 28 00:02:31,026 --> 00:02:33,320 Matt, where are we on that sit-down with Elijah? 29 00:02:33,403 --> 00:02:36,323 - I told you, talk to Zeke. - Zeke said talk to you. 30 00:02:36,406 --> 00:02:37,741 They want the cover. 31 00:02:37,824 --> 00:02:40,243 Jeff won't commit until he sees the article. 32 00:02:40,619 --> 00:02:42,663 But it's a definite possibility. 33 00:02:43,622 --> 00:02:44,748 Gotta go, Leo. 34 00:02:44,831 --> 00:02:47,167 Come on, Matt. Is he gonna do it or not? 35 00:02:47,250 --> 00:02:49,252 It's a "definite possibility." 36 00:02:49,336 --> 00:02:51,338 (crowd screaming, cheering) 37 00:02:58,512 --> 00:03:00,305 We love you, New York! 38 00:03:01,181 --> 00:03:04,017 - What's up, man? - Good to see you too! 39 00:03:05,394 --> 00:03:06,937 What's up? 40 00:03:10,649 --> 00:03:12,067 What's up, man? 41 00:03:15,654 --> 00:03:17,656 (cheering continues) 42 00:03:20,575 --> 00:03:24,037 (slow rhythm) 43 00:03:24,121 --> 00:03:26,331 (people chattering) 44 00:03:36,091 --> 00:03:38,343 (man) Elijah. Got a visitor. 45 00:03:40,971 --> 00:03:43,932 - Hey. - Hey. 46 00:03:44,015 --> 00:03:45,851 - Great set, man. - Thank you. 47 00:03:45,934 --> 00:03:47,060 Yeah. 48 00:03:47,978 --> 00:03:49,604 - Did you talk to him? - Not yet. 49 00:03:49,688 --> 00:03:52,524 - Would you talk to him? - Talk to me about what? 50 00:03:56,486 --> 00:03:58,280 Talk to me about what? 51 00:04:00,323 --> 00:04:02,492 Elijah just signed with Interscope. 52 00:04:03,869 --> 00:04:04,786 What? 53 00:04:06,246 --> 00:04:09,166 Are you fucking joking? What's going on? 54 00:04:10,333 --> 00:04:11,460 You're just slow, man. 55 00:04:12,544 --> 00:04:14,463 "I'm slow"? What do you mean, "I'm slow"? 56 00:04:14,546 --> 00:04:17,340 - He doesn't mean "slow." - He said, "slow." Shut up, okay? 57 00:04:17,424 --> 00:04:20,218 - What do you mean? - I haven't had a record out in a year. 58 00:04:20,302 --> 00:04:23,346 So? You're gettin' ready to cut an album. We just booked a studio. 59 00:04:23,472 --> 00:04:25,891 Look, Interscope's got two songs ready to go. 60 00:04:26,600 --> 00:04:28,268 And they're fuckin' good. 61 00:04:28,351 --> 00:04:31,354 But they're not yours. I thought you want to do your own stuff. 62 00:04:31,438 --> 00:04:34,775 We've been telling you for a while now that we need a new single, okay? 63 00:04:37,152 --> 00:04:39,237 Jesus. Elijah, come on, man. 64 00:04:39,321 --> 00:04:41,907 I got nothing but love for you, man. Really. 65 00:04:42,783 --> 00:04:44,326 It's not personal. 66 00:04:46,953 --> 00:04:48,330 Yeah. 67 00:04:49,790 --> 00:04:51,208 - (grunt) - (tag rattles) 68 00:04:52,667 --> 00:04:54,669 (siren wails) 69 00:05:08,767 --> 00:05:10,185 Good morning, Eve. 70 00:05:11,895 --> 00:05:13,688 - (woman) Morning, Matt. - Hi. 71 00:05:14,731 --> 00:05:17,108 - Does she know about... - Everyone knows. 72 00:05:19,820 --> 00:05:22,197 Can you pull Elijah's sheet when you get a chance? 73 00:05:23,114 --> 00:05:25,450 - Thanks. - Matt Ryder's office. This is Kim. 74 00:05:25,534 --> 00:05:28,245 I'm sorry. Mr. Ryder is in a meeting. Can you return? 75 00:05:28,328 --> 00:05:30,539 - Thank you. - Shit. His numbers were holding. 76 00:05:30,622 --> 00:05:33,208 - Rob Marker's office. This is Kim. - Rob Marker's office? 77 00:05:33,291 --> 00:05:36,545 I'm sorry. I don't have him right now. Can you return? Great. 78 00:05:37,504 --> 00:05:40,465 - What the hell was that? - Marker's been promoted. 79 00:05:40,715 --> 00:05:42,133 Really? 80 00:05:42,217 --> 00:05:45,053 And Mr. Lepselter actually wants to see you right now. 81 00:05:47,722 --> 00:05:48,932 Sit down. 82 00:05:53,144 --> 00:05:54,729 Am I about to get fired? 83 00:05:55,355 --> 00:05:56,439 Sit down. 84 00:05:58,650 --> 00:06:02,612 I've been working for you since before you could make payroll. Ten years. 85 00:06:02,696 --> 00:06:04,781 I've kept you on at a loss for the last few. 86 00:06:04,865 --> 00:06:06,992 A loss? Really? Okay. 87 00:06:08,451 --> 00:06:11,663 I brought you a Coldplay demo in '99. You didn't even listen to it. 88 00:06:11,746 --> 00:06:14,249 Arcade Fire in 2003. A bootleg and you were like, 89 00:06:14,332 --> 00:06:16,960 "Great in concert. Won't translate to the airwaves." 90 00:06:17,043 --> 00:06:20,839 Three years ago, I had the Spare Sevens in the room. In the fucking room. 91 00:06:20,922 --> 00:06:24,759 I blew a few good calls for you. So? You been cashin' that chit in for years. 92 00:06:24,843 --> 00:06:27,512 I know music better than anybody in this fuckin' office. 93 00:06:27,596 --> 00:06:31,016 Yeah. You've got a great ear. That made you irreplaceable in 1998. 94 00:06:31,099 --> 00:06:33,602 - Bullshit. It still matters. - Music is a commodity. 95 00:06:33,685 --> 00:06:37,397 And it's airborne. You can't protect it. You can't sell what you can't protect. 96 00:06:37,480 --> 00:06:40,400 You only sell the artist. You haven't been signing any. 97 00:06:40,483 --> 00:06:43,778 Last night, you let your meal ticket walk out that door. 98 00:06:44,905 --> 00:06:46,114 Yeah. 99 00:06:46,489 --> 00:06:48,033 Yeah, well... 100 00:06:48,992 --> 00:06:50,577 I'm still working 'em. 101 00:06:50,869 --> 00:06:53,288 - Working who? - Spare Sevens. 102 00:06:53,413 --> 00:06:55,415 - Spare Sevens? - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 103 00:06:55,582 --> 00:06:56,416 Right. 104 00:06:56,499 --> 00:07:00,629 Hey, I'm not jokin'. No, no, no. They're not happy at Sony. 105 00:07:00,712 --> 00:07:03,006 The label rushed the last album. They're pissed. 106 00:07:03,131 --> 00:07:05,133 The Spare Sevens are about to pop globally. 107 00:07:05,216 --> 00:07:06,760 Sony will make them happy. 108 00:07:06,843 --> 00:07:08,553 No. These guys aren't like Elijah. 109 00:07:08,637 --> 00:07:12,766 They actually take the time to make music the way real bands used to make it. 110 00:07:13,308 --> 00:07:16,144 I talked to their manager, Dan, at PMO. 111 00:07:17,020 --> 00:07:19,648 - You have a sit-down? - I will. 112 00:07:22,525 --> 00:07:23,568 (clicks tongue) 113 00:07:24,611 --> 00:07:25,904 I'll give you two weeks. 114 00:07:25,987 --> 00:07:29,658 Not because I owe it to you, but because I want the Spare Sevens. 115 00:07:44,422 --> 00:07:45,298 Hello. 116 00:07:47,676 --> 00:07:49,761 You have no pictures. 117 00:07:50,679 --> 00:07:53,848 Like, on your walls and your desk. You don't have any photos. 118 00:07:53,932 --> 00:07:55,725 Who doesn't hang up a picture? 119 00:07:55,809 --> 00:07:57,978 Good question. Here's another: Who are you? 120 00:07:58,061 --> 00:08:03,024 Most people in the office have photos of their wife, girlfriend, dog. Something. 121 00:08:03,566 --> 00:08:07,570 Well, my wife left me, don't have a girlfriend, and I'm afraid of dogs. 122 00:08:07,654 --> 00:08:09,489 I'm sorry to disappoint. Excuse me. 123 00:08:09,572 --> 00:08:11,491 - (dial tone) - (Kim) Yes? 124 00:08:11,574 --> 00:08:14,744 Hi. There is a strange woman standing in my office. 125 00:08:14,869 --> 00:08:16,955 - On my way. - I am not strange. 126 00:08:17,038 --> 00:08:19,207 - You're a little strange. - I work for Ben. 127 00:08:19,874 --> 00:08:22,877 Oh, oh, you work for Ben. Okay, that's great. 128 00:08:22,961 --> 00:08:26,506 - I don't know who that is. - Benjamin Asher Ryder. 129 00:08:26,589 --> 00:08:28,049 Your father. 130 00:08:30,135 --> 00:08:32,095 Sorry, I'm Zooey Kern. 131 00:08:32,178 --> 00:08:35,140 I'm Ben's nurse/personal assistant. 132 00:08:36,307 --> 00:08:39,394 Listen, Miss Kern. This has already been a monumentally shitty day, 133 00:08:39,477 --> 00:08:41,813 and I haven't started dealing with the West Coast. 134 00:08:41,896 --> 00:08:43,398 Hey, Kim! 135 00:08:43,481 --> 00:08:46,276 Not sure what you're doing here. Honestly, I don't care. 136 00:08:46,359 --> 00:08:48,069 Ben's dying. 137 00:08:54,534 --> 00:08:57,954 Right. See, I thought I covered that with "I don't care." 138 00:08:58,621 --> 00:09:00,957 - He has liver cancer. - Uh-huh. 139 00:09:01,041 --> 00:09:04,627 And he's got three months left, maybe four. 140 00:09:05,003 --> 00:09:08,590 Sorry, Matt. I was in with Marker. Miss, do you have an appointment? 141 00:09:08,673 --> 00:09:11,426 - Wouldn't you know if she did? - It was rhetorical. 142 00:09:11,509 --> 00:09:14,054 I need you to show this woman out. Okay? 143 00:09:14,137 --> 00:09:16,306 Then get ahold of Dan Summers at PMO Talent. 144 00:09:16,389 --> 00:09:18,475 I want to talk to him about the Spare Sevens. 145 00:09:18,558 --> 00:09:20,518 Actually, just say that it's urgent. 146 00:09:20,602 --> 00:09:22,771 - Rob Marker's office. - Are you kidding me? 147 00:09:27,442 --> 00:09:29,360 I'll just call security myself. 148 00:09:29,444 --> 00:09:31,362 I don't think you actually have security. 149 00:09:32,447 --> 00:09:33,740 No. No, we don't. 150 00:09:33,823 --> 00:09:35,825 Are you familiar with Kodachrome? 151 00:09:37,243 --> 00:09:40,038 Yes. Paul Simon, 1973. What do you want to know? 152 00:09:40,121 --> 00:09:41,623 Not that. Kodachrome film. 153 00:09:41,706 --> 00:09:45,460 Your father shoots on Kodachrome. He prefers his pictures to be projected... 154 00:09:45,543 --> 00:09:47,962 ...with light rather than printed. I know his spiel. 155 00:09:48,046 --> 00:09:51,716 There's only one place left in the world that processes Kodachrome, 156 00:09:51,800 --> 00:09:54,010 and that's Dwayne's Photo in Parsons, Kansas. 157 00:09:54,094 --> 00:09:56,346 But Kodak decided to stop manufacturing the dyes, 158 00:09:56,429 --> 00:09:59,766 so after next week, it'll be impossible to develop Kodachrome film. 159 00:09:59,849 --> 00:10:01,643 - Amazing. - Your father found four rolls 160 00:10:01,726 --> 00:10:03,061 he shot a long time ago, 161 00:10:03,144 --> 00:10:06,272 and he never got them developed, and it woke something up in him. 162 00:10:06,356 --> 00:10:08,983 He's decided he's going to have one last show. 163 00:10:09,067 --> 00:10:10,652 How about that? Good for him, okay? 164 00:10:10,735 --> 00:10:13,196 This has been very, very... annoying. 165 00:10:13,279 --> 00:10:15,573 - Let me show you out. - Can I just... 166 00:10:16,366 --> 00:10:19,744 Ben needs to get these rolls to Kansas, and he can't fly in his condition. 167 00:10:19,828 --> 00:10:22,330 If only there was a service that delivered overnight. 168 00:10:22,413 --> 00:10:25,083 - Yeah, well, he doesn't trust FedEx. - Of course not. 169 00:10:25,291 --> 00:10:29,546 You're his nurse/assistant/whatever. Don't you have a driver's license? 170 00:10:29,629 --> 00:10:31,381 - Yeah, I do. - There you go. 171 00:10:31,464 --> 00:10:34,634 But Ben wants you to drive him. 172 00:10:36,761 --> 00:10:37,971 Hmm. 173 00:10:38,054 --> 00:10:41,015 I'm gonna try to explain this as clearly as possible for you. 174 00:10:41,516 --> 00:10:44,102 I've not spoken to the man in over a decade. 175 00:10:44,227 --> 00:10:47,730 There's no way in hell I'm going to Kansas with him. Or anywhere. 176 00:10:47,814 --> 00:10:49,232 Come to dinner tonight. 177 00:10:49,315 --> 00:10:51,151 I know I'm talking. I can hear my voice. 178 00:10:51,234 --> 00:10:52,360 Matt! 179 00:10:53,653 --> 00:10:55,697 He's dying. 180 00:10:57,949 --> 00:11:00,785 You should go see him one last time. 181 00:11:03,246 --> 00:11:06,040 (elevator dings, door opens) 182 00:11:08,501 --> 00:11:11,546 There'll be a car waiting for you downstairs. 183 00:11:42,827 --> 00:11:46,331 Hey, Matt. Larry Holdt, Ben's manager. 184 00:11:46,664 --> 00:11:47,957 Yeah, I remember you. 185 00:11:48,625 --> 00:11:51,669 The last time I saw you, you were still a teenager. 186 00:11:53,046 --> 00:11:54,422 That's great. 187 00:11:56,216 --> 00:11:58,176 Well, maybe we should get inside. 188 00:12:04,891 --> 00:12:08,228 (faint rumbling) 189 00:12:11,648 --> 00:12:16,486 (rapid drumming, cymbals crashing) 190 00:12:16,611 --> 00:12:17,820 He's in there. 191 00:12:24,994 --> 00:12:27,455 ♪ You're so good ♪ 192 00:12:29,832 --> 00:12:31,834 ♪ You get me high ♪ 193 00:12:33,294 --> 00:12:36,089 - Hey! - ♪ You're so good for me ♪ 194 00:12:38,383 --> 00:12:40,385 ♪ You're so good for me ♪ 195 00:12:48,685 --> 00:12:50,687 (music stops) 196 00:12:59,821 --> 00:13:01,406 I didn't think you'd come. 197 00:13:06,786 --> 00:13:08,162 Those look familiar. 198 00:13:09,247 --> 00:13:11,207 Well, they should. They're yours. 199 00:13:11,791 --> 00:13:13,793 You wanna bang it around a little? 200 00:13:14,627 --> 00:13:17,171 - No, I don't play anymore. - That's too bad. 201 00:13:18,589 --> 00:13:20,633 'Cause you used to be pretty good. 202 00:13:23,678 --> 00:13:25,471 (exhales) 203 00:13:40,945 --> 00:13:42,488 Oh, sorry for the smell. 204 00:13:43,948 --> 00:13:47,285 You know, the meds they give me give me gas. 205 00:13:50,580 --> 00:13:52,248 (coughing) 206 00:13:56,044 --> 00:13:58,421 (door opens, closes) 207 00:14:16,731 --> 00:14:17,690 So, Matt... 208 00:14:18,691 --> 00:14:22,278 Larry tells me things haven't been going so well for you at the record label. 209 00:14:23,029 --> 00:14:28,159 I was telling Ben that record labels can't find a sustainable business model. 210 00:14:28,242 --> 00:14:31,454 You told me that he was gonna be out on his ass any day now. 211 00:14:31,537 --> 00:14:32,663 Jesus, Ben. 212 00:14:32,747 --> 00:14:35,249 - Where'd you hear that? - Larry knows everything. 213 00:14:35,333 --> 00:14:38,086 - Behave. - I'm dyin'. I don't have time to behave. 214 00:14:38,878 --> 00:14:42,799 Come on. That's bullshit. You were a prick long before cancer. 215 00:14:43,716 --> 00:14:45,093 That's true enough. 216 00:14:46,469 --> 00:14:48,805 - At least you two are talking. - (scoffs) 217 00:14:48,888 --> 00:14:50,139 This is good. 218 00:14:53,434 --> 00:14:55,478 So how much time you got left? 219 00:14:57,855 --> 00:15:00,108 Depends on which doctor you talk to. 220 00:15:00,441 --> 00:15:02,443 I'm betting tits up by New Year's. 221 00:15:04,278 --> 00:15:08,616 Why did you get divorced? She catch you in flagrante with some other babe? 222 00:15:08,699 --> 00:15:09,951 (chuckles) 223 00:15:10,034 --> 00:15:12,203 - You'd like that, wouldn't you? - You catch her? 224 00:15:12,286 --> 00:15:15,248 Because you fucked around on Mom doesn't mean everyone does. 225 00:15:15,331 --> 00:15:16,624 Pace yourselves. 226 00:15:16,707 --> 00:15:19,085 Your mother and I had a complicated relationship. 227 00:15:19,168 --> 00:15:22,004 Complicated by you putting your dick in every woman you met. 228 00:15:22,130 --> 00:15:23,840 Your mother forgave me. 229 00:15:24,382 --> 00:15:27,427 - Yeah. Well, she died alone, Ben. - So will I. 230 00:15:27,552 --> 00:15:29,512 - Yeah, but you deserve to. - Hey. 231 00:15:34,350 --> 00:15:37,728 It's okay. We're just... just catching up here. 232 00:15:37,812 --> 00:15:39,981 - People change. - (Matt and Ben) No, they don't. 233 00:15:41,399 --> 00:15:43,359 (Larry) Why don't we talk about the trip? 234 00:15:43,443 --> 00:15:47,405 I can save us all a lot of trouble here. I'm not going on any trip. 235 00:15:51,033 --> 00:15:52,702 You are a desperate old man. 236 00:15:53,953 --> 00:15:57,165 Tryin' to what? Manufacture some bullshit redemption? 237 00:15:58,416 --> 00:15:59,584 Why? 238 00:15:59,667 --> 00:16:05,173 So you can pretend your empty, selfish life was anything but meaningless? 239 00:16:05,256 --> 00:16:06,924 (slides chair) 240 00:16:07,008 --> 00:16:08,342 Thanks, but no thanks. 241 00:16:09,427 --> 00:16:13,973 Just so you know, when you are dead, no one's gonna care that you're gone. 242 00:16:14,640 --> 00:16:17,351 I mean, maybe these two, but you pay for them. 243 00:16:28,237 --> 00:16:30,239 (exhales) 244 00:16:36,370 --> 00:16:42,001 (phone vibrates) 245 00:16:48,216 --> 00:16:50,676 - Hello? - Matt, Larry Holdt. 246 00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:52,220 - Hey, Larry. - I want to discuss... 247 00:16:52,303 --> 00:16:53,387 (phone beeps) 248 00:17:00,186 --> 00:17:02,313 (vibrating) 249 00:17:03,022 --> 00:17:04,440 Come on, man. 250 00:17:06,526 --> 00:17:07,735 (Larry) Matt, don't hang up. 251 00:17:07,818 --> 00:17:09,779 - Not gonna change my mind, Larry. - I know. 252 00:17:09,862 --> 00:17:12,949 - I'm gonna change it for you. - Oh, you are? Really? How? 253 00:17:13,032 --> 00:17:15,701 Spare Sevens. I can get you a sit-down. 254 00:17:18,454 --> 00:17:20,998 - Go on. - Their manager used to work for me. 255 00:17:21,916 --> 00:17:24,377 He says you've been calling all day. 256 00:17:24,460 --> 00:17:28,548 They're going to be playing in Chicago in a few days. Some radio station thing. 257 00:17:28,631 --> 00:17:30,550 You can swing by on your way. 258 00:17:30,675 --> 00:17:33,177 Wait. Hold on. What do you mean on my way? 259 00:17:33,553 --> 00:17:35,555 You're talking about Kansas, yeah? (scoffs) 260 00:17:35,930 --> 00:17:38,307 Look. I don't know how to make this any more clear. 261 00:17:38,391 --> 00:17:40,309 That's just not going to happen. 262 00:17:40,393 --> 00:17:43,479 Look. Ben needs the show, and you need that meeting 263 00:17:44,063 --> 00:17:47,275 And trust me. This is the only way you'll get it. 264 00:17:50,111 --> 00:17:52,363 I'm not going to go with him, Larry. 265 00:17:53,739 --> 00:17:55,241 It's not happening. 266 00:17:55,741 --> 00:17:57,493 Please, don't call back. 267 00:17:58,035 --> 00:17:59,579 (phone beeps) 268 00:18:04,292 --> 00:18:06,294 (sighs) 269 00:18:18,180 --> 00:18:19,682 Fuck. 270 00:18:21,183 --> 00:18:22,310 (sighs) 271 00:18:38,409 --> 00:18:40,953 Good morning, Matthew. Glad you reconsidered. 272 00:18:42,330 --> 00:18:44,040 So what's up with the Sevens? 273 00:18:44,123 --> 00:18:45,416 Show's Saturday. 274 00:18:46,542 --> 00:18:48,794 I'll make arrangements for a meeting afterwards. 275 00:18:49,378 --> 00:18:50,796 Mm-hmm. 276 00:18:52,632 --> 00:18:55,384 Still drive that, huh? You fix the roof yet? 277 00:18:55,468 --> 00:18:57,720 I'm sorry. Would you like to take your car? 278 00:18:58,346 --> 00:19:01,015 - I don't have a car. - Then that settles that. 279 00:19:01,098 --> 00:19:03,017 The car runs fine, Matt. 280 00:19:03,851 --> 00:19:07,563 - You're going too, huh? - Unless you want to give me my shots. 281 00:19:07,647 --> 00:19:10,566 - Is that okay with you? - Fine with me. 282 00:19:12,401 --> 00:19:15,780 - All right. - Let's go! We're burning daylight. 283 00:19:17,531 --> 00:19:20,993 (female voice) In two miles, merge onto I-80 West. 284 00:19:21,077 --> 00:19:22,787 Do not text and drive, please. 285 00:19:22,870 --> 00:19:26,707 I'm not texting. I'm looking at texts. There's a difference. 286 00:19:26,832 --> 00:19:30,211 Hey, this car doesn't have an iPhone jack or anything like that, does it? 287 00:19:30,336 --> 00:19:34,423 We're strictly analog here. Some cassettes in the glove compartment. 288 00:19:35,132 --> 00:19:39,804 (voice continues) In 1.5 miles, stay to the right to merge onto I-80 West. 289 00:19:39,887 --> 00:19:42,348 Zooey, hand me that thing for a second, will you? 290 00:19:42,431 --> 00:19:44,225 Yeah. 291 00:19:46,894 --> 00:19:48,104 (rattles) 292 00:19:48,187 --> 00:19:52,066 - What the hell are you doing? - Like I said, strictly analog. 293 00:19:52,191 --> 00:19:54,443 We gotta drive halfway across the country. 294 00:19:54,527 --> 00:19:57,863 That's right. I'm not gonna have some robot bitch whinin' in my ear, 295 00:19:57,947 --> 00:20:00,533 sending me on some sterile interstate. 296 00:20:00,616 --> 00:20:04,578 We have a week to get to Kansas. We're taking the scenic route. 297 00:20:05,246 --> 00:20:07,206 We're going to use this map here. 298 00:20:07,707 --> 00:20:10,835 - Remember what a map is? - Yeah. I know what a map is. 299 00:20:10,960 --> 00:20:14,004 (classic rock) 300 00:20:14,088 --> 00:20:15,798 - Turn that up, will you, Zo? - Yeah. 301 00:20:15,881 --> 00:20:17,383 Love this song. 302 00:20:17,466 --> 00:20:23,472 ♪ You've already burned it down ♪ 303 00:20:23,597 --> 00:20:25,057 (ejects tape) 304 00:20:25,141 --> 00:20:27,393 - What are you doing? - Nothing. 305 00:20:30,062 --> 00:20:31,605 (chuckles) 306 00:20:34,316 --> 00:20:35,317 (chuckles) 307 00:20:54,211 --> 00:20:55,337 Ben, you're here. 308 00:21:04,555 --> 00:21:08,309 There's a diner across the street. We should meet up later and grab dinner. 309 00:21:08,476 --> 00:21:10,436 That sounds like a plan. 310 00:21:11,228 --> 00:21:12,646 Yeah, you guys go ahead. 311 00:21:13,063 --> 00:21:16,776 I'm just gonna get in a quick workout, make it an early night. 312 00:21:27,119 --> 00:21:28,370 Hey. 313 00:21:29,997 --> 00:21:31,791 Don't give me that look. 314 00:21:31,874 --> 00:21:35,669 Okay. You know what? You need to let your guard down. 315 00:21:37,171 --> 00:21:40,174 - Excuse me? - Yeah. I know you're scared. 316 00:21:40,257 --> 00:21:42,134 Scared? What am I scared of exactly? 317 00:21:42,218 --> 00:21:44,220 You're scared to open yourself up to him. 318 00:21:44,303 --> 00:21:46,806 You're scared to let yourself love him again. 319 00:21:48,265 --> 00:21:49,683 - Wow. - Don't. 320 00:21:49,767 --> 00:21:52,228 - Wow, that's amazing. - Yeah. Mm-hmm. 321 00:21:52,353 --> 00:21:55,898 Yeah, I mean forget therapy or the facts of my relationship with him, 322 00:21:55,981 --> 00:21:59,276 you spend six hours in a car with me, and you've cracked the code. 323 00:21:59,360 --> 00:22:02,154 - You don't have to be a dick. - No, I don't need to be a dick. 324 00:22:02,238 --> 00:22:05,074 I need to be... less scared to let him in. 325 00:22:05,699 --> 00:22:06,992 Or let him into... 326 00:22:07,409 --> 00:22:09,870 - I'm just saying... - I'll mull it over. 327 00:22:09,954 --> 00:22:11,622 You made the effort to come. 328 00:22:11,705 --> 00:22:14,959 You may as well try and get to know him a little bit. 329 00:22:15,042 --> 00:22:16,335 Watch your fingers. 330 00:22:44,321 --> 00:22:46,323 (muffled laughter) 331 00:22:55,666 --> 00:22:59,378 ♪ I'd like to hold your hand ♪ 332 00:23:00,963 --> 00:23:02,381 (Zooey) Ahh! 333 00:23:02,464 --> 00:23:06,886 ♪ But your hand isn't here anymore ♪ 334 00:23:11,223 --> 00:23:14,643 ♪ I'd like to see your eyes ♪ 335 00:23:18,147 --> 00:23:23,777 ♪ But your eyes do not see any longer ♪ 336 00:23:26,864 --> 00:23:30,784 ♪ I want to walk with you ♪ 337 00:23:33,579 --> 00:23:38,500 ♪ But our walks do not exist any longer ♪ 338 00:23:42,171 --> 00:23:46,133 ♪ No, your eyes do not see anymore ♪ 339 00:23:47,217 --> 00:23:49,053 (Ben) It was 1998 or so, 340 00:23:49,136 --> 00:23:53,515 and I was in the White House doing a spread on Clinton at Bill's request. 341 00:23:53,891 --> 00:23:57,519 It was right after the whole, you know, bullshit impeachment circus. 342 00:23:57,603 --> 00:23:58,896 Bill was trying to prove... 343 00:23:58,979 --> 00:24:01,065 You're calling the Lewinsky scandal bullshit? 344 00:24:01,148 --> 00:24:04,193 He cheated on his wife and lied to the entire country about it. 345 00:24:04,276 --> 00:24:07,404 They all cheat. They all fuck around. You should know that. 346 00:24:07,529 --> 00:24:10,157 - Ben. - What? After the way your marriage ended? 347 00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:12,326 - You're seriously gonna sit here and... - Stop. 348 00:24:12,409 --> 00:24:16,163 What? Just because Matt's here. Don't be an idiot. 349 00:24:16,246 --> 00:24:20,501 - If anybody knows about fuckin' around... - Hey, you need to stop talking now. 350 00:24:21,335 --> 00:24:23,671 - Leave her alone, okay? - It's fine. 351 00:24:25,047 --> 00:24:27,091 I do believe Matt here's defending you. 352 00:24:27,633 --> 00:24:31,303 Just go back to your bullshit stories about you and your fancy friends. 353 00:24:31,387 --> 00:24:33,806 What we're seeing now is jealousy. 354 00:24:34,431 --> 00:24:39,728 Envy and resentment of a man living in the shadow of his father's accomplishments. 355 00:24:40,479 --> 00:24:42,815 Yeah, you've had a great big life. 356 00:24:43,357 --> 00:24:45,484 - Yeah. You're damn straight I did. - Mm-hmm. 357 00:24:47,111 --> 00:24:49,238 Where are all those friends while you're dying? 358 00:24:49,321 --> 00:24:50,197 - Matt. - Alone? 359 00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:51,323 Stop. 360 00:24:51,407 --> 00:24:56,161 My work will live on long after I'm gone. What have you done? 361 00:25:02,668 --> 00:25:06,880 Holy shit. Look at that, man. She's gotta be 250 pounds or something. 362 00:25:07,172 --> 00:25:08,799 That outfit's beautiful. 363 00:25:12,261 --> 00:25:14,388 Can you just try and take it easy on him? 364 00:25:14,471 --> 00:25:17,057 Me? Are you kidding me? I was defending you. 365 00:25:17,141 --> 00:25:23,814 You know, a month from now, two months, he's going to be gone forever. 366 00:25:23,897 --> 00:25:26,567 No, I get it, okay? I understand the concept. 367 00:25:26,650 --> 00:25:29,862 It doesn't give him a free pass to be an asshole to people. 368 00:25:32,156 --> 00:25:34,575 (chuckles) 'Kay. 369 00:25:35,034 --> 00:25:37,077 I'm going to go back to the motel. 370 00:25:41,957 --> 00:25:43,542 Boy. 371 00:25:44,084 --> 00:25:46,462 - Fucking... - (waitress) Here's your check, hon. 372 00:25:47,296 --> 00:25:48,714 Yeah. Thanks. 373 00:25:58,474 --> 00:26:02,728 ♪ Yes, I understand That every life must end ♪ 374 00:26:02,811 --> 00:26:04,813 ♪ Uh-huh ♪ 375 00:26:07,483 --> 00:26:13,072 ♪ As we sit alone I know someday we must go, oh ♪ 376 00:26:14,156 --> 00:26:16,158 (thunder rumbles) 377 00:26:16,241 --> 00:26:22,081 ♪ Oh, I'm a lucky man To count on both hands the ones I love ♪ 378 00:26:25,167 --> 00:26:31,173 ♪ Some folks just have one Yeah, others they got none, uh-huh ♪ 379 00:26:34,343 --> 00:26:37,638 ♪ Stay with me ♪ 380 00:26:37,721 --> 00:26:42,309 ♪ Oh, let's just breathe ♪ 381 00:26:43,977 --> 00:26:47,231 (guitar strumming) 382 00:26:47,314 --> 00:26:50,776 ♪ Ooh ♪ 383 00:26:52,903 --> 00:26:57,908 ♪ Practiced on our sins Never gonna let me win, oh ♪ 384 00:27:01,620 --> 00:27:05,332 (song continues on radio) 385 00:27:05,457 --> 00:27:07,292 What? What's funny? 386 00:27:09,545 --> 00:27:11,004 Uh... 387 00:27:12,297 --> 00:27:16,176 When I was a kid, my mom used to take me up to the Poconos 388 00:27:16,260 --> 00:27:18,137 for a few weeks every summer. 389 00:27:18,220 --> 00:27:22,391 After we'd pass a few of those deer crossing signs that just went by, 390 00:27:23,642 --> 00:27:25,102 I remember I asked her, 391 00:27:26,186 --> 00:27:30,983 "Mom, how do the deers know that's where they're supposed to cross?" 392 00:27:31,066 --> 00:27:32,359 (chuckles) 393 00:27:32,442 --> 00:27:34,403 I was being serious. I was a kid. 394 00:27:34,820 --> 00:27:39,950 But she just laughed her ass off like it was the funniest thing she ever heard. 395 00:27:40,742 --> 00:27:42,286 That felt great, 'cause... 396 00:27:43,954 --> 00:27:46,248 I don't remember her laughing much. 397 00:27:50,085 --> 00:27:51,336 When did she die? 398 00:27:54,381 --> 00:27:55,674 I... 399 00:27:57,759 --> 00:27:59,511 When I was 13. 400 00:28:02,639 --> 00:28:04,725 I'm so sorry. 401 00:28:08,520 --> 00:28:13,692 After that I moved out of New York to live with my aunt and uncle in Cleveland. 402 00:28:15,152 --> 00:28:18,530 Ben was... He was working in Africa at the time. 403 00:28:20,532 --> 00:28:23,202 He didn't even make it back for the funeral. 404 00:28:23,327 --> 00:28:25,579 (Ben) There was a civil war going on. 405 00:28:25,662 --> 00:28:26,914 Mm-hmm. 406 00:28:26,997 --> 00:28:29,499 I'm not making excuses. I'm just... 407 00:28:30,584 --> 00:28:34,796 saying if you think you had it rough, just spend some time and effort. 408 00:28:34,922 --> 00:28:36,757 I'll remember that. 409 00:28:40,594 --> 00:28:42,221 We should go see him. 410 00:28:43,055 --> 00:28:43,889 Go see who? 411 00:28:44,556 --> 00:28:47,768 Your Uncle Dean. Cleveland's only an hour away, 412 00:28:47,851 --> 00:28:51,355 and your "Spare Sister's" thing isn't until tomorrow night. 413 00:28:52,231 --> 00:28:54,358 - (shutter clicks) - I wouldn't mind seeing my brother... 414 00:28:55,234 --> 00:28:58,070 one more time before I leave this planet. 415 00:28:59,154 --> 00:29:00,447 Yeah, but... 416 00:29:01,031 --> 00:29:02,741 Dean hates you. 417 00:29:03,951 --> 00:29:06,787 He doesn't hate me. He's just pissed off at me. 418 00:29:10,499 --> 00:29:14,419 ♪ Nothing you would take ♪ 419 00:29:14,503 --> 00:29:18,507 ♪ Everything you gave ♪ 420 00:29:19,007 --> 00:29:22,177 ♪ Oh, hold me 'till I die ♪ 421 00:29:22,928 --> 00:29:27,933 ♪ Meet you on the other side ♪ 422 00:29:28,100 --> 00:29:30,310 (music ends) 423 00:29:30,394 --> 00:29:32,062 (grunts) 424 00:29:39,820 --> 00:29:41,280 I'll be damned. 425 00:29:41,947 --> 00:29:42,948 Hi, Dean. 426 00:29:45,325 --> 00:29:46,535 You dyin'? 427 00:29:46,618 --> 00:29:49,413 - What? Is it that obvious? - Well, you're here. 428 00:29:50,831 --> 00:29:51,999 Yes, I am 429 00:29:53,667 --> 00:29:55,168 It's good to see you 430 00:29:57,129 --> 00:30:00,882 - Matt, what are you doin' here? - Hi. That is a long story. 431 00:30:00,966 --> 00:30:02,092 Yeah, I bet. 432 00:30:02,759 --> 00:30:05,053 - And who's this? - This is Zooey. 433 00:30:05,137 --> 00:30:06,930 - Yep, Zooey. - Is that Matty? 434 00:30:07,014 --> 00:30:08,140 Nice to meet you. 435 00:30:08,223 --> 00:30:09,641 - Hi! - Hey. 436 00:30:11,560 --> 00:30:12,728 Ben. 437 00:30:13,228 --> 00:30:15,856 - Hi, Sarah. - He's dying. 438 00:30:16,106 --> 00:30:19,026 Well, not in our driveway, he isn't. Bring him on in. 439 00:30:19,109 --> 00:30:22,154 And you! Why didn't you tell me you were coming? 440 00:30:22,237 --> 00:30:24,031 Sorry. It was a last-minute thing. 441 00:30:24,114 --> 00:30:26,700 - Hey! Hi! - This is Zooey. 442 00:30:26,783 --> 00:30:29,828 Oh, Matty. Well, now she's more like it. 443 00:30:29,911 --> 00:30:32,414 I mean, I told him not to marry the other one. 444 00:30:32,497 --> 00:30:36,084 - No, I, um... - Zooey is Ben's nurse. 445 00:30:37,336 --> 00:30:40,255 Oh, because your auras are conjoined. 446 00:30:40,339 --> 00:30:43,175 - I could see that immediately - Yeah. Yeah. 447 00:30:43,425 --> 00:30:46,511 Aunt Sarah here can see auras. 448 00:30:46,595 --> 00:30:49,014 - And she can hear sarcasm. - Of course she can. 449 00:30:49,097 --> 00:30:51,600 - You guys are gonna spend the night? - If that's okay. 450 00:30:51,683 --> 00:30:53,894 Great. Matty, you and Zooey take your old room. 451 00:30:53,977 --> 00:30:56,063 - But we are... not together. - Nope. 452 00:31:08,450 --> 00:31:09,451 Hi. 453 00:31:10,577 --> 00:31:12,371 - Hey. - This was your room. 454 00:31:12,454 --> 00:31:16,750 Yeah. Basically, seventh, eighth grade through high school. 455 00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:19,211 God, you were really into music. 456 00:31:19,711 --> 00:31:24,466 Yep. They say it's the one thing I inherited from Ben. 457 00:31:26,927 --> 00:31:31,640 Actually, I would say that the only memories, or good ones, 458 00:31:31,723 --> 00:31:35,185 at least, that I have of him were listening to music. 459 00:31:35,268 --> 00:31:39,189 We had this little den and this old Fisher stereo. 460 00:31:39,314 --> 00:31:41,358 I mean, new at the time, but... 461 00:31:41,441 --> 00:31:44,528 He'd let me play records when he was goin' through the slides. 462 00:31:44,611 --> 00:31:45,612 Mm-hmm. 463 00:31:45,695 --> 00:31:49,074 So, while most kids had people singin' 'em lullabies to sleep, 464 00:31:49,157 --> 00:31:52,494 - I had Graham Nash singing "Wounded Bird." - (chuckles) 465 00:31:53,453 --> 00:31:55,330 Let's see what we have here. 466 00:31:55,622 --> 00:31:59,459 Ooh! Pearl Jam. Radiohead. 467 00:31:59,543 --> 00:32:02,629 - Nirvana. - What can I say? I was a moody kid. 468 00:32:02,712 --> 00:32:06,466 Yeah, you can tell a lot about someone's past from the music they listened to. 469 00:32:07,384 --> 00:32:09,928 Then I guess you know a lot about my past now. 470 00:32:10,846 --> 00:32:12,931 What do you think I listened to? 471 00:32:15,851 --> 00:32:19,938 Very interesting question. Okay, I'll bite. 472 00:32:20,814 --> 00:32:23,358 But in order to do this to the best of my ability, 473 00:32:23,442 --> 00:32:26,570 I have to actually figure out your exact age, so... excuse this. 474 00:32:26,653 --> 00:32:30,073 This might be a little rude. What are you? Twenty-eight? 475 00:32:30,699 --> 00:32:31,867 - I'm 30. - You are? 476 00:32:31,950 --> 00:32:32,826 - Yeah. - Hey. 477 00:32:32,909 --> 00:32:34,786 - Thank you. - Dodged a bullet there. 478 00:32:34,870 --> 00:32:35,912 (laughs) 479 00:32:35,996 --> 00:32:39,916 So that means you were a freshman in college, like, in 2000. 480 00:32:40,625 --> 00:32:43,503 So then you were into... 481 00:32:44,171 --> 00:32:47,048 Sorry to say, but you're a product of your environment. Top 40. 482 00:32:47,132 --> 00:32:50,510 I'm talking Britney, Christina, boy bands, N'SYNC, Backstreet Boys, 483 00:32:50,594 --> 00:32:52,345 maybe Alanis when you're feeling dark. 484 00:32:52,429 --> 00:32:54,473 - Please give me some credit. - But then... 485 00:32:54,556 --> 00:32:57,893 But then you started to rebel against your middle-class suburban values. 486 00:32:57,976 --> 00:33:00,145 - Is that what I was doing? - Mm-hmm. 487 00:33:00,228 --> 00:33:03,190 Or possibly you met a guy into alternative music. 488 00:33:03,273 --> 00:33:07,569 Why do you assume that I changed for a guy? Maybe he changed for me. 489 00:33:07,652 --> 00:33:11,364 No, no. Guys don't change for girls. Not in college at least. 490 00:33:11,615 --> 00:33:13,950 - When do they change then? - Much later. 491 00:33:15,494 --> 00:33:17,120 Usually when it's too late. 492 00:33:18,538 --> 00:33:21,666 You started to listen to bands you thought would make you edgier, 493 00:33:21,750 --> 00:33:24,419 but you're still hopelessly mainstream. 494 00:33:24,503 --> 00:33:27,881 You're sittin' there in your dorm room, and you're listening to... 495 00:33:29,216 --> 00:33:30,175 Live. 496 00:33:32,219 --> 00:33:34,137 Like who live? What live? 497 00:33:34,221 --> 00:33:37,557 - No, the band, "Live." - I don't know of a band called Live. 498 00:33:37,641 --> 00:33:39,059 Live. You know. Like... 499 00:33:39,142 --> 00:33:40,519 ♪ I alone want you ♪ 500 00:33:40,602 --> 00:33:44,064 I actually could not name a single song that the band Live had. 501 00:33:44,147 --> 00:33:46,733 What about "Lightning Crashes"? Everyone knows that. 502 00:33:46,858 --> 00:33:48,610 ♪ Her placenta falls to the floor ♪ 503 00:33:48,735 --> 00:33:50,403 - Oh, my God! - What? 504 00:33:50,487 --> 00:33:53,990 People know it because it's the only pop song with the word "placenta" in it. 505 00:33:54,074 --> 00:33:57,869 You're really bad at this. I was a weird, sad punk. 506 00:33:57,953 --> 00:34:00,413 - It was the Smiths, Pixies. - But you loved Live. 507 00:34:00,497 --> 00:34:03,583 - Yeah, I loved Live. - Biggest fan. Live's biggest fan. 508 00:34:03,667 --> 00:34:04,876 No, I'm not wrong. 509 00:34:05,794 --> 00:34:07,671 - This isn't bad. - What? 510 00:34:07,754 --> 00:34:09,756 - Galaxie 500. - Oh, yeah. 511 00:34:09,839 --> 00:34:11,424 - Obscure. - Indeed. 512 00:34:11,508 --> 00:34:14,469 - Does your record player still work? - Fucking better. 513 00:34:14,886 --> 00:34:17,013 Let's take it for a spin. 514 00:34:23,019 --> 00:34:24,521 (music starts) 515 00:34:24,646 --> 00:34:28,984 ♪ My head will turn to yellow ♪ 516 00:34:29,401 --> 00:34:34,698 ♪ My eyes will turn to green ♪ 517 00:34:35,907 --> 00:34:40,245 ♪ My voice will turn to mellow ♪ 518 00:34:40,328 --> 00:34:46,334 ♪ But still I can't be seen ♪ 519 00:34:47,877 --> 00:34:52,382 ♪ Melt away ♪ 520 00:34:52,465 --> 00:34:57,596 ♪ I want to melt away ♪ 521 00:34:59,222 --> 00:35:03,685 ♪ Melt away ♪ 522 00:35:03,768 --> 00:35:09,149 ♪ I want to melt away ♪ 523 00:35:10,358 --> 00:35:13,653 (Matt, Zooey chattering, laughing) 524 00:35:13,778 --> 00:35:17,032 How is Hank? Is he married? Is Hank married yet? 525 00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,159 - Yeah. - Yeah. Couple of years now. 526 00:35:19,242 --> 00:35:21,703 - Have any kids? - Not yet, but... 527 00:35:21,786 --> 00:35:24,706 You know, they're so young. There's no rush. 528 00:35:26,124 --> 00:35:28,710 So what's so special about these photographs 529 00:35:28,793 --> 00:35:32,130 you need to drive halfway across the country to get them developed? 530 00:35:32,213 --> 00:35:34,382 It's some of my early work. 531 00:35:34,466 --> 00:35:35,842 Stuff I shot years ago. 532 00:35:36,593 --> 00:35:39,054 What happens if you get 'em back, and they're garbage? 533 00:35:39,137 --> 00:35:40,805 How do you even know what's on them? 534 00:35:40,889 --> 00:35:43,266 I remember every shot I've ever taken. 535 00:35:44,184 --> 00:35:47,020 That's, like, hundreds of thousands of photos. 536 00:35:47,145 --> 00:35:49,773 - You remember all of them? - Yep. 537 00:35:50,315 --> 00:35:51,983 That's impressive. 538 00:35:53,818 --> 00:35:55,320 When's my birthday? 539 00:36:03,828 --> 00:36:06,539 - (Dean) February 19. - (Ben) February 19. 540 00:36:07,165 --> 00:36:09,626 You got it. Yeah. 541 00:36:16,091 --> 00:36:18,093 (Zooey chuckles) 542 00:36:20,095 --> 00:36:21,054 (Sarah chuckles) 543 00:36:21,137 --> 00:36:23,056 - Last one. - Thanks. 544 00:36:23,139 --> 00:36:25,684 It's good to see them together again. 545 00:36:27,352 --> 00:36:29,354 It's good to see you with him. 546 00:36:31,815 --> 00:36:34,484 I don't know. He left us. 547 00:36:35,568 --> 00:36:37,445 Hell, he left you guys too. 548 00:36:38,530 --> 00:36:42,617 Now he's dying, so he comes back, and we're just lettin' him back in. 549 00:36:44,035 --> 00:36:46,287 It's like he's getting away with it. 550 00:36:46,413 --> 00:36:47,872 Matty, look at him. 551 00:36:49,082 --> 00:36:52,627 I mean, does that look like a man who's gotten away with anything? 552 00:36:57,340 --> 00:36:58,842 Mmm. 553 00:36:58,967 --> 00:37:00,218 Okay, I'm gonna... 554 00:37:01,553 --> 00:37:02,887 I'm gonna go upstairs. 555 00:37:03,263 --> 00:37:05,724 Try and get a little work done before I pass out. 556 00:37:08,226 --> 00:37:11,479 Can I take this, put wine it, and drink it in my room? 557 00:37:11,563 --> 00:37:13,273 - Help yourself. - All right. 558 00:37:13,690 --> 00:37:15,567 - 'Night, sweetheart. - 'Night. 559 00:37:15,859 --> 00:37:17,444 - I'm so glad you're here. - Me too. 560 00:37:17,527 --> 00:37:19,404 - I love you. - Love you too. 561 00:37:23,616 --> 00:37:26,369 Hey, guys. I'm going to bed. I'll see you in the morning. 562 00:37:26,453 --> 00:37:28,163 - Okay. - All right. 563 00:37:35,128 --> 00:37:37,338 - You good? - Yeah. 564 00:37:37,422 --> 00:37:40,759 Yeah, no, I'm just a little tired. Gonna get some work done. 565 00:37:41,718 --> 00:37:43,720 I'm glad you're making this trip. 566 00:37:44,721 --> 00:37:48,224 A man should know his father, no matter what kind of bastard he is. 567 00:37:52,812 --> 00:37:54,814 You should come back here more often. 568 00:37:54,898 --> 00:37:58,693 - I know. I'm sorry. - That's okay. End of the lecture. 569 00:37:58,777 --> 00:38:00,487 - It's good to see you. - Thanks. 570 00:38:00,570 --> 00:38:01,905 (kisses) 571 00:38:12,165 --> 00:38:13,082 (knocking) 572 00:38:13,166 --> 00:38:14,292 Yep. 573 00:38:14,959 --> 00:38:16,878 - Hey, I saw... - Hey. 574 00:38:17,128 --> 00:38:20,507 that your light was still on. I got you a glass of water. 575 00:38:20,590 --> 00:38:21,591 - Thanks. - Yeah. 576 00:38:21,674 --> 00:38:23,676 I know those guys can drink, so... 577 00:38:23,760 --> 00:38:26,054 Thought that might help the cause in the morning. 578 00:38:26,137 --> 00:38:27,931 - How are you? - Good. 579 00:38:28,223 --> 00:38:29,891 Is it hard being here? 580 00:38:31,893 --> 00:38:32,852 Um... 581 00:38:33,186 --> 00:38:35,772 - Sorry. Do you want to come in? - Yeah. 582 00:38:37,315 --> 00:38:40,485 No. I mean, me, no. 583 00:38:41,319 --> 00:38:43,488 - Um, can I sit down? - Yeah. 584 00:38:45,031 --> 00:38:48,243 Not weird for me. I guess the weird thing would be... 585 00:38:50,203 --> 00:38:52,580 you know, seein' Ben here. 586 00:38:52,664 --> 00:38:55,041 Is a little, you know, odd. 587 00:39:02,090 --> 00:39:03,007 Oh, um... 588 00:39:03,883 --> 00:39:06,511 Sarah... thinks you're beautiful. 589 00:39:09,013 --> 00:39:11,474 Okay. Cool. (chuckling) 590 00:39:12,141 --> 00:39:13,768 (giggles) 591 00:39:15,436 --> 00:39:16,771 You are though. 592 00:39:18,940 --> 00:39:21,734 - I think you're drunk. - No. 593 00:39:23,611 --> 00:39:26,656 - Maybe. I might be, actually. - (Zooey cackles) 594 00:39:26,739 --> 00:39:29,284 But I'm not saying this 'cause I'm drunk. 595 00:39:29,367 --> 00:39:30,952 And I'm not gonna not say it 596 00:39:31,035 --> 00:39:33,997 'cause I think you'll think I'm only saying it because I'm drunk. 597 00:39:34,497 --> 00:39:36,291 I don't know what we're talking about. 598 00:39:36,374 --> 00:39:38,376 - Oh, you didn't follow that? - No. 599 00:39:38,543 --> 00:39:41,754 Then maybe I am drunk. 'Cause I followed it perfectly. 600 00:39:44,215 --> 00:39:46,759 Oh, this is a bad idea. 601 00:39:47,552 --> 00:39:49,721 - What? We're just talking. - Yeah, well. 602 00:39:49,804 --> 00:39:55,310 Then you have to talk about the fact that you're just talking and not just talking. 603 00:39:56,102 --> 00:39:57,061 Right. 604 00:40:02,609 --> 00:40:05,445 - Wait, I'm sorry. I mean... - Oh! Whoa. 605 00:40:05,570 --> 00:40:08,448 Oh, my God. I'm so sorry. (laughing) 606 00:40:09,032 --> 00:40:10,700 Holy shit. 607 00:40:10,783 --> 00:40:12,869 - Are you okay? - Yeah, I'm okay. 608 00:40:12,952 --> 00:40:14,203 I guess I deserved that. 609 00:40:16,623 --> 00:40:19,792 - Thanks. - (Zooey laughs, sighs) 610 00:40:22,003 --> 00:40:25,632 - Oh, hey, close your eyes. - Are you gonna get weird? 611 00:40:26,507 --> 00:40:29,135 No. No. Just close 'em. 612 00:40:29,802 --> 00:40:31,554 Okay. They're closed. 613 00:40:31,638 --> 00:40:33,348 Hold on a sec. 614 00:40:37,101 --> 00:40:38,770 Okay, you can open 'em now. 615 00:40:40,521 --> 00:40:42,982 Wow. That's really cool. 616 00:40:44,692 --> 00:40:47,654 Yeah, my cousin Hank was really into astronomy. 617 00:40:47,904 --> 00:40:49,989 (chuckles) Yeah, I can tell. 618 00:40:57,121 --> 00:40:59,958 - What, um, Ben was saying... - Mm-hmm. 619 00:41:00,625 --> 00:41:04,170 ...last night at the diner about your... ex-husband? 620 00:41:07,131 --> 00:41:09,884 Is that what happened? He cheated? 621 00:41:13,346 --> 00:41:17,225 Nothing good comes from reliving the past. You know? 622 00:41:19,268 --> 00:41:21,646 You just sound like my ex-wife now. 623 00:41:24,315 --> 00:41:26,234 She used to say that I'd... 624 00:41:27,735 --> 00:41:32,490 I had a tendency to live in the past rather than... embracing the present. 625 00:41:34,826 --> 00:41:36,411 Is that why she left you? 626 00:41:40,248 --> 00:41:42,917 It's never... one thing, now, is it? 627 00:41:44,585 --> 00:41:46,045 What about you? 628 00:41:46,421 --> 00:41:49,424 I don't know. It all just happened so fucking fast. 629 00:41:49,507 --> 00:41:53,636 One moment we're just... we're cruising and then... 630 00:41:55,847 --> 00:41:58,141 the next we're driving off a cliff. 631 00:42:00,143 --> 00:42:02,270 The funny thing is, I actually... 632 00:42:03,438 --> 00:42:07,233 For a moment there, I thought I had it together, you know? 633 00:42:09,318 --> 00:42:11,988 I thought I was someone to be reckoned with. 634 00:42:28,129 --> 00:42:30,715 - (object slips, clatters) - (man groans) 635 00:42:31,632 --> 00:42:34,343 Oh, my God, Ben. Jesus. 636 00:42:35,720 --> 00:42:40,058 - Help. Oh, God. - Ben, what did you do? Are you okay? 637 00:42:40,141 --> 00:42:45,730 Yeah, yeah. I just... I just got dizzy, and I tripped over... 638 00:42:46,355 --> 00:42:48,858 the corner over here. I was gonna take a shower. 639 00:42:48,941 --> 00:42:52,820 Wait for me before you do that. Can you move your fingers? Toes? 640 00:42:53,154 --> 00:42:54,781 - Yeah. - Any dizziness or nausea? 641 00:42:54,864 --> 00:42:56,491 (groans) 642 00:42:56,574 --> 00:42:58,743 - Do you have any pain? - No. 643 00:42:59,118 --> 00:43:00,578 Bend your leg for me. 644 00:43:00,661 --> 00:43:06,375 Wait. Stop gropin' me. Jesus Christ. What are you doin'? 645 00:43:06,459 --> 00:43:08,669 I need to make sure you don't have broken bones. 646 00:43:08,753 --> 00:43:10,671 - Help me up. - I got you. 647 00:43:11,422 --> 00:43:14,717 - Here you go. - Oh, God. Jesus Christ. 648 00:43:14,801 --> 00:43:17,011 - You don't feel pain anywhere? - No. 649 00:43:17,095 --> 00:43:18,763 - Are you sure? - Yeah. 650 00:43:18,846 --> 00:43:20,848 - Oh, my God. - I'm all right. 651 00:43:20,932 --> 00:43:22,934 - (Zooey sighs) - (Ben exhales) 652 00:43:23,101 --> 00:43:27,271 I'm fine. I just need to sit here for a couple minutes. 653 00:43:27,355 --> 00:43:28,898 - Okay. - Yeah. 654 00:43:29,524 --> 00:43:32,902 - Thanks, baby. - Oh, my God. Gave me a heart attack. 655 00:43:41,786 --> 00:43:43,788 - (thuds) - (door slams) 656 00:43:45,248 --> 00:43:47,458 - Hot coffee? - (Zooey) Yes, please. Thank you. 657 00:43:47,542 --> 00:43:51,921 We should be able to get to Chicago by late afternoon at the latest, yeah? 658 00:43:52,004 --> 00:43:56,134 That'll give us five days to get to Kansas before the lab closes. 659 00:43:56,217 --> 00:43:57,426 (Zooey) Mm-hmm. 660 00:43:57,969 --> 00:44:00,304 - So you two are screwing now. - (forks clatter) 661 00:44:02,849 --> 00:44:06,811 I mean, it makes sense. He's low-hanging fruit sexually speaking. 662 00:44:07,520 --> 00:44:10,356 You haven't been laid in what? Three years? 663 00:44:10,439 --> 00:44:13,776 - How about we shut up now, okay? - You like your women damaged. 664 00:44:13,860 --> 00:44:17,738 - You like to damage yours. - Okay, that's enough. Both of you. 665 00:44:22,952 --> 00:44:25,454 I didn't damage you. Did I, Sarah? 666 00:44:30,084 --> 00:44:32,795 - What's he talkin' about? - Ben. 667 00:44:35,214 --> 00:44:38,134 - Sarah, what's he talking about? - Nothing. 668 00:44:39,135 --> 00:44:43,014 A million years ago before we went on our first date. Nothing. 669 00:44:43,097 --> 00:44:45,474 What? Did Sarah never mention that? 670 00:44:46,184 --> 00:44:50,354 I can understand why. It wasn't really very memorable. 671 00:44:51,063 --> 00:44:55,693 Mostly just a lot of dry humping. Had a couple drinks and couldn't quite get... 672 00:44:55,776 --> 00:44:56,819 Shut your mouth, Ben. 673 00:44:56,903 --> 00:45:00,740 Though God knows she tried every trick in the book. 674 00:45:00,823 --> 00:45:02,200 - Shut up. - Dean! 675 00:45:02,283 --> 00:45:07,330 What are you gonna do, Dean? You gonna come over here and hit me? 676 00:45:11,250 --> 00:45:13,044 There's nothin' left to hit. 677 00:45:20,676 --> 00:45:23,346 - (chuckles) - (mutters) Christ. 678 00:45:23,429 --> 00:45:26,515 - (footsteps depart) - (door opens) 679 00:45:26,599 --> 00:45:28,184 (knife scrapes plate) 680 00:45:29,518 --> 00:45:32,188 - What is your fucking problem? - Can we just calm down? 681 00:45:32,271 --> 00:45:35,650 I'm not gonna calm down. Can't watch him shit all over my family. 682 00:45:35,733 --> 00:45:38,945 I'm just bustin' his balls for Christ' sake. He's my kid brother. 683 00:45:40,238 --> 00:45:43,157 He was more of a father to me than you ever were. 684 00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:54,835 I was just busting his balls. 685 00:45:57,255 --> 00:45:58,756 Drama. 686 00:46:43,551 --> 00:46:46,220 Doesn't anyone else see how ridiculous it is? 687 00:46:47,722 --> 00:46:51,851 I mean, don't get me wrong. You're a really good looking girl, Zooey. 688 00:46:51,934 --> 00:46:57,189 You're even sexy in a sloppy kind of way. You got full lips, nice skin, great legs. 689 00:46:58,149 --> 00:47:01,277 And I guess, you know, Matt's in decent enough shape. 690 00:47:01,736 --> 00:47:04,196 He's got no glaringly bad features. 691 00:47:04,280 --> 00:47:08,409 Judging by my own modest dimensions, I doubt he's packing a python in his pants, 692 00:47:08,492 --> 00:47:11,370 but I'm sure it's a perfectly adequate cock in a pinch. 693 00:47:11,454 --> 00:47:13,539 You're thrown together by circumstance. 694 00:47:13,622 --> 00:47:15,875 Neither one of you has demonstrated any ability 695 00:47:15,958 --> 00:47:18,252 to sustain any kind of meaningful relationship. 696 00:47:18,336 --> 00:47:23,632 To the contrary, you're both especially dysfunctional in that regard. 697 00:47:23,716 --> 00:47:28,554 It's going to become very awkward when this situation... goes south, 698 00:47:29,180 --> 00:47:30,514 and it will. 699 00:47:30,931 --> 00:47:32,975 - I mean, look at you. - Shut up. 700 00:47:34,101 --> 00:47:36,020 Okay? Just shut up. 701 00:47:36,354 --> 00:47:37,897 Nothing happened. 702 00:47:39,857 --> 00:47:41,692 - Nothing happened? - Nothing! 703 00:47:42,276 --> 00:47:43,861 You were alone in a room. 704 00:47:43,944 --> 00:47:45,321 - She's drunk. - I wasn't drunk. 705 00:47:45,404 --> 00:47:47,073 - She's coming on to you. - No. 706 00:47:47,156 --> 00:47:51,494 Every star in the sexual galaxy is lined up. You couldn't seal the deal? 707 00:47:51,744 --> 00:47:54,372 What do you need? Landing lights between her legs? 708 00:47:54,455 --> 00:47:55,915 - Thanks for that. - Huh? 709 00:47:55,998 --> 00:47:59,085 - Thanks for that! - Well, no offense. It's just... 710 00:47:59,877 --> 00:48:02,171 It's just disappointing. That's all. 711 00:48:02,963 --> 00:48:05,341 Well, really sorry to disappoint you. 712 00:48:05,925 --> 00:48:07,802 Are you ever happy, Ben? 713 00:48:07,885 --> 00:48:11,263 Let me tell you something. Happiness is bullshit. 714 00:48:11,347 --> 00:48:13,432 It's the great myth of the late 20th century. 715 00:48:13,516 --> 00:48:15,643 You think Picasso was happy? 716 00:48:15,726 --> 00:48:17,728 You think Hemingway was? 717 00:48:18,104 --> 00:48:20,398 Hendrix? They were miserable shits. 718 00:48:20,481 --> 00:48:24,944 No art worth a damn was ever created out of happiness. I can tell you that. 719 00:48:25,528 --> 00:48:30,074 Ambition, narcissism, sex, rage. 720 00:48:30,157 --> 00:48:34,245 Those are the engines that drive every great artist, every great man. 721 00:48:36,330 --> 00:48:38,374 A hole that can't be filled. 722 00:48:41,502 --> 00:48:43,963 That's why we're all such miserable assholes. 723 00:48:44,672 --> 00:48:47,091 So you know you're a miserable asshole. 724 00:48:47,550 --> 00:48:50,678 What? Do you think I'm an idiot? Of course I know. 725 00:48:53,931 --> 00:48:55,182 'Course I know. 726 00:48:55,391 --> 00:48:59,728 (guitar starts) 727 00:49:06,068 --> 00:49:07,403 ♪ Come ♪ 728 00:49:08,154 --> 00:49:12,908 ♪ Husk your limbs to my floor ♪ 729 00:49:17,413 --> 00:49:21,542 ♪ Bones sucking stones ♪ 730 00:49:22,460 --> 00:49:24,920 ♪ Her coming storm ♪ 731 00:49:27,965 --> 00:49:34,555 ♪ Under the lights you went Chemical ashes head down ♪ 732 00:49:39,351 --> 00:49:46,275 ♪ Heart on a diamond thread Fennel and lashes wet down ♪ 733 00:49:51,197 --> 00:49:58,162 ♪ Ooh, ooh, mmm ♪ 734 00:50:02,625 --> 00:50:09,507 ♪ Ooh, ooh, mmm ♪ 735 00:50:12,718 --> 00:50:14,720 (music ends) 736 00:50:17,223 --> 00:50:19,225 (film roll clatters) 737 00:50:20,893 --> 00:50:22,895 (plastic clatters) 738 00:50:49,547 --> 00:50:53,425 You would have saved us all a lot of trouble if you shot digital. 739 00:50:54,218 --> 00:50:55,553 (sighs) 740 00:50:55,636 --> 00:50:58,347 You ever hold a pair of fake tits in your hands? 741 00:50:58,430 --> 00:51:02,268 - (scoffs) What? - No matter how good something looks, 742 00:51:03,769 --> 00:51:06,272 - you can't beat the real thing. - Mm-hmm. 743 00:51:06,355 --> 00:51:10,192 People are taking more pictures now than ever before. 744 00:51:10,776 --> 00:51:14,613 Billions of 'em. But there's no slides, no prints. 745 00:51:15,155 --> 00:51:16,490 They're just data, 746 00:51:16,991 --> 00:51:18,826 electronic dust. 747 00:51:19,326 --> 00:51:23,622 Years from now, when they dig us up, there won't be any pictures to find. 748 00:51:24,915 --> 00:51:29,086 No record of who we were, how we lived. 749 00:51:29,962 --> 00:51:33,924 What's the point of having an artifact if you never see it with your own eyes? 750 00:51:36,427 --> 00:51:38,387 You still talking about film? 751 00:51:41,682 --> 00:51:43,559 Never mind. 752 00:51:43,642 --> 00:51:45,519 Hey, Matt, Matt. 753 00:51:48,439 --> 00:51:52,943 I don't kid myself that I was any kind of husband or father. 754 00:51:54,320 --> 00:51:55,571 It's not about that. 755 00:51:59,408 --> 00:52:01,452 You just never saw me. 756 00:52:04,288 --> 00:52:05,581 Not once, Ben. 757 00:52:07,625 --> 00:52:11,337 I see for a living, Matt. It's what I do. 758 00:52:18,927 --> 00:52:20,846 We better get going. 759 00:52:51,251 --> 00:52:55,464 Hey, we just got to the hotel in Chicago. Thanks for the passes for tonight. 760 00:52:55,547 --> 00:52:59,259 (Larry) I have you booked in St. Louis tomorrow night, then Kansas City, 761 00:52:59,343 --> 00:53:01,637 - then Parsons for Tuesday. - Okay. 762 00:53:02,221 --> 00:53:05,140 That gives you two extra days before the lab closes. 763 00:53:06,225 --> 00:53:09,728 Hey, look, Larry, I'd rather just go straight from St. Louis to Parsons. 764 00:53:09,812 --> 00:53:12,439 I just want to drop off this film and get back to my life. 765 00:53:12,523 --> 00:53:14,525 - If that's all right. - Suit yourself. 766 00:53:14,608 --> 00:53:16,819 - You ready for tonight? - Yeah, I'm ready. 767 00:53:16,902 --> 00:53:19,905 - Don't worry about me, Larry. - Good luck anyway. 768 00:53:20,572 --> 00:53:21,990 Thanks, I guess. 769 00:53:30,916 --> 00:53:33,252 (inhales, exhales) 770 00:53:34,294 --> 00:53:36,296 (samba music) 771 00:53:45,806 --> 00:53:47,558 Uh-oh. Oh. (chuckles) 772 00:53:47,975 --> 00:53:50,936 - Okay. - Go, Zooey. 773 00:53:56,400 --> 00:53:58,235 Oh, hey. 774 00:53:58,944 --> 00:54:02,656 Before I forget. This is your pass for tonight. 775 00:54:03,157 --> 00:54:06,744 - This is the band you're pitchin'? - Yeah. Yeah, that's them. 776 00:54:08,245 --> 00:54:11,081 Why don't you try running your spiel by me? 777 00:54:11,832 --> 00:54:13,876 You know, kick the tires a little bit. 778 00:54:14,793 --> 00:54:16,754 No. No, I'm okay. Thanks though. 779 00:54:16,837 --> 00:54:21,133 Come on. I mean, you're asking a successful band to leave a major label 780 00:54:21,216 --> 00:54:23,218 and trust you at a boutique. 781 00:54:23,719 --> 00:54:24,845 Let's hear it. 782 00:54:26,847 --> 00:54:30,100 Come on. Just give me your pitch. It's good practice. 783 00:54:30,184 --> 00:54:32,853 I mean, your career depends on it, right? 784 00:54:35,647 --> 00:54:36,815 Okay. 785 00:54:38,317 --> 00:54:39,985 We're not corporate. 786 00:54:40,068 --> 00:54:43,572 We're not part of a conglomerate that only worries about the bottom line. 787 00:54:43,655 --> 00:54:47,242 We actually are a company that still believes the artist is visionary, 788 00:54:47,326 --> 00:54:48,994 not just a product. 789 00:54:50,245 --> 00:54:52,956 Yeah, don't say any of that. You sound like a pussy. 790 00:54:53,040 --> 00:54:54,458 Never mind. Bad idea. 791 00:54:54,541 --> 00:54:56,960 You were always a little timid, even as a little kid. 792 00:54:57,044 --> 00:54:59,838 You have any idea how condescending and insulting you can be? 793 00:54:59,922 --> 00:55:02,049 Just listen to me? These guys are surrounded 794 00:55:02,132 --> 00:55:05,093 by people tellin' 'em how great they are all the time. 795 00:55:05,177 --> 00:55:07,513 They need that because they're artists. 796 00:55:07,596 --> 00:55:10,224 We're all just a bunch of insecure bastards. 797 00:55:10,307 --> 00:55:12,476 So you don't tell them how great they are, 798 00:55:12,559 --> 00:55:15,020 you tell 'em what you don't like about 'em. 799 00:55:15,103 --> 00:55:18,607 Speak with authority. Not only will they respect you, 800 00:55:18,690 --> 00:55:21,985 but they'll believe you're the only guy who can fix it. 801 00:55:27,741 --> 00:55:30,661 - Why'd you come on this trip? - What? 802 00:55:30,744 --> 00:55:33,831 Don't tell me it's about this "Seven Sisters" or whoever. 803 00:55:33,914 --> 00:55:36,708 Spare Sevens. Yeah, no. That's why. 804 00:55:42,256 --> 00:55:44,967 And I guess there's part of me 805 00:55:45,050 --> 00:55:48,178 that figured this was the last chance I'd have to see you 806 00:55:48,262 --> 00:55:52,349 and how you measure up against the bastard I've hated all these years. 807 00:55:53,725 --> 00:55:55,227 How am I doing? 808 00:55:56,812 --> 00:55:58,146 You're holding your own. 809 00:56:00,941 --> 00:56:02,860 You wanna know the sad part? 810 00:56:04,820 --> 00:56:06,697 I've actually been trying. 811 00:56:07,948 --> 00:56:10,909 (scoffs) 812 00:56:10,993 --> 00:56:12,995 (hard rock) 813 00:56:13,078 --> 00:56:18,750 ♪ Say your last hallelujah ♪ 814 00:56:18,917 --> 00:56:25,132 ♪ Fight with the great illusion ♪ 815 00:56:25,257 --> 00:56:28,510 ♪ Wake up ♪ 816 00:56:28,594 --> 00:56:33,223 ♪ Come on, take me home ♪ 817 00:56:34,182 --> 00:56:37,269 - What do you think? - I think they're good. 818 00:56:37,352 --> 00:56:38,854 - What? - I think they're good. 819 00:56:38,937 --> 00:56:41,940 I think they could use a new record label though. 820 00:56:42,316 --> 00:56:43,525 I agree. 821 00:56:43,609 --> 00:56:47,321 (loud music continues) 822 00:56:47,404 --> 00:56:50,407 ♪ Wake up ♪ 823 00:56:50,490 --> 00:56:54,870 ♪ Come on, take me home ♪ 824 00:56:54,995 --> 00:57:00,751 (cheering) 825 00:57:02,586 --> 00:57:05,047 (Matt) So... what I was talkin' about earlier... 826 00:57:05,130 --> 00:57:07,758 (man laughing) Thanks. 827 00:57:07,883 --> 00:57:12,304 - Sorry. Matt, Matt. What were you saying? - We're talking about creative control 828 00:57:12,387 --> 00:57:15,057 and support you're not going to find anywhere else. 829 00:57:15,140 --> 00:57:17,768 I just don't think you should be singin' for your supper. 830 00:57:18,518 --> 00:57:21,480 We want to give you the space to record the album 831 00:57:21,563 --> 00:57:23,774 that the whole world is waiting for. 832 00:57:24,983 --> 00:57:26,818 - Yeah. - Yeah. 833 00:57:26,902 --> 00:57:28,862 - But, um... - (people chattering) 834 00:57:29,696 --> 00:57:33,617 I'm going to do that no matter where I am, aren't I? 835 00:57:36,244 --> 00:57:40,207 Yes, no, of course, but what we're offering is... 836 00:57:40,290 --> 00:57:44,002 Matt, you've worked with some serious bands. 837 00:57:44,836 --> 00:57:47,422 And some shit bands if I'm being honest. 838 00:57:47,631 --> 00:57:50,092 A bit of this, a bit of that. 839 00:57:50,717 --> 00:57:52,803 We're on a streak now. 840 00:57:53,595 --> 00:57:56,473 Selling out shows, heavy rotation. 841 00:57:58,725 --> 00:58:00,769 If it ain't broke, and all that. 842 00:58:01,645 --> 00:58:03,438 - Right? - Yeah. No. I, um... 843 00:58:04,606 --> 00:58:06,525 I hear what you're saying. 844 00:58:10,320 --> 00:58:11,571 Matt. 845 00:58:16,034 --> 00:58:17,744 But it is broke, Jasper. 846 00:58:19,246 --> 00:58:20,998 You just don't know it yet. 847 00:58:21,832 --> 00:58:24,626 Or my hunch is... that maybe you do. 848 00:58:25,293 --> 00:58:27,671 You did agree to meet with me tonight, right? 849 00:58:28,547 --> 00:58:29,798 - Yes or no? - Yes. 850 00:58:29,881 --> 00:58:32,384 Yeah, that's right. Yeah. Well done. 851 00:58:32,467 --> 00:58:35,345 So you were honest with me. I'm gonna be honest with you. 852 00:58:36,013 --> 00:58:37,889 I loved your guys' first record. 853 00:58:38,890 --> 00:58:39,850 It was amazing. 854 00:58:40,434 --> 00:58:43,020 Deserves every bit of recognition that it got. 855 00:58:43,103 --> 00:58:45,313 I worked out to it. I fucked to it. 856 00:58:45,397 --> 00:58:47,733 It helped me get through my divorce. 857 00:58:48,442 --> 00:58:50,360 Seriously. It's one of those. 858 00:58:50,652 --> 00:58:52,612 It was incredible. Because it had balls. 859 00:58:52,696 --> 00:58:55,449 It was unique. It was original. It was yours. 860 00:58:56,825 --> 00:58:59,244 Your second album, however, Alibi. 861 00:59:00,454 --> 00:59:03,832 Ironically named, if you ask me, 'cause that thing is anything... 862 00:59:05,250 --> 00:59:06,293 but your first album. 863 00:59:06,376 --> 00:59:08,086 It is at best forgettable. 864 00:59:09,254 --> 00:59:12,299 Teenagers make that music with a fucking laptop. 865 00:59:13,759 --> 00:59:15,177 They do. 866 00:59:15,635 --> 00:59:18,680 I don't know whose idea it was to put that dance track on there, 867 00:59:18,764 --> 00:59:21,850 but I bet it wasn't any of you guys, am I wrong? 868 00:59:22,100 --> 00:59:24,686 You don't look at each other when you play the new songs. 869 00:59:24,770 --> 00:59:28,065 You just look out straight forward, scanning the crowd for girls. 870 00:59:29,816 --> 00:59:32,861 - You're embarrassed. I don't blame you. - What's your point? 871 00:59:32,944 --> 00:59:35,489 I think you're better than that. That's all I'm saying. 872 00:59:35,572 --> 00:59:37,491 'Cause you're an actual fucking rock band. 873 00:59:38,116 --> 00:59:40,702 Drums, guitar, bass, vocals. 874 00:59:41,369 --> 00:59:43,789 Then you add all this other shit you don't need. 875 00:59:44,331 --> 00:59:46,416 You're selling albums, but to who? 876 00:59:46,500 --> 00:59:48,960 People that pay attention to fuckin' commercials. 877 00:59:50,545 --> 00:59:53,799 I want you guys to get back to what you do. 878 00:59:53,882 --> 00:59:57,052 To reclaim what made the Spare Sevens the Spare Sevens. 879 00:59:57,135 --> 01:00:00,430 If you don't, you're just going to be another casualty of the machine. 880 01:00:01,348 --> 01:00:04,768 If I didn't believe this, if I didn't believe in you, I wouldn't be here. 881 01:00:06,144 --> 01:00:09,439 You have no fucking idea what it took me to get here. 882 01:00:10,982 --> 01:00:14,027 (sniffs, sighs) 883 01:00:19,616 --> 01:00:21,785 Fuck. (chuckles) 884 01:00:21,910 --> 01:00:23,245 Fuck, man. 885 01:00:28,667 --> 01:00:32,003 You've got a massive pair of balls on you, don't you? 886 01:00:32,504 --> 01:00:33,421 Yeah. 887 01:00:33,839 --> 01:00:37,551 - They make my dick look really small. - (men laugh) 888 01:00:43,265 --> 01:00:46,017 Okay, man. (clears throat) 889 01:00:48,186 --> 01:00:49,312 Okay. 890 01:00:50,522 --> 01:00:52,315 How do you see this working? 891 01:00:52,941 --> 01:00:55,026 Glad you asked.(chuckles) 892 01:00:55,152 --> 01:00:58,280 - I have to take a look at your contract. - This geezer pissed himself. 893 01:00:59,114 --> 01:01:01,074 This geezer pissed his pants! 894 01:01:01,199 --> 01:01:03,827 (laughing) 895 01:01:04,953 --> 01:01:09,249 Get the old codger a nappy. Get him a diaper! 896 01:01:09,332 --> 01:01:10,542 (laughing continues) 897 01:01:10,625 --> 01:01:11,751 Shit! 898 01:01:11,835 --> 01:01:13,837 Fucking hope not. 899 01:01:13,962 --> 01:01:15,338 (laughter continues) 900 01:01:15,463 --> 01:01:17,048 Get him out. 901 01:01:18,216 --> 01:01:20,385 (Ben) I don't even know what happened. 902 01:01:20,719 --> 01:01:23,346 (Jasper) Sorry. Sorry, Matt. 903 01:01:24,014 --> 01:01:25,557 What were you sayin'? 904 01:01:27,350 --> 01:01:28,602 Matt? 905 01:01:29,644 --> 01:01:31,021 Um... 906 01:01:32,397 --> 01:01:33,648 (scoffs) 907 01:01:33,732 --> 01:01:38,278 You guys are newly famous, so by default you're going to be assholes. 908 01:01:38,695 --> 01:01:39,613 What? 909 01:01:39,696 --> 01:01:43,909 The sad thing is there's a big part of me that would still love to sign you. 910 01:01:46,536 --> 01:01:50,540 But I can't even pretend to have anywhere... 911 01:01:52,417 --> 01:01:55,128 close to some type of respect for any of you. 912 01:01:56,046 --> 01:01:57,380 Um... 913 01:01:59,424 --> 01:02:03,261 You know what? Thank you for the beer. 914 01:02:03,845 --> 01:02:05,263 And good luck. 915 01:02:06,056 --> 01:02:07,140 Matt. 916 01:02:46,221 --> 01:02:47,097 I got it. 917 01:02:49,140 --> 01:02:51,142 Here. Keep the change. 918 01:02:53,019 --> 01:02:54,479 You're welcome. 919 01:02:57,023 --> 01:02:59,150 I'll see you guys in a little bit, all right? 920 01:02:59,234 --> 01:03:02,696 - Where are you goin'? - Just gonna take a few moments 921 01:03:02,779 --> 01:03:04,281 to collect my thoughts. 922 01:03:04,656 --> 01:03:07,701 By that, I mean I'm gonna get fucked up across the street. 923 01:03:10,620 --> 01:03:14,082 - Well, that was something, huh? - That was stupid. 924 01:03:15,917 --> 01:03:18,420 What? He should have closed the deal. 925 01:03:18,753 --> 01:03:20,755 He was defending you. 926 01:03:20,839 --> 01:03:22,966 Don't put this on me. It wasn't my fault. 927 01:03:23,049 --> 01:03:25,677 - That's not the point. - I'm standing here in my own piss. 928 01:03:25,760 --> 01:03:28,013 Maybe you could try to get to the goddamn point. 929 01:03:28,096 --> 01:03:31,349 The point is, you're gonna thank him tonight, and you're gonna mean it. 930 01:03:31,433 --> 01:03:32,517 Uh-huh. 931 01:03:32,600 --> 01:03:34,477 Ben. Ben! 932 01:03:38,148 --> 01:03:41,151 I... I can't do this anymore. 933 01:03:44,029 --> 01:03:46,239 I love you, and you know that but... 934 01:03:47,157 --> 01:03:50,035 you don't make it easy. You make it virtually impossible. 935 01:03:50,118 --> 01:03:53,204 But Matt, he's here for you. It doesn't matter what he says. 936 01:03:53,288 --> 01:03:57,042 He... He came on this trip for you. 937 01:03:57,834 --> 01:04:02,422 You have done nothing to earn his love, but tonight he gave it to you anyway. 938 01:04:02,505 --> 01:04:07,469 And he did that for you, and if you can't find it in yourself 939 01:04:07,552 --> 01:04:11,014 to show your son. Just, like, an ounce of kindness, 940 01:04:11,097 --> 01:04:15,060 then I... I can't... I'm done defending you. 941 01:04:15,143 --> 01:04:16,478 I can't be your nurse. 942 01:04:18,146 --> 01:04:20,065 I don't know how to help you. 943 01:04:23,735 --> 01:04:25,070 Are you done? 944 01:04:26,946 --> 01:04:27,947 Yeah. 945 01:04:30,408 --> 01:04:31,409 Okay. 946 01:04:34,829 --> 01:04:38,249 - What does that mean? "Okay." - You're fired. 947 01:04:59,854 --> 01:05:01,272 Is someone sitting here? 948 01:05:05,527 --> 01:05:06,528 No. 949 01:05:11,616 --> 01:05:12,617 How's he doing? 950 01:05:13,201 --> 01:05:16,413 He's overcome with gratitude. 951 01:05:18,498 --> 01:05:21,334 - Really? - No. Mm-mmm. 952 01:05:21,501 --> 01:05:23,169 Nope. I need a drink. 953 01:05:24,045 --> 01:05:24,879 Hey, 954 01:05:24,963 --> 01:05:31,094 can I please get, like, any semi-decent reposado on ice, please? 955 01:05:31,928 --> 01:05:35,056 - Let me ask you something. You were there. - Mm-hmm. 956 01:05:35,640 --> 01:05:38,726 It was happening, right? Like before I had my little freak out? 957 01:05:38,810 --> 01:05:41,980 - I had 'em, yeah? - Yeah. You did. 958 01:05:44,023 --> 01:05:47,569 - So I really screwed myself. Okay. - That's not how I see it. 959 01:05:49,821 --> 01:05:51,698 I appreciate that, but... 960 01:05:52,490 --> 01:05:55,702 I don't know if you realize what kind of opportunities are out there 961 01:05:55,785 --> 01:05:57,328 for a guy like me at this point. 962 01:05:57,412 --> 01:05:59,038 Like, a handful? 963 01:05:59,539 --> 01:06:02,459 Mmm. Zero... is the right answer. 964 01:06:03,543 --> 01:06:07,046 Then, once word of this gets out, it's gonna be even less. 965 01:06:07,839 --> 01:06:09,841 (phone dings, vibrates) 966 01:06:11,342 --> 01:06:14,053 - The word is officially out. - And are you fired? 967 01:06:14,262 --> 01:06:16,097 Uh, no. Not quite. 968 01:06:16,181 --> 01:06:18,516 - Apparently I'm "fried." - (Zooey chuckles) 969 01:06:19,058 --> 01:06:21,895 - Now I'm fired. There we go. - Good. (laughs) 970 01:06:21,978 --> 01:06:26,483 - Don't laugh. At least you got a job. - Oh, no. I was actually just fired too. 971 01:06:27,901 --> 01:06:29,777 - You're joking. - No. I'm not. 972 01:06:29,861 --> 01:06:34,115 - What? Why? - It's fine. He does it a lot actually. 973 01:06:34,824 --> 01:06:36,409 - (chuckles) - (snorts) 974 01:06:36,493 --> 01:06:38,828 - So, cheers to that. - Cheers. 975 01:06:38,912 --> 01:06:40,538 - Cheers. - Cheers. Here we go. 976 01:06:43,708 --> 01:06:44,542 (exhales) 977 01:06:44,626 --> 01:06:46,085 - Want another one? - No! God! 978 01:06:46,169 --> 01:06:48,254 - If I had any more, I'd get surly. - Oh, yeah? 979 01:06:48,338 --> 01:06:50,423 - Yeah. - I'd pay to see that. Are you sure? 980 01:06:50,507 --> 01:06:52,884 Okay, well, that would be your funeral, buddy. 981 01:06:52,967 --> 01:06:54,886 - (phone dings) - (groans) 982 01:06:55,720 --> 01:06:57,180 What's this? 983 01:06:59,057 --> 01:07:02,268 ♪ The angel opens her eyes ♪ 984 01:07:04,812 --> 01:07:06,814 ♪ Pale blue-colored eyes ♪ 985 01:07:06,898 --> 01:07:08,650 - This is Live. - What? 986 01:07:08,733 --> 01:07:12,070 You're singing Live right now. You said you didn't know the band Live. 987 01:07:12,153 --> 01:07:14,280 - This is Live. You're singing it. - No. 988 01:07:14,364 --> 01:07:16,407 I think you're drunk. You're hallucinating. 989 01:07:16,491 --> 01:07:17,700 No, I heard you. 990 01:07:17,784 --> 01:07:22,956 - ♪ Oh, now feel it, comin' back again ♪ - Uh-huh. 991 01:07:23,039 --> 01:07:26,376 - ♪ Like a rollin' thunder ♪ - You lied to me. 992 01:07:26,459 --> 01:07:28,461 ♪ Chasing the wind ♪ 993 01:07:28,545 --> 01:07:33,174 ♪ Forces pullin' from The center of the earth again ♪ 994 01:07:33,258 --> 01:07:37,804 ♪ I can feel it ♪ 995 01:07:38,429 --> 01:07:44,102 ♪ I can feel it, ow ♪ 996 01:07:44,269 --> 01:07:46,271 (music continues) 997 01:07:51,234 --> 01:07:55,029 ♪ Oh, I ♪ 998 01:07:55,113 --> 01:07:58,825 ♪ Oh, I ♪ 999 01:08:00,034 --> 01:08:04,330 ♪ Oh, I ♪ 1000 01:08:07,667 --> 01:08:12,630 ♪ I can feel it coming back again ♪ 1001 01:08:13,214 --> 01:08:18,052 ♪ Like a rollin' thunder Chasing the wind ♪ 1002 01:08:18,136 --> 01:08:22,807 ♪ Forces pullin' from The center of the earth again ♪ 1003 01:08:23,308 --> 01:08:26,227 - ♪ I can feel it ♪ - Well, I should probably... 1004 01:08:28,021 --> 01:08:32,734 ♪ I can feel it coming back again ♪ 1005 01:08:33,109 --> 01:08:37,780 ♪ Like a rollin' thunder Chasing the wind ♪ 1006 01:08:37,864 --> 01:08:42,785 ♪ Forces pullin' from The center of the earth again ♪ 1007 01:08:42,869 --> 01:08:46,122 ♪ I can feel it ♪ 1008 01:08:47,832 --> 01:08:52,629 ♪ I can feel it coming back again ♪ 1009 01:08:52,712 --> 01:08:57,759 ♪ Like a rolllin' thunder Chasing the wind ♪ 1010 01:08:57,842 --> 01:09:02,555 ♪ Forces pulling From the center of the earth again ♪ 1011 01:09:02,639 --> 01:09:07,644 ♪ I can feel it ♪ 1012 01:09:08,269 --> 01:09:12,065 (music fades) 1013 01:09:13,775 --> 01:09:19,697 - (light footsteps) - (objects rustling) 1014 01:09:19,822 --> 01:09:20,698 Hey. 1015 01:09:21,032 --> 01:09:24,827 - What are you doing? - I'm going to the airport. 1016 01:09:25,953 --> 01:09:30,291 - What are you talkin' about? - Yeah. This was a mistake. 1017 01:09:31,751 --> 01:09:33,252 No, it wasn't. 1018 01:09:33,336 --> 01:09:34,837 Hey, slow down. 1019 01:09:34,921 --> 01:09:39,217 I've already called a nurse to replace me and... 1020 01:09:40,426 --> 01:09:42,887 she should probably be here by breakfast. 1021 01:09:43,012 --> 01:09:46,265 Hey, Zooey. Come on. What is this? What's goin' on here? 1022 01:09:48,101 --> 01:09:50,561 Hey, come on. You can't just leave. 1023 01:09:50,853 --> 01:09:53,147 - What about Ben? - He fired me last night. 1024 01:09:53,272 --> 01:09:54,649 He fires you all the time. 1025 01:09:54,732 --> 01:09:57,527 - Yeah. Now I'm takin' him up on it. - Okay, but why now? 1026 01:09:57,610 --> 01:10:00,113 - Why? What is going on? - I can't do this, okay? 1027 01:10:00,196 --> 01:10:02,156 Do what? What are you talking about? 1028 01:10:02,240 --> 01:10:05,368 - I'm not going to hurt you. - You don't know that. 1029 01:10:05,952 --> 01:10:08,871 Look. I get it, okay? Your husband cheated on you. 1030 01:10:08,955 --> 01:10:10,248 I'm not him. 1031 01:10:10,331 --> 01:10:14,001 Okay, well, he didn't cheat on me. I cheated on him. 1032 01:10:14,127 --> 01:10:18,506 And I couldn't even tell you why. I went and fucked someone. 1033 01:10:20,758 --> 01:10:24,011 So what? So what? You made a mistake. 1034 01:10:24,095 --> 01:10:26,222 It was three years ago. He was the wrong guy. 1035 01:10:26,305 --> 01:10:28,683 No. I am the wrong girl. 1036 01:10:29,892 --> 01:10:33,354 Zooey, what about, "Nothing good comes from living in the past." 1037 01:10:33,438 --> 01:10:36,399 Yeah, and then you told me I sounded like your ex-wife. 1038 01:10:45,992 --> 01:10:47,994 (sighs) 1039 01:11:11,809 --> 01:11:13,895 (knocking) 1040 01:11:16,105 --> 01:11:17,106 Ben. 1041 01:11:20,777 --> 01:11:21,778 Hey. 1042 01:11:27,450 --> 01:11:28,618 Hello? 1043 01:11:29,827 --> 01:11:33,039 Thanks, man. I appreciate it. It will just take a second. 1044 01:11:33,122 --> 01:11:35,500 He's probably just in here. Hey, Ben? 1045 01:11:37,919 --> 01:11:40,630 Oh, shit! Hey! Ben! 1046 01:11:41,088 --> 01:11:42,715 Ben! Are you okay? 1047 01:11:42,799 --> 01:11:45,510 Sir! Sir! Go get help! Please! 1048 01:11:46,260 --> 01:11:48,429 - It's okay. You all right? - (groan) 1049 01:11:48,513 --> 01:11:50,306 - This is Beta One, come in. - (woman) Go ahead. 1050 01:11:50,389 --> 01:11:53,684 - Will you get help? - We have a possible Code Blue in 428. 1051 01:11:53,768 --> 01:11:54,894 It's okay. 1052 01:12:05,071 --> 01:12:09,075 (talking on PA, indistinct) 1053 01:12:14,163 --> 01:12:15,748 (light knocking) 1054 01:12:20,002 --> 01:12:24,674 So I checked in with Ben's oncologist in New York and shared some blood work. 1055 01:12:25,758 --> 01:12:30,721 We can keep him comfortable, but at this stage of cancer, that's all we can do. 1056 01:12:31,305 --> 01:12:33,766 Now we can arrange for his transfer to hospice, 1057 01:12:33,850 --> 01:12:37,687 but I am afraid he will not be able to travel back to New York. 1058 01:12:39,605 --> 01:12:42,733 We're actually on our way to... Kansas. 1059 01:12:43,693 --> 01:12:45,236 Oh, that's off the table. 1060 01:12:46,237 --> 01:12:47,947 Matt, your father is very weak, 1061 01:12:48,030 --> 01:12:52,910 and while we can keep him comfortable here, he really doesn't have much longer. 1062 01:12:53,828 --> 01:12:54,954 I'm sorry. 1063 01:12:56,247 --> 01:12:58,374 I'll check back in in a little bit. 1064 01:13:00,209 --> 01:13:02,169 - Yeah. Thank you. - You're welcome. 1065 01:13:08,259 --> 01:13:12,513 (talking on PA, indistinct) 1066 01:13:31,073 --> 01:13:32,825 Coffee smells good. 1067 01:13:35,119 --> 01:13:36,245 Hey. 1068 01:13:37,246 --> 01:13:38,623 You want some? 1069 01:13:40,833 --> 01:13:42,835 (Ben grunts) 1070 01:13:55,473 --> 01:13:56,766 (sighs) 1071 01:13:58,601 --> 01:14:00,061 (groans) 1072 01:14:01,270 --> 01:14:02,730 (exhales) 1073 01:14:04,440 --> 01:14:05,691 How are you feeling? 1074 01:14:07,735 --> 01:14:10,696 I'm dying. That's how I'm feeling. 1075 01:14:12,406 --> 01:14:13,741 (sighs) 1076 01:14:13,824 --> 01:14:15,409 How long have I been here? 1077 01:14:17,244 --> 01:14:19,497 Like a day and a half... about. 1078 01:14:22,833 --> 01:14:24,126 Where's Zooey? 1079 01:14:26,545 --> 01:14:29,215 - She left. - Is she gone? 1080 01:14:30,216 --> 01:14:35,429 I fired her before. It's the first time she ever actually left. 1081 01:14:37,848 --> 01:14:40,685 Do me a favor. Don't tell her I'm here 1082 01:14:40,768 --> 01:14:42,895 She might blame herself. 1083 01:14:43,479 --> 01:14:44,855 Of course. 1084 01:15:32,737 --> 01:15:36,615 (film canister, camera door rattling) 1085 01:15:55,718 --> 01:15:56,719 Need help? 1086 01:16:04,143 --> 01:16:07,646 - Goes in that little slot there. - Yeah, I know. I remember. 1087 01:16:08,439 --> 01:16:10,983 Stretch it out. Nice and tight. 1088 01:16:12,068 --> 01:16:14,570 Line it up so the teeth will bite. 1089 01:16:15,362 --> 01:16:17,448 - Click it twice. - That's right. Yeah. 1090 01:16:18,741 --> 01:16:20,034 Yep. 1091 01:16:21,368 --> 01:16:22,536 Good job. 1092 01:16:30,127 --> 01:16:31,712 I used to feed you. 1093 01:16:32,421 --> 01:16:34,507 (chuckles) What? 1094 01:16:35,216 --> 01:16:37,593 At night while your mother slept. 1095 01:16:39,345 --> 01:16:40,763 Give you the bottle. 1096 01:16:44,517 --> 01:16:50,731 We were staying in this crappy little apartment, Lower East Side. 1097 01:16:53,317 --> 01:16:57,530 Then afterwards you'd lie... you'd just lie there... 1098 01:16:58,447 --> 01:17:00,908 with your head on my chest. 1099 01:17:02,576 --> 01:17:04,578 You had this... 1100 01:17:05,830 --> 01:17:08,666 smell, you know, the way babies smell. 1101 01:17:10,292 --> 01:17:11,627 And I would just... 1102 01:17:12,336 --> 01:17:14,213 I'd just hold you. 1103 01:17:16,757 --> 01:17:18,384 Feeling you breathe. 1104 01:17:24,140 --> 01:17:26,767 I'd make all these promises to you. 1105 01:17:30,771 --> 01:17:33,649 Tell you that I'd love you forever, 1106 01:17:35,067 --> 01:17:37,069 always keep you safe, 1107 01:17:42,032 --> 01:17:44,160 never let you feel alone. 1108 01:17:49,123 --> 01:17:51,709 (sniffs) I was just filled with this... 1109 01:17:54,378 --> 01:17:56,672 infinite love for you. 1110 01:17:58,549 --> 01:17:59,842 (chuckles) 1111 01:18:08,934 --> 01:18:14,106 I don't know what happened to me, what broke inside of me. 1112 01:18:16,942 --> 01:18:19,612 Maybe I was always broken. I don't know. 1113 01:18:21,405 --> 01:18:23,866 But those nights with you, if I could... 1114 01:18:25,117 --> 01:18:29,413 get to choose what time of my life to live in forever, that would be it. 1115 01:18:32,333 --> 01:18:37,630 That would be it. And I'm not asking you to forgive me. I don't deserve.... 1116 01:18:44,136 --> 01:18:45,638 I just... 1117 01:18:46,347 --> 01:18:47,556 (laughs) 1118 01:18:52,144 --> 01:18:53,604 I love you. 1119 01:18:54,855 --> 01:18:56,440 I do. I really do. 1120 01:18:59,818 --> 01:19:01,070 And I'm sorry. 1121 01:19:05,324 --> 01:19:06,617 (sniffles) 1122 01:19:25,719 --> 01:19:27,680 It's okay. 1123 01:19:27,763 --> 01:19:30,307 Go to sleep. Okay? You're tired. 1124 01:20:32,536 --> 01:20:33,954 Knock, knock. 1125 01:20:34,830 --> 01:20:36,498 What do you got there? 1126 01:20:37,124 --> 01:20:38,292 Your getaway vehicle. 1127 01:20:39,168 --> 01:20:43,047 If we're gonna get that film to Dwayne's, we gotta drive through the night. 1128 01:20:43,130 --> 01:20:45,674 Tomorrow is the last day they're developing Kodachrome. 1129 01:20:46,133 --> 01:20:48,302 Never gonna let you take me out of here. 1130 01:20:48,385 --> 01:20:50,304 That's why I'm not gonna ask. 1131 01:20:56,727 --> 01:20:59,855 It appears I got this tube in my dick. 1132 01:21:00,606 --> 01:21:04,193 - Shit. - It's all right. I can get it. I got it. 1133 01:21:04,276 --> 01:21:07,154 What do you mean you can get it? No. No, no, no, no. Hey! 1134 01:21:07,654 --> 01:21:11,533 You can't pull out your own catheter! Stop it! Stop it! That's crazy! 1135 01:21:11,617 --> 01:21:13,077 Oh, God. 1136 01:21:13,160 --> 01:21:15,871 - Dad! Don't! - (groans) 1137 01:21:15,954 --> 01:21:17,122 (laughs quietly) 1138 01:21:18,415 --> 01:21:21,919 (chortles) Fuck you. Get dressed. 1139 01:21:22,002 --> 01:21:24,963 - I got you. - You did get me. Here. 1140 01:21:28,550 --> 01:21:35,224 ♪ Caught in a minute In a dream that I had ♪ 1141 01:21:35,766 --> 01:21:42,314 ♪ Everything is perfect They're letting go of the past ♪ 1142 01:21:43,190 --> 01:21:49,947 ♪ Stop in the middle with a dream in my head ♪ 1143 01:21:50,656 --> 01:21:57,579 ♪ Living the moment up on the edge ♪ 1144 01:21:57,704 --> 01:22:04,044 ♪ Somewhere else But you are somewhere else ♪ 1145 01:22:05,462 --> 01:22:11,760 ♪ Somewhere else But you are somewhere else ♪ 1146 01:22:12,803 --> 01:22:19,393 ♪ Rocks form the house It is falling apart ♪ 1147 01:22:20,269 --> 01:22:26,650 ♪ Everything feels right right here Right from the start ♪ 1148 01:22:27,484 --> 01:22:32,281 ♪ Floating in the river Uh-oh, holding your hand ♪ 1149 01:22:32,406 --> 01:22:34,741 Parsons? 1150 01:22:36,785 --> 01:22:38,162 Parsons. 1151 01:22:38,704 --> 01:22:41,498 ♪ I am your man ♪ 1152 01:22:42,249 --> 01:22:48,088 ♪ Somewhere else But you are somewhere else ♪ 1153 01:22:49,756 --> 01:22:55,846 ♪ Somewhere else But you are somewhere else ♪ 1154 01:22:57,097 --> 01:23:03,604 ♪ Somewhere else But you are somewhere else ♪ 1155 01:23:04,354 --> 01:23:06,648 ♪ Somewhere else ♪ 1156 01:23:06,732 --> 01:23:10,194 (man) It has been this way for the last few months or so. 1157 01:23:10,694 --> 01:23:15,574 People coming in from all over the world, all just to develop some film. 1158 01:23:16,742 --> 01:23:20,579 If you ask me, they should stop making film every year. 1159 01:23:22,956 --> 01:23:26,001 All right, I've got you in a single, king. 1160 01:23:26,084 --> 01:23:30,631 No. No, we had... two rooms. Separate rooms reserved. 1161 01:23:30,756 --> 01:23:34,968 - Actually, three, but we only need two. - I'm sorry. It's been insane. 1162 01:23:35,052 --> 01:23:37,763 Just... we don't know who's coming and who's going. 1163 01:23:37,846 --> 01:23:40,057 Right now all I've got is the one room. 1164 01:23:41,975 --> 01:23:43,519 One sec. 1165 01:23:49,525 --> 01:23:51,902 - We'll take it. - Super. 1166 01:23:52,819 --> 01:23:56,240 I should have it ready for you in three or four hours. 1167 01:23:57,324 --> 01:23:59,576 - Super... - Fuck you. That's fucking cra... Okay. 1168 01:23:59,743 --> 01:24:01,537 That's great. That's great. 1169 01:24:02,871 --> 01:24:05,832 Sorry. Long drive. That's great. 1170 01:24:08,126 --> 01:24:09,378 Watch your step. 1171 01:24:15,759 --> 01:24:17,386 - Hi. - Hey. 1172 01:24:17,678 --> 01:24:19,471 - Um... - (Ben stammers) 1173 01:24:19,555 --> 01:24:24,685 Excuse me. I wanted to give these rolls to Dwayne personally. 1174 01:24:26,186 --> 01:24:28,897 I'm sorry. We stopped taking Kodachrome yesterday. 1175 01:24:30,148 --> 01:24:33,318 You what? No. I called to confirm. We were told Thursday. 1176 01:24:33,777 --> 01:24:36,863 I know. I'm sorry. We ran out of dye sooner than expected. 1177 01:24:37,864 --> 01:24:42,035 Come on. Look, we just drove 2,000 miles to get here. I just... 1178 01:24:42,119 --> 01:24:44,329 - Where's Dwayne? - Ben Ryder. 1179 01:24:44,413 --> 01:24:46,290 - There he is. - You made it. 1180 01:24:46,415 --> 01:24:48,333 - How you doin'? - Good to see you. 1181 01:24:48,417 --> 01:24:51,962 Your assistant here just told me you're not processing any more Kodachrome. 1182 01:24:52,045 --> 01:24:54,840 - She's fired. You're fired. - Okay, Dad. 1183 01:24:55,257 --> 01:24:58,760 Honey, this is Benjamin Asher Ryder, 1184 01:24:58,885 --> 01:25:01,221 one of the world's greatest living photographers. 1185 01:25:01,305 --> 01:25:03,390 How do you do? This is my son, Matt. 1186 01:25:03,473 --> 01:25:05,392 - Matt, nice to meet you. - You too. 1187 01:25:06,101 --> 01:25:09,563 Well, Ben, I will process these myself. 1188 01:25:09,646 --> 01:25:13,025 I left a little room in the line on the off chance you made it. 1189 01:25:13,108 --> 01:25:15,777 Yeah, I was countin' on it. I appreciate it. 1190 01:25:16,486 --> 01:25:19,031 Can you believe it? The end of an era. 1191 01:25:20,449 --> 01:25:23,910 I will have these ready for you to pick up tomorrow. 1192 01:25:24,286 --> 01:25:26,830 - Okay. Thank you. - You're welcome. 1193 01:25:31,793 --> 01:25:33,253 We could get food. You hungry? 1194 01:25:33,337 --> 01:25:35,505 Yeah, I should put something in my stomach. 1195 01:25:35,589 --> 01:25:36,590 Yeah, same. 1196 01:25:37,716 --> 01:25:40,594 I'm sorry. Aren't you Benjamin Ryder? 1197 01:25:41,178 --> 01:25:43,388 - That's right. - I don't believe it. 1198 01:25:43,555 --> 01:25:47,184 I should have known you'd be here. I was talking about you to Steve McCurry. 1199 01:25:47,267 --> 01:25:48,935 I figured Steve would be here. 1200 01:25:49,561 --> 01:25:52,230 - Ernie Coates from National Geographic. - Ernie. 1201 01:25:52,314 --> 01:25:55,400 You did that piece in Afghanistan, didn't you? Yeah, that was great. 1202 01:25:55,484 --> 01:25:56,401 Wow, you know... 1203 01:25:56,485 --> 01:26:01,239 At the risk of embarrassing you, you're the reason I became a photographer. 1204 01:26:02,449 --> 01:26:04,618 Why would that embarrass me? 1205 01:26:05,118 --> 01:26:06,703 Marie, come here. 1206 01:26:09,956 --> 01:26:13,043 - This is Benjamin Ryder. - No way. 1207 01:26:13,126 --> 01:26:14,378 Yeah, I'm afraid so. 1208 01:26:14,461 --> 01:26:16,838 A bunch of us were talking about your Afghan series. 1209 01:26:16,922 --> 01:26:20,467 Can you believe they're stopping it? You must've been pretty pissed. 1210 01:26:20,592 --> 01:26:23,720 No, not really. A little sentimental, I guess, but... 1211 01:26:24,554 --> 01:26:26,890 just a matter of time, you know. 1212 01:26:26,973 --> 01:26:29,267 You know. Oh, geez. 1213 01:26:29,351 --> 01:26:32,979 We're all so... so frightened by time, 1214 01:26:33,063 --> 01:26:35,482 and the way it moves on, the way things disappear. 1215 01:26:35,607 --> 01:26:37,192 That's why we're photographers. 1216 01:26:38,360 --> 01:26:40,821 We're preservationists by nature. 1217 01:26:41,488 --> 01:26:43,699 We take pictures to stop time, 1218 01:26:45,117 --> 01:26:47,411 to commit moments to eternity. 1219 01:26:49,913 --> 01:26:52,541 Human nature made tangible. 1220 01:26:54,918 --> 01:26:58,046 About as good a definition of art as any, I guess. 1221 01:26:58,130 --> 01:27:01,758 Ben. Rick Ross. We were in Grenada together. 1222 01:27:01,967 --> 01:27:04,553 - We were shooting for Reuters. - Oh, my God. 1223 01:27:06,096 --> 01:27:08,974 - Good to see you. - Good to see you too. 1224 01:27:09,057 --> 01:27:11,518 Ben, do you mind if I get a picture with you? 1225 01:27:11,643 --> 01:27:14,271 Would it matter if I did? I don't know. 1226 01:27:14,396 --> 01:27:16,398 Sure. That's okay. 1227 01:27:20,026 --> 01:27:21,653 - Aw, that's great. - There you go. 1228 01:27:21,737 --> 01:27:24,239 - Thank you. - You all be well now. 1229 01:27:24,322 --> 01:27:26,283 - You too, Ben. - Good to see you. 1230 01:27:28,744 --> 01:27:32,038 (water running in distance) 1231 01:27:42,966 --> 01:27:44,968 (water stops) 1232 01:28:00,567 --> 01:28:02,194 Do you hear that? 1233 01:28:07,199 --> 01:28:09,159 (Matt) Hmm. All right. 1234 01:28:10,786 --> 01:28:13,371 What should we do this evening? Huh? 1235 01:28:14,664 --> 01:28:18,627 We could go see what Parsons, Kansas has in the way of nightlife. 1236 01:28:20,128 --> 01:28:21,755 I could actually eat again. 1237 01:28:23,256 --> 01:28:26,843 Don't know if they have room service here. Should we get a pizza? 1238 01:28:27,552 --> 01:28:29,679 Go to a restaurant? Order in? 1239 01:28:30,347 --> 01:28:32,641 Hello? Any thoughts on the matter? 1240 01:28:55,622 --> 01:28:56,915 (whispers) Okay, Dad. 1241 01:28:58,708 --> 01:28:59,751 Okay. 1242 01:29:08,802 --> 01:29:13,807 (guitar starts) 1243 01:29:18,895 --> 01:29:24,776 ♪ I've watched you go through changes That no man should face alone ♪ 1244 01:29:25,861 --> 01:29:30,866 ♪ Take to heel or tame the horse The choice is still your own ♪ 1245 01:29:32,200 --> 01:29:37,914 ♪ But arm yourself against the pain A wounded bird can give ♪ 1246 01:29:38,957 --> 01:29:44,796 ♪ And in the end remember It's with you you have to live ♪ 1247 01:29:45,380 --> 01:29:51,052 ♪ And in the end remember It's with you you have to live ♪ 1248 01:29:51,428 --> 01:29:54,389 (shutters clicking) 1249 01:29:56,558 --> 01:30:02,522 ♪ Stand your ground I think you've got The guts it takes to win ♪ 1250 01:30:03,148 --> 01:30:08,904 ♪ But you must learn to turn the key Before she'll let you in ♪ 1251 01:30:10,071 --> 01:30:15,744 ♪ And understand the problems Of the girl you want so near ♪ 1252 01:30:15,994 --> 01:30:22,542 ♪ Or you'll wear the coat of questions `Til the answer hat is here ♪ 1253 01:30:22,959 --> 01:30:28,882 ♪ You'll wear the coat of questions `Til the answer hat is here ♪ 1254 01:30:43,271 --> 01:30:44,814 - Hey. - (Larry) Hey. 1255 01:30:48,735 --> 01:30:50,612 I'm sorry about Ben, Matt. 1256 01:30:54,616 --> 01:30:57,535 I've been on the phone with the medical examiner's office, 1257 01:30:57,619 --> 01:30:59,621 tryin' to get the body released. 1258 01:31:00,538 --> 01:31:02,832 Should be good to go shortly. 1259 01:31:04,334 --> 01:31:06,169 - Thanks, Larry. - Mr. Ryder. 1260 01:31:07,337 --> 01:31:09,214 Dwayne from Dwayne's Photo. 1261 01:31:09,297 --> 01:31:11,633 Yes. Hi. I remember you. 1262 01:31:12,092 --> 01:31:14,761 Uh, this is Larry Holdt. 1263 01:31:15,845 --> 01:31:17,222 - Sure. - Ben's manager. 1264 01:31:17,514 --> 01:31:21,726 I was... very saddened to hear about your father. 1265 01:31:22,811 --> 01:31:25,271 I wanted to deliver these personally. 1266 01:31:25,939 --> 01:31:28,817 I know he was very protective of his work. 1267 01:31:30,485 --> 01:31:33,905 Thank you. Yeah. My dad would have appreciated it. 1268 01:31:34,614 --> 01:31:37,117 Outside a roll I shot myself, 1269 01:31:37,200 --> 01:31:41,454 these are the last rolls of Kodachrome film ever to be developed. 1270 01:31:41,955 --> 01:31:45,500 I think he would have liked the symmetry. 1271 01:31:47,752 --> 01:31:48,837 Yeah. 1272 01:31:49,546 --> 01:31:51,131 Take care. 1273 01:31:51,631 --> 01:31:52,924 You too, Dwayne. 1274 01:31:59,931 --> 01:32:01,516 - Here you go. - (Larry) Oh, no. 1275 01:32:02,642 --> 01:32:04,561 Ben was very direct about it. 1276 01:32:05,520 --> 01:32:07,814 He said you'd curate the show. 1277 01:32:10,608 --> 01:32:13,445 I don't know anything about photography. Why would he do that? 1278 01:32:13,570 --> 01:32:17,657 I learned a long time ago never to ask why where Ben was concerned. 1279 01:32:19,868 --> 01:32:21,995 (phone vibrating) 1280 01:32:23,371 --> 01:32:24,664 Hold on. 1281 01:32:27,125 --> 01:32:28,251 Larry Holdt. 1282 01:32:32,672 --> 01:32:38,511 (woman on PA) Now boarding zone three for Flight 164 to LaGuardia Airport. 1283 01:32:39,054 --> 01:32:41,431 (phone ringing) 1284 01:32:41,723 --> 01:32:45,310 Hi. It's Zooey. I'm not here. Please leave me a message. 1285 01:32:45,810 --> 01:32:48,354 (Matt) Hi. It's me again. 1286 01:32:50,440 --> 01:32:52,192 It's hard just talking. 1287 01:32:54,235 --> 01:32:56,780 I've been thinking about you a lot. Um... 1288 01:33:00,325 --> 01:33:03,119 I don't know. I've just been realizing 1289 01:33:03,203 --> 01:33:06,498 I've given up on so much stuff in my life. 1290 01:33:08,416 --> 01:33:09,918 Playin' music and... 1291 01:33:11,002 --> 01:33:12,337 my marriage. 1292 01:33:14,047 --> 01:33:15,131 Ben. 1293 01:33:17,050 --> 01:33:21,262 I'm tired of doing it. I don't want to do it anymore, and I'm not gonna. And... 1294 01:33:22,222 --> 01:33:24,140 Well, I want you to be... 1295 01:33:26,309 --> 01:33:29,187 I'd love for you to be one of the things I don't give up on. 1296 01:33:33,441 --> 01:33:35,151 All right, I'll hang up now. 1297 01:33:38,738 --> 01:33:40,949 Okay. Bye. 1298 01:33:58,800 --> 01:34:01,177 (taps bass pedal, cymbal pedal) 1299 01:34:18,486 --> 01:34:23,616 (rock music starts) 1300 01:34:53,855 --> 01:34:55,857 (music fades) 1301 01:35:25,720 --> 01:35:28,598 Let's see what all the buzz is about, Ben. 1302 01:36:03,132 --> 01:36:04,842 (slide projector clicks) 1303 01:36:12,767 --> 01:36:14,644 (slide projector clicks) 1304 01:37:35,266 --> 01:37:37,977 Hey. Hey. 1305 01:37:41,356 --> 01:37:42,732 Hey. 1306 01:37:46,152 --> 01:37:48,446 How'd you know I'd be here? 1307 01:37:50,239 --> 01:37:51,324 Larry. 1308 01:37:52,742 --> 01:37:54,452 - Oh. - Yeah. 1309 01:37:54,535 --> 01:37:56,996 I guess the guy really does know everything, huh? 1310 01:37:57,080 --> 01:37:58,581 Yeah. 1311 01:38:00,416 --> 01:38:02,418 (slide projector clicks) 1312 01:38:04,837 --> 01:38:06,506 Are they all like that? 1313 01:38:11,594 --> 01:38:14,222 Yeah. (soft chuckle) 1314 01:38:19,227 --> 01:38:20,978 Do you want company? 1315 01:38:23,314 --> 01:38:24,440 Yeah. 1316 01:38:33,866 --> 01:38:36,035 (soft chuckle) 1317 01:38:36,202 --> 01:38:37,995 (slide projector clicks) 1318 01:38:41,541 --> 01:38:43,459 (clicking continues) 1319 01:38:46,295 --> 01:38:48,297 (music starts) 1320 01:41:32,628 --> 01:41:35,423 (music fades) 1321 01:41:38,676 --> 01:41:40,678 (light rock starts) 1322 01:41:44,890 --> 01:41:50,479 (vocalizing) 1323 01:42:06,829 --> 01:42:12,209 ♪ I had an idea ♪ 1324 01:42:12,293 --> 01:42:19,216 ♪ I kept my mouth shut I didn't like it at all ♪ 1325 01:42:20,885 --> 01:42:25,931 ♪ When I called you sweetheart ♪ 1326 01:42:26,015 --> 01:42:31,812 ♪ I said your name first Over your shoulder ♪ 1327 01:42:31,896 --> 01:42:36,317 (vocalizing) 1328 01:42:36,400 --> 01:42:42,365 ♪ Say your last hallelujah ♪ 1329 01:42:42,740 --> 01:42:48,954 ♪ Fight with the great illusion ♪ 1330 01:42:49,121 --> 01:42:51,874 ♪ Wake up ♪ 1331 01:42:51,957 --> 01:42:57,171 ♪ Come on, take me home ♪ 1332 01:42:59,131 --> 01:43:04,470 ♪ I don't wanna wait anymore ♪ 1333 01:43:04,762 --> 01:43:09,350 ♪ For you ♪ 1334 01:43:11,852 --> 01:43:16,941 ♪ I don't want to fight anymore ♪ 1335 01:43:17,274 --> 01:43:21,195 ♪ Come on, come on and take me home ♪ 1336 01:43:23,698 --> 01:43:28,828 ♪ I heard time had left you ♪ 1337 01:43:28,911 --> 01:43:31,455 ♪ I was in shadows ♪ 1338 01:43:32,081 --> 01:43:36,419 ♪ I didn't know it at all ♪ 1339 01:43:37,753 --> 01:43:42,800 ♪ Pay your horse and rider ♪ 1340 01:43:42,967 --> 01:43:45,428 ♪ In the white city ♪ 1341 01:43:46,011 --> 01:43:49,724 ♪ Saw it in pictures of you ♪ 1342 01:43:50,141 --> 01:43:53,310 (vocalizing) 1343 01:43:53,436 --> 01:43:59,400 ♪ Say your last hallelujah ♪ 1344 01:43:59,483 --> 01:44:05,740 ♪ Fight with the great illusion ♪ 1345 01:44:05,823 --> 01:44:08,701 ♪ Wake up ♪ 1346 01:44:08,784 --> 01:44:13,622 ♪ Come on, take me home ♪ 1347 01:44:15,040 --> 01:44:21,130 ♪ Say your last hallelujah ♪ 1348 01:44:21,213 --> 01:44:27,678 ♪ Fight with the great illusion ♪ 1349 01:44:27,762 --> 01:44:30,723 ♪ Wake up ♪ 1350 01:44:30,806 --> 01:44:36,187 ♪ Come on, take me home ♪